Self Care as CHANGE – Part 3 of How To Be Gifted

Soooo… time to CHANGE boys and girls, long overdue don’t you think – everything to gain and ‘NOTHING’ to lose…

See TODAY, you have your very own ‘To Be, or Not To Be’ moment… You can just go on with a simple understanding of your Spiritual Self and how to SLOWLY GET BETTER I gave you in Parts 1 & 2 of this series of ‘How To Be Gifted’, to simply ‘CHIP AWAY’ AT YOUR DEVELOPMENT…

OR….

YOU can Face the truth about yourself and ‘Take up Arms Against a Sea of Troubles’ (Sorry, Will) and CHANGE NOW. See, Today, YOU have the OPTION to choose RAPID DEVELOPMENT – TO FIGHT ACTIVELY AGAINST THE ‘NOTHING’ YOU ARE… AND CHANGE, FAST BY BEING NOBODY WHENEVER YOU CHOOSE – TO ‘DISAPPEAR’ YOUR OLD, FAKE SELF SO THE ‘WIND’ THAT NORMALLY TRIGGERS YOU PASSES STRAIGHT THROUGH WITHOUT ANY EFFECT.

But don’t despair just yet, see this is NOT ABOUT CHARACTER CHANGE AS YOU CURRENTLY UNDERSTAND IT – STOPPING SOME BAD HABITS AND TRYING SOME NEW ONES UNTIL YOU CAN JUSTIFY GIVING UP. No.. this is about BYPASSING THE ITERATIVE LITTLE FIX APPROACH TO CHANGE BY CHOOSING ‘TO BE SOMEONE ELSE’ FOR A TIME, DOING SOME PROPER ‘ZEN’ IN A RELATABLE WAY,  my old 4th-way school of choice – THE SCHOOL OF ‘RAPID DEVELOPMENT’.

YOU INTERESTED…? Really, you are not just messing with me..?

SEE, TODAY YOU CAN CHOOSE TO FIND OUT ‘WHAT’ YOU WHERE, BEFORE THEY STARTED TELLING YOU ‘WHO’ YOU ARE, BY TELLING YOU WHAT TO DO.

Yes, we need to find out if YOU HAVE ANY ‘SPIRIT’ LEFT, OR ARE YOU JUST YOUR ‘CONDITIONING’ NOW, JUST A STEREOTYPE OF YOUR ‘KIND’.

ARE YOU JUST WHAT ‘THEY’ HAVE MADE YOU INTO, ‘A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL’, like 99% of the world, because frankly my dear, that’s SHIT – ONE MORE OF THE MILLIONS OF CHUBBY LITTLE BITCHES SPENDING YOUR DAY TRYING TO BE (…well at least FEEL) CLEVER. See you need to STOP THAT SHIT, AND FACE YOURSELF IN THE ‘NOW’, IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE AND ‘GROW THE FUCK UP’.

See, to CHANGE FAST you need to GROW UP FAST – YOU KNOW NOTHING, YOU DO NOTHING, because YOU ARE NOTHING – YOU’RE SHIT.

However, I’m NOT TALKING ‘THEORETICALLY’ HERE, no… I’M NOT just TALKING ABOUT THE HUMAN CONDITION, ABOUT DIFFERENT TYPES AND DIFFERENT NATURES OF ANIMAL – I’M TALKING ABOUT LITTLE OLD YOU, SITTING THERE READING THIS IN THE HERE AND NOW, PARTICULARLY THE ONES I KNOW. SEE TODAY THIS IS ALL ABOUT ‘YOU’ AS A PERSON, I’m just channeling this stuff FOR YOU, kind of a ‘busman’s holiday’, really, AS THIS ONE IS ‘NOT PERSONAL’, for me at least…

So, this information has to be RELATABLE TO YOU, YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS STUFF IN YOURSELF IF IT IS GOING TO WORK – YOU NEED TO MAKE IT REAL, TO SEE THE ‘LIVE’ EXAMPLES OF WHAT I’M SAYING IN YOURSELF, SO YOU UNDERSTAND ‘WHY YOU ARE SHIT’, AND WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO TO FIX THAT. THEN YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE TOWARD CHARACTER CHANGE, INDEED CHANGE THE WHOLE CONCEPT ‘OF YOURSELF’, SO IT IS OF SOME PRACTICAL USE TO YOUR DEVELOPMENT.

So lets be REAL CLEAR UP FRONT – THIS POST IS A THOUGHT MACHINE, IT IS DESIGNED TO START THE PROCESS OF CHARACTER CHANGE IN YOU, ALL BY ITSELF, AUTOMATICALLY: 

FOR ANYTHING TO BE RELATABLE TO YOU IT MUST CAUSE AN ‘EMOTIONAL REACTION’ IN YOU DURING THE PROCESS OF COMPREHENSION, READING AND UNDERSTANDING THE WORDS, SO IT BECOMES ‘KNOWLEDGE’, AND IN THAT WAY ‘CHANGES YOU’, ALL BY ITSELF.

HOWEVER THIS REACTION OCCURS AND IS FELT BY YOU, FROM JUST THAT SUBTLE CLICKING FEELING, THEN THE AHA MOMENT, ALL THE WAY TO A POWERFUL WAVE OF REALIZATION, YOU MUST FEEL IT, REMEMBER IT, AND CONNECT IT TO MORE AND MORE EXISTING ASPECTS OF YOURSELF.

SEE, AS YOU ARE ABOUT TO ‘SEE’, THE FELT DEPTH OF EMOTION IS EVERYTHING WHEN IT COMES TO RAPID CHARACTER CHANGE, AND THAT CHANGE STARTS WITH ‘REALIZING’ THE TRUTH IN THIS POST ENOUGH TO SEE YOUR UNCONSCIOUS FAKE SELF AS ‘NOT YOU’, BECAUSE IT ACTS INDEPENDENTLY OF CONCIOUS YOU, MAKING YOU DO STUPID, WASTEFUL SHIT AS A ‘CHARACTER CHOICE’.

THIS IS WHY ‘YOU ARE SHIT’.   

See now, IF YOU CAN DO THIS, IF YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER as a concept, YOU CAN BYPASS THE NEED TO FIGHT WITH LOADS OF BIG AND LITTLE HABITUAL ISSUES, BECAUSE YOU WILL SIMPLY ‘DISOWN’ THEM – YOU CAN SIMPLY ‘CHOOSE’ TO BE ARISTOS INSTEAD OF FAKE YOU, BE YOUR ‘NATURAL’ GIFTED CHARACTER.

So, however much I have cycled around this in earlier Posts (TO GET YOU USED TO IT), today you have to FACE THIS IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE FAST:

YOU CAN NOT USE YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER TO DEVELOP YOURSELF FAST, IT’S SHIT BECAUSE ITS TOTALLY FAKE.

SEE YOUR ‘FAKE YOU’, YOUR DOMINANT ‘UNCONSCIOUS CHARACTER’ HOLDS YOU AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, WHERE ‘YOUR CONCIOUS’ ‘REALITY SHELL’ IS VERY NARROW, VERY SHALLOW, AND VERY OUT OF FOCUS, BECAUSE IT IS VERY SMALL.

SEE, ‘YOU’ ARE FUCKING ‘GIFTED’, YOU SHOULD SEE, HEAR, FEEL, AND THINK FAR MORE AND ON A FAR GRANDER SCALE THAN YOU CURRENTLY DO, YET 90% OF WHAT IS HAPPENING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU, EVEN TOO YOU IS MISSED, BECAUSE YOU ARE STUCK ‘BEING AN ANIMAL’.

IT IS LIKE YOU ARE SITTING WAY AT THE BACK OF A HUGE STADIUM WATCHING A FOOTBALL GAME IN THE PITCH BLACK WITH A SMALL TORCH, DESPERATELY TRYING TO SEE WHERE THE FUCKING BALL HAS GONE, SO YOU JUST GLIMPSE REALITY, YOUR LIFE IS ONE, LONG GUESSING GAME…

SO WE NEED TO SEE IF THERE IS ANY POWER LEFT IN YOUR FLOODLIGHTS, CAUSE IF THERE IS THEN YOU CAN CHANGE FAST, AND CHANGE FOREVER, LEAVE YOUR OLD LIFE BEHIND FOR GOOD, AND GOOD RIDDANCE…

So today, YOU have to DO this, by FIRST UNDERSTANDING IT AND THEN ACTIVELY CHOOSING TO FOLLOW THE DISCIPLINE OF CHARACTER CHANGE AS A CONCEPT BECAUSE ‘YOU WANT TO’: ALL RADICAL CHANGE IS PREDICATED BY EMPOWERING YOUR ‘CONSCIOUS CHARACTERS’ AWARENESS AND CHOICES, MAKING IT MUCH BIGGER, AND DISEMPOWERING ‘YOUR UNCONSCIOUS, FAKE CHARACTERS’ SELF DESTRUCTIVE PATTERNS, BY MAKING THEM MUCH SMALLER – WE CALL IT SELF RESPECT, AND IT IS A FORCE, IT IS A REAL ‘THING IN ITSELF’, THAT YOU CAN FEEL.

RADICAL CHANGE MEANS YOUR CONSCIOUS YOU MUST ‘OVERPOWER’ YOUR FAKE SELF, WHICH IS NOT YOU, IN THE MOMENT OF THOUGHT.

SO IT MUST ‘FEEL BETTER’ TO DO WHAT CONSCIOUS YOU WANTS TO DO AGAINST WHAT FAKE YOU HAS ALWAYS GOT YOU TO DO IN THE PAST, THE EMOTION ON THE SIDE OF THE REAL YOU MUST BE ‘BIGGER’ THAN THE TRIVIAL, MOMENTARY FEELING ON THE UNCONSCIOUS, FAKE SIDE.

GET THIS – YOUR CHOICES IN THE MOMENT MUST BE MORE IMPORTANT EMOTIONALLY THAN FOLLOWING YOUR HISTORICAL OPINION/DESIRE/HABIT, IN WHATEVER CORRUPTED FORM IT COMES INTO YOUR MIND IN THAT SAME MOMENT.

THE ONLY WAY TO DO THIS IS TO ‘DECIDE’ TO PRACTISE BEING ‘NOBODY’ AGAIN, TO HAVE NO OPINIONS, NO NEEDS, NO FEARS, NO DESIRES, NO PREFERENCES, WHICH ARE ALL DRIVEN BY FAKE YOU, SO YOU CAN THEN ‘DECIDE’ TO BE ARISTOS ON GENERAL PRINCIPLE…

WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND THIS, THAT YOUR CHARACTER IS FAKE, THAT YOU ACTUALLY ARE ‘NOBODY’ RIGHT NOW, THAT WHAT YOU THINK YOU ARE IS A MASSIVE COLLECTION OF CONDITIONED PATTERNS THAT ARE SUCKING THE LIFE OUT OF YOU, THEN IT IS A SIMPLE MATTER TO ‘DECIDE TO CHANGE’, AND BE BETTER, BY ACTUALLY ACCEPTING AND BEING THE NOBODY YOU ARE IN THAT MOMENT. ALL I NEED TO DO IS BREAK YOUR IDENTIFICATION, YOUR ATTACHMENT TO YOUR FAKE SELF, WHICH IS ONLY DIFFICULT RIGHT NOW CAUSE YOUR PATTERNS WILL FIGHT IT, BUT YOUR NOBODY WON’T.

BUT IT IS NOT ENOUGH TO JUST TO MAKE THAT DECISION CONCEPTUALLY AS NOTHING CHANGES, SO YOU WILL KNOW THIS BUT GO ON BEING IT, AS WANTING TO CHANGE AND BEING ABLE TO CHANGE ARE DIFFERENT THINGS. ACTUAL CHANGE, PERMANENT CHANGE, COMES FROM YOUR ‘PRESENCE’, AS THAT IS STRONG ENOUGH TO STOP FAKE YOU, STRONG ENOUGH TO WASH THE ‘STICKY SHIT OF FAKE YOU’, OFF YOU. BEING NOBODY IS HOW YOU FIND YOUR PRESENCE, THE FEELING OF IT, IT IS AN ENABLER, NOT AN END IN ITSELF – YOU MUST USE ‘NOBODY’ TO BE ‘SOMEBODY’.

Now it is important not to get too religious about this,

YOU ARE NOT ‘POSSESSED BY A DEMON’, YOU ARE ‘POSSESSED BY A FERAL DOG’ – AN ANIMAL, YOUR ANIMAL.

MUCH AS IT CAN FEEL LIKE POSSESSION AT CERTAIN LEVELS OF DEVELOPMENT, YOUR FAKE SELF IS NOT THAT COMPLICATED, JUST VERY PERSISTENT.

YOUR FAKE SELF IS BUILT ON TOP OF YOUR ANIMAL IN LAYERS, BUT ALL BASED ON YOUR CHILDHOOD FEARS AND PLEASURES AS A STRUCTURED, RIGID SET OF ‘CHARACTER PATTERNS’.

YES, YOU TAUGHT YOURSELF YOUR CHARACTER, IT WAS A CHOICE, SO NOW YOU NEED TO DECIDE TO CHANGE IT.

UNDERSTAND – YOUR FAKE CHARACTER STARTED AS AN EGOIC SELF-DEFENSE MECHANISM IN CHILDHOOD, THAT IS WHAT ‘YOU’ CREATED IT FOR, SO ITS FIRST REACTION IS TO ‘FIGHT BACK’ AS THAT IS ITS REASON TO EXIST. BUT NOW YOU NEED PROTECTING FROM IT, AS YOU HAVE NOT ONLY LOST CONTROL OF IT, YOU HAVE LOST ANY OVERSIGHT OF WHAT THE FUCK IT IS DOING, LET ALONE WHY IT IS DOING IT – YOU HAVE REPRESSED IT. YOUR SECURITY GUARDS NOW OWN YOU, AND OVERALL YOU THINK THAT IS A GOOD THING, BUT IT IS NOT, BECAUSE YOUR SECURITY GUARDS HAVE ‘GONE NATIVE’, AND SEEK ONLY TO SERVE ‘THEMSELVES’, NOT YOU…

ACCEPT THIS NOW AND MUCH OF WHAT FOLLOWS BECOMES ‘OBVIOUS’… The only reason your Fake Character is unconscious is that:

YOU HAVE REPRESSED YOUR FAKE CHARACTER, which is possible only because of THE MENTAL DECLINE OF YOUR CONSCIOUS MIND THROUGH LACK OF CORRECT USE from childhood – YOU ARE ALREADY MUCH LESS THAN YOU ONCE WERE.

IF YOUR LIVED LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS WAS STILL WHAT YOU HAD IN CHILDHOOD THEN IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE TO REPRESS ANYTHING, EVERYTHING WOULD BE FORCED ON YOU, AND YOU WOULD SEE YOUR FAKE SELF FOR REAL, EVERY SECOND.

SO WE CAN’T JUST FIX YOUR FAKE CHARACTER TODAY, WE HAVE TO FIX YOUR PATHETIC LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS TOO, OTHERWISE YOU WILL SIMPLY REGRESS AFTER EVERY SUCCESS, THE CURSE OF ITERATIVE CHANGE.

See your lived experience of CONSCIOUSNESS, SPECIFICALLY ITS ‘SIZE’ HAS BEEN GETTING SMALLER AND SMALLER SINCE you WHERE A KID THROUGH BOTH NEGLECT AND ABUSE OF YOUR GIFT. SEE, THE POWER NEEDED TO FUEL YOUR CONSCIOUS awareness HAS BEEN TAKEN BY YOUR subconsciousness, SO YOUR ‘CONSCIOUS YOU’ IS TINY, FLAKEY, DREAM LIKE THING, AND YOUR ‘UNCONCIOUS FAKE YOU’ IS fucking HUGE AND TOTALLY DOMINANT. It’s supposed to be the other way round, IF YOU ARE GIFTED…

It has all happened organically BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN TAUGHT TO BE LAZY BY SOCIETY – YOUR LIFE IS LIVED BY YOUR UNCONCIOUS PATTERNS, WHICH YOU EXPERIENCE AS A DAYDREAM, YOUR SELF CONSCIOUS MIND IS ACTUALLY ASLEEP outside of your peak experiences, your trials, your danger, your excitements. Even worse, ONCE THEY HAVE ‘GONE’, LOST CONTROL OF THEMSELVES THIS WAY, MANY GIFTED NEVER WAKE UP FROM THE DREAM LIKE STATE UNTIL THE MOMENTS BEFORE, OR EVEN DURING THE PROCESS OF THEIR DEATH, much as it can and often is interrupted in the twilight world between sleep and waking, where REAL YOU IS CLOSEST TO YOU AND SO CAN OFTEN COMMINCATE DIRECTLY WHEN YOU ARE VERY ‘STILL’. See Real You exists at the start as AN emotionally AROUSED STATE, but normally your patterns overwhelm it, pervert it, SO YOU NEVER SEE IT.

The problem is that THIS DAYDREAM STATE HAS BECOME NORMAL FOR YOU – YOU DON’T REMEMBER YOUR CHILDHOOD STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS, when the GIFTED ARE INCREDIBLY, EVEN PAINFULLY SELF-CONSCIOUS, AND THE HIGHLY GIFTED ARE NATURALLY HONORABLE VIA THEIR OVERWHELMING CONSCIENCE LEVEL EMOTIONS. All that has gone for you now, indeed as a Gifted Hedonist you have BECOME DISHONORABLE AS A PERSONALITY TYPE, BECAUSE YOU LIE TO YOUR SELF, you have repressed those REAL EMOTIONS CAUSE THEY HURT YOU, SO YOU SETUP ALL THESE LITTLE PATTERNS TO PROTECT YOU FROM REAL YOU, JUST TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF, IN SOME SECRET, CLEVER LITTLE WAY. Yes, many highly GIFTED BECOME THE OPPOSITE OF THEIR REAL SELF, they become the worst of themselves…

Now, the Highly Gifted will say ‘of course I repressed them, that is PART OF GROWING UP, THERE IS NO FUCKING WAY I COULD BE LIKE THAT NOW, ITS DANGEROUS TO ACT ON THEM LIKE A CHILD!’ And you are wrong, you ARE NOT MEANT TO ACT ON THESE EMOTIONS WITH YOUR UNSCHOOLED LEVEL OF INTERPRETATION AROUND ANIMALS, THESE EMOTIONS ARE A FORM OF COMMUNICATION, but no one ever explained that too you, so you repressed them. YOU RAN FROM YOURSELF, FROM YOUR NATURAL RANK, YOUR LEVEL, AND LOWERED YOURSELF TO FIT IN WITH PEOPLE WHO DON’T UNDERSTAND YOU, BECAUSE THEY DON’T HAVE THESE EMOTIONS. Worse, if you had a difficult family background then these emotions would of been highly contradictory, VERY CONFUSING, AS THE WAY THEY FELT WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN THE SAME WAY YOU FELT, SO YOU WOULD HAVE DOUBTED YOURSELF, AND THOUGHT YOU WERE STUPID, WRONG. You are not, you are just unschooled BUT HIGH SPIRITED, WHICH IS YOUR GIFT…

Yes, THE CONNECTION, LOYALTY, HONESTY, RESPECT, EMPATHY and BRAVERY, HOWEVER MISINTERPRETTED, THAT WAS ONCE FORCED ON YOU HAS BEEN REPLACED BY THE CUNNING mentality of a VILLAIN, WHERE YOUR FIRST INSTINCT IS TO LIE AND CONCEAL YOURSELF CAUSE YOU DON’T TRUST YOUR GIFT, and YOU think that is normal, SO NORMAL THAT YOU ARE NOT EVEN AWARE YOU have become this tedious little mess.

So YOUR PASSIONATE LIFE IS LIVED IN SECRET NOW, while putting up A GOOD FRONT FOR THE WORLD, yet behind the scenes, you are little better than a ‘mattress actress’, DRIVEN BY MONEY AND ATTENTION AND THE OVERWHELMING NEED FOR EMOTIONAL SECURITY. EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU COMES BACK TO A FORM OF TRADE-OFF FOR PROTECTION AGAINST THE NATURAL HONOR THAT IS REAL YOU.

ALL YOUR DOMINANT CHILDHOOD PATTERNS ARE MERCENARIES YOU HIRED YEARS AGO TO PROTECT YOU FROM YOUR CONSCIENCE-LEVEL EMOTIONS, SO NOW THEY ‘OWN YOU’, THEY ARE THE ROOT OF YOUR UNCONSCIOUS CHARACTER.

YOU ACTIVELY REPLACED YOUR REAL YOU AS YOUR CHARACTER IN CHILDHOOD, REJECTED ‘HONOR’ FOR ‘SECURITY’, SO NOW YOU ARE GUTLESS AS A DOMINANT PATTERN, WHICH ENABLED THE PROCESS OF YOUR CONDITIONING BY SOCIETY.

FOR MOST THERE IS ONE SPECIFIC MASTER PATTERN, YOUR KEY FEATURE THAT IS A LIE YOU TELL YOURSELF, AND ITS OBVIOUS TO EVERYBODY EXCEPT YOU, AS YOU CAN NEVER SEE IT WITH YOUR CURRENT PATTERNS, SO YOU MUST STOP THEM HIDING IT FROM YOU.

See, as MACHIEVIELI told the Aristocacry of his day in his ‘Mirror for Princes’: MERCENARIES always turn on you in the end, as why bother fighting FOR MONEY when you can simply rob your employer, who is too weak, stupid and gutless to stop you. See your fake character is rooted IN EMOTIONAL DEFENSIVE MECHANISMS, rooted in running away from pain and toward pleasure, so now EVERYTHING YOU DO IS TAINTED BY THAT.

In our modern world it’s unlikely you were even taught how to delay gratification as an unschooled child, let alone go through any of the ancient rights of ‘GROWING UP’, AND LEARNING THE CONCEPT OF ‘HONOR’, SO ESSENTIAL FOR GIFTED CHILDREN IF THEY ARE NOT TO MAKE THE CLASSIC, DRAMATIC WRONG TURNS EARLY IN LIFE. You have been ‘conditioned’ by this, indeed the process of CONDITIONING, TO ACCEPT THE WORLD AS RIGHT, AND YOU ARE WRONG, IS THE ROOT CAUSE OF ALL YOUR PROBLEMS.    

SO YOU MUST UNDERSTAND NOW – YOUR PATTERNS, YOUR FAKE CHARACTER IS SHIT, ITS ALL LOW-QUALITY BULLSHIT, IT IS A HUMILIATION TO BE IT, EVERY DAMN DAY, BY ACCEPTING IT, AND THE WORLD SNEERS AT YOU BECAUSE OF IT.

AT THE END OF THIS POST YOU MUST SEE THIS FOR REAL:

YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE BELOW YOUR NATURAL, SPIRITUAL RANK BECAUSE IT IS EASIER FOR YOU, AND EVERYONE HATES YOU FOR IT INSTINCTIVELY, HOWEVER MUCH YOU TRY AND ENTERTAIN THEM.

YOU MADE THIS CHOICE IN CHILDHOOD BECAUSE YOU GOT HURT, SO YOU STOPPED LISTENING TO YOUR REAL SELF, GAVE UP ON YOUR OWN OPINION AND STARTED TO FIT IN AND PROTECT YOURSELF TO GET ALONG – YOU CHOSE TO START FAKING IT.

BUT YOU ARE NOT ‘THEM’, AND THEY KNOW IT, THEY FEEL IT, AND THAT MAKES THEM VERY NERVOUS, SO THEY WANT TO CONTROL YOU, OWN YOU, WHILE DOUBTING EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, BECAUSE THEY KNOW YOU ARE FAKE, SO YOUR LIFE IS SHIT.

SEE THEY KNOW YOU ARE BETTER THAN THEM – IT FEELS LIKE YOU ARE ‘MOCKING’ THEM FOR BEING NOTHING JUST BY YOUR VERY ‘PRESENCE’, YOU DAMN THEM WITH ‘FAINT PRAISE’ SIMPLY TO GET THROUGH ANOTHER DAY AS EASILY AS POSSIBLE, AND THEY KNOW THAT – THEY KNOW ITS ALL A LIE, ITS JUST CONVIENT FOR YOU TO GO ALONG WITH IT, THEY KNOW THEY DON’T MATTER TO YOU, YOU ARE JUST USING THEM IN SOME WAY.

YOU ARE GIFTED, YOU ARE SPIRITUAL ‘ROYALTY’, BUT YOU REJECT IT BECAUSE YOU ARE SCARED OF IT – YOU RUN FROM YOURSELF LIKE A PUSSY, WHILE YOU THINK THAT IS ‘YOUR NORMAL’, SO ITS OK. ITS NOT, ITS SHIT, YOU ARE FAKE. WORSE YOUR SOCIETY TELLS YOU ITS YOUR RIGHT TO BE SHIT, IT IS ACCEPTABLE TO WANT EVERYTHING TO BE EASY, ITS JUST THAN NO ONE BELIEVES THAT BECAUSE WE CLEARLY LIVE IN A MERITOCRACY, AN ANIMAL KINGDOM, WHERE QUALITY COUNTS, EVEN FAKE QUALITY. 

GET THIS – YOU ‘RUN FROM YOUR QUALITY’, THE BEST OF YOU, SO EVERYONE THINKS YOU ARE SHIT, AND ALWAYS TREATS YOU BADLY, AS YOU DESERVE IT, DON’T YOU…

SO HERE IS THE ANSWER, THE CURE, AS TODAY WE ACCEPT YOUR COWARDICE BY WORKING AROUND IT, SHOWING YOU HOW TO CHANGE WITH IT, PRIVATELY, SAFELY VIA THE RITUAL OF SELF-CARE.

SEE BEING NOBODY IS EASY, AFTER YOU ACCEPT YOUR ENTIRE FAKE CHARACTER IS BUILT ON TOP OF ONE OR MORE LIMITING BELIEF’S YOU PICKED UP IN CHILDHOOD WHEN SOMETHING/SOMEONE HURT YOU BADLY – IT IS THE ROOT OF THE CANCER THAT IS YOUR UNCONSCIOUS CHARACTER.

AND YOU DON’T EVEN NEED TO FIGURE THAT OUT, MUCH AS IT WILL BECOME OBVIOUS LATER, ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS UNDERSTAND YOU ARE FAKE SHIT, AND THEN GET BENEATH THAT SHIT BY FEELING VULNERABLE AGAIN, IN YOUR CHEST, DURING SELF-CARE.

SEE THE QUICKEST WAY TO BE ‘SOMEBODY’ AGAIN, TO BE ‘ARISTOS’, IS TO LEARN HOW TO BE NOBODY FIRST.

ONCE YOU ARE BRAVE ENOUGH TO FEEL VULNERABLE AGAIN, which is what it is to be yourself again, WITHOUT SUFFERING FROM THAT FEELING, THEN YOU CAN TURN OFF YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER AT WILL, AND FEEL THAT AMAZING SENSE OF RELIEF AND POWER THAT EXISTS UNDERNEATH IT, WHILE NOT GIVING A SHIT ABOUT FAKE YOU, ANYMORE, AS YOU KNOW IT NEVER EXISTED IN THE FIRST PLACE. THEN YOU CAN CHANGE, AS THEN YOU ARE FREE TO FIND YOUR PRESENCE, YOUR REAL YOU, YOU THE ARISTOCRAT – WHEN YOU TAKE DOWN YOUR EGO DEFENSES THROUGH FORCED VUNERABILITY, YOUR CONSCIENCE WILL SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN, AND THIS TIME YOU WILL BE WAY BETTER EQUIPPED TO UNDERSTAND HER. 

See WE KNOW YOU ARE ‘TOO PROUD TO BEG AND TOO DUMB TO STEAL’ (Sorry Sting), we get ‘who you are now’, as that is the only way we can help you. Funny that some of those new age Gurus are actually RIGHT (IN A WAY) – THE KEY TO LIFE IS TO CHANGE OFTEN AND RADICALLY BY SIMPLY NOT GIVING A FUCK, it just you have to not give a fuck about what your conditioning is telling you. Who knew? Well…. some of you already DO don’t you, the HIGHLY GIFTED WITH YOUR OVERPOWERING EMOTIONS, you know the point of life is to live for HOW LIFE MAKES YOU FELL, so you have no stable patterns of FAKE CHARACTER ANYWAY. Yes, thats a much better place to start from than those silly bitches who think they know, but it won’t be enough for this sadly – YOU ARE GOING TO NEED TO UNDERSTAND WHY ‘YOU ARE THE WAY YOU ARE’, to accept some discipline, AND STOP ACCEPTING FAKE YOU.

KNOW NOW – THERE ARE MANY, MANY EVERYDAY THINGS YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND ABOUT YOUR ‘GIFTED’ SELF, AND YOU NEED TO FIX THAT IF YOU WANT THE HAPPY, POWERFUL GIFTED LIFE, RATHER THAN THE LIFE OF AN ANIMAL, A RAT, WHO THINKS THIER HIDY HOLE AND THE 2 FIELDS AROUND IS THE FUCKING UNIVERSE. SEE THAT ‘LACK OF UNDERSTANDING’ OF OFTEN QUITE BASIC THINGS WILL EVENTUALLY KILL YOU, AND YOU WILL BE QUITE BROKEN AND DESPERATE WAY BEFORE THAT DAY COMES SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT TO ‘DO WITH YOURSELF’, ALL OF THIS ‘OTHER’ STUFF ABOUT YOU, THAT REMAINS UNEXPLAINED…  

See SOME of this ‘OTHER’ stuff IN YOUR CHARACTER is what folks like me call ‘SYMPTOMATIC’ OF YOUR GIFT, OF ‘WHAT YOU ARE’, so is actually very useful, once you actually know what it is, that is. So it is far better to address what is BEHIND THOSE SYMPTOMS, RATHER THAN SPEND YEARS PISSING ABOUT TRYING TO STOP THESE SYMPTOMS FROM ACTING OUT in SELF DESTRUCTIVE WAYS, HABITS YOU HAVE SIMPLY FALLEN INTO IN ORDER TO COPE WITH THIS OTHER STUFF which comes from GIFT. See trying to GIVE THINGS UP AS A ONE OFF ‘SACRIFICE’ OF HABITS FOR NO APPARENT REASON CAN BE VERY CHALLENGING TO MAINTAIN, as they are DIRECTLY LINKED TO YOUR GIFT, SO HAVE BECOME DOMINANT underlying patterns – YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ELSE WITH WHATS BEHIND THEM, YOUR SPIRIT, IN ORDER TO GIVE SELF-DESTRUCTIVE HABITS UP.

However, once you UNDERSTAND THIS, you see the reason for this OTHER part of you, ONCE YOU KNOW WHY, THEN YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT THE WORD ‘SACRIFICE’ ACTUALLY MEANS – THE REPURPOSING OF AN EXISTING ELEMENT OF YOURSELF IN A NEW AND MORE PRODUCTIVE WAY – YOU TAKE SOMETHING SPECIAL YOU CURRENTLY WASTE AND ‘INVEST IT IN THE FUTURE’ YOU, WHERE, SOMETIME LATER YOU CAN DO THE SAME ‘TYPE OF THINGS’ YOU DO NOW, JUST ON A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL OF EXISTENCE TO A MUCH HIGHER STANDARD, BECAUSE YOU HAVE ‘SACRIFICED’ the old pattern THAT WAS HOLDING YOU DOWN, KEEPING YOU AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL. Looking back you will see it was NO SACRIFICE AT ALL (Sorry Elton), it just felt like that, and HENCE THE VAST MAJORITY OF GIFTED CAN NEVER DO RAPID DEVELOPMENT, its just ‘too much to lose’ WITHOUT ANYTHING TO REPLACE IT.

Now we don’t focus on SACRIFICE on the Left hand path for obvious reasons, and for slow iterative development you don’t need to know it, much as it still happens its very organic, happening when its obvious that some old part of you is holding you back and now even feels wrong, SO ITS EASY. The reason I am explaining this today, however briefly, is that RAPID DEVELOPMENT REQUIRES A CORRECT UNDERSTANDING OF SACRIFICE IF YOU ARE TOO VALUE IT CORRECTLY – YOU MUST know CONCEPTUALLY THAT YOU ARE TRADING UP A SELF DESTRUCTIVE HABIT FOR A MUCH MORE PROFITABLE ONE, BASED ON EXACTLY THE SAME ELEMENT OF YOUR GIFT. This Sacrifice is CLEANSING IN NATURE, WHERE THE OLD WASTE OF THIS ASPECT OF YOUR GIFT IS REPLACED BY A DIFFERENT HABIT THAT USES THE SAME ASPECT, EVEN THE SAME FEELING TO MUCH GREATER BENEFIT – IN THIS WAY YOU DON’T EVEN FEEL ‘THE SUFFERING’, YOU FEEL THE DEATH OF ANOTHER PART OF ‘FAKE YOU’.

It is therefore MUCH easier to bear the initial ‘suffering’ associated with that CHANGE, AS IT NO LONGER SEEN AS A LOSS OF SOME ELEMENT OF YOUR CHARACTER, IT IS SEEN AS AN IMPROVEMENT, AND IN TIME FEELS WAY FUCKING BETTER THAN WHAT YOU USED TO DO WITH ‘IT’. The best example of this for Gifted Hedonists is SEX, with the domination of the HIGH LIBIDO element of your gift causing the unschooled to mindless throw themselves away through continually chasing short, pointless ‘hammer and nail’ sex, Animal Sex, tension sex, hormonal sex, that is designed to make babies by giving a chunk of your gift to this process, WHICH YOU THEN LOSE FOREVER. In reality, all SEX for the Gifted should be Energy Sex at a minimum, which is both refreshing and cleans you, BEFORE BECOMING SPIRITUAL, ‘CONNECTION’ SEX, WHICH BUILDS YOU UP VIA CATHARSIS and is frankly way, WAY longer, stronger and much more FUN, AS IT LEADS TO ACTUAL POWER, rather than weakness, rather than being spent, than draining you like ‘bloodbag’, which is where many of your mental health issues come from…

See, that is what your GIFT is actually trying to get you to DO, via your high Libido – TO DEVELOP YOURSELF AND CHANGE. BUT YOU HAVE ACTUALLY BEEN TAUGHT BY SOCIETY TO WASTE IT, like an animal – YOU HAVE SIMPLY FOLLOWED EVERYONE AROUND YOU, so you don’t have a fucking clue how to actually have sex in any other way than to get rid of the pressure to have sex, like a fool. Worse you may have already taken one of the many side roads into Fetishized animal sex, into dangerous sex, into power-crazed sex, into attention sex, into humiliation and constraint, AS YOU ARE SO JADED NOW, YOU ARE FOREVER NEEDING SOMETHING ELSE, SOMETHING MORE AND MORE RADICAL TO FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL.

Having said all of that please do ‘take heart’ – all HIGHLY Gifted Folks have a tendency to live their secret little lives as a ‘FORM OF ART’, SO HOWEVER MUCH YOU NEED TO ‘LEVEL UP’ AND IMPROVE THAT, CHANGE THAT ARTFORM IN ORDER TO BECOME WHAT YOU ALREADY ARE ‘IN SPIRIT’, it is wise to recognize that EVEN WHAT YOU ARE CURRENTLY DOING IS PART OF IT, PART OF THE PROCESS ‘TO GET YOU HERE’. Yes, your current ART may be self-destructive IN TERMS OF YOUR GIFT, BUT AT LEAST YOU UNDERSTAND THE BASICS, ITS JUST AT YOUR ANIMAL LEVEL THIS SHIT IS ALL YOU KNOW, so you are simply stuck in the starting gates, BEING AN ANIMAL – THERE IS NO SHAME IN THAT AT THE START, when you don’t know shit.

See, ONE OF THE BIG DIFFERENCES BETWEEN ITERATIVE CHANGE AND RADICAL CHANGE IS THAT ITS ONLY WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR GIFT THAT REALLY MATTERS, YOUR SECRET LIFE, what you do when you are sleepwalking through life and BEING GOOD IS TOTALLY IRRELEVANT TO YOUR DEVELOPMENT. The world is full of Gifted hedonists who believe they are stable, good, and happy because 90% of the time they are NORMAL, whilst pissing themselves, their GIFT away FOR THE OTHER 10% IN SOME SECRET WAY. BAD NEWS – IT IS ONLY THAT 10% THAT MATTERS, AS THAT IS THE ONLY TIME YOU CAN CHANGE WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR GIFT, YOUR SPIRIT, AND IS ESSENTIAL TO RECOGNIZE THOSE MOMENTS IF YOU ARE GOING TO CHANGE RADICALLY, all else does LITTLE AND TAKES YEARS. 

YES, YOU THOUGHT YOU NEEDED TO JUST DO MORE OF THAT TEDIOUSLY GOOD 90%, DID YOU NOT, and remove any trace of the BAD, but you are WRONG – THAT IS FUCKING USELESS, FACING UP TO THE BAD AND USING IT BETTER IS WHAT RADICAL CHANGE IS ALL ABOUT. But don’t get me wrong, it is EXTREMELY USEFUL TO PRACTICE TECHNIQUE ON SMALL EASY THINGS, on physical ticks, negative emotions, fridge blindness, and memory loss, BUT THAT IS ALL IT IS – practice. See when the BIG THINGS COME ALONG, THE HUGE LOSSES OF YOUR GIFT, YOU WILL NEED TO BE SURE OF YOURSELF, OF THE TECHNIQUE ITSELF, SO YOU CAN USE IT IN AN INSTANT WITHOUT HAVING TO THINK ABOUT IT, AS YOU HAVE ALREADY CUT THE PATTERN OF THAT TECHNIQUE IN YOUR SOUL – YOU ARE READY TO TAKE ON YOUR FAKE SELF WHEN IT ACTUALLY MATTERS.

Then all this RADICAL CHANGE BECOMES EASY, AS YOU WILL BE CONFIDENT, INDEED YOU WILL START TO UNDERSTAND WHAT CONFIDENCE IS, AND START TO USE THIS NEW FOUND CONFIDENCE TO SEEK OUT ALL YOUR SHIT AND FIX IT – SEE your power wants to be used, so this new approach replaces YOUR OLD ABUSE OF YOURSELF WITH SOMETHING BETTER. GIFTED PEOPLE CANNOT HIDE FROM THEMSELVES, YOU CANNOT RUN AWAY, AS FAKE YOU IS ALWAYS THERE, WAITING – YOU MUST CHANGE WHAT YOU WANT IN THE MOMENT OF ‘WANTING IT’, THAT IS WHAT YOU MUST UNDERSTAND FOR RADICAL CHANGE. There is no value in bearing up, in denying yourself what you want if you CONTINUE TO WANT IT MORE THAN THE BENEFIT OF DEVELOPING YOURSELF. YOU MUST ‘SACRIFICE’ THAT OLD WANT, THAT YOU STILL WANT, FOR SOMETHING BETTER ‘WILLINGLY’, BECAUSE YOU WANT IT MORE, NOW YOU UNDERSTAND YOUR OLD WANT AND YOUR NEW ONE, AS THE NEW ONE ‘OVERPOWERS’ THE OLD ONE.

So, NEVER reject yourself IN THE MOMENT OF USING YOUR GIFT FOR GOOD OR ILL, IT CAUSES AN INCREASING SEPARATION IN YOUR VARIOUS MOODS, STRENGTHENING THEM, CREATING MULTIPLE DIFFERENT YOU’S THAT CONSCIOUS YOU CAN’T CONTROL – CASTIGATING YOURSELF IN RETROSPECT DOES NOTHING, INDEED ITS A ‘COP OUT’, A WAY TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT BEING A ‘FUCK UP’, SO YOU DON’T HAVE TO CHANGE. THE KEY TO LIFE IS AMOR FATI, ‘ACCEPT’ YOUR SITUATION SO YOU CAN CHANGE IT FOR THE BETTER, DON’T ZONE OUT. YOU MUST ALWAYS START FROM WHERE YOU ARE RIGHT NOW IN REALITY, CHANGE THE THINGS YOU HAVE TO CHANGE, NOW YOU KNOW BETTER, RATHER THAN JUST FANTASIZE ABOUT SOME FUTURE YOU THAT NEVER HAPPENS – that is your ‘fake you’ talking. You must OWN WHAT YOU DO TO CHANGE IT, ALL ELSE LEADS TO MULTIPLE PERSONALITIES AND DOUBLE CRYSTALLIZATION…

SO BE BRAVE, AND FUCKING ‘START’ THIS PROCESS, you will be dead soon, SO WHY NOT TRY, DO WHAT YOU SECRETLY KNOW YOU BOTH WANT AND HAVE TO DO FOR YOUR ‘FUTURE SELF’ TO BE ‘SOMEBODY’, rather than one more failed Gifted Hedonist, tortured, broken and unhinged, which there is no shortage of in this world. So Embrace conflict and reach out, your fear of CONFLICT is what stopping MOST of you from starting, AND YOU WILL DISCOVER YOU ARE SURPRISINGLY GOOD AT IT, as you ALREADY don’t give a shit what the animals think of you, AND ITS SO MUCH EASIER THAN HAVING TO ENTERTAIN THEM. ONCE YOU NOW REALIZE THE SHAME OF ‘LOWERING YOURSELF’ YOU WILL ENJOY CONFLICT, INSTEAD, AS IT IS ONE OF THE BEST CURES FOR YOUR PAST – TO BOTH OWN IT, WHILST STOPPING OTHERS FROM KEEPING YOU TRAPPED IN IT, AS THEY ARE MANIPULATED BY FAKE YOU. HAVE NO PITY FOR EITHER THEM OR YOUR FAKE YOU, be RUTHLESS, it is the signature of the ARISTOS, USE THESE OPPORTUNITIES TO CHANGE WHO YOU ARE IN THIS WORLD IN THIS MOMENT, WITH NO WORRY BEFORE, OR CARE AFTERWARDS – SHIT HAPPENS, THIS IS WHATS LEFT OF YOUR LIFE, LIVE IT.

What you need to do is CHANGE, AND USE THAT LIBIDO FOR THE REASON IT WAS GIVEN TO YOU IN THE FIRST BLOODY PLACE – ANYTHING ELSE IS JUST A DRUG FUELLED FANTASY, THAT IS NOT EVEN REALLY HAPPENING – SEX BECOMES ANOTHER DAYDREAM, with someone else, somewhere else, doing something else, than you are actually doing… The issue is, of course, unless you change YOUR CHARACTER, you are NEVER, EVER GOING TO GET THERE, TO THIS AMAZING PLACE WHERE YOU ACTUALLY FEEL ALIVE, as it requires a fundamental adjustment to WHAT YOU THINK SEX IS – A CHEAP THRILL TO HELP RELEASE YOUR TENSION. ITS NOT, ITS A GIFT FROM THE GODS THEMSELVES, AND IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF SHOWING you WHY RAPID CHARACTER CHANGE IS WORTH THE EFFORT.

SO ‘YOU’ must STEP BACK and see this now, and YOU MUST SEE IT ‘COLD’, if you are going to read on today…

– YOU CAN AND MUST CHANGE IF YOU ARE GIFTED –

YOU INSULT YOUR OWN KIND BY PRETENDING TO BE AN ANIMAL BECAUSE ITS EASIER FOR YOU, YOU LOWER US ALL BY LOWERING YOUR OWN SPIRITUAL RANK TO ‘FEEL BETTER’ ABOUT BEING SHIT – THAT IS YOUR ‘LIFE STORY’.

YOU SHOULD ‘CONTRIBUTE’, YET YOU DRAG US DOWN WITH YOU, SO IMPRESSED WITH YOUR OWN SELF-DESTRUCTION, BELIEVING YOU ARE A NEW, ORIGINAL, UNIQUE, INTERESTING – YOU ARE NOT, YOU ARE ONE MORE TEDIOUS FUCKING STEREOTYPE, KILLING YOURSELF IN ORDER TO FEEL BETTER.

INDEED, THE COST OF NOT DEVELOPING YOURSELF WILL BECOME UNBEARABLE AS YOU AGE, WHEN FAILURE OF ALL KINDS OVERTAKES YOU, AND ALL YOUR TREASURED ILLUSIONS ARE SHATTERED, ONE AFTER THE OTHER…

DOES NOT HAVE TO BE THAT WAY, BUT WHAT YOU NEED IS OUTSIDE OF THIS CAGE OF THE CONDITIONED LEVEL YOU LIVE AT – YOU NEED TO FORCE THE LEVEL OF ‘THE ARISTOCRAT’, TO BE SELF-CONSCIOUS AT THE GATEWAY ‘SELF-RESPECT’ LEVEL, NOT AN ANIMAL LEVEL, SO YOU CAN CHANGE.

AT THE CONSCIOUS LEVEL OF ‘SELF RESPECT’ YOU HAVE ACTUAL VALUES THAT EXIST SEPARATE TO THE MOMENTARY DESIRES/FEARS OF AN ANIMAL, YOU HAVE A ‘SENSE OF PROPORTION’ THAT CAN EASILY OVERWHELM YOUR INSTINCTIVE ANIMAL, MUCH AS YOU ARE STILL CONSCIOUS OF YOUR ANIMAL.

YOUR CONSCIOUS REALITY SHELL AT THE SELF-RESPECT LEVEL IS BROAD ENOUGH IN ‘TIME’, DEEP ENOUGH IN ‘DETAIL’, AND HIGH ENOUGH IN ‘SCALE’ TO BE ABLE TO CHANGE FAST AND RELIABLY, WHEN YOU KNOW ‘WHY’ YOU NEED  TO OVERWHELM YOUR ANIMAL SELF.

THE VEHICLE THAT GETS YOU TO THIS ‘SELF-RESPECT’ LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS IS TO PRACTISE BEING ‘NOBODY’, AS THIS WILL STOP YOUR UNCONSCIOUS CHARACTER FROM ACTING OUT IN YOUR CONSCIOUS MIND, WHILE REDIRECTING THAT ENERGY INTO MAKING YOUR CONSCIOUS MIND BIGGER, IN TIME MUCH, MUCH BIGGER IN WAYS THAT WILL AMAZE YOU, IF YOU CAN BUILD AND STORE THIS FUEL.

THIS FUEL MANIFESTS TO YOU AS A MUCH HIGHER LEVEL OF EMOTIONAL AROUSAL, SO YOU MUST STOP YOUR FAKE ANIMAL CHARACTER PERVERTING THIS FEELING AS A FORM OF TENSION YOU MUST RELEASE, BY MAINTAINING THIS LEVEL OF SELF-RESPECT UNTIL IT LATCHES ON, BECOMES NORMAL FOR CONCIOUS YOU TO FEEL THAT WAY, SO IT CAN GROW INTO ITS 1ST STAGE – ‘CREATIVITY’.

BE CLEAR – CONSCIOUS SELF RESPECT IS IN ITSELF A POSITIVE FEEDBACK LOOP, THE MORE YOU DO IT, THE MORE YOU LIVE THERE, THE BETTER AND BIGGER IT GETS, THEREFORE REVERSING THE MISTAKE YOU MADE AS A KID WHEN YOU STARTED TO CONCIOUSLY DIMINISH, TO SHRINK, BY CHOICE IN ORDER TO PROTECT YOURSELF FROM THE MIS-INTERPRETATION OF THIS FEELING.

BUT YOU MUST VALUE THIS ‘CHANGE’ MORE THAN YOU VALUE YOUR ‘FUN’, MORE THAN YOU CURRENTLY VALUE WHAT YOU ‘HAVE TO LOSE’, SO YOU CAN OVERCOME YOUR FEARS, YOUR NEGATIVITY, YOUR APATHY, YOUR LITTLE THRILLS, YOUR LAZINESS, YOUR ‘NOTHINGNESS…’

INDEED, MANY GIFTED HEDONISTS ARE OFTEN HORRIFIED WHEN THEY DISCOVER THEY HAVE BEEN DOING A FUCKED UP VERSION OF USING VULNERABILITY DURING HIGH LEVELS OF EMOTIONAL AROUSAL FOR YEARS, WHILST FAKE YOU STOLE ALL THE BENEFIT OF IT.

YES, YOU MUST LEARN HOW TO USE YOUR ‘NOBODY’ TO STOP ‘FEEDING YOUR DEMONS’, AND START ‘FEEDING YOUR GOD’, YOU MUST STOP THE CONTINUAL PETTY WASTAGE OF THIS STATE OF AROUSAL ON LOW-LEVEL, MOMENTARY ANIMAL SHIT, IF YOU WANT TO STOP ‘BEING SHIT’ – YOU ARE WHAT YOU DO.

SEE IN A VERY REAL WAY THIS ‘INTERMEDIARY’ OF FAKE YOU MUST BE REMOVED FROM INTERACTIONS WITH THE WORLD BY BEING NOBODY AT THE START, SO YOU CAN SIMPLY ‘ACCEPT’ WHAT HAPPENS, WITHOUT REACTING TO IT THE WAY FAKE YOU WANTS TO, WITHOUT WASTING IT BY GIVING YOURSELF AWAY LIKE A FOOL.

SO I MUST SHOW YOU THAT CHANGE IS BETTER THAN ‘FAKE YOU’, WE ARE BETTER THAN YOU, HELL EVEN THE ANIMALS ARE BETTER THAN YOU RIGHT NOW, AS THEY HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO MAKE THE BEST OF BEING SHIT, BUT YOU CAN CHANGE, SO THEY HATE YOU FOR IT… YES, DON’T BE SURPRISED WHEN YOU DISCOVER THAT EVEN ‘THEY’ THINK YOU ARE SHIT, AND TREAT YOU LIKE SHIT BECAUSE OF IT – YOU LIVE BELOW YOUR NATURAL RANK, AND EVERYONE CAN SEE IT BUT YOU, YOU TOOL – YOU ACTUALLY DESERVE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU, YOUR FAKE YOU MAKES IT HAPPEN…

THE KEY IS BOTH UNDERSTAND AND WANT TO BE ‘NOBODY’, IN ORDER TO BECOME ‘SOMEBODY’

YOU MUST GET THE NEED AND THE PROCESS OF BEING ‘MORE GOD, LESS DOG’, AS WITHOUT THAT UNDERSTANDING YOU ARE DOOMED TO SPEND YOUR LIFE IN SELF-DESTRUCTIVE PATTERNS THAT ARE HIDDEN FROM CONCIOUS YOU BY FAKE YOU, EVERY MOMENT.

YEP, YOU REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE AND EVERYTHING TO GAIN, OBVIOUS REALLY.

NOW…

THIS POST IS NOT ABOUT CHANGING THE ‘CONSCIOUS LEVEL OF REALITY YOU LIVE AT’, THAT IS THE NEXT ONE – IN TRUTH ITS THE REWARD FOR ACCEPTING THE NEED TO DO THIS ONE. SEE HOWEVER ‘PRESENT’ AND SELF-CONSCIOUS YOU ARE AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL KNOW THAT ANIMALS CAN’T REALLY CHANGE, ANIMALS ARE TRAPPED BY THEIR INSTINCTIVE THOUGHTS, SO THEY JUST BECOME DOMESTICATED ANIMALS, BY DEVELOPING LAYER UPON LAYER OF FALSE, CONDITIONED INSTINCTS.

SO TODAY YOU NEED TO STOP ACCEPTING YOUR ANIMAL CONDITION AND STOP YOUR ‘ATTACHMENT’ TO IT, AS THE BUDDHISTS SAY, BEFORE YOU CAN DO THE REST OF IT, THAT IS WHAT THE NOBODY PROCESS IS ABOUT. YOU MUST SWITCH TO A DIFFERENT WAY OF THINKING, CONSCIOUSLY, INSTEAD OF UNCONSCIOUSLY, AS THAT WILL BREAK YOUR ATTACHMENT WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND IT. THEN YOU CAN LEARN HOW TO DO PRESENCE, CORRECTLY, AND RAISE YOUR ENTIRE LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS ORGANICALLY, AS THAT ENERGY WILL NO LONGER AUTOMATICALLY BE USED BY YOUR CURRENT ANIMAL LEVEL – YOU WILL HAVE BROKEN OPEN THE TRAP, MUCH AS YOU WILL NEED TO ESCAPE FROM IT…

YES, YOUR CURRENT CONDITIONING, YOUR HABITUAL PATTERNS OF INSTINCTIVE THOUGHT ARE A PRISON YOU LIVE IN, WHERE ALL YOUR CHOICES ARE MADE FOR YOU – YOU ARE TRAPPED DOING THE SAME SHIT WHATEVER YOU TRY AND DO DIFFERENTLY IN THE MOMENT, CAUSE THAT MOMENT WILL PASS AND YOU WILL FORGET IT. BUT BEFORE YOU CAN FIX BEING SHALLOW, NARROW AND OUT OF FOCUS, YOU MUST REMOVE WHAT IS KEEPING YOU STUCK THERE, STUCK IN THE SAME BLOODY CYCLE…

YES, YOU SIMPLY GO ROUND AND ROUND IN THE SAME EVER-DECREASING LITTLE CIRCLES IN A CYCLE, trapped by the same patterns doing the same things, AND YOU DON’T EVEN SEE IT – THIS WILL HAVE ALREADY MADE MANY OF YOU DELUSIONAL, INSECURE, UNHAPPY. SO YOU MUST DEVELOP YOURSELF FAST IF YOU HAVE THESE SIGNIFICANT PROBLEMS BECAUSE YOU ARE WEAK AND STUPID, AND YOU CONTINUE TO GET SLOWER AND DUMBER EVERY DAMN DAY – YOUR PROBLEMS ALWAYS GET WORSE, AND THE UNSCHOOLED HIGHLY GIFTED START TO ‘CHASE’ SELF-DESTRUCTION AS THEY GET OLDER when they stop ‘self-healing’, WHEN THEY CAN NO LONGER ‘RECOVER THEMSELVES’.

BUT NO MATTER, THAT IS WHERE YOU (AND MANY LIKE YOU) ARE, IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT BUT IT IS YOUR PROBLEM, AND IT’S EASY TO FIX WHEN YOU REALIZE THIS SIMPLE TRUTH (IN TRUTH THE REAL REASON YOU ARE READING THIS):

‘YOU’ HAVE TO ‘GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY’, if you want this to GO FAST, AND ‘YOU’ NEED IT TO GO FAST…

YES, MANY OF YOU NEED THIS TO GO FAST BECAUSE YOUR POWERS HAVE ALREADY DECLINED, YOU ARE ALREADY ‘BASIC’ AS FUCK, AND YOU ARE GOING TO GET WORSE, YOUR RATE OF DECLINE WILL INCREASE SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU CAN’T CHANGE…

BUT IT IS YOUR CHARACTER THAT IS SHIT, NOT YOU – CHARACTER CHANGE IS ‘NOT PERSONAL’, BECAUSE YOUR CHARACTER IS ‘NOT A PERSON’, SO YOU NEED TO STOP TAKING IT ‘PERSONALLY’.

ONCE YOU STOP TAKING YOUR CHARACTER PERSONALLY, THEN ALL DESIRE TO CHANGE IS ‘CHILDS PLAY’, ONCE YOU SEE YOU HAVE NO CHARACTER, YOU ONLY HAVE ‘THE ILLUSION OF CHARACTER’, A ‘FAKE CHARACTER’, THAT DOES NOT EVEN ‘WORK FOR YOU’.

SEE YOU ACTUALLY ARE ‘NOTHING’, THERE IS ‘NOTHING THERE’, BUT YOU ARE TRAPPED AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS BY YOUR PATTERNS, SO YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE YOUR PATTERNS – AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL YOU ARE DOMINATED BY INSTINCTIVE, INCOMING THOUGHTS, WHICH WHEN EMOTIONALLY WEIGHTED BY ANIMAL INSTINCT ARE COMPELLING ENOUGH TO OVERWHELM ‘YOU’ VERY QUICKLY. BUT YOU CAN’T ADMIT TO THAT, SO YOU TAKE THE DECISION TO SIMPLY B/S IN RETROSPECT IN ORDER TO DEFEND YOURSELF IN CHILDHOOD, OTHERWISE YOU WOULD BE ‘WRONG’, WEAK, STUPID, SO YOUR ‘EGO IS BORN’…

THERE ARE VIRTUALLY NO OUTGOING THOUGHTS IN YOUR HEAD, NO LOGICALLY REASONED DEBATE WHERE YOU DECIDE SOMETHING IN THE MOMENT, THOSE INBOUND THOUGHTS JUST APPEAR, AND THEN YOU TRY AND USE B/S ARGUMENT TO JUSTIFY THEM AFTERWARDS, WHICH YOU THEN THINK IS ‘YOU THE THINKER’ BUT ITS NOT, ITS ‘YOU THE FOOL’ – YOUR DECISIONS WHERE ALL TAKEN DECADES AGO, AND NOW EXIST AS COARSE, ONE SIZE FITS ALL PATTERN FOR A CERTAIN TYPE OF SITREP, OR CLOSE APPROXIMATION, DEPENDING IN GRADE AND ACCURACY ON JUST HOW MUCH ‘LIFE’ YOU HAVE LIVED. YES, EVEN WORSE, MOST OF THE PATTERNS YOU USE EVERY DAY DON’T EVEN SUIT WHAT YOU ARE USING THEM FOR, LET ALONE HOW YOUR LIFE, PRIORITIES AND DESIRES HAVE NOW ALL CHANGED SINCE CHILDHOOD.

AND YOU DON’T SEE IT, BECAUSE YOU CAN’T – YOUR EMOTIONS BLIND YOU TO IT. SEE MUCH AS IT’S THE PATTERNS THAT DIRECT YOU, IT IS THE STRENGTH OF YOUR GOOD OR BAD MOODS THAT FORM YOUR ‘PRISON BARS’, AS THEY STOP YOU FROM SEEING ANYTHING ELSE BUT YOUR ‘NEXT’ CHARGED PATTERN, THEY KEEP YOU TRAPPED, EVEN WHEN YOU WANT TO ESCAPE. Yes, your patterns are ‘in front’ of the reasoned thinker you fool yourself you are, like a pair of dirty old glasses, but those patterns DON’T ‘THINK’, THEY SIMPLY AUTOMATICALLY REACT TO STIMULOUS, WHICH YOUR EMOTIONS HIDE FROM YOU BY SPEEDING UP YOUR INBOUND THOUGHTS IN THE MOMENT. 

SEE THESE LOW-LEVEL MOODS HAVE BECOME CONSTANT NOW, YOU ARE ALWAYS IN ONE, AS THEY ARE AMPLIFIED BY YOUR MANY DRUGS OF CHOICE, FROM THE TOP TO THE BOTTOM OF THE FOOD CHAIN, OFTEN JUST CONSTANT CAFFEINE AND SUGAR, AS ALL DRUGS RAISE THE EFFECT OF PETTY FEELINGS WAY ABOVE THE CONTEXT OF THEIR REALITY. THIS OFTEN DESTROYS GIFTED FOLKS IN THEIR 30S, AS EVEN WHEN THEY START TO WONDER IN RETROSPECT WHAT POSSESSED THEM TO DO THEIR LATEST SELF-DESTRUCTIVE ACT, AGAIN, THEY STILL GO ON DOING IT, AGAIN. SO KNOW THE REASON FAKE YOU HAS ADDICTED YOU TO THESE TRIVIAL LITTLE MOOD SWINGS, WHY YOU NEED THEM TO GET SOME ‘RELIEF’, IS SO IT CAN HIDE FROM SELF-IMPORTANT LITTLE YOU…

TRY AND SEE THIS IN YOURSELF NOW IN A BASIC SENSE – YOUR EMOTION MAKES YOU CLUMSY BECAUSE YOU RUSH SOMETHING, YOUR EMOTION DRIVES YOUR NERVOUS TICKS, YOUR EMOTION DRIVES YOUR SELF-DESTRUCTIVE ARGUMENTS, YOUR EMOTION MAKES YOU FRIDGE BLIND OUT OF DESIRE, YOUR EMOTION DISTRACTS YOU AND MAKES YOU ACCIDENT PRONE, YOUR EMOTION MAKES YOU TIRED/LAZY/DISINTEREESTED, YOUR EMOTION MAKES YOU SEEK COMFORT AND AVOID CONFLICT, YOUR EMOTION MAKES YOU SEEK POINTLESS ATTENTION, MAKES YOU NEED TO BE RIGHT/CLEVER/COOL/FIT IN.

EVER NOTICED HOW QUICKLY THAT DRIVING EMOTION PASSES, AFTER YOU HAVE DONE OR FUCKED UP IN A WAY THAT FAKE YOU WANTS, WHEN IT GETS REPLACED WITH SOMETHING FAR WORSE, LIKE IT WAS JUST A GATEWAY STATE TO ATTRACT YOU, BAIT IN THE TRAP? THAT BECAUSE IT WAS A TRAP, YOU DORK… KNOW HOW EASY IT IS TO REMEMBER THOSE ‘PRECURSORS’, KNOW HOW EASY IT IS TO DEFEND YOURSELF BY SEEING IT COMING, SEEING THAT PROCESS START, LINKING ALL YOUR LITTLE WEAKNESSES TOGETHER UNTIL YOU ARRIVE AT YOUR LITTLE SHIT FEST. EVER NOTICED THAT EVEN WHEN YOU SEE THIS, YOU STILL ‘FIND IT FUNNY’, THAT IT IS IN SOME TEDIOUS LITTLE WAY ‘ITS COOL’, AS PERHAPS YOU ARE FINALLY A ‘BADASS’ (NOT), MUCH AS YOU CLEARLY DON’T HAVE A ‘SCOOBIE DO’ WHAT THAT IS…

WOW, so you are one of those GIFTED HEDONISTS then, bought up on the Western Cult of the ‘Anti-Hero’ as YOUR JUDGEMENT OF COOL, YOUR ROLE MODEL of choice, whilst failing to comprehend that the Bad Man Gone Good is VERY different from the ‘Good Girl, Gone Bad’, then sad, then barking mad (Sorry Rhianna). But still that is what you aspire to, WHAT YOU KNOW YOU ARE NOT, BUT TRY TO BE, in some secret safe way, whilst being blissfully UNaware you are simply an inured little puppy determined to destroy themselves before anyone else can do it to you, again, THE HEDONISTS MENTAL ILLNESS OF CHOICE. It is another PATTERN YOU FOOL, burnt in at Childhood, that now serves the purpose of FAKE YOU…

How sad, too bad, never mind – SEE IN REALITY YOU SIMPLY WANT TO ‘LOOK LIKE A BADASS’ AS YOUR ASPIRATION, YOU DON’T ACTUALLY WANT TO BE ONE, AS THERE IS A BIT MORE TO IT THEY DON’T SHOW IN THE MOVIES (trust me…) – when it comes to doing something actually BAD, you will ‘choke’, cause you are a PUSSY. See you are a ‘POWERLESS BADASS’, it’s all IMITATION, an invitation into self-destruction, it’s all FAKE YOU. THE MOMENTARY POWER YOU FEEL AT THE TIME IS JUST MORE ‘FAKE EMOTION’, everyone else is laughing AT YOU, AT YOUR DELIGHT IN YOUR OWN HUMILIATION, AND THEY CRAVE WATCHING IT, it gives them a visceral thrill, cause they are ANIMALS, WHO DELIGHT IN DESTRUCTION, as our movie industry knows so well.  

But that’s fine, I’m a Teacher of this path so I’ve seen it enough to know how to FIX IT – I MUST REPLACE THAT CHILDHOOD ASPIRATION WITH SOMETHING BETTER, WITH THAT BETTER STILL BEING CLOSE ENOUGH TO WHAT YOU ‘GET OUT OF’ BEING THIS FAKE BADASS. I must make the distance between your current aspiration and this new one close enough to enable you to ‘JUMP SHIP’, with a high degree of confidence that this will replace what you currently crave. SEE I KNOW YOU CAN’T GIVE ANYTHING UP UNTIL YOU HAVE A REPLACEMENT FOR IT, at your level, your Fake You will just keep reminding you what you are missing. Aversion therapy never works on ‘Lost Souls’ BY ITSELF, what you need is to be attracted to something ELSE, as well.

What is that ‘ELSE’ WE ASPIRE TO THEN – HOW DO YOU REPLACE THE CRAVING FOR PETTY ANIMAL EMOTION?

Easy – KNOW IF YOU CHOSE TO TAKE THIS PATH TODAY IT IS THE ACTUAL ‘JUMPING OFF POINT’ THAT TAKES YOU AWAY FROM THE PETTY ANIMAL THRILLS OF FAKE YOU, TOWARD THE REAL OVERPOWERING DRUG LIKE STATES OF ‘REAL YOU’, YOUR CONSCIENCE LEVEL EMOTIONS.

AND, WHAT IS MORE FOR YOU RIGHT NOW, YOU WILL ACTUALLY ‘BE A BADASS’, AS YOU WILL KNOW THINGS OTHER PEOPLE DON’T, WHICH WILL MAKE YOU RUTHLESS, EMBRACE CONFLICT, AND ACT CONFIDENTLY CAUSE YOU WON’T GIVE A SHIT WHAT THE ANIMALS THINK… 

See that is what a BADASS actually ‘IS’, IN TRUTH YOUR TRAINING TO BE ARISTOS IS TRAINING TO BE A BADASS, in your world at least, in OUR WORLD BEING A BADASS ENTAILS BEING RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT YOU DO, WHAT HONOR ‘IS’. Does not look much like your version, eh, all creepy and scared and secret, ALL PATTERN REACTION AND DISAPPOINTINGLY CHEAP THRILLS, which pass in a moment, like a sugary drink, CAUSE YOU A PUSSY.

But take HEART, see many of you CHASE THIS FAKE BADASS AS the only form of ‘OTHER LIFE’ YOU KNOW, a holding action until the REAL THING COMES A LONG. Yes, you have actually been doing your BEST TO DEVELOP YOURSELF, its just a bit of a mess, full of mistakes, corrupted by Fake You via ‘False Instincts’ so now its just a cheesy form of SELF DESTRUCTION. For you lot, for the ones who are not obsessed with ‘Power Over Others’ like an animal, YOU CAN STILL BE HELPED, JUST AS LONG AS YOU GRASP ONTO DEVELOPMENT AS THE OG, as the actually FEELING you ‘should’ of actually been chasing the whole fucking time…

These NEW emotions REPLACE the tiny, momentary ‘thrill’ shit you CURRENTLY crave, IN TRUTH ALL SOME VARIANT OF PETTY RELIEF FROM YOUR PETTY SELF, with the REAL THING, ALL TYPES OF ACTUAL POWER, THE ACTUAL FEELING OF ACTUAL POWER. Yes, right now you associate conscience-level emotions with REAL YOU scolding Fake You for some high level of fuck up, but there is WAY MORE TO THEM THAN THAT. Trust me, once you feel them, whether it’s through sex, victory, CONNECTION, HONOR, RIGHTEOUSNESS, TRUTH, FORESIGHT or pure ‘power over yourself’ YOU WILL NEVER CRAVE ANIMAL LEVEL EMOTIONS AGAIN. Indeed, you will wonder at the miracle that you actually managed to live this long, doing that, LIKE AN ANIMAL, as you will look around at others, once JUST like you, WHO HAVE NOT SURVIVED IT…

See NO real GIFTED man or woman EVER CHASES PETTY EMOTION, EVER HATES ANYONE OR ANYTHING, THEY KNOW ITS a TRAP. It shows an EMBARRASSING lack of development, a lack of understanding about what hatred is, about the cost of that hatred OUTWEIGHING THE TINY THRILL OF YOUR REVENGE, ABOUT HOW THAT HATRED SHOWS YOU UP AS A CHILD. Aristos LIVE BY either ‘LOVE IT OR IGNORE IT’, AND KILL IT quickly if IT doesn’t GO AWAY – AMOR FATI. Hatred, unhappiness, anxiety, and depression are animal things, for Children, but YOU already KNOW SANTA CLAUSE IS A MYTH, so you should see this already…

But YOU don’t, DO YOU – YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS ONE LONG MOOD SWING, A COLLECTION OF ‘SPIDERS WEBS you are STUCK IN, PATIENTLY WAITING FOR THEM TO GUIDE YOU DOWN YOUR PREFERRED RABBIT HOLES OF ‘SELF DESTRUCTION’, BECAUSE YOU ARE THAT WEAK AND THAT STUPID. INDEED, YOU NOW THINK THOSE MOODS SWINGS ARE WHAT THE VALUE IN LIFE ‘IS’, SO YOU CHASE THEM, ALL PATHETIC AND DESPERATE, DRIVEN BY YOUR FOMO, IN TRUTH YOUR NEED FOR SELF HUMILIATION…    

YOU ARE COMPELLED TO FOLLOW YOUR WORST, MOST SELF DETRUCTIVE PATTERNS VIA TRIVIAL EMOTIONS, BECAUSE YOU LACK THE SELF-RESPECT TO STAND AGAINST THEM AND NOT REACT.

WITHOUT YOUR TRIVIAL EMOTIONS NONE OF THOSE THINGS WOULD HAPPEN, YOU WOULD SELF-CORRECT THEM BY SIMPLY NOTICING THEM.

THEN YOUR ‘HABITS OF FUCKING UP’ WOULD SIMPLY DISAPPEAR, THE TRIVIAL EMOTION BECOMES ‘BENEATH YOU’, IT ACTUALLY FEELS SMALLER – IT FEELS LIKE WHAT IT IS, A TINY LITTLE ‘ATTACK’ ON YOU BY FAKE YOU, ‘A SPIDER BITE’.

BUT YOU MUST NOT REACT TO THEM, INDEED YOU MUST LEARN TO LAUGH AT THESE ATTACKS, AT HOW MEANINGLESS THEY ARE IN THE CONTEXT OF YOUR LIFE AS DEFINED BY THE QUALITY OF THE STORY YOU GET TO TELL AT YOUR DEATH.

SEE WITHOUT THE VICIOUS CIRCLE OF THEIR MOOD SWINGS/DRUGS EVEN THE MOST GIFTED TEND TO STOP AND GO ‘WHAT THE FUCK?’ EVERY TIME THEIR FAKE CHARACTER TRIED TO MANIPULATE THEM – IT BECOMES REALLY OBVIOUS, EVEN TO FOLK AS SLOW AND DUMB AS ‘YOU’.

THIS IS WHY THE BUDDHISTS FIXATE ON KILLING ALL YOUR DESIRES AND AVERSIONS AT THE START, AND WHY WE ARISTOS FIXATE ON ‘EQUANIMITY’, BALANCE AS THE MASTER MIND STATE, AS WE FOCUS ON FEELING THE EMOTIONS OF REAL YOU, THE MASSIVE OVERPOWERING STATES THAT WILL BIND YOU TO HIGHER LEVELS OF CONSCIOUSNESS, WAY BEYOND YOUR PETTY FEARS AND URGES, AS THEY REMAIN USEFUL WHEN SEEN IN THAT CONTEXT.

IT IS ALSO WHY YOUR ‘BOREDOM’, WHEN UNDERSTOOD, IS VERY, VERY USEFUL…  

SO YOU CANNOT GO ON LIVING YOUR LIFE IN ‘A TRIVIAL MOOD’ SET BY YOUR TRIVIAL PATTERNS – YOU CANNOT LEARN ANYTHING NEW IF YOU THINK YOU ALREADY KNOW IT, IF YOU REMAIN FULL OF THE FEAR DRIVEN SHIT THAT HAS BEEN CONDITIONED INTO FOR DECADES. THE KEY MOMENT COMES WHEN YOU REALIZE YOUR CHARACTER IS A SET OF CRACKED, DIRTY SUNGLASSES, THAT BLACKS OUT MOST OF WHAT IS THERE AND DISTORTS THE REST, THEN YOU WILL HAVE NO PROBLEM LEARNING HOW TO TAKE THEM OFF, SO YOU CAN STOP FAILING – YOU ACTUALLY PREFER BEING ‘NOBODY’, AS ITS VERY REFRESHING, INDEED ITS A ‘LIFE SAVER’ FOR SOME, AS ITS THE EASIEST WAY TO RECLAIM THE POWER BEHIND YOUR NEGATIVE EMOTIONS IN A WAY YOU CAN ACTUALLY FEEL, INSTEAD OF ‘GIFTING IT’ TO ‘FAKE YOU’…

See, when you see YOUR CHARACTER IS SEPARATE TO YOU, IT MEANS ‘YOU HAVE OPENED THE DOOR’, you have got past the ‘Gatekeeper’ of FAKE YOU, SO BELOVED BY THE MYSTICAL TRADITIONS behind THE RELIGIONS OF THE BOOK. Not enough in itself of course, you must ‘step through the door’, by then RAISING YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, otherwise, you will end up one of the most tedious of all Unschooled Gifted, the ‘Happy Failure’, who knows their Character is ‘NOT ME’, but has got stuck at its ‘NOT MY FAULT’, so just destroy themselves even quicker, AS THEY THINK THAT ABSOLVES THEM. Constantine the Great, THE LAST OF THE HIGHLY GIFTED ROMAN EMPORERS kept that shit going for 25 years after enforcing his version of Christianity on the known world (as a form of social control for slaves, Sorry Nietzche), but then he was talking directly to GOD the whole time, so DON’T LET ME STOP YOU IF YOU CAN DO THAT…

For everyone else, DO BE AWARE AS YOU READ THIS – YOUR FREE PASS INTO HEDONISM ENDS NOW YOU KNOW THIS. Yep, see now you know you have to CHANGE OR BURN, AS in my own sweet way I HAVE JUST ‘CURSED YOU’, as ‘FAKE YOU’ MUST BE CURSED AT THE START, OTHERWISE, YOU WILL NEVER SEE IT, SEE FAKE YOU as NOT YOU.

It is a Catch 22 for so many GIFTED, who simply NEVER ENGAGE UNLESS THEY GO THROUGH THIS CHARACTER CHANGE ‘FIRE’, and we have to get you there – TEACHERS LIKE ME HAVE TO ACCEPT YOUR OFTEN VIOLENT DISLIKE OF US, IN ORDER TO GET IT DONE, while accepting many of you will NEVER GET PAST IT, much as we wish you would. See it’s kind of painful for us to WATCH YOUR SELF-DESTRUCTION, so we never choose to be a part of it, we choose to FIX YOU, BEFORE YOUR FAILURE DESTROYS YOUR CHANCE – WE ARE HONORABLE, much as the Japanese word ‘Giri’ has retained its original meaning better than ‘ours’, as we all owe a debt to ‘our kind’, otherwise we would be NOTHING.

See we don’t mind your dislike of US at the start, much as it is only much later IN YOUR DEVELOPMENT that you will SEE THE HONOR I HAVE PAID YOU BY ‘CURSING YOU’, BY ATTACKING YOUR ‘FAKE YOU’ INSTEAD OF JUST GOING ALONG WITH IT, instead of just being nice to another tedious, transparent animal, THAT I HAVE ALREADY FORGOTTEN, AS I NEED THAT ENERGY FOR SOMETHING ELSE. Yes, I know you think we are ‘dead inside’, we are ‘not cool’, we are fools who do not know what is ‘going on’, because we won’t engage with your preferred mode of self-destruction. BUT STRANGELY, WE DON’T STOP YOU EITHER, we just seem to want to make it ‘hurt’, instead of ‘HAVING FUN’, SO WE ARE JUST FUCKING ‘ODDBALLS’. See in reality all those judgments you are making ARE FROM YOURSELF, ABOUT YOURSELF, indeed Real You can probably only reach you now via this form of PROJECTION OF YOUR OWN SELF HATRED ONTO YOUR ‘BETTERS’. Truth be told the GIFTED LIFE is way more fun when you decide to STOP KILLING YOURSELF, TRUST ME…

Of course, none of this would be necessary if you had some training in childhood, if you had been taught ‘how’ to think instead of ‘what’ to think. For example, if you were given some decent standards of character, say that your life is not a matter of daily survival BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO DIE ANYWAY, AND THE JUDGEMENT OF YOUR QUALITY WILL ONLY BE MADE ON YOUR DEATHBED when all your petty comforts and petty fears, that make ALL your choices, will have literally disappeared. Then it would be a simple matter to judge everything at the moment as if it was a memory you have as you are about to DIE, the most popular of all ANCIENT mechanisms to develop THIS SELF-RESPECT – THE ‘LAST JUDGEMENT’ APPROACH SO BELOVED BY CHRISTIANITY, to constantly see your own shadow AS A REFLECTION OF THE QUALITY OF YOUR ACTIONS IN THE MOMENT. Still works of course, and works well, but you’ll never do it – YOU’RE AN ANIMAL, BECAUSE YOU LIVE AN AN ANIMAL LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, so everything is just more momentary, instinctive B/S.

BUT MAYBE YOU HAVE ONE THING GOING FOR YOU – many of you will be STARTING TO EXPERIENCE MORE AND MORE FAILURE, AND I MEAN continual, low-level failure in many different aspects of your life, BECAUSE YOUR POWERS ARE DECLINING, BUT ‘YOU’ DON’T KNOW WHY. Best way to say it for the Unschooled is that you notice you are becoming ‘DRAWN TIGHTER’ in some way RELATED TO WHAT IS ‘BEST ABOUT YOU’, whether that is Spiders around your eyes, an awkwardness of manner, an emotional fragility, leading to a vague desire to ‘DISAPPEAR’ – you now strain to do what was once easy, however much you made it easy by aiming beneath yourself. It’s ironic really, however much your FAKE YOU strives to make SELF-DESTRUCTION easy for you, your decline will eventually make even that NASTY shit a source of conflict and challenge – so you ‘race to the bottom of your life’, get lower and lower BELOW YOUR NATURAL SPIRITUAL RANK, what we call ‘chasing death’ BY RUNNING AWAY.

In truth, your life has become VERY small, your bottle has gone and you are INCREASINGLY SCARED, ALL THE TIME – your failure is SELF-INFLICTED. BUT, at a certain level of failure, of being unable to DO WHAT YOU USED TO DO ANYMORE, you will become conscious that YOU MUST CHANGE IN SOME WAY TO SURVIVE, and that is really useful, but again you are stuck with a set of patterns that went out of date 20 years ago, so you CAN’T EVEN START TO CHANGE – THERE IS NO ACCIDENTAL WAY OUT OF THIS TRAP. This is WHAT WE CALL YOUR SWEET SPOT, the best time to try and help you, AS YOU WANT TO BE HELPED, AS YOUR ‘REAL YOU’ WILL KNOW THERE IS LITTLE TIME LEFT – you are only at the top of the bell curve of the GIFTED LIFE FOR A MOMENT, a year or so AT MOST. And the drop afterward CAN GET VERY STEEP INDEED – YOU GET THE ‘NOSE BLEEDS’, MANY EVEN GET ‘VERTIGO’, AS THEY ACTUALLY SENSE THEIR OWN ‘FREE FALL’.

Yes, know that at a certain level of ‘decline into old age’ (about 35-40y/o for most these days), when your RATE of loss of gift speeds up because YOU HAVE PASSED THE THRESHOLD WHERE YOUR GIFT CAN NOT BE TOPPED UP VIA REST AND RECUPERATION – THERE IS NOT ENOUGH LEFT TO FILL WHAT YOU LOSE VIA ABUSE every day. In time you will ‘GET THE SHAKES’, YOU become increasingly FLAKEY – scared of ‘unexpected noise’, of ‘bad people’, of ‘electricity’, of ‘speed’, of the fucking ‘stairs in your house’, let alone ‘the dark’ – YOUR DECLINE approaches your MENTAL collapse INTO ’emptiness’. You will no longer entirely wake up from your nightmares, their unreal anxiety will continue on in your mind through your day, as some vague bad mood, but you will not remember why or what happened, so you think it is real AND YOU GET REALLY SCARED. See YOUR FEAR BETRAYS YOU, like the rest of your personality has been doing for years…

It is a truly awful thing to watch someone beg to be helped after it is too late, after they can no longer focus on anything without a strong emotional component, when they have become a wind-up toy, WHEN THEY ARE UGLY AND OLD AND ILL AND BROKEN. See you won’t care about being GIFTED then, what you could DO BEFORE, you won’t even remember it, YOU WILL ONLY CARE ABOUT SOMEONE TAKING YOUR PAIN AWAY. See you are desperate, so you are done, medication is all that IS left, and of course our regret at your failure to SEE THAT, RIGHT NOW, AS YOU READ THIS SO YOU CAN TRY AND CHANGE.

See I know you think you want to go out like Jimmy D, to ‘live fast, die young and leave a good-looking corpse’ (YAWN…), BUT YOU DON’T, its a trite ‘Walter Mitty’ fantasy of being Rock’nRoll YOU DELUDE YOURSELF WITH, THAT YOU DREAM OF BEING BECAUSE IT NEVER BECOMES REALITY – you are a PUSSY, and all your BRAVE internal WORDS are just COMFORTERS, it’s so obvious it’s frankly slightly sickening for the rest of us. See actual BadAssess don’t dream of being ‘Badass’, they dream of being JUST, RIGHTEOUS, honorable – you never ‘want’ to be what you KNOW YOU already are, you want to be BETTER…

IN ALL TRUTH, KNOW –

WHETHER YOU ARE HAPPY OR UNHAPPY WITH ‘THE WAY YOU ARE’, IT WILL DEGRADE FURTHER AND FURTHER, SPEEDING UP TO THE POINT THAT YOUR MENTAL HEALTH DECLINES BEYOND THE POINT YOU CAN STILL ACT ON A DECISION.

SEE FOR THE GIFTED CHANGE IS NECESSARY, EVERYTHING ELSE IS DECLINE AND DEATH – YOU LOSE YOURSELF WHEN YOU STOP STRUGGLING. THE 3RD LAW OF THERMODYNAMICS WAITS FOR US ALL – WITHOUT CHANGE, CONFLICT, CHALLENGE EVERYTHING IN THE UNIVERSE DEGRADES, SO LEFT TO YOUR OWN COMFORTABLE DEVICES YOU DISIPATE, YOU WILL SIMPLY FADE AWAY, AND EVERYTHING YOU HAVE WILL BE ‘LOST, LIKE TEARS IN RAIN’ (SORRY, RUTGER), LIKE YOU NEVER EXISTED AT ALL. MANY OF YOU WILL GO QUIETLY INSANE WAY BEFORE THAT HAPPENS VIA THIS PROCESS…

But BE HAPPY – WHEN SUCCESSFUL, THIS POST WILL HAVE CHANGED YOU ENOUGH TO ‘START’, and you will need no further motivation. But you MUST NOT JUSTIFY WHAT YOU ‘ARE’ NOW, SO YOU CAN KEEP DOING IT. That is an animal thing, where everything shit about yourself is explained using some variant of ‘yes, but I survived’, or ‘yes, but I had fun’, or ‘yes, but it was them, not me’. RIGHT NOW YOU OWN YOUR SHITNESS, BECAUSE YOU DON’T THINK YOU HAVE A CHOICE, but those are just lies FAKE YOU tells yourself to stay fat, happy and comfortably numb in your own mediocrity and delusion – it is a TRAP.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND? – THIS POST IS A THOUGHT MACHINE, BUT YOU MUST LET IT WORK BY NOT TENSING AGAINST IT, YOU MUST BELIEVE EVERY SINGLE WORD AND SEE IT IN YOURSELF, SEE THE ‘YOU’ THAT IS ‘NOT YOU’, THE YOU THAT WANTS YOU TO BURN OUT, THE YOU THAT SEEKS YOUR DEMISE AND THEN DECIDE TO CRUSH THE BITCH.        

Today, I need to AWAKEN the DESIRE IN YOU TO CHANGE and EXPLORE YOURSELF AS YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE, BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE.

Then I need to show you HOW to CONTINUOUSLY CHANGE AS AN OVERALL APPROACH TO LIFE, A LIFE OF NEW, OF BETTER – THE LIFE OF THE ARTIST, THE LIFE OF QUALITY, OF AESTHETIC BEAUTY, OF POWER.

THIS IS THE LIFE OF ‘POWER OVER YOURSELF’.

Yes, I’m going to help y’all TODAY, HELP YOU WITH ALL YOUR LITTLE PROBLEMS, AND SOME OF THE BIG FUCKERS TOO. BUT FIRST – I need to KNOW if you are SERIOUS, indeed, ‘YOU’ NEED TO KNOW IF YOU ARE SERIOUS, need to know if you have any INTRINSIC WORTH, ANY VALUE – are you ‘ABLE FOR THE FIGHT’.

Yes, you read it right, I SAID AWAKEN – THE MOTIVATION IS ALREADY IN YOU, SHOULD YOU BE GIFTED, indeed if it is not there then this SIMPLY WON’T WORK, as you won’t understand any of it, you will resist and resent it to the point you ‘blank’ it, and just cherry-pick the bits that you think are cool, instead of EMBRACING THE WHOLE THING.

Yes, sorry (not sorry), but Today I need to know if you are CONTENT with the vague, fluffy little goals of (a slightly) Longer Life, some 2nd hand Love, and the Pursuit of Relative, Drug-Induced Happiness (aka vacuous consumerism), the goals of a slave amongst BILLIONS of other slaves, a hostage to the FATES – IS THAT ALL YOU ARE, JUST ONE MORE SELF OBSESSED SLAVE, WHO EMBRACES THEIR OWN SHITNESS AS ‘YOU’? OR DO YOU WANT MORE THAN THAT?

YES – understand – YOU MUST ACCEPT THAT YOU ARE SHIT NOW otherwise reading the rest of this is pointless, learning HOW TO CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER is a waste of time unless it is at the FRONT OF YOUR MIND, ALL THE BLOODY TIME, UNLESS ITS ‘URGENT’. See, YOU HAVE TO DO THIS TO YOURSELF, you have no external discipline that can be FORCED ON YOU LIKE A MONK…

Got that? Great, as its really important you understand why you are SHIT AS that is a KEY PART OF CHANGING TO A BETTER YOU, CHANGING YOUR EXISTING PATTERNS THAT MAKE-UP WHAT WE LAUGHINGLY REFER TO AS YOUR ‘CHARACTER’, THAT ARE MAKING YOU AND KEEPING YOU SHIT – THAT IS THE FUNCTION OF THOSE FAKE PATTERNS, TO PROTECT THEMSELVES AND GROW STRONGER. 

See, right now you would not know ‘how to change’ if it bit you in the bloody face – YOU ARE BASIC, YOU HAVE ‘NO HIGHER CHARACTER’, no self-respect – YOU THINK LIFE IS A STAGE SHOW, so what you DO/THINK/FEEL ‘BEHIND THE SCENES’ DON’T MATTER, cause nobody sees it – there is NO NEED TO CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER because you are a SIMPLE MINDED TOOL, ONE MORE CLEVER FOOL WHO THINKS IN SOME REALLY PERVERSE WAY THEY ARE STILL COOL…

You don’t understand that what you think ‘behind the scenes’ is written on your face for all to see, because you are CONSTANTLY APOLOGIZING FOR IT, with that FLAKEY SHITBOX OF YOUR CONSCIOUS CHARACTER, while you chatter away like a monkey, TOTALLY UNAWARE OF YOUR WORDS, TONE AND FACIAL EXPRESSIONS. Yep, anyone serious can read you like a BOOK, or probably more to the point like a trashy Comic with lots of scantily clad pics, LITTLE narrative flow, AND ZERO ‘Character Development’.

Yes, you think life is all one, long external ‘con job’, YOU PRETEND FOR A LIVING, ITS ALL an ACT, BUT YOU ARE WRONG, ALL REAL LIFE IS INTERNAL, hell most of your external situations don’t even fucking exist, BECAUSE YOU THINK OTHERS ‘NOTICE’ YOU, YOUR OPINION – THEY DON’T, THEY JUST SEE WHAT YOU ‘DO’, AS THAT IS WHAT YOU ‘ARE’. So ‘you’ can NOT TRY at all, as there is no need to, no reason to, YOU THINK YOU CHANGE WHEN YOU JUST ADAPT YOUR EXISTING CHARACTER TO NEW circumstances because nobody has ever told you that YOUR EXPECTATIONS AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT ARE JUST ‘YOUR’ PERSONAL REALITY, NOBODY ELSE’S IS, they are not ‘actual’ reality, they are a dream you live in, AND NO ONE GIVES A SHIT- TO THE ANIMALS you are either a THREAT OR FOOD.

SO ALL OF THIS POST SO FAR IS JUST BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, you don’t understand a word of it, so far – YOU DON’T HAVE THE PATTERNS. See you have grown up NEVER NEEDING OR KNOWING the mechanism of CHARACTER CHANGE, which is what all real, permanent change is – IF YOUR CHARACTER, YOUR PATTERNS DON’T CHANGE, then all you are doing is ADAPTING your existing character, patterns to NEW EXTERNAL CIRCUMSTANCES AND PLAYING A ROLE. That’s just Fake change, a different you, THAT you are pretending to be for 20mins at the gym, WHICH IS ACTUALLY WORSE THAN NOT CHANGING AT ALL, because it becomes part of the delusion of ‘who you think you are’, today…

SEE, YOU MUST LEARN CHANGE, AS CHANGE ITSELF IS A NEW SKILL, and one you need to GET VERY GOOD AT IN ORDER TO USE IT, AND THEN learn all the other ones you will need on this ADVENTURE – CHANGE IS THE KEY TO THE PRISON DOOR THAT KEEPS YOU TRAPPED IN THE CAGE OF YOUR EGOIC PATTERNS. The ability to change your Character consciously is the key to learning EVERY SUPERNATURAL SKILL THERE IS, and there are actually quite a few of them, even at this early stage…

So at a conscious level, know Change is the KEY to EVERYTHING! The reason for this? On the 4th Way we don’t breakdown that Door of your CAGE like Buddhists (try to) do, we don’t hand ourselves over to (what we think) is God to become ‘Born Again’, we take that door apart, little by little, consciously, until we find that key screw, that little bit of ourselves that all the rest of our EGO hangs off, and then ‘rip it out’, so the entire CAGE LITERALLY DISAPPEARS, AND YOU ARE FREE.

See the ability to CHANGE makes everything else HAPPEN CONCIOUSLY, SO YOU CAN LEARN FROM IT, SEE WHAT IT IS, HOW TO DO IT OVER AND AGAIN. Forced, unconscious change can be done of course, and I have had to do it more than once, but it is very unpredictable and requires SUPERVISION, which you don’t have… SO TODAY ‘YOU’ NEED TO STEP UP, TAKE THE WHEEL AND STEER IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION, SO YOU CAN CHANGE YOURSELF, via CONTROLLING YOURSELF TO WHATEVER EXTENT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF RIGHT NOW, AS A PROJECT.

So first, TODAY YOU MUST ACCEPT YOU ARE SHIT IN COMPARISON TO WHAT YOU COULD BE AS A POINT OF PRINCIPLE – IT IS REQUIRED TO BREAK THE AUTOMATIC LINK BETWEEN ‘YOU’ AND ‘YOUR EGO’, your Fake Self, which is ‘NOT YOU’. Every time you realize you have JUST BEEN SHIT IN SOMEWAY, you must use that moment BY DISOWNING THAT RESULT – THAT WAS NOT YOU, THAT WAS FAKE YOU, Real You can do better, BECAUSE ‘YOU the observer’ DID NOT WANT THAT RESULT, so IT WAS your CHARACTER THAT failed you, NOT YOU.

PLEASE GET THIS NOW, otherwise, you will NEVER DO IT – YOU MUST GRASP THE MENTAL CONCEPT OF DISAVOWING WHAT WENT WRONG, WHAT YOU DID, THOUGHT, FELT AS FAKE, AND THEREFORE NOT ACT OUT THE NEXT SET OF PATTERNS, SO YOU CAN STOP THEM. You can no longer just accept BEING SHIT, BEING SHIT IS HUMILIATION AND DEATH. YES, This is easy to say, but hard to motivate yourself to DO, as you MUST REMEMBER to do it, so I must use my time today to BURN THIS ONTO YOUR MIND, via (vicious) repetition. AND I MEAN VICIOUS, CAUSE MANY OF YOU ARE DUMB AS FUCK…

See, I HAVE TO CONVINCE YOU TODAY TO DO SOMETHING YOU HAVE NEVER EVEN CONSIDERED and explain WHY IT IS SO SPECIAL, whilst quietly starting to ‘weed out’ many of the folks for whom there is already no hope for, on this path at least, and WHO WASTE TIME BY TRYING TO BE CLEVER, THE CON ARTISTS OF THE WORLD, who can never commit to ANYTHING, AND CREEP AROUND AS A SLAVE, oppressed by LIFE.

So understand now – GIFTED FOLKS ARE NOT MEANT TO BE ‘OPPRESSED BY LIFE’ (THAT IS SLAVERY), LIFE IS MEANT TO BE ‘OPPRESSED BY YOU’ (THAT IS ARISTOCRATIC), YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO ‘MAKE THINGS HAPPEN’, INSTEAD OF THINGS JUST ‘HAPPENING TO YOU’ – it’s A FUNDAMENTAL CHANGE IN ATTITUDE, ITS ACTUAL MAGIC NO LESS, and you must start to make that CHANGE today, BECAUSE YOU ARE MEANT TO HAVE THAT FEELING OF BEING ‘ON TOP OF THIS WORLD’ (Sorry, Labrinth), ALL THE MOTHERFUCKING TIME, not just when your Fake Self allows you to feel it via some extreme or other… 

Yes, I NEED YOU TO TEACH YOU SOME ‘MAGIC’ TODAY, TO USE YOUR OWN, ‘PERSONAL’ MAGIC TO ‘FIX YOURSELF’, TO CHANGE.

‘I need MAGIC for this?’, you gasp.. YEP, see the ONLY issue you SHOULD have is ‘HOW TO CHANGE CHARACTER’, which is actually VERY EASY as you will read in the NEXT post, but that is NOT THE REAL ISSUE TODAY – the issue is you lack the motivation to CHANGE YOURSELF IN THE FACE OF THE MASSIVE RESISTANCE OF YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER. See at your current Level of Consciousness, the Animal Level, YOU HAVE NO WILLPOWER, you are a collection of petty wills, the Vector Sum of all your momentary little fears/desires, forever shifting and often not adding up to any wanted desire at all – they either cancel each other out or point OFF IN SOME BIZARRE DIRECTION THAT IS NO USE TO ANYONE.

Worse, the constant competition between the FAKE instinctive Fear and Self Interests that control you is UNCONCIOUS, your silly justifications (should there be any at all) are all AFTER THE FACT, Fake You has already decided what you are going to DO, and will mobilize all its resources to ensure it HAPPENS TO YOU, EVEN DIRECTLY AGAINST YOUR OWN BEST INTERESTS. See, you NEVER REALLY DECIDE ANYTHING, your life just happens as an instinctive level reaction to external circumstances, YOU VIRTUALLY NEVER MAKE A CONSCIOUS CHOICE, hell, your Fake Self knows it can get you to run from your heart’s desire, WHAT YOU KNOW IS ‘MEANT TO BE’, by simply scaring you enough, AND YOU ACCEPT THIS AS A GOOD THING!

Yes, today we get to see HOW MUCH YOU WANT THIS, cause as per that lovely 4th way speech in Hamlet, (which is not really about suicide), you need to decide if you have what it takes to go looking for the ‘undiscovered country’ of your REAL SELF. See today you need to GET many things which are to do with a Left hand path ‘standard’, the DEEPER MEANING OF INFORMATION, so it BECOMES ‘KNOWLEDGE’, a secret, sacred GNOSIS, no less, as this POST IS MULTI-LAYERED and very POWERFUL on that basis.

See, THE BARD wrote all his stuff for people ‘IN THE KNOW’, via their CONSCIENCE-LEVEL emotions, folks who could FEEL THE TRUTH of the GIFTED human experience, he just used his little supernatural stories and political histories as vehicles to help EVOKE THOSE EMOTIONS – that is where his true genius lies, he copied the raison d’etre of GREEK TRAGEDY (Sorry, Nietzche). In his own sweet way he was trying to teach those WHO COULD BE REACHED VIA THAT MECHANISM, TRYING TO REACH ‘REAL YOU’…

But as per the words of that Danish Prince, the real question you are going to be asked and have to answer is actually very simple – ARE YOU MOTIVATED ENOUGH TO OVERCOME YOUR FEAR AND INERTIA AND ENGAGE IN THIS LEVEL OF CHARACTER CHANGE, SO YOU CAN STEP ONTO ‘THE ESCALATOR’ OF DEVELOPMENT, THE ‘FAST TRACK’ THAT WORKS BY ITSELF, that will then propel you UPWARDS whatever else you try and cling onto?

Right now the answer is, OF COURSE, ‘NO’ – the whole thing sounds both ridiculous and unnecessary, YOU THINK YOUR CHARACTER IS THE ONLY THING YOU’VE GOT, however fucked up you may already SEE yourself to BE – YOUR CHARACTER ‘PROTECTS YOU’ FROM EMOTIONAL HARM, MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD, CLEVER, RIGHT. And you are WRONG – YOU DON’T HAVE YOUR CHARACTER, YOUR CHARACTER ‘HAS YOU’, it’s a trap you fool – YOUR CHARACTER DOES NOT EXIST IN THE SENSE OF ‘YOU, THE THINKER’, YOUR CONDITIONED DECISIONS ONLY MAKE THE ILLUSION OF ‘YOU’ SEEM TO EXIST, BUT YOU ACTUALLY DON’T MAKE THOSE DECISIONS, THOSE DECISIONS ARE LAYER UPON LAYER OF UNCONCIOUS, CONDITIONED PATTERNS, BAKED IN DECADES AGO.

So my job today IS TO CONVINCE YOU THIS IS NOT MADNESS, INDEED ‘WHAT’ YOU HAVE BECOME IS MADNESS, BECAUSE IT IS A DELUSION, YOU ARE BEING FOOLED INTO THINKING YOU EXIST BY being fed THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS YOU DON’T HAVE, THINK OR FEEL. Worse, YOU BELEIVE THIS IS ALL YOU ARE, SO YOU HAVE TO MAKE ‘THE BEST OF IT’, your LIFE HAS BECOME AN EXERCISE IN COPING WITH ‘HOW SHIT YOU ARE’, every day, BECAUSE YOU DON’T THINK YOU CAN CHANGE IT…

SEE You think you are a GROWN-UP, STEERING YOUR CAR DOWN A STRAIGHT ROAD IN THE DAYTIME, but you are a LONELY, ONLY child, staring out the back window in the dark, turning your Fisher Price steering wheel INLINE WITH WHAT HAS ALREADY HAPPENED, in the exact opposite direction whilst making up names and stories for the shadows you see passing by, talking to them as if they people SO THEY LIKE YOU OR ARE SCARED OF YOU, rather than just the ‘cats eyes’ of little bugs and rodents, WHO SEE YOU AS LITTLE MORE THAN ‘THREAT’ OR ‘FOOD’. You have become HABITUATED TO MENTAL SLAVERY, nothing else exists for you anymore, BUT ONLY BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO WEAK AND STUPID TO CHANGE.

YOU ARE SHIT, SO I MUST MOTIVATE YOU TO CHASE CHARACTER CHANGE AS YOUR JOB 1 IN THIS LIFE.

I WILL SHOW YOU THAT YOUR CHARACTER IS NOT REAL, IT IS FAKE, SO THERE IS NOTHING TO LOSE, NOTHING TO DEFEND, IT IS ALL A FORM OF CONDITIONING YOU HAVE BOUGHT AS A CHILD, BECAUSE YOU ARE DELUDED, ALL DOMESTICATED ANIMALS ARE.

So today I am going to TEACH YOU SOME ZEN, IN A WAY THAT YOU CAN THEN DO CORRECTLY, EVERY DAY, BY YOURSELF.

WITH PRACTISE YOU WILL DISCOVER THAT YOUR ‘DELUSION OF CHARACTER’, OF ‘RATIONALE THOUGHT’, OF ‘FREEDOM OF CHOICE’ IS A VERY THIN VENEER INDEED… 

Yes, this process of CHARACTER CHANGE consists of no more than a simple MENTAL EXERCISE AT THE START, as I need to CHANGE YOUR MIND ABOUT WHAT CHARACTER ‘IS’, BY SHOWING YOU HOW ‘ACTUAL’ CHARACTER ‘FEELS’, as opposed to the FLAKEY, INSUBSTANTIAL, IMAGINARY SELF-OBSSESSED SHIT YOU HAVE NOW, the CHARACTER OF ‘NO’ CHARACTER – you are a MIRAGE, YOU ONLY APPEAR TO BE THERE, THERE IS SUBSTANCE BEHIND IT…

Better than that, AS PART OF THE PROCESS OF motivating you TO CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER’, I will teach you how to continually ‘REMOTIVATE YOURSELF TO CHANGE’, so you can RAPIDLY DEVELOP YOUR ‘GIFTED’ SELF WITH SOME CONFIDENCE, as that is your actual problem, as it is the ‘Doom of Men that they FORGET…’ (Sorry, Merlin). See CHARACTER CHANGE needs REPETITION, ONCE WON’T BE ENOUGH, indeed the world is full of failed GIFTED seekers who simply THINK THEY ARE BETTER, CAUSE they ‘DID IT’, ONCE…

And even better than that, I WILL SHOW YOU THAT ALL CHARACTER CHANGE IS ABOUT USING YOUR GIFT TO BE STRONGER SO YOU CAN USE THAT STRENGTH TO BE ‘BIGGER’. Yes, to be the ‘bigger person’ is not some 19th Century Aristocratic cliche, ITS REAL, INDEED ITS A DAMN SIGHT MORE REAL THAN YOU ARE RIGHT NOW, READING THIS.

See unless your CONSCIOUS MIND GETS BIGGER, you will find following the way of the Aristos to be very ‘Hit and Miss’, because your Fake Self WILL continually push you backward, BACK TO THE LIFE OF THE ‘PETTY VILLIAN’ YOU ARE RIGHT NOW, because you have nothing to latch onto, NO NEW FEELING TO USE AS A JUDGEMENT OF YOUR PROGRESS, so your motivation will ‘FADE TO BLACK’, and you remain STUCK IN YOUR EGO, A ‘DOMESTICATED ANIMAL’…

YOUR CHARACTER IS ‘FAKE YOU’, ALL YOUR CONDITIONED OPINIONS, JUDGMENTS AND PREFERENCES ARE AN UNNATURAL GROWTH ON YOU, LIKE A CANCER, SUCKING THE LIFE OUT OF YOU, TAINTING EVERYTHING YOU ARE. 

IT TAKES MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF ENERGY TO MAINTAIN FAKE YOU, ALL OF WHICH IT STEALS FROM YOU, MAKING YOU MUCH WEAKER AND HENCE MUCH SMALLER, SO YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS SMALL, PETTY, PIECEMEAL TRIVIA. 

WHEN YOU STOP BEING FAKE YOU, PARTICULARLY WHEN YOU LEARN TO STOP EXPRESSING THE TRIVIAL NEGATIVE EMOTIONS FAKE YOU USES TO MAINTAIN ITSELF, ALL OF THIS ENERGY RETURNS TO YOUR CONSCIOUS LIFE, VERY QUICKLY.

WHEN YOU TEACH YOURSELF TO FEEL THIS ‘RUSH’, YOU HAVE A REFERENCE POINT TO USE TO IDENTIFY THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN REAL, NATURAL YOU, AND FAKE UNNATURAL YOU. THEN YOU COMBINE THIS MENTAL PROCESS WITH THE DETAILED KNOWLEDGE IN THIS POST THAT SHOWS YOU YOUR ‘FAKE YOU’ DOES NOT ACTUALLY EXIST, AND CHARACTER CHANGE BECOMES VERY EASY, EXCITING AND PLEASUREABLE.

SEE, right now YOU’RE SHIT, SO YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT, SO YOUR WHOLE LIFE BECOMES ABOUT DOING ILL SHIT TO TRY AND FEEL A BIT LESS SHIT FOR A MOMENT, BUT WHEN YOU STOP ACTUALLY BEING SHIT, YOU FEEL A WHOLE LOT BETTER, STRAIGHTAWAY… 

See, when you make progress with RAPID CHARACTER CHANGE, it is NOT just the overwhelming feeling of RELIEF YOU GET, which is all that energy you WASTE MAINTAINING FAKE YOU returning into your ‘conscious experience’, YOU ACTUALLY GET TO FEEL LIKE YOU AGAIN, the natural you that is HIDDEN UNDER ALL YOUR FAKE CONDITIONING, all your petty FALSE preferences, opinions, desires that you work so hard to justify, to remember, to use in order to be right, be good, be cool, NONE OF WHICH IS NATURAL FOR YOU.

Yes, you will find that it is MUCH, MUCH EASIER TO BE NATURAL YOU, Fake You is a massive drain on your energy, and at a certain point literally starts to kill you… But you must DO THIS MENTAL PROCESS AND YOU MUST BE CONVINCED TO GIVE UP ALL YOUR FAKE CRAP DURING THIS SELF-CARE PROCESS, otherwise, it won’t work – you must BE MOTIVATED TO ‘STOP LISTENING TO YOUR CONDITIONING’.  

Yes, I know it helps a lot if your GIFTED LIFE IS ALREADY ON THE DOWN SLOPE, that you already suspect there is a deeper reason you just CAN’T DO IT anymore, that everything and everyone you touch turns to SHIT, your fabled luck/health/friends/looks/smarts/wealth have deserted you, that you are the family/office joke now, that your partner has found ‘you out’ so is making other plans, that you have become a trite liberal cliche desperate for ‘likes’, that folks have started to ‘back away’ from you because you are no longer some BADASS ‘gangsta of love’, just the ‘oldest swinger in town’, all ‘muffin top’ and glassy-eyed ‘Resting Bitch Face’…

YES, in truth, your issues with MOTIVATION GET MUCH EASIER to fix WHEN its OBVIOUS EVEN TO YOU that your EGO has BETRAYED you and no longer knows what to do EXCEPT ‘race to the bottom’ of your little world and FEED ITSELF, because it DOES NOT GIVE A SHIT what happens to you NOW, up to and including your death.

See, there comes a time in all GIFTED LIVES when suddenly, out of the blue you notice you are LESS THAN YOU WHERE, THAT SOME JUDGEMENT OF QUALITY, of what is ‘good about you’, that you used to have in abundance is now less, which in truth all comes from being ‘LESS ABLE’ IN A WAY YOU PREVIOUSLY NEEDED YOUR GIFT TO ‘DO’. See, it is NOT ACTUALLY OLD AGE THAT HAS CAUSED THAT, OR DISEASE, OR INJURY OR TIREDNESS – YOU FEEL LESS ABLE BECAUSE YOUR GIFT HAS ‘DECLINED’, YOU HAVE USED IT HARD without REPLENISHING IT. In reality FAKE YOU HAS STOLEN IT, AND GIVEN YOU NOTHING IN RETURN, FOR LITERALLY DECADES, so you are fucked. Indeed, for many highly gifted this happens quite YOUNG, EVEN IN YOUR 30S, SO YOU NEVER KNOW IF THAT IS ‘YOU’, SCREAMING INTO THE MIRROR, OR JUST ANOTHER ‘BAD NIGHT’ WHERE YOU LOST CONTROL…

Sure, it’s not necessary, no need to have descended into passive-aggressive ‘wokeness’, no need to be dominated by the need for SO MUCH CREEPY attention, for IMAGINARY ‘power over others’, even your treasured DRUG FUELLED ‘oblivion’. Yes, No need to accept you are just one more animal, SO PROUD OF YOUR ‘Self-Obsession’, your delight in those ‘pathetic birds calls in the jungle’, (you constantly check your socials for) to REVIVE YOU, DAY IN, DAY OUT. Yes, I know some of you may have a ‘PLATFORM’, A HIGH OPINION OF YOURSELF, WHAT YOU THINK YOU HAVE ACHIEVED, and you can never give that up, otherwise you are just ‘LITTLE PEOPLE’ (Sorry, Blade Runner). So take a quick look at Tik-Tok, see how Hedonism has moved on, see how much you could of earned, and know that you would not even RATE A MENTION AMONGST THESE KIDS, you are SO FLAKEY NOW, you are NOTHING – YOU ARE YESTERDAYS SOCIAL MEDIA TROPE…

See, much as it will be HARDER TO REACH normal YOU, IT WILL BE EASIER TO HELP YOU, EVENTUALLY, given you can make the choice to RE-INVENT YOURSELF, TO SIT DOWN ONE QUIET SUNDAY AFTERNOON AND DECIDE THAT THE LAST 10-15YEARS OF YOUR NASTY LITTLE LIFE NEVER HAPPENED, BECAUSE YOU GET IT NOW – YOU CAN SEE YOU WHERE ‘UNSCHOOLED GIFTED’, JUST DOING THE BEST YOU COULD, but now you know better. NOW YOU REALIZE YOU HAVE BEEN CONNED INTO SELF DESTRUCTION, BUT YOU STILL HAVE ENOUGH SPIRIT LEFT TO ‘FIGHT’, and anyway, LETS FACE IT, without your secret life you ARE going to NEED SOMETHING ELSE TO DO…

Yeah, sure, you have been CONNED, and what a BIG DEAL that is (NOT), you just need to see that YOUR EGO WAS NEVER DESIGNED TO PROTECT YOUR FEELINGS AS YOU WANTED, IT HAS BEEN GASLIGHTING YOU FOR YEARS, WHILE IT TRAFFCIKED YOUR ASS TO FEED ITSELF, BUT NOW EVEN THAT ILLUSION HAS GONE. Yes, all Development gets much easier when you realize THAT THE BILL HAS COME DUE, and you have no idea how to pay it, SO YOU HAVE TO CHANGE or BURN. But its more than that, see you can motivate anybody to do anything if you simply make it impossible to stay the way they are and give them some energy, and its easy to put a match under anyones ‘peace of mind’ IN PERSON, but that won’t be enough for this REMOTE LEARNING APPROACH – ‘you’ need to be MOTIVATED.

I DO HOWEVER, hope you have finally REALIZED YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN IN THIS LIFE… That all those people AROUND YOU IN YOUR ‘ANIMAL SOCIETY’, who do not understand you, NEED YOU to be LESS THAN YOU ARE, THAT THEY WISH TO TAME YOU EVEN MORE, BECAUSE THAT IS WHERE THEIR SENSE OF SELF COMES FROM – THE MAGIC OF YOU. Ironic really, given the FACT THAT YOU ARE MORE THAN THEM IS WHY THEY WANT TO BE WITH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE, yet they will move heaven and earth to DEMEAN YOU, crush you, humiliate you, JUST FOR THE THRILL OF IT. See, that is all they have… YOU, the perception that they OWN something special, MUCH AS SADLY YOU WILL NEED TO GO ALONG WITH THAT A WHILE LONGER YET, however much you will come to LOATHE THE LITTLE CUNTS, IT IS BETTER JUST TO PLAN YOUR REVENGE, AT THE BEGINNING AT LEAST…

See YOU HAVE ‘WASHED UP’ HERE, LOOKING FOR SOMETHING FOR A REASON, and that’s great, that FAB, as this should actually be the rest of you life, IF ‘YOU’ HAVE THE COURAGE FOR THIS. TO BE ABLE TO GET PASSED YOUR FEAR OF FAILURE, FEAR OF THE FUTURE, FEAR OF YOUR HEARTS DESIRE – YOUR FEAR OF losing the LITTLE YOU HAVE, THAT DOMINATES THE DOMESTICATED ANIMAL EXPERIENCE OF LIFE, that defines the life of a SLAVE, WHICH ARE ALL CONS USED BY YOUR FAKE SELF TO CONTROL YOU, TO HERD YOU DOWN THE PATH IT WANTS YOU TO GO.

See, I know from long experience of the DARKER ARTS OF ZEN, that the only way to enable YOU TO CONVINCE YOURSELF TO ENGAGE IN CHARACTER CHANGE is to show you, beyond any doubt, that YOU HAVE ‘NOTHING’ TO LOSE BECAUSE ‘YOUR’ VISIBLE CHARACTER, WHAT YOU THINK YOU ARE, IS AN ILLUSION, AND THAT YOU HAVE A FAKE, INVISIBLE CHARACTER THAT IN TOTAL CONTROL OF YOU, and then SHOW YOU HOW TO CHANGE IN TOTAL PRIVACY, SAFTEY and SECRECY, whilst maintaining your current existence.

Be clear – it’s important AT THE START THAT you don’t make the classic RELIGIOUS MISTAKE – TO BELIEVE YOU HAVE A REAL GOOD AND REAL BAD SELF AT YOUR CURRENT LEVEL, the fabled ‘shoulder angels of the Muslims’, that are constantly at WAR. This POST IS ABOUT RADICAL CHARACTER CHANGE, that back-and-forth crap is FOR CONDITIONING ANIMALS, SLAVES – this is Zen. So KNOW THAT YOUR ‘CONSCIOUS SELF’ YOU THINK IS GOOD, AND YOUR ‘UNCONCIOUS SELF’ YOU MAY WISH TO THINK IS BAD ARE JUST 2 DIFFERENT EXPERIENCES OF THE EXACT SAME THING AN ANIMAL LEVEL – YOUR FAKE SELF IS AN UNCONCIOUS SET OF PATTERNS, YOUR CONSCIOUS SELF IS JUST YOUR RETROSPECTIVE JUSTIFICATION FOR THOSE SAME PATTERNS. THEY ARE BOTH FAKE YOU, HOWEVER DIFFERENT THEY APPEAR TO YOU, you are just too WEAK AND STUPID TO SEE IT.

PLEASE – DO NOT GET LOST IN ‘PERSONAL MORALITY’, you have no bloody morals, you are an alley cat, a VILLIAN – AT YOUR LEVEL WHATEVER MORALITY YOU HAVE is simply to fit in publically while you think/feel/do whatever creepy shit you get away with, THE MORALITY OF A SLAVE. YOU HAVE NO VALUES, NO CHARACTER, THEY ARE A FALSE IMPRESSION, so it does not matter what you (YOUR PATTERNS) think of this, THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS AT YOUR LEVEL IS ‘NATURAL’ AND ‘UNNATURAL’, growth or decline, in TRUTH ALL REAL MORALITY AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL IS ABOUT:   

 ALL DEVELOPMENT COMES DOWN TO THE SELF-CARE OF NATURAL YOU Vs THE SELF-DESTRUCT OF UNNATURAL YOU.

THE UNNATURAL YOU IS THE UNCONSCIOUS ‘FAKE YOU’, THE INVISIBLE SET OF PATTERNS THAT ARE IN CONTROL.

CONSCIOUS FAKE YOU IS THE VISIBLE SUBSET OF THOSE SAME PATTERNS YOU USE TO JUSTIFY YOUR CONDITIONED BEHAVIOUR.

YOUR PERSONALITY, AS YOU THINK IT IS, IS A LIE BASED ON A LIE, YOU DON’T EXIST, YOU ARE ONE BIG REACTIONARY MESS, A FANTASIST. YOU ARE A BAD JOKE, LIVING IN A BAD DREAM, YOU NEED TO WAKE UP FROM – THIS ‘DREAM OF YOU’ DOES NOT EXIST.

TAKE A MOMENT TO FEEL THE HORROR OF THIS…

YOUR CONSCIOUS CHARACTER IS A PASSIVE DELUSION INTENDED TO HIDE YOUR ACTIVE, UNCONSCIOUS CHARACTERS SELF-DESTRUCTION OF YOU, FROM YOU.

YES, YOU ARE THAT STUPID, ALL DOMESTICATED ANIMALS ARE – YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS ‘DENY, DENY, DENY…’

YOU ARE A BLOODY FOOL who has accepted the CON OF FAKE YOU without question, just an ‘actor on a stage’, following a script that was just GIVEN TO YOU, OUT OF NOWHERE, WITH NO EXPLANATION, BUT YOU JUST READ IT OUT ANYWAY… Once you UNDERSTAND THIS, THE HORROR OF NOT ONLY BEING A FAKE ‘NOTHING’, BUT YOUR WHOLE PERSONALITY IS BASED ON BEING AN ‘APOLOGIST’ FOR BEING NOTHING, you will find it is quite easy to engage in CHARACTER CHANGE BECAUSE YOU WILL REALLY WANT TO – you’re AN EMBARRASSMENT, YOU HUMILIATE YOURSELF AS A FORM OF FUN, and when you feel that BURN ALL THE TIME you will seek to escape it.

Trust me, as a Teacher it can be incredibly hard TO ENGAGE WITH THE UNSCHOOLED BUT highly GIFTED at the start, AS THEIR SELF DESTRUCTION, DRIVEN BY THIS CONTINUAL NEED FOR ‘SELF-HUMILIATION’ IS truly sickening TO WATCH – YOUR FAKE SELF ACTUALLY LAUGHS AT YOU, THROUGH YOUR OWN MOUTH, as everyone else claps along, because they can’t believe their luck. Much as I understand many of you will need to go on FEEDING YOUR DEMON until you get way stronger via ‘Character Change’, it does help a lot at the start to be SICKENED BY THIS at the time, as it helps to see your immediate justifications for it as the low-quality bullshit they are, as that HELPS YOU TO SEE ‘FAKE YOU’, IN THE MOMENT IT IS ACTIVELY CONTROLLING YOU, and therefore it’s NOT YOU, because it comes and goes.

Yes, we are not religious on the Left-Hand path, we don’t try and humble you before a Creator God, to see yourself as the ‘Powerless’ little muppet you are, little more than Cannon Fodder, and therefore hand yourself over to his ‘will’. We do this another way, we get you to see that your ‘God the Father’ is within you, it is REAL YOU, passed down from ages past – it is ‘YOU THE OBSERVER’. It is A PERSONAL GOD that all GIFTED HAVE, THAT YOU CAN CHOOSE TO BE AS AND WHEN YOU WISH, once you know how to find it.

Therefore you, the animal, the ego, the job, the relationships, the clothes, the car, the past/present/future of you is ALL ‘NOT YOU’, it is external to you – all your fake self CAN BE TAKEN FROM YOU IN A HEARTBEAT, but REAL YOU, is you forever, AND IS VERY DIFFERENT, VERY SEPARATE AND VERY POWERFUL. But right now you don’t SEE that, because you live in the cage of FAKE YOU, you are SELF-OBSESSED because you have no other reference point – YOUR CONSCIOUS LIFE IS ALL ONE LONG JUSTIFICATION AND APOLOGY FOR BEING SHIT, your CHARACTER IS JUST A ‘PR’ TRYING TO COVER EVERYTHING UP, trying to conceal the truth of ‘Unconcious You…’, YOU THE WANKER.

SO ‘SEE’, YOUR DOMESTICATED ANIMAL CHARACTER IS FAKE YOU, YOU ARE ‘AN ILLUSION’ – there is NOTHING THERE, THERE NEVER WAS, so you HAVE ‘NO CHARACTER’ TO LOSE by changing, and EVERYTHING TO GAIN. But you are still going to need to be BRAVE because your ‘FEAR’ HAS BEEN BRED INTO YOU, THIS ‘CONDITIONED YOU’, YOUR FAKE SELF, won’t just disappear overnight, you will have to FIGHT IT, and you will need to know how to do that, KNOW HOW TO WIN THOSE FIGHTS, WHICH IS WHAT I CALL ‘HABITUAL MOTIVATION’, ACTIVE MOTIVATION…

So… can YOU face THE TRUTH OF THIS: YOU’RE SHIT – 

Your False Self, DEVELOPED AND CONDITIONED IN CHILDHOOD TO PROTECT YOU FROM EMOTIONAL PAIN and CHASE PLEASURE, HAS BETRAYED YOU, BECAUSE IT IS NOT YOU, IT IS JUST PRETENDING TO BE YOU VIA ‘INBOUND’ THOUGHTS AND SENSATIONS. 

But it is not REAL YOU THAT IS SHIT, NOT ‘WHAT’ YOU ‘ARE’, IT IS ‘WHO’ YOU HAVE ‘BECOME’ – A SET OF PETTY EGOIC PATTERNS YOU THINK IS YOU – EGO IS NOT HIGH ENOUGH TO BE CHARACTER, EGO CONSCIOUSNESS IS AN ANIMAL LEVEL.

KNOW NOW THAT CHANGE IS NOT EVEN THAT HARD, BUT ONLY WHEN YOU GET THAT ‘YOU’, YOUR FAKE YOU, DOES NOT ACTUALLY EXIST – SO THERE IS ‘NO YOU’, AND YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WISH, AFTER YOU STOP LISTENING TO YOUR CONDITIONING.

YES – YOU HAVE BEEN CONNED, BUT IT IS ONLY YOUR ‘WEAKNESS’, YOUR INABILITY TO STAND AGAINST EVEN MILD DISCOMFORT, LET ALONE FEAR, AND YOUR ‘STUPIDITY’ AT NOT BEING QUICK ENOUGH TO SEE THOSE CONS BEING USED ON YOU IN REAL TIME, THAT DEFEAT YOU.

SO KNOW NOW THAT THE GIFTED CAN BEAT THAT SHIT, IF THEY ARE MOTIVATED TO TRY.

TODAY, THIS POST ON MOTIVATION WILL DEAL WITH YOUR ‘STUPIDITY’, BY GIVING YOU THE PATTERNS TO SEE IT AND MOTIVATE YOU, THE NEXT POST WILL DEAL WITH YOUR ‘WEAKNESS’, BY TEACHING YOU HOW TO RAISE YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS. SO BURN THIS INTO YOUR MIND NOW – YOU ARE SHIT BECAUSE YOU ARE ‘WEAK AND STUPID’, SO REMEMBER WHY YOU ARE WEAK AND WHY YOU ARE STUPID, SHRED SOME LIGHT ONTO THE TRIVIA THAT IS FAKE YOU, BECAUSE AT THE BEGINNING IT IS GOOD TO KNOW WHY YOU ARE STILL DOING STUPID SHIT, EVEN WHEN YOU KNOW ITS STUPID SHIT.

SEE ONCE YOU REALISE THIS, ONCE YOU MAKE IT REAL, YOU WILL HAVE NO PROBLEM ‘MENTALLY’ CHANGING TO THE HIGHER LEVEL OF THE ‘SELF-CONSCIOUS NOBODY’, WHENEVER YOU CAN, SO YOU CAN START TO TRUST YOURSELF AGAIN. I KNOW IT IS COUNTERINTUITIVE, BUT TO BE A CONSCIOUS NOBODY IS STILL A VERY BIG STEP UP FROM A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL.

NO MATTER HOW DISCONCERTING THIS FEELS AT THE START, ONCE YOU GET THAT YOU ARE LITTLE MORE THAN A DELUDED SELF-DESTRUCTIVE ROBOT, YOU WILL NO LONGER VALUE YOUR FAKE SELF AT ALL, SO FRANKLY BEING ANYTHING ELSE WILL BE VERY ATTRACTIVE, PARTICULARLY WHEN YOU BECOME ADDICTED TO THE FEELING OF ‘RELIEF’ THAT UNDERLIES THIS NEW STATE. 

Now its important you get what we mean by ACTIVE MOTIVATION because otherwise, this post will just be information you need to ‘remember to be motivated’, as you have NO WILLPOWER AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL OF CONCIOUSNESS. And you won’t remember, BECAUSE YOUR FAKE SELF ACTS LIKE A GANG OF LITTLE SPIDERS IN YOUR BRAIN, THAT COVERS EVERYTHING WITH WEBS, SLOWLY BUT SURELY, AND THIS INFORMATION WILL SLOWLY FADE OUT OF YOUR MIND BEHIND THESE WEBS. Your FAKE SELF’S NUMBER 1 TRICK IS ALWAYS TO WEAKEN AND THEN MAKE YOU FORGET ANYTHING THAT THREATENS IT, even (ESPECIALLY) if its your HEARTS DESIRE…

Worse, those SPIDERS USE THEIR WEBS TO HERD YOU WHERE THEY WANT TO GO, TO REMOVE YOUR OTHER OPTIONS BY BLANKING THEM OUT AND/OR MAKING THEM SEEM SCARY, AND EVENTUALLY, THEY DISAPPEAR ALL TOGETHER AS OPTIONS – YOU LIVE IN A TUNNEL OF SPIDERS WEBS, WHERE ONLY THE ‘EASIEST OPTION’ IS EVEN POSSIBLE BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO WEAK AND STUPID TO KNOW ANY BETTER. It is a useful trick to remember that everything that seems scary in the moment that does not involve the threat of immediate LOSS, USUALLY ALL CHARACTER CONFLICT OR CHALLENGE, is a SPIDER, FUCKING WITH YOU…

You accept this process because you have been DOMESTICATED SINCE BIRTH, INDEED YOU HAVE BEEN DOMESTICATED TO BE DOMESTICATED, TO ACCEPT YOUR REPETITIVE CONDITIONING AS TRUTH, TO THE POINT THAT IT BECOMES WHAT WE CALL ‘FALSE INSTINCT’. See a long time ago YOUR REAL SELF, YOUR SPIRIT WAS BROKEN, AND YOU STOPPED THINKING FOR YOURSELF, AND NOW THINK IN A CONDITIONED WAY – YOUR THOUGHTS/FEELINGS JUST APPEAR AS ‘TRUTHS’ IN YOUR MIND, THERE IS NO RATIONAL PROCESS OF QUESTIONING STUFF, much as you con yourself you do THINK in retrospect.

This IS HOW FAKE YOU replaced REAL YOU as a child, replaced THE SPIRIT OF THE GIFTED WITH THE CONDITIONING OF A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, because that is what you were taught, and had to conform too, SO IT BECAME A HABIT. So however HATEFUL IT IS, WE HAVE TO USE THIS SAME HABITUAL PROCESS TODAY TO HELP BREAK YOUR CONDITIONING BECAUSE THAT IS ALL YOU HAVE, OTHERWISE WE WILL FAIL TO CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER, AS YOUR FAKE SELF WILL KILL YOUR MOTIVATION.

So this HABITUAL MOTIVATION I AM TEACHING YOU TODAY CONTAINS A PROCESS YOU MUST DO IN ORDER TO BUILD IT UP AS A HABIT, CONTINUALLY RETRIGGERING THIS MOTIVATION UNTIL IT GETS A FOOT HOLD IN YOUR DOMINANT SET OF PATTERNS, and you start to do it AS A REACTION WHEN IT IS TRIGGERED. In this way the PROCESS OF MOTIVATION CAN WORK VERY EFFECTIVELY, BUT YOU MUST STILL FUCKING DO IT, otherwise, your SPIDERS WILL GET IT, AND YOU FAIL…

BE VERY CLEAR ABOUT THIS –

TODAY I AM TEACHING YOU TO CONTINUALLY ‘REMOTIVATE YOURSELF TO CHANGE’, SO YOU CAN DO THE 2ND BIT OF THE PROCESS AND RAISE YOUR LEVEL, OTHERWISE YOUR SPIDERS WILL STOP YOU, AND YOU WILL FORGET, AND THAT WILL DOOM YOU..

THIS PROCESS OF REMOTIVATION IS VERY SIMPLE, BUT YOU MUST HIT IT HARD AT THE START, YOU MUST BURN THIS PATTERN IN, SO IT CAN BECOME A NEW MENTAL CENTRE OF GRAVITY WE CAN BUILD YOUR DEPUTY STEWARD AROUND LATER.

UNDERSTAND – I MUST USE YOUR TENDENCY TO HABITUAL THOUGHT TO CREATE A HABIT IN YOU IN ORDER TO BREAK YOUR TENDENCY TO HABITUAL THOUGHT – I MUST GET YOU TO CREATE ‘GAPS’ IN YOUR THOUGHTS, YOUR PATTERNS TO DO THIS.

AT THE START YOU MUST USE THE TRIGGER OF ‘BOREDOM’ TO ENGAGE IN A MENTAL PROCESS TO GET RELIEF FROM THAT BOREDOM SO CREATING THOSE GAPS, IT IS THE QUICKEST OF MANY WAYS – YOU MUST LOAD THIS MOTIVATION WITH EMOTIONAL WEIGHT.

THOSE GAPS ARE WHAT YOU NEED TO DO TO CHANGE, TO BREAK YOUR SHIT ‘FAKE YOU’ CONDITIONING, OTHERWISE YOU WILL NEVER SEE IT AND NEVER DO THE REST OF IT.

SEE VIRTUALLY NO ONE SUCCEEDS IN DEVELOPMENT BY FIGHTING THEIR SPIDERS DIRECTLY AT THE START, YOU NEED TO BE WAY STRONGER AND HENCE BIGGER CONSCIOUSLY TO SEE THEM, AND THEY WILL STOP YOU LONG BEFORE YOU GET THERE. HOWEVER, YOU CAN STOP FAKE YOU’S ATTACK ON YOU, YOU CAN BURN DOWN THOSE WEBS, AND THAT WILL ALLOW YOU TO ESCAPE YOUR FAKE PATTERNS FOR LONG ENOUGH TO BUILD NEW ONES, SO YOU CAN GET MUCH BIGGER, THEN YOU CAN SEE.

ONCE YOU CAN SEE, VIA THE PROCESS IN THE NEXT POST, YOU CAN START KILLING SPIDERS, BY EITHER CRUSHING THEM OR STARVING THEM TO DEATH, AND YOU WILL NOT NEED ANY MOTIVATION AT THAT POINT.   

DO YOU SEE YET?

YOU’RE SHIT… BECAUSE YOU ARE ‘WEAK’ AND ‘STUPID’, SO QUESTION THAT WEAKNESS AND QUESTION THAT STUPIDITY IN THE MOMENT, AND START TO STOP BEING SHIT BY KNOWING THAT YOUR FAKE YOU DOES NOT EXIST, HAS NO POWER, SO HAS TO CON YOU INTO GIVING IT YOURS. FAKE YOU IS A PARASITE ON YOU, IT’S NOT YOU, IT IS A SELF-CREATED DEMON, YOUR SHADOW, A PERVERTED SET OF LIMITING BELIEFS THAT CONTROLS THE INSTINCTIVE ANIMAL IN YOU – A GANG OF SPIDERS. THAT IS NOT CHARACTER, THAT IS A FORM OF POSSESSION – TO HAVE CHARACTER, TO BE ONE ENTITY, IS ONLY POSSIBLE AT A HIGHER LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS.

BUT BE VERY CLEAR, YOU HAVE TO FIX BOTH, SEEING FAKE YOU WITH NO POWER TO STOP IT WILL DRIVE YOU MAD, LEAD TO SERIOUS DEPRESSION AND POSSIBLE SELF-HARM. MAKING YOU STRONGER WITHOUT BREAKING YOUR FAKE YOU LEADS TO DOUBLE CRYSTALLIZATION, WHICH WILL TURN YOU INTO A GIFTED PARASITE VIA HEDONISM, AND YOU BECOME A TOXIC NARCISSIST. 

Obviously, it is important not to hate YOUR EGO IN ITSELF, it is just a machine, following its programming, however, you should FEEL FREE TO DISPISE YOUR FAKE SELF, which is simply a SUBSET of DOMINANT PATTERNS IN YOUR EGO THAT HATES YOU, but which are MASQUERADING AS YOU, because you act them out all the time. Indeed, you will need your EGO TO BUILD YOUR DEPUTY STEWARD, AS A SET OF GOOD, QUALITY DRIVEN PATTERNS ‘TO GO AGAINST THE FAKE PATTERNS’, TO ACT AS A RAT CATCHER, and stop all its SHIT. When that DEPUTY STEWARD HAS A BIG ENOUGH SET OF PATTERNS TO DEFEND ITSELF AGAINST FAKE YOU’S ATTACKS, YOU CAN START TO TRUST IT, start to ‘LIVE’ THERE, AND ALL THIS GETS MUCH EASIER.

Therefore it is useful to USE A SIMPLISTIC MODEL TO GROUP FAKE YOUS PATTERNS TOGETHER at the start, AS EVERYTHING YOU DO THAT IS OBVIOUSLY SELF-DESTRUCTIVE, AND ALL YOUR PETTY, UNESSECCARY CLEVERNESS, so you can set it up AS ‘FAKE YOU’ IN YOUR MIND. The reason for this is that it will HELP You SEE THE GO TO ‘TENSION SIGNATURE’ OF FAKE YOU BECOMING ACTIVE IN THE MOMENT – IT CREATES A SPECIFIC TYPE OF FAKE SUFFERING TO CREATE THE NEED TO DO SOMETHING IN ORDER TO GET RELIEF FROM THAT SUFFERING, even WHEN there is no benefit to doing it at all.

YOU OFTEN FEEL THIS CON AS THE ‘ANTICIPATION OF PLEASURE’, rather than the truth, which is the relief from the discomfort of the LACK OF THAT PLEASURE, WHICH DOES NOT EXIST. In this way, you can see it in the moment ‘AS NOT YOU’, and overtime learn to ENJOY ‘THIS FAKE SUFFERING’ BY STANDING AGAINST IT. See that SUFFERING WILL TRANSFORM INTO THE FEELING OF ‘POWER’ BY ACCEPTING IT, INSTEAD OF TENSING AGAINST IT WHICH IS WHAT IT WANTS YOU TO DO. This a major gateway into THE 4TH WAY STANDARD OF ‘POWER OVER YOUR SELF’ – YOU are NOT SUFFERING, FAKE YOU IS, INDEED IT DIES A LITTLE BIT every time IT LOSES…

But today what we need to do is the GROUND WORK – TO MOTIVATE YOU TO DO THIS BY SEEING IT AS NOT ‘YOU’, so you WANT TO manage yourself differently – TO KNOW YOU HAVE TO GIVE INSTRUCTIONS TO YOUR EGO IN ORDER TO CONTROL IT AND CHANGE, BY DISENGAGING FROM THE CONTINUAL CHAIN OF THOSE PATTERNS, CREATING GAPS IN THE HABITUAL CHAIN OF THOUGHT CREATED BY THOSE PATTERNS, so real you ‘THE OBSERVER can act against them.  If you DON’T CREATE THOSE GAPS, THEM WHATEVER YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING IS STILL A VARIANT OF THOSE SAME PATTERNS, AND IT WON’T WORK, INDEED YOU WILL GET WORSE BECAUSE YOU WILL DELUDE YOURSELF IT IS WORKING.

Does this sound like something you would be interested in? ARE YOU PREPARED TO ‘GO A LITTLE BIT CRAZY’ (Sorry, Seal), to stop dialing it in, stop coasting along in a daydream, stop drifting through life forever going with the easiest option, like a MESSY BITCH..? Do YOU understand yet that there actually are ‘Stars Directing Your Fate’, (Sorry, Robbie), that is not just some vague feeling you get between ‘binges’, ITS THE TRUTH..?

Yes? so you have the stones for this stuff eh, the guts to SEE YOURSELF for REAL, to cope with the self-generated Anxiety of FAILURE, THE FRICTION THAT CREATES THE ENERGY YOU NEED, maybe a little ‘Dark night of the Soul’ action? But are you prepared to ‘stop drifting and start swimming’ (Sorry, Hunter S.Thompson), to consciously decide to DO SOMETHING ELSE, other than what your Lazy Ass, Fake Self wants ‘you’ to do? 

EXCELLENT, AS THIS IS THE POST FOR YOU, A FUN POST, indeed it’s a SPECIAL POST, QUIETLY SLIPPED IN, with an innocuous title to fool the more simple amongst you into thinking it’s just more ‘pop psychology’, but it’s not, ITS A BIT OF A BALL BUSTER – the thick end of 50k words, my longest yet as it’s that important – I’M TRYING TO SAVE YOUR LIFE TODAY.

See, I NEED TO GET YOU TO START BEING OVERWHELMED BY THE NEEDS OF AN ARISTOS as a FEELING, AND STOP BEING OVERWHELMED BY YOUR PETTY ANIMAL NEEDS OF ‘THE MOMENT’ – TO HAVE SOME ‘SELF RESPECT’ NO LESS, via that ‘3rd person self-consciousness’ of the ‘self-possessed’ ARISTOCRAT, rather than the meaningless little preferences of that ‘self-obsessed 1st person’ of your DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, your ‘pet’. YOU JUST NEED TO GET ‘BIGGER’ SO YOU CAN SEE IT…

FOR THE REST OF THIS POST ON THE ‘MOTIVATION TO CHANGE’, REMEMBER THIS GOAL –

YOU MUST EMPTY AND EXPAND YOUR CONSCIOUS EXPERIENCE, SO YOU MUST STOP USING YOUR ATTENTION ON UNESSECARY SHIT DURING SELF CARE.  

I NEED TO MAKE ‘REAL YOU’ BIGGER THAN ‘ANIMAL YOU’ IN YOUR MIND, YOU MUST LEARN TO VALUE THAT STATE AND ‘GROW UP’ – YOU MUST ACTUALLY FEEL THAT INCREASE IN SIZE CONSCIOUSLY, SO YOU CAN ‘SEE’ YOUR ‘DOMESTICATED ANIMAL YOU’.

GET THIS – FAKE YOU MUST BECOME SMALLER THAN ‘REAL YOU’, LESS IMPORTANT THAN YOU, BE SEEN AS ALL TRIVIAL AND MOMENTARY AND PETTY. THAT IS WHAT THE FIRST STAGE OF DEVELOPMENT IS – WE CALL IT ‘SELF-RESPECT’.

SO THE BOUNDARIES OF YOUR ‘PRESENT’ CONSCIOUSNESS MUST EXPAND BEYOND THE BOUNDARIES OF ‘ANIMAL YOU’, THE CAGE YOU ARE CURRENTLY TRAPPED IN, SO YOU ARE AWARE THERE IS MORE THAN JUST ANIMAL YOU’S OPINIONS, TRIGGERS AND SENSATIONS, THAT YOU HAVE A CHOICE.

AND YOU MUST CHOOSE TO DO THIS, BECAUSE YOU WANT TO FOR YOUR OWN SAKE, BECAUSE IT TAKES EFFORT TO REMEMBER TO DO IT, EVERY TIME YOU ARE ABOUT TO FUCK UP, BECAUSE YOU STILL THINK SOME SHIT IS COOL…

AND THE FIRST STEP IS TO MOTIVATE YOU TO FIND ‘REAL YOU’, BY SIMPLY ‘DISOWNING’ ‘FAKE YOU’, IN A VERY PRACTICAL WAY – BY MENTALLY SWITCHING TO A SELF-CONSCIOUS ‘NOBODY’.

See, once you STOP DEDICATING ALL YOUR ATTENTION ON THE PATHETIC RAMBLINGS OF FAKE YOU, REAL YOU WILL STEP OUT OF THE SHADOWS, INTO YOUR LIFE AND FORCE YOU TO CHANGE, ONCE YOU ‘OPENED THAT DOOR…’

So, I’m going to teach you how to change and give you the energy to be able to use that teaching, BUT YOU CAN STILL GO ON DOING THE SAME STUPID SHIT YOU DO NOW, still go on ‘KILLING ME SOFTLY’ (Sorry Fugees), unless you USE THAT NEW POWER CORRECTLY. If you just go on with your OLD LIFE, IF YOU ABUSE THIS NEW FOUND POWER BY ACTUALLY BEING WORSE THAN BEFORE, then you ‘hasten your demise’, your descent into NOTHINGNESS, as many HIGHLY GIFTED ALREADY DO, USING THEIR GIFTED SELVES VIA ‘PEAK EXPERIENCES TO DO STUPID SHIT, however unknowingly.

Frankly, I don’t particularly want your ‘BLOOD ON MY HANDS’, however, that is up to you NOW, you have been warned, MUCH AS YOU ARE PROBABLY ALREADY BURNING, and have little left to lose EVEN IF YOU DO FAIL – YOU ARE ALREADY FAILING, FALLING HARD, so what’s to lose bitches, might as well TRY eh?

UNDERSTAND, THERE IS SOME SCARY STUFF COMING, AS I’M GOING TO PUT YOU IN ‘HARMS WAY’ TODAY BY HELPING YOU.

So, we can start now –

Key Lesson: – RIGHT NOW YOU ARE VERY, VERY SMALL ‘CONSCIOUSLY’, LITTLE MORE THAN AN INSECT IN OUR WORLD, AND WE HAVE TO FIX THAT – AT THE END OF THIS POST YOU MUST BE MOTIVATED TO TRAIN YOURSELF TO FEEL MUCH, MUCH BIGGER, as that is where REAL YOU lives, AND THEN YOU CAN USE THE PERSPECTIVE THAT COMES FROM THAT THAT SIZE TO BE DIFFERENT, TO BE BETTER, TO BE ARISTOCRATIC. But you MUST USE IT POSITIVELY, TO BENEFIT YOU, it must not GO TO WASTE… 

Ok, SO BEFORE WE BEGIN YOU MUST UNDERSTAND – You have NO IDEA what REAL LIFE IS, because you can’t SEE the HORROR OF YOUR CURRENT, FAKE ONE, THE LIFE OF AN ANIMAL – TO YOU THIS IS JUST NORMAL, SLAVERY IS THE WAY IT IS, FOR YOU and pretty much everyone else you know, because they are NORMAL. But you are not NORMAL, are you, you are GIFTED, so you have a CHOICE.

So know now YOU can HANDLE THIS STUFF, AS this Post is RISKY, cause I’m going to start to WAKE YOU UP, and show you the REAL WORLD, the world you have forgotten. And I’m not going to piss about, I’m going to show you HOW TO MOTIVATE YOURSELF TO CHANGE, and THEN CREATE THE POSSIBILITY OF LASTING CHANGE, in yourself – KNOW THAT REAL CHANGE IS A SKILL BECAUSE IT IS GROWTH, ALL GROWTH IS ROOTED IN THE SUPERNATURAL. 

YES – THIS POST IS ABOUT THE SUPERNATURAL, INDEED THIS IS YOUR FIRST BIG ‘GATEWAY’ INTO THE SUPERNATURAL ‘EXPERIENCE’ OF REAL YOU.

It’s also the first step on this path that the ‘REAL’ world can ‘SEE’ you ‘DOING’, so you cannot go back after you have made it, but you don’t believe in any of that yet, so why worry – for many of the highly gifted the supernatural already has a daily Presence in your life anyway, SO YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE BY KNOWING THE TRUTH ABOUT YOURSELF.

Yet, it is required of me to tell you this, TO WARN YOU, it’s an ‘honor’ thing – the price of change for some can be VERY high. But forget that now, FOCUS ON THIS: 

THESE NEXT 2 POSTS ARE WHERE YOU HAVE TO LEARN A SUPERNATURAL SKILL – THE SKILL OF CHANGE.

THIS IS  THE SKILL OF FINDING YOUR ‘PRESENCE’, AND THEN BEING ‘PRESENT IN THAT PRESENCE’, how GIFTED FOLKS LIVE BECAUSE IT ALLOWS YOU TO CHOOSE, TO THINK AND ACT IN ANYWAY WAY YOU WISH IN THE MOMENT, RATHER THAN WATCH YOUR EGO CHOOSE FOR YOU.

KNOW IT IS A HIGHER STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS EASILY AVAILABLE TO GIFTED FOLKS, BUT ONLY IF THEY ‘TRY’, only if you are prepared to PAY FOR IT.

YOU WILL THEN USE THIS SKILL TO DEVELOP THE SKILL OF DOING, HOW TO DO ‘BETTER’, AS YOU WILL NEED TO KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO AFTER YOU ACTIVELY LOOK FOR YOUR ‘FAKE YOU’ AND STOP THE BITCH FROM CONTINUING TO FUCK UP YOUR LIFE VIA THE SKILL OF CHANGE. THEN YOU LEARN THE SKILL OF TRANSFORMATION, TO USE THE SKILL OF DOING TO LIVE IN PROGRESSIVELY HIGHER STATES OF CONSCIOUSNESS UNTIL THOSE STATES BECOME PERMANENT.

Yes, this SKILL SET IS A LAYER CAKE, not a linear progression, one builds from the level below, DOING comes from a set level of CHANGING, and the much bigger deal of Transformation comes from a set level of DOING – IT IS STILL A SEQUENCE BUT IT WORKS IN PRACTISE AS AN ITERATION WHERE YOU USE ALL 3 TOGETHER. YOU THEN CONTINUE TO DO ALL 3 TOGETHER, INCREASINGLY USING THE LAST 2 AS YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS ALLOWS WHEN IT GROWS ENOUGH TO ENABLE THESE SKILLS TO WORK. As with all spiritual skills, you MUST ALWAYS FOCUS ON THE NEXT LEVEL YOU CAN’T ACTUALLY DO YET, AS THAT IS HOW YOU GROW. 

So today we focus on THE SKILL OF CHANGE itself, to give you a CHANCE to do the rest of this – I will teach you how to DO THIS, HOW TO CHANGE because you will understand WHY YOU HAVE TOO. This ‘HOW TO’ is in 3 SECTIONS, presented over 2 posts, which I will identify separately but teach in a combined circular fashion that is ‘BEING MOTIVATED TO STAY PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE’ – THAT IS HOW YOU CHANGE.

First, you must learn how to create the space to change, and how to get out of your own way so you can change – you must give yourself the OPPORTUNITY to change in a very specific way, whilst recognizing when that opportunity occurs, to practice creating and recognizing the correct conditions in the MOMENT for it, otherwise TRYING is pointless. YOU MUST UNDERSTAND WHAT IT IS TO BE ‘PRESENT’, RATHER THAN LOST IN THOUGHT, AS REFLECTIVE THOUGHT, THOUGHT BASED ON MEMORY OR IMAGINATION IN PATTERNS IS ALWAYS IN THE PAST OR THE FUTURE, relative to your NOW.

Second I have to teach you to RAISE YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS – you have to lift yourself UP AND BE BIGGER so you can then look DOWN, and see your OLD FAKE SELF, what it actually is trying to do to you BEHIND THE SCENES, and then STOP, THINK, and CHANGE. If you cannot SEE what you NEED to change, then you are BLIND, and can do nothing but follow other people’s rules, their ‘morality’, which may be wrong for YOU. YOU MUST FIND YOUR PRESENCE, AS IT IS WAY ABOVE THE ANIMAL YOU THAT IS DOMINATED BY INSTINCTIVE, REACTIONARY THOUGHT – YOUR THOUGHTS CORRESPOND TO YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, AND AT THE ANIMAL LEVEL THAT IS ALL ‘INBOUND INSTINCT’, whether you’re choosing a meal, or buying a House, neither of which is actually instinctive in nature…

Third you must learn to PRACTISE THIS AS MUCH AS YOU CAN THROUGH YOUR DAY, but then learn to actually DO it for REAL in TOTAL PRIVACY, by learning how to TRY, and then TRY again even when you fail, because you are going to FAIL a lot at the start BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO – CONTINUAL TRYING IS THE PAYMENT REQUIRED, you will succeed when you have paid enough ‘SELF CREATED ANXIETY’ (FAILURE) FOR YOUR SPECIFIC CIRCUMTANCE. Know, if you DO this publically YOU WON’T TRY ENOUGH, and you will unconsciously get other People to stop you, even if you don’t consciously want them to, part of you will reach out to them, bait them, challenge them and encourage them to block your change, by force if necessary. Scary eh, hard to believe even, but trust me, happens all the motherfucking time, particularly with the most highly Gifted – saddest thing ever to watch…

SO TODAY YOU MUST FIRST ACCEPT YOU ARE SHIT – the TRANSITIONAL vehicle you MUST GET now is that YOU ARE SHIT, YOU MUST GET THIS IN YOUR ‘SOUL’, SMELL THAT RANCID STINK OF MEDIOCRITY ON EVERY ASPECT OF YOUR LIFE, you can no longer go on going through the motions of developing yourself as yet another form of comfort.

BEING SHIT IS A DISEASE YOU CAUGHT AS A CHILD WHEN YOU STARTED TO CREATE YOUR FAKE YOU AS A DOMINANT SET OF EGOIC PATTERNS, WHICH THEN TOOK OVER YOUR AUTOPILOT VIA YOUR CONDITIONING.

IT IS A FORM OF CANCER THAT IS SLOWLY EATING THROUGH EVERY PART OF YOU, MAKING YOU SMALLER AND SMALLER, EVERY DAY – ONE DAY IT WILL DEPLETE YOU SO MUCH YOU SIMPLY WON’T RECOVER, EVER.

SO YOU MUST LEARN HOW TO CUT IT OUT, HOW TO KILL IT, BEFORE IT KILLS YOU – BEFORE ALL THE BEST IN YOU IS GONE.  

Yep, you are a feckless little BITCH, forever justifying YOUR NOTHINGNESS AS ‘NOT YOUR FAULT’ – your current character, your mental patterns are GOING TO STOP YOU DEVELOPING YOUR SELF, no matter what advice I give you, BECAUSE YOU’RE SHIT. You are literally full of FAKE shit, you have no ‘space to change’, no options other than your next, established pattern – YOU CANNOT ‘THINK YOUR WAY OUT’ OF THIS MESS, your current patterns ARE ALL YOU CAN THINK.

Yes, your unconscious Patterns of behavior are EXTREMELY effective at stopping you from developing because they work in Teams, Roles, actual ‘Swarms’, cycling round and round to continually pull you back to ZERO, even when you briefly resist ONE ASPECT OF them, even when you think you are doing the ‘right thing’, THEY FUCK YOU. Your patterns are so effective because they are many different hooks to them, not just your thoughts, but your feelings, your movements, your instincts are ALL DIRECTLY RELATED TO GENERATING YOUR PATTERN BEHAVIOUR, even when they appear totally unrelated – FIDDLING WITH ONE LITTLE CHANGE WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH.

So this CHARACTER change is not optional for many of the MOST HIGHLY GIFTED, it is essential even right at the start to BREAK YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER, YOUR EGO, YOUR SENSE OF CLEVERNESS. See your FAKE PATTERNS create a delusion you live in – YOU TRUST THEM TOTALLY, YOU NEVER CHECK THEM AS THEY ‘ACT OUT’, SO YOU JUST THINK ITS FINE TO THINK THAT, SAY THAT, ACT THAT. So you become a FOOL, who thinks they are COOL, cause you don’t realize what a gutless TOOL, you have become, THAT EVERYONE BUT YOU SEES.

Tough break eh, and there was you thinking you were da bomb – that you are CUNNING, CLEVER, GOOD even, TOTALLY JUSTIFIED IN YOUR ACTIONS AND OPINIONS, when it’s really just devious little FAKE YOU conning you into thinking/feeling/acting out that, feeding you thought after thought to refresh that DELUSION, while stopping you from seeing ‘The Truth’ – YOU’RE SHIT, your opinion of yourself is TOTAL BOLLOCKS.

See, the Motivation to Change and the Process of Change ARE ACTUALLY THE SAME THING, BECAUSE THEY HAVE TO BE, SO TODAY I HAVE TO WEAVE THEM ARTFULLY TOGETHER THROUGHOUT THIS ENTIRE POST, wave after wave of each of them. If I don’t you will never start to question yourself ALL THE TIME, SO YOU WILL NEVER DO THE PRIVATE SELF-CARE PROCESS AND LEARN TO ‘FORGET YOURSELF’, the SELF of ‘No-Self’ (Sorry Zen), as you won’t want to, so it will never be URGENT, even if forced on you…

YOU HAVE TO ACTUALLY SEE YOURSELF BE FAKE, OUT OF CONTROL, AND FUCK UP CONSTANTLY FOR CHANGE TO BECOME URGENT.

SEE PERSONAL CHARACTER CHANGE ONLY WORKS IF IT’S URGENT, THIS CHANGE NEEDS MOMENTUM, BUILDING EVER GREATER PRESSURE TO CHANGE – WE MUST OVERWHEM YOUR EGO DEFENSES, SO YOU CAN UNDERSTAND.

YES – by NOT TRYING TO CHANGE, YOU will NOT SEE, EVERY DAMN DAY, HOW NORMAL, FAKE YOU IS ‘NOT YOU’ AND ACTS AGAINST YOU, what ‘you want today’, so you will not SEE THE MESS this OLD, SCARED, Childish, Unconcious FAKE YOU IS MAKING OF YOUR LIFE, you will simply go on FANTAZING, JUSTIFYING, and EXCUSING YOURSELF, WHILE ACCUSING EVERYONE ELSE OF YOUR SHITNESS, YOUR FAILURE, because you are BLINDED to it.

See, EVERYONE STARTS DEVELOPMENT THINKING LIKE A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL IN AUTOMATIC REACTIVE PATTERNS THAT ARE SIMPLY ‘BURNT IN’ MEMORIES. And that shit has to GO – I HAVE TO CHANGE THESE USELESS, OUT OF DATE PATTERNS THAT DOMINATE YOU, SO I HAVE TO GET YOU TO CHANGE YOUR FAKE CHARACTER, THE SUMMATION OF ALL THOSE PATTERNS, I HAVE TO FIX ‘FAKE, NORMAL YOU’, the YOU that has made you LAZY, the greatest of all crimes Gifted Folks commit against themselves, AS THEY DON’T CARE ENOUGH TO NOTICE WHAT THEY ARE ACTUALLY DOING…

Yep, not for the NORMAL PEOPLE THIS ONE, this is for the folks who are looking for the ULTIMATE SPEED-UP OF ALL SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT – TO COMPLETELY ACCEPT AND FANATICALLY CHASE CHARACTER CHANGE, BECAUSE YOU ACCEPT YOUR CURRENT LEVEL OF FAILURE IS YOUR CURRENT ‘FAKE CHARACTERS’ FAILURE, NOT YOURS. See, YOU THINK LIKE AN ANIMAL, a small creepy one at that, so that is all you are EVER GOING TO BE…

YOU ARE OBLIVIOUS TO THE FACT THAT YOUR FAKE SELF IS THE ENEMY OF ALL YOUR DREAMS AND ASPIRATIONS, YOUR FAKE SELF WANTS YOU TO STAY THE SAME, TO BE WHAT YOU ARE RIGHT NOW, FOREVER, BY MAKING YOU LESS AND LESS, EVERY SINGLE, WASTED FUCKING DAY OF YOUR EVER-DECREASING EXISTENCE. What a fucking BITCH, eh, yet you are so weak and stupid, so PASSIVE AND LAZY, you don’t even bloody care, DO YOU, BECAUSE ‘IT’ DOES NOT WANT YOU TO CARE, STUPID, CAUSE THEN YOU WOULD TRY AND STOP IT…

Read that again, and then read it AGAIN – OBVIOUS eh, AND TRUST ME, WHEN YOU SEE IT FOR THE FIRST TIME, EVEN AS A GLIMPSE, ITS REALLY BLOODY OBVIOUS, INDEED ITS ACTUALLY TERRIFYING TO KNOW YOU ARE YOUR OWN WORST ENEMY, which is really useful…

Your Character is failing ‘you’ ON PURPOSE because ‘IT’ WANTS TO, it’s NOT A MISTAKE, NOT AN ACCIDENT, IT IS A ‘BURNT IN HABIT’,

YOUR FAKE SELF FUCKS YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN, IN EXACTLY THE SAME WAYS IT LEARNED WHEN YOU WERE A CHILD – you cannot stop it, BECAUSE IT IS UNCONCIOUS, YOU CANNOT SEE IT, THERE IS AN ‘AIR GAP’ COVERED BY YOUR EMOTION. 

See ‘you’ DON’T WANT TO FAIL, do you, so it’s this UNRECOGNISED, Unconcious FAKE Character that is used to FUCK YOU – IT’S NOT REAL YOU, ITS NOT EVEN ‘GROWN UP’ YOU is it, ITS SHIT, SELF DESTRUCTIVE, FAKE YOU. 

But you have a problem – YOU IDENTIFY WITH YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER AS YOU, AS AUTHENTIC, AS REAL, AS ‘WHO I AM’, WHICH IS ALL TOTAL CRAP, but YOU HAVE TO JUSTIFY YOURSELF, IN RETROSPECT, which builds up FAKE YOU IN LAYERS.

YES – YOUR FAKE self IS UNKNOWN TO YOU, BUT CONTROLS YOU THROUGH YOUR AUTOMATIC RESPONSES – THE RESPONSES YOU LEARNT AS A CHILD, WHEN YOU WERE ‘DOMESTICATED’, THAT ARE UN-NATURAL, FOR YOU.

In truth your Fake Self does not really exist, AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL YOU DON’T ACTUALLY HAVE ANY CHARACTER, AT ALL, IT’S ALL A LIE.

See who you (think you) are now is COMPLETELY ACCIDENTAL, YOU never chose it, YOUR ‘UNCONCIOUS’ CHARACTER happened to you through your parents, your school, your society, and your socio-demographic position in this world. YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER IS NOT REAL, AT ALL, it is a RANDOM collection of happenings, stored as HALF remembered memories, THAT YOU REGUREITATE WITHOUT A 2ND THOUGHT, like an idiot, even though everything has changed, and will change again tomorrow.

The ONLY PART OF YOU THAT IS REAL IS ‘REAL YOU’, the character that has been passed down through your bloodline over the ages, now totally ignored, repressed and hidden, IF YOU ARE GIFTED.

See for all your potential you have been taught by Society in all its forms to be NORMAL, a DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, so you act like one – YOUR SLAVE SOCIETY PRODUCES MORE SLAVES AS THAT IS ITS PURPOSE – ITS A FUCKING PYRAMID SCHEME. The specific issue with this is that you HAVE NO WILLPOWER – AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL YOU ONLY HAVE MULTIPLE PETTY FEARS AND DESIRES THAT COMPETE TO DRIVE THE MENTAL PATTERNS THAT MAKE UP FAKE YOU EVERY MOMENT, so you CANNOT CHANGE UNLESS YOU ARE FORCED TO EXTERNALLY, and SUBMIT TO THAT CHANGE. But you don’t, do you – YOU FAIL.

So today, in order to get your DEVELOPMENT MOVING, I have to find a way to GIVE YOU SOME WILLPOWER TO CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER, I have to MOTIVATE YOU TO ENGAGE IN THIS PROCESS AGAINST YOUR FAKE character’s OWN, BEST INTERESTS – ‘IT’ WILL FIGHT YOU, SO YOU NEED TO BE ABLE FOR THAT FIGHT, READY FOR IT.

But we are clever here on the Left-Hand path, we know at your little level of existence your greatest weakness, FEAR OF A SLAVE, the dominant Animal character trait, can be used against Fake You as your greatest MOTIVATION TO CHANGE – we must SCARE YOU INTO IT BY TELLING YOU THE TRUTH ABOUT YOURSELF SO YOU FUCKING REMEMBER IT, and hope that you remember to DEVELOP YOURSELF on that basis.

Easy eh… sorry – it’s NOT EASY, unless you ACCEPT your are SHIT in your SOUL, BECAUSE ITS TRUE, AND YOU MUST FEEL THIS TRUTH AS SUFFERING YOU WISH TO ESCAPE…

See TO DESIRE TO CHANGE RADICALLY YOU HAVE TO BE EXCITED BY THE ‘PROSPECT OF CHANGE’, AS INNER CONFLICT YOU DO TO GET SOME RELIEF FROM ‘SHIT YOU’, THE APPALLING, ‘DIS-EASED’ MESS YOU HAVE BECOME, BECAUSE IT IS A CONSTANT BAD FEELING YOU WISH TO GET RID OF.

YES, WE ARE ALL ABOUT THE FIGHT TODAY, SO YOU MUST GET EXCITED BY THIS FOR IT TO PRODUCE THE ENERGY YOU NEED FOR IT TO WORK – THE FEAR OF CONFLICT AND SUFFERING IS A GOOD THING, EMBRACE IT, YOU FEEL IT FOR A REASON. YOU MUST CHANGE TO SOMETHING YOU ALREADY KNOW WILL BE ‘BETTER’ WHATEVER THE HELL IT IS, BECAUSE YOU ALREADY KNOW YOU ARE SHIT, SO YOU CANNOT STAY THE WAY YOU ARE, it’s EMOTIONALLY PAINFULL – YOU ARE CHASING ‘RELIEF’ FROM THIS SHIT AS A ‘FEELING’.

SEE, THE ONLY WAY TO RELIABLY MOTIVATE AN ANIMAL IS TO CHANGE ‘AWAY’ FROM SOMETHING BAD, AND REMOVE ALL THE SHORT-TERM RISK – YOU MUST CREATE THE DISCOMFORT OF BEING ‘FAKE YOU’, AS YOU ARE NOW, TO MAKE IT PAINFUL TO STAY THE SAME, SO IT IS ALWAYS THERE.

YES, AS THE MORE GIFTED HEDONISTS AMONGST YOU MAY HAVE ALREADY ‘CLICKED’ – WHAT WE NEED TO DO HERE IS GIVE YOU A TASTE OF A BETTER FEELING YOU, SO YOU NOW SEE ‘CURRENT YOU’ AS PAINFULLY LESS THAN THAT, SO YOU CHASE THE BETTER FEELING OF ‘GIFTED YOU’ LIKE AN ADDICT CHASES A DRUG AS THAT ‘LACK’ IS NOW CONSTANTLY ON THIER MIND – TO GIVE THEM RELIEF FROM THERE EVERYDAY SELF…

SEE YOU ARE A SLAVE, AND BEING A SLAVE IS SHIT, BUT YOU DON’T TRY AND CHANGE ‘YOUR LIFE’ TO ESCAPE THIS SLAVERY, THAT JUST CREATES MORE SHIT, YOU MUST TRY AND CHANGE BY ‘ESCAPING’ FAKE YOU, BECAUSE YOU LIVE IN A VERY SMALL ‘CAGE’ THAT YOU NEED TO ‘OUTGROW’, SO YOU BECOME BIGGER THAN THE CAGE, AND THEREFORE CAN SEE IT CLEARLY.

GET THIS – CHANGE IS ABOUT the ANTICIPATION OF SOMETHING ELSE, SOMETHING NEW, that is better than ‘this’ shit. So you want to change, TO BE ‘SOMEONE’ ELSE, someone who is NOT OPPRESSED BY ‘LIFE’, like you are, all petty, self-righteous and entitled, because you are A SLAVE – YOU THINK LIKE A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, A SLAVE, SO YOU ‘ACT LIKE ONE’. But this is NOT ANOTHER FANTASY FOR FAKE YOU TO DELUDE YOU WITH, THIS IS REAL LIFE, YOUR LIFE, YOUR GIFT = YOUR PRESENCE = REAL YOU.

So let’s get on with this DECISION NOW, shall we, CAUSE YOU HAVE A MENTAL MOUNTAIN TO CLIMB, AND A DECISION TO MAKE. Granted, if you already have the fabled DOUBLE CRYSTALLIZATION of the Gifted HEDONIST, if your ‘WORST SELF’ IS ALREADY YOUR ‘BEST SELF’, while your GOOD self is rather awkward, unhappy, and LOST, then there really is NO CHOICE AT ALL – ITS RADICAL CHARACTER CHANGE OR, well… JUST MORE NOTHING, really. Yep, NO POINT IN READING ANY FURTHER FOR YOU bunch of FUCK UPS, IF YOU CAN’T COMMIT TO THIS…

But take heart, HOWEVER HARD THIS IS TO GRASP, it’s actually very EASY TO DO ONCE YOU HAVE ‘GRASPED IT’, because it is MUCH, MUCH QUICKER – this is Zen, this is OLD SCHOOL, the SCHOOL OF RAPID ENLIGHTENMENT, no less, REPRESENTED IN MODERN LANGUAGE FOR FUCKED UP LITTLE OLD YOU.

Now, I’ve said all of this before, BUT TODAY YOU NEED TO GET IT, GET WHY IT IS TRUE, SO YOU CAN USE IT, HENCE WHY THIS WHOLE POST IS DEDICATED TO BRING THIS LEVEL OF UNDERSTANDING TO ‘LIFE’, FOR YOU… And it’s all STARTS with this – YOUR SHIT BECAUSE:

YOU, YOUR EGO IS A FAKE, DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, a scattered sum PRODUCT OF YOUR FEAR-DRIVEN CONDITIONING – YOU ARE UNCONCIOUSLY SCARED OF EVERYTHING, SO ALL YOUR ATTENTION IS SPENT ‘LOOKING OUT’ FOR DANGER, INSTEAD OF FEELING YOUR GIFT INTERNALLY, AS YOU ONCE DID.

SEE, CONDITIONING IS NOT CHARACTER, IT IS JUST THE MECHANICAL ‘APPEARANCE OF CHARACTER’, WITH NOTHING BEHIND IT, CONDITIONING DOES NOT ‘PRODUCE’ CHARACTER, IT IS A ‘REPLACEMENT’ FOR HAVING ‘NO CHARACTER’, IT IS A ‘FAKE VENEER OF CHARACTER’.

YES, YOU ARE SHIT BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO CHARACTER, AT ALL, THERE IS NO ‘I’ IN YOU – THERE IS NO RATIONAL ENTITY MAKING CHOICES, YOU ONLY RATIONALISE AFTER THE FACT, AFTER YOU ‘CATCH UP’ TO THE DECISIONS YOUR CONDITIONED FAKE SELF HAS ALREADY TAKEN.

YOUR REAL CHARACTER COMES FROM YOUR SPIRIT, GIVEN YOU ARE LUCKY ENOUGH TO HAVE ONE – YOU ARE UNAWARE OF YOUR SPIRIT BECAUSE IT ONLY COMMUNICATES TO THE UNSCHOOLED THROUGH THEIR CONSCIENCE-LEVEL EMOTIONS, WHICH YOU LEARN TO REPRESS.

SO THE BATTLE LINES ARE DRAWN – YOUR ‘SPIRITED’ REAL SELF vs YOUR FAKE, ‘CONDITIONED’ SELF.

IN REALITY, IT’S A FIGHT BETWEEN YOUR HUGE, CONSCIENCE-LEVEL EMOTIONS vs A MASSIVE NUMBER OF TINY, PETTY FAKE ANXIETIES, IT IS A FIGHT BETWEEN YOUR POWER AGAINST YOUR TENSION, IT IS A FIGHT BETWEEN DIFFERENT ‘LEVELS OF CONSCIOUSNESS’.

WE ARE NOT GOING AFTER THIS OR THAT BAD PATTERN TODAY, WE ARE GOING AFTER WHERE THOSE PATTERNS LIVE, WE ARE GOING AFTER YOUR PATHETIC ANIMAL, FEAR-DRIVEN LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, SO WE MUST CHANGE YOUR STATE OF MIND…

REMEMBER THIS, I WILL REPEAT IT OVER AND OVER IN THIS POST:

TODAY WE MUST CONVINCE YOU TO ‘DISOWN’ YOUR FAKE SELF AS ‘NOT YOU’, IN PRIVACY, SO YOU ARE NO LONGER DRIVEN BY THE CONSTANT NEED TO PROTECT YOUR EGO.

THEN YOU CAN LEARN TO FEEL SENSITIVE, AND ‘VULNERABLE’ AGAIN, AND HAVE THE BRAVERY OF A CHILD, AGAIN.

THIS IS HOW YOU CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER THE ZEN WAY – this is how you ‘find yourself’. 

See, you need to get that the only difficult thing about RADICAL CHARACTER CHANGE IS ‘CONVINCING’ YOU TO WANT TO DO IT, to literally lose interest in your FAKE ‘EGO’ AS ‘BEING YOU’, because you now realize it is ‘CONDITIONED’ – IT IS NOT YOU AND ITS SHIT. So there is no need to defend it OUT OF DESPERATION, IT IS JUST A CAR YOU HAPPEN TO BE DRIVING, BEST YOU COULD AFFORD AT THE TIME, BUT its STILL DOG SHIT – IT IS MADE OF A WHOLE MESS OF ‘FALSE INSTINCTS’ AND ‘FALES EXPECTATIONS’ THAT HAVE BEEN IMPLANTED IN YOU AS ‘REACTIONS’ AND HAVE A BECOME A ‘CAGE’ YOU LIVE IN.

Those FALSE IMPLANTS all have a very specific SIGNATURE, A TENSION FEELING THAT IS ALSO TOTALLY UN-NATURAL, AND OVER TIME IS FELT IN YOUR BODY AS A TYPE OF TWISTING, whilst then going on to PHYSICALLY EFFECT YOU, from your LOOKS to your ability to MOVE, and then this emotional disease actually turns mental, before turning into a PROPER physical DISEASE, QUITE often IT BECOMES CANCER. But you don’t see ANY OF THIS as you think its normal, SO ITS CHIPS AWAY AT YOU, WEAKENING YOU, AS IT WINS every day, whilst you lose, EVERY MOTHERING FUCKING DAY…

YES, THE SERIOUSNESS WITH WHICH YOU CURRENTLY REGARD THE CONTINUAL ‘TENSION SIGNATURE’ OF ALL YOUR PETTY ANXIETIES MEANS IT’S WINNING – THE VAST QUANTITY OF THESE LITTLE ‘FIRE ANTS’ WEARS YOU DOWN, MAKES YOU FEEL THEM AS WAY BIGGER THAN ‘YOU’ ARE, BECAUSE YOU HAVE NOTHING TO COMPARE THEM TO ANYMORE – YOU THINK THEY ARE REAL BECAUSE THEY HAVE ‘LOWERED YOUR LEVEL’. SO THAT FEELING OF YOUR SPIRIT IS NOW TOTALLY BURIED UNDER YOUR DOMESTICATION, SO YOU ALWAYS SEEK COMFORT INSTEAD OF THE ADVENTURE, CONFLICT AND CHANGE THAT IS (MEANT TO BE) YOUR DESTINY.

But all you have to do is SEE IT, to KNOW that you don’t want to DO what you are about to say/think/feel, TO KNOW IT IS FALSE, GET TO THE MAGIC POINT WHERE YOUR EGO FEELS UNCOMFORTABLE WHEN YOU ACT IT OUT, where it feels like a type of ‘possession’, BECAUSE IT IS TOTALLY UN-NATURAL FOR YOU.  Then the process of change, TO BE PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE will feel totally natural for you, so much so that you will WANT TO LIVE in that feeling, 24/7.

Yes, YOU HAVE LOST YOURSELF, AND NOW PRETEND TO BE OTHER PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN CONDITIONED TO BE SCARED OF THE CONSEQUENCES IF YOU DON’T CONFORM – YOU ARE A SLAVE TO FEAR, YOU ARE ACTUALLY ADDICTED TO IT, TO A GREATER OR LESSER DEGREE IT IS WHAT YOUR LIFE ‘CONSISTS OF’, ALL THE TIME. EVEN WHEN THERE IS NOTHING TO BE SCARED OF YOU HAVE TO GO AND FIND IT, YOUR FAKE SELF NEEDS IT TO GROW, AND YOUR FAKE SELF OWNS YOU…

Get this – you ARE ‘FAKE YOU’ BECAUSE YOU HAVE ‘NO CHARACTER’, and YOU ARE A ‘SLAVE’ BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN TAUGHT YOUR WHOLE LIFE TO BE MOTIVATED BY ‘FEAR’. Yes, you may still have the odd CONSCIENCE LEVEL EMOTION, but they are pretty few and far between these days, aren’t they… Both of these ANCIENT processes OF CONDITIONING ARE the bedrock of ANY ‘society’, they are HOW THEY DOMESTICATE ANIMALS, HOW THEY BREAK THE CHARACTER OF CAPTIVE SLAVES, but you ARE NOT AN ANIMAL OR A SLAVE, so YOU NEED TO GET RID OF THAT SHIT, BY FIRST UNDERSTANDING IT.

But be warned, YOU NEED TO BE GIFTED TO READ THE REST OF THIS, otherwise you will find there is nothing under your DOMESTICATION OTHER THAN ANIMAL INSTINCT, and you will GET MUCH WORSE – YOU WILL GET STUCK AT THE ‘FERAL’ STAGE OF CHARACTER CHANGE BECAUSE ANIMALS HAVE NO REAL CHARACTER, THEY HAVE TO BE CONDITIONED TO WORK, TO HAVE ANY VALUE TO SOCIETY, whereas most Gifted Hedonists can, with school and effort, push through that stage, much as many choose not to, BECAUSE THEY DON’T UNDERSTAND THEMSELVES.

Now, however much I will be chastized by my peers for using the word FERAL (it makes something dangerous and hateful appear COOL), these posts are written for GIFTED HEDONISTS, so it is important to attract them with insights into this state – long ago I was one myself. See FERAL GIFTED often confuse themselves with ANIMALS, because they tend to be VERY ‘NATURALLY GOOD’, at their chosen form of Hedonism, indeed it is the ONLY THING THAT MAKES THEM FEEL ALIVE. But unlike the Animals, GIFTED TEND TO BE VERY, VERY RESILIENT, they can cope with some shit, BECAUSE THEY ARE MUCH STRONGER EMOTIONALLY. Animals engaging in the same behaviors tend to be SHIT AT THEM, and become incredibly weak and flaky over time, turning into controlling Voyeurs because they are SO SCARED, they are not capable OF DOING IT ANYMORE – many become power-crazed freak shows, the world is full of them.

This is the KEY REASON that MOST GIFTED Hedonists only turn to spirituality due to OLD AGE (35-45+ y/o), when they have wasted themselves so much that their Hedonism becomes trite and formulaic so they stop enjoying it, and they start to mentally decline, SO GO LOOKING FOR AN ANSWER. At that point they are usually too weak to get anywhere, because the BILLS they owe, BUILT-UP THROUGH ABUSING their gift, ARE THEREFORE WAY TO HIGH for them to pay NORMALLY, SO THEY HAVE TO ENGAGE IN radical CHARACTER CHANGE IN ORDER TO RECLAIM THE ENERGY STORED IN THEIR FAKE DOMESTICATION. See, for them the ONLY WAY TO DO IT IS TOO SHOCK THEMSELVES WITH THE TRUTH, get THEM to jump off the ‘deep end’ OF SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT, what I am asking you to do today…

See it has come to my attention that MOST OF YOU ARE READING THIS STUFF BECAUSE ITS ‘TRENDY SPIRITUALITY’, so you can talk about it in a bar, and appear to be CLEVERER THAN YOU ARE BY JUST PARROTING THIS STUFF AS ‘THEORY’ TO YOUR MATES. You have NO INTENTION OF ACTUALLY TRYING ANY OF IT, indeed, you are such a total PUSSY that you would not know TRYING IF IT BIT YOU IN THE BLOODY FACE.

Yes, YOU THINK JUST KNOWING THIS STUFF IN SOMEWAY IMMUNIZES YOU FROM BLAME BY EXPLAINING ‘WHY YOU ARE, THE WAY YOU ARE’, which makes it ‘OK’ in some BIZARRE way… See, you are not actually RELATING YOURSELF TO THESE FAILURES OF CHARACTER AT ALL – you have a buffer, an air gap between this as THEORY, INFORMATION, AND ACTUALLY FUCKING DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT. And that has got to CHANGE, otherwise, you may as well be reading a fucking COMIC…

Ahhh, maybe you still have some SPIRIT LEFT, MAYBE YOU ARE YOU THE TYPE THAT LIKES A FIGHT? Or are you already too BROKEN for that, ARE YOU JUST INTERESTED IN THIS SPIRITUAL STUFF AS CONVERSATION PIECES, IS your whole personality aimed at SAFE MEDIOCRITY now, your primary goal in life is chasing a little more ‘comfort’ today, for poor, old weary you, SIMPLY WAITING FOR ‘DEPRESSION’ WITH A SMILE ON YOUR FACE, LIKE A PUSSY?

HINT – it is option 1, BUT I’ll warn now mind, gonna get a bit harsh this one, see I don’t want to waste your time or mine by being all liberal-minded or politically correct, this can’t just be ‘INTERESTING’, IF ITS GOING TO WORK ON YOU. See, even amongst A GROUP OF ‘THE’ MOST GIFTED, this approach is NOT FOR EVERYBODY, BECAUSE THIS IS RINZAI ZEN baby, this shit gets serious, in my school we don’t bother with the passive bollocks of REMEMBERING YOURSELF, most of you are way to far gone for that to work ANYWAY…

For all you Option 2 types (sadly the majority of you reading), who can’t give anything up, who need to waste themselves on their Hedonism as it is ‘all they are’, I wish you good luck, and hope your continuing descent into repetitive NOTHINGNESS AND CONSEQUENT MENTAL ILLNESS is as pleasant as possible for you. Yes, I know, YOU THINK CHARACTER CHANGE IS BUILDING MORE CRAP ON TOP OF YOUR CONDITIONING while being totally unaware that your current PATTERNS WILL STOP YOU GETTING EVEN REMOTELY CLOSE TO THIS. Unless, OF COURSE, you still have some Spirit left, YOU CAN STILL TRUST YOUR POWERFUL CONSCIENCE LEVEL EMOTIONS, plus you HAVE THE BALLS TO ACT ON THEM…  SEE it may help to realize that if you don’t fix your DEPENDENT COWARDICE VIA CHARACTER CHANGE NOW YOU ARE NEVER GOING TO FIX IT, but that is your problem, THE REST OF US HAVE TO GET ON NOW.

Yes, the rest of you need to crack on – we CAN’T DICK ABOUT TODAY, WE NEED MOMENTUM, we have to HIT the no1 cause of failure on the LEFT-HAND PATH = the INABILITY TO CHANGE, to change your ‘self’, YOUR FAKE, PRETEND CHARACTER, SO YOU CAN RAPIDLY DEVELOP YOUR REAL SELF. And we have to HIT IT HARD, I have to SHOCK YOU, but in a reasoned, precise way, AS THIS CHANGE HAS TO BE CONSCIOUS – you DO IT for a REASON you must UNDERSTAND CLEARLY, OTHERWISE YOU CANNOT DO THE 2ND PART, YOU CANNOT MAKE THE LEAP MENTALLY if you DON’T CHANGE YOUR STANCE TOWARD ‘CHANGE’ TODAY…

See TODAY I have to teach you the oldest Zen trick in the book, HOW TO ‘FORGET YOURSELF’, AND I HAVE TO MOTIVATE YOU TO WANT TO DO THIS BY GETTING YOU TO UNDERSTAND WHY IT IS SO POWERFUL, TO SEE IT as a PRIORITY IN YOUR LIFE, URGENTLY AND ALL THE TIME:

TODAY I NEED TO TEACH YOU HOW TO BE ‘NOBODY’ AGAIN, LIKE YOU WERE AS A KID, TO HAVE NO PREFERENCES, NO OPINION, NO JUSTIFICATIONS, NO NEED TO BE RIGHT, NO NEGATIVE EMOTIONS, NO PAST OR FUTURE – TO SIMPLY ‘FEEL’ LIFE AGAIN, NOT THINK IT OR IMAGINE IT LIKE A DORK.

THEN, ONCE ACHIEVED, IN THE NEXT POST, PART 4 OF THIS SERIES I CAN TEACH YOU HOW TO USE THAT NOBODY TO BE AN ARISTOCRAT, BECAUSE ALL YOUR FAKE BULLSHIT STOPPING YOU FROM BEING BETTER WILL HAVE DISAPPEARED, AND YOU WILL HAVE BOTH THE MENTAL POWER AND SPACE REQUIRED TO DO MAKE ‘THE LEAP’ REQUIRED TO FIND YOUR REAL SELL – YOUR PRESENCE. 

I WILL TEACH YOU HOW TO BE SOMEBODY AGAIN, WITHOUT ALL YOUR EGOIC HISTORY AND MADE-UP CRAP, BY GETTING YOU TO BOTH FIND YOUR ‘PRESENCE’ AND BE ‘PRESENT IN IT’, SO CAN FEEL SOLID, STRONG AND ‘REAL’, AGAIN…   

YES, IN BOTH THEORY AND PRACTICE IT ACTUALLY IS THAT SIMPLE – IF YOU CAN DO IT! OK SO FAR?

BE CLEAR – YOU MUST FORGET YOUR CURRENT FAKE SELF IN ORDER TO FIND YOUR REAL SELF, YOUR REAL SELF IS UNDER YOUR CONDITIONING, NOT ABOVE IT, YOU CANNOT BUILD AN ARISTOCRAT ON TOP OF THE EVERY SHIFTING SANDS OF ‘FAKE YOU’.

YOU MUST GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY. 

CLEAR NOW? – Awesome BUT PLEASE STAY WITH ME, SEE today I’m trying to HELP YOU, SO I must MOTIVATE YOU TO CHANGE ‘RAPIDLY’ AS A ‘PRIORITY’. SEE YOU MUST STOP AUTOMATICALLY ACTING ON YOUR FALSE ‘INSTINCTS’ – you MUST STOP TRUSTING YOUR DOMESTICATED SELF because YOU ARE TOO WEAK AND STUPID TO CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER BY CONSISTENTLY ADOPTING AND ADAPTING TO THE WAY OF THE ARISTOS, THE PATH OF ‘CHARACTER AS EXCELLENCE’.

So TODAY I must get you TO RELATE TO CHARACTER CHANGE AS URGENT, to what the GREEKS ACTUALLY meant when they used the (BADLY TRANSLATED) word ‘PRAUS’, which we get as the Viking Root Word ‘MEEK’ (‘Gentle’), to describe the PERFECT CHARACTER – its actually means TO CONTROL ‘ANIMAL’ STRENGTH’, when your Christ used it he meant he HAD ‘TAMED’ HIS ANIMAL SELF, not that he was gutless, creepy and weak in our modern ‘Dickensian’ sense of that word.

See, to make this SHOCK AND AWE APPROACH WORK, and before we start this intro today, I need to change your stance to what is a NORMAL CHARACTER, so you understand why we, indeed all Spiritual Traditions consider you to be little more than Self Obsessed Godless Trash, who think they are CLEVER because they are BLIND to the truth that they are a FOOL, who thinks they are COOL, because they don’t see they are a fucking TOOL. Indeed they don’t even see what others think of them anymore, they kinda have to FILTER IT OUT…

SEE THAT ‘CONDITIONED CHARACTER’ YOU ARE SO BLISSFULLY UNAWARE OF IS TOTALLY FAKE, DISHONEST, DISLOYAL, AND DISEASED.

Indeed many of you go way beyond this – you have become creepy, obsessive, sleazy, NARCISISTIC, PARASITIC, in short a TOTAL BLOODY FANTASIST. So TODAY ‘YOU’ MUST RELATE TO THIS IN YOURSELF NOW, you must UNDERSTAND WHAT IT IS TO BE CONDITIONED SINCE BIRTH, you must see the SLAVERY of IT, see what it DOES TO YOU, see the FANTASY WORLD YOU LIVE IN BECAUSE OF IT, and start to wake up and snap out of it.

You must conceptualize this understanding so it is REAL FOR YOU, brand it across the top of your mind as a simple premise, the core of the Aristocratic approach to Spiritual Development, THE START OF YOUR MOTIVATION TO CHANGE:

YOU’RE SHIT BECAUSE YOU BEHAVE/THINK/FEEL LIKE AN ANIMAL, so you are SHIT BY DEFINITION – ALL Domesticated Animals are SELF-OBSESSED.

YES, AT YOUR CURRENT PATHETIC LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS YOUR SPIRITUAL RANK IS THAT OF A PACK ANIMAL, AN ANT, YET YOU ARE ‘TOTALLY SELF-OBSESSED’ BECAUSE YOUR SOCIETY HAS TOLD YOU THIS IS NORMAL, MADE YOU INTO A ‘DOMESTICATED ANIMAL’. BE CLEAR – YOU THINK YOU ARE WAY BETTER THAN YOU ARE, you think you are GOOD IN SOME WAY, YOU THINK YOU ARE ONE THING, YOU THINK YOU ARE CAPABLE OF RATIONALE DECISIONS, THAT YOU ARE DECENT – NONE OF THAT IS TRUE, YOU ARE A COW IN A FIELD. 

See your SOCIETY HAS SAID YOU ARE ENTITLED TO THIS FANTASY IN ORDER TO CONTROL YOU, YET ALL YOUR CLAIMED VIRTUES ARE VERY CLEARLY UNEARNED, SO THEY ARE UNREAL – YOU’RE A GAMER, WHO LIVES IN A DAYDREAM. SO LET BE SUPER CLEAR – IT IS NOT NORMAL TO BE A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL UNLESS YOU ARE AN ANIMAL, SO IT’S ALL YOU CAN DO. BUT YOU ARE GIFTED ARE YOU NOT – YOU HAVE SOME SPIRIT LEFT, DON’T YOU?

SO ASK YOURSELF THIS, RIGHT NOW –

ARE YOU JUST A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, OR ARE YOU BETTER THAN THAT, DO YOU HAVE SOME SPIRIT WE CAN FIND?

THEN TRY AND REMEMBER THE ANSWER… 

Crucially, the process of CHANGE won’t work unless you GET THIS as TRUTH, ‘KNOWLEDGE’, rather than just Theory, the petty surface understanding of the information kinda agreeing with your other trivial patterns, which does nothing to release the colossal amount of energy wasted on maintaining ‘fake you’ every second of every day – YOU NEED THAT INVESTMENT BACK TO USE THIS PROCESS. THERE MUST BE A SHOCK, YOU MUST BE ‘SHAKEN’ BY THIS – THE REALIZATION MUST BE RELATABLE IN ONE OF MANY, MANY POSSIBLE WAYS…

KNOW THAT THE REALIZATION OF WHAT IT IS TO BE A ‘DOMESTICATED ANIMAL’ FREES UP THE ENERGY TO FUEL THE PROCESS OF CHANGE – YOU MUST CONSCIOUSLY QUESTION YOUR DOMESTICATION WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I’VE TOLD YOU IT IS.

See to be ABLE TO DO THE PROCESS OF CHARACTER CHANGE, you must understand YOUR MOTIVATION TO DO IT, BOTH BE STRUCK BY THE HORROR OF YOU CURRENT ‘CONDITION’ AND UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU NEED TO DO ABOUT IT, AS THAT MENTAL REALIZATION ACTUALLY PROVIDES THE BIG CHUNKS OF ENERGY YOU NEED TO DO THE ACTUAL PROCESS OF ‘PRESENCE’, BOTH FINDING AND MAINTAINING IT AS A STATE.

So, today we must MOTIVATE YOU to BREAK YOUR ‘SELF-OBSESSION’, AT WHATEVER LEVEL OF ‘NARCISSIST’ YOU ARE, AND REPLACE THAT ‘TOOL’, WITH ALL THEIR SELF-DESTRUCTIVE BOLLOCKS, WITH the ‘SELF-CONSCIOUSNESS’ of YOUR ‘YOU THE OBSERVER’, SEEING YOUR ANIMAL SELF IN THE 3RD PERSON, which all Gifted folks have, and may even experience in moments of HIGH ANXIETY, much as you currently curse and reject it like a ‘FOOL’.

See, REAL YOU, which starts off as YOU ‘THE OBSERVER’ AND GROWS INTO DEPUTY STEWARD VIA THE GROWTH AND ADOPTION OF a larger and larger group of ARISTOCRATIC mental PATTERNS OF EXCELLENCE, SHOULD NOT TAKE WHAT ‘FAKE YOU’ THINKS, FEELS, AND DOES TOO BLOODY SERIOUSLY… BECAUSE IT IS ‘NOT YOU’. Frankly, FAKE YOU is full of EMOTIONALLY CHARGED ‘SELF-WILL’, and it is that emotion that makes your MOMENTARY, REACTIVE SHIT so difficult to STOP AND SELF CHECK, which is why you don’t ‘see it’, BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO BLOODY SMALL AND TOO BLOODY SLOW.

This MOTIVATION is the first, most important step IN ALL CHANGE, BECAUSE IT MAKES YOU REALIZE YOU ‘CAN CHANGE’ WHAT IS ‘NOT YOU’, you can decide to change any EXTERNAL part of you WHEN YOU SEE IT AS CRAP. SO YOU MUST BECOME FAR MORE INTERESTED IN WHAT FAKE YOU IS DOING THAN what is happening in your little WORLD, indeed, you must start to become VERY SELF-CONSCIOUS OF WHAT FAKE YOU WANTS TO DO, BEFORE THEY DO IT, so you can see it as NOT YOU, AND LEARN HOW TO STOP IT…

SEE, YOU CANNOT CHANGE WHAT YOU IDENTIFY AS ‘YOU’ WITHOUT BEING FORCED TOO EXTERNALLY, so Today we must CHANGE YOUR STANCE TOWARD YOURSELF, which is the beginning of all MEANINGFUL CHANGE OF CHARACTER – YOU MUST STOP JUST LOOKING AT THE WORLD ALL THE TIME, AND START TO ALSO LOOK AT YOUR CURRENT SELF AS ‘EXTERNAL TO YOU’. YOU MUST MAKE THAT INTERNAL VIEW JUST AS EXTERNAL AS THE WORLD OF SENSE CURRENTLY IS, BY FOCUSING ON WHAT IS HAPPENING INSIDE YOU MORE THAN THE WORLD OF SENSE.

But, YOU HAVE TO DO THIS ‘on purpose’, for it to work you must UNDERSTAND THIS PROCESS, so start understanding now –

This failure TO CHANGE is predicated by your inability to MOTIVATE yourself TO CHANGE, as you don’t see why you have to, which is how FAKE YOU stops you from changing, AND SO STOPS YOUR SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT, dead in its tracks.

Shame really, with all that potential you have to be SOMETHING, ‘IF’ YOU ARE GIFTED, to BE ‘On Top Of This World’, but here you are, stuck at the level of a DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, BRED ON LIES AS A FORM OF SOCIAL CONTROL, SO YOU ARE TOTALLY FAKE. And many of you, the highly Gifted actually KNOW THAT ALREADY, don’t you – YOU HAVE NO STABLE PERSONALITY, YOU LIVE FOR THE WAY LIFE MAKES YOU FEEL if you can find it, for your OBLIGATIONS, and maybe a treasured pet or 2.

YOU ARE ‘LOST’, STUCK CYCLING AROUND THE SAME ISSUES YOU HAVE ALWAYS HAD, WITH NO CLUE HOW TO FIX THEM – YOU ALREADY KNOW YOU ARE ‘NOTHING’, and you are largely paralyzed by it… BUT TAKE HEART – FOR MANY OF YOU THOSE ‘MOMENTS OF LOSTNESS’, which many FOLKS WHO KEEPS THEMSELVES BUSY experience as no more than a ‘mild type of boredom’, a type of ‘dislocation’ from themselves rather than animal boredom (which is a lack of simple excitement), ARE ‘THE START’ OF YOUR JOURNEY. See they are actually your ‘CONSCIENCE’, YOUR ‘REAL YOU’, screaming at YOU TO CHANGE, BY RECOGNISING YOU ARE ‘NOBODY’ AND STARTING AGAIN – YOU ARE FEELING THE ‘VAGUE CONNECTION’ TO ‘REAL YOU’.

See the REASON YOU FEEL LOST, THAT YOU HAVE NO PURPOSE, THAT YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO, AND WHAT YOU DO ‘DO’ BORES THE SHIT OUT OF YOU IS THAT YOU ALREADY KNOW YOU ARE BETTER THAN THIS. WHEN YOU FIND THE VAST STOREHOUSE OF KNOWLEDGE, TRUTH, PURPOSE, AND MEANING THAT IS REAL YOU, I PROMISE YOU WILL FEEL ‘AT HOME’. AND IT IS THE ONLY WAY IT WILL EVER HAPPEN – REAL YOU IS YOUR ONLY REALITY, EVERYTHING ELSE IS TOTALLY FAKE, YOU HAVE MADE IT UP…

SEE, you are NOT Nothing because you are SHIT as a person, because you are insignificant, because you have failed at so much, because you have so little, because you are of low moral character, because you lie, cheat and steal, BECAUSE YOU ARE A VILLIAN – those are all perfectly NORMAL FOR AN ANIMAL MAKING THE BEST OF IT. No, GIFTED you IS SHIT BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO REAL CHARACTER AT THE START OF THIS JOURNEY, YOU ARE ‘TOTALLY FAKE’, which makes you SHIT, whatever your circumstances in life are or will be –

YOU MUST FIND YOURSELF FIRST, BEFORE YOU CAN CHANGE, SO YOU CAN CHANGE AT ALL, SO YOU MUST REALIZE YOU ARE THIS NOTHINGNESS AND GO BACK TO BEING ‘NOBODY’, SO YOU CAN SEE YOUR ‘FAKE YOU’ IS ‘NOT COMING FROM YOU’.

Yes, I know, you may still ‘WANT IT DARKER’, you may still ‘HAVE YOUR DEMONS’, much as I’m also sure they are ‘middle class and tame’ (Sorry Leonard), but they are not the cause of your SHITNESS, they are a side-effect, the CAUSE IS YOUR ‘FAKE YOU’ – your Character does not exist, your MESSY LITTLE DOGS BREAKFAST OF AN EGO IS FAKING IT. Your Habitual Patterns and Short Term memory have only created the ‘Appearance of Character’, but THERE IS LITERALLY ‘NOTHING BEHIND THOSE PATTERNS’, there is no ONE Rationale entity making decisions, CREATING THOSE THOUGHTS – YOUR THOUGHTS ARE TASTELESS SAUSAGES CHURNED OUT OF MULTIPLE HOLES from the EGOIC ‘MACHINE OF YOU’, made from whatever you are reacting to in that moment.

YES, ‘YOU’ ARE A ‘BLANK SPACE’ (Sorry Taylor), You don’t THINK YOUR THOUGHTS, YOUR THOUGHTS THINK THE ‘FALSE IMPRESSION’ OF YOU INTO EXISTENCE, without those thoughts, you would simply cease to exist as a personality. YES, your EGO IS A HOLLOW SHELL, IT IS ALL SURFACE AND NO SUBSTANCE – ALL EGOS ARE JUST HABITUAL MACHINES DESIGNED TO HANDLE LIFE, THEY ARE A BADLY PROGRAMMED AUTOPILOT.

This is WHY YOU ARE A SHIT, THAT YOU LACK QUALITY, CONSISTENCY, FOCUS – YOU ARE SHIT BECAUSE YOUR TREASURED ‘I’, all deep, serious and moody DOES NOT FUCKING EXIST, YET – YOU HAVE CONFUSED YOUR EGO WITH YOURSELF, WITH ‘REAL YOU’, YOUR ACTUAL CHARACTER, which you need to find AS A PRIORITY, AS THE POINT TO YOUR LIFE, IF YOU ARE GIFTED. Currently there is NO YOU, THERE IS NOTHING TO DEFEND, TO JUSTIFY, TO PROTECT – YOUR ‘FEAR’ AND ‘SELF-INTEREST’ ARE DELUSIONS, ‘albeit VERY persistent ones’, (Sorry Albert)…

Get this – YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER IS ‘FAKE’, so what is the big deal about changing it then, GIVEN IT DOES NOT REALLY EXIST, BIT OF TALKING THERAPY AND BOBS YOUR UNCLE, eh? So know the big deal is SIMPLE – IT is stronger than YOU, right now, so IT CAN ‘STOP YOU’ CHANGING UNLESS YOU LEARN HOW TO ‘STOP IT’, even when you KNOW ITS ‘NOT YOU’ IT WILL STILL OVERPOWER YOU in the moment, every fucking time. Worse, it will continually ‘GET YOU TO FORGET’ that you ‘want to CHANGE’, cause you are THAT WEAK…

See it is so strong in relation to YOUR WEAKNESS, which is why it FOCUSES ON KEEPING YOU WEAK, so you can’t fight it, YOU JUST THINK ABOUT IT, LIKE THAT FUCKING DOES ANYTHING AT ALL, other than make you even weaker of course. See, IN A VERY REAL SENSE YOU NEED TO ‘PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER’ AT A SPIRITUAL LEVEL BECAUSE THE PATH OF LIFE, THAT WAS ‘CHOSEN FOR YOU’, HAS MADE YOU INCONTINENT, HAS SCATTERED, STUNNED, AND DISLOCATED ‘REAL YOU’ TO OUTSIDE ‘YOUR EXPERIENCE’, so ‘THE MAGIC OF YOU’ is barely a memory NOW – YOU CAN’T ENJOY IT AS ANYTHING MORE THAN ‘GLIMPSES’.

EVEN WHEN YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR FAKE CHARACTER AND DEVELOP YOUR REAL ONE, AND YOU WILL, YOU CAN’T BECAUSE YOU ARE STUCK THINKING LIKE AN ANIMAL – YOUR ‘DOMESTICATION’ IS TOO STRONG.

YOU HAVE TO SEE THE DOMESTICATED ANIMAL OF FAKE YOU WORKING AGAINST REAL YOU FOR CHANGE TO BECOME URGENT ENOUGH TO DO THE ‘WORK’, AS THAT REALIZATION CREATES THE ENERGY YOU NEED TO USE THIS PROCESS.

So my JOB 1 today is to MOTIVATE YOU TO ENGAGE IN THE PROCESS TO CHANGE URGENTLY, while JOB 2 (in the next post as this one is already way to long) IS TO EXPLAIN THE PROCESS ITSELF IN THE LIGHT OF THIS NEW MOTIVATION. YOUR JOB IS TO UNDERSTAND AND LINK THESE TWO TOGETHER SO THAT THE MOTIVATION TO CHANGE IS ACTED OUT INSTANTLY, IN THE MOMENT OF HAVING IT.

So this new motivation NEEDS TO BE VERY STRONG, ALWAYS ON YOUR MIND, so the dream of ‘a better you’ will not be enough, INDEED THE DREAM OF A BETTER YOU HAS ACTUALLY REPLACED YOUR REAL DESIRE TO BE REAL YOU, YOU HAVE BECOME A FANTASIST.

See you are NOT GOING TO CHANGE IF I JUST ASK YOU TOO, because in some vague way its a GOOD IDEA, YOU NEED TO CHANGE FOR A REASON. You are not going to accept the ancient God Squad style reasons they once used to do this, that your body is EVIL, that you are Mentally Sick, POSSESSED in some way, even the classic 4th reasons of the modern systems won’t be enough, that you are an ORGANIC MACHINE, A ROBOT, that your LIFE IS RANDOM CHANCE because you are ASLEEP, YOU LIVE IN A FANTASY WORLD. Yes, I will explain today why they say this, why it worked for them, so you get it, but still that won’t be enough…

No, this is the WAY OF THE ARISTOS, THIS IS ABOUT QUALITY, so YOU must UNDERSTAND that right now YOU HAVE NO QUALITY, at all – YOU ARE SHIT – so you can LEARN TO COMPARE YOURSELF AGAINST THIS IDEAL. See TODAY YOU MUST FIND THE ‘SELF RESPECT’ YOU HAVE LONG SINCE SACRIFICED IN ORDER TO ‘HAVE FUN’ AND ‘FIT IN’, in order to ‘live, drive and survive..’ (Sorry Blues Brothers). You must be motivated to find this SELF RESPECT URGENTLY, by the simple fact that you are already WAY LESS THAN YOU ONCE WHERE, and one day soon your chance of ever doing this will be GONE.

The way we do this is SIMPLE, BUT VERY POWERFUL, given you are Gifted – YOU MUST UNDERSTAND: 

YOU ARE SHIT BECAUSE YOU ARE TOTALLY FAKE, THERE IS NO ‘YOU’, YOU ARE A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, A TOTAL PUSSY IN COMPARISON TO WHAT YOU WERE BORN TO BE – YOU ARE AN EMBARRASSMENT TO YOUR REAL SELF.

YOU MUST UNDERSTAND THIS AS THEORY FIRST, AS MOTIVATION, SO YOU ARE ‘DRIVEN’, EVERY FUCKING DAY, TO ACTUALIZE THAT THEORY IN YOURSELF, TO SEE IT SO YOU CAN BE IT, YOU CANNOT SIT ON THIS THEORY AND DO NOTHING.

SO YOU MUST FIRST BE HAPPY TO FIND AND BE THAT REAL ‘NOBODY’ WHO IS BURIED BEHIND ALL YOUR FAKE DOMESTICATION, AS THAT WILL GIVE YOU THE POWER, THE SEPARATENESS TO SEE ‘FAKE YOU’, YOUR DOMESTICATED PATTERNS AS THEY ACT OUT. YOU MUST TRY AND CONNECT YOUR CONSCIOUS MIND TO THIS NOBODY AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, VIA THIS MOTIVATION…

THIS NOBODY IS NOT REAL YOU YET, IT IS YOU ‘THE OBSERVER’, SO STILL RELIES TOTALLY ON HABITUAL PATTERNS TO ACT, WHICH IS WHY YOU NEED YOUR DEPUTY STEWARD AS A NEW GROUP OF GOOD CHARACTER PATTERNS TO HELP YOUR DEVELOPMENT, BY FIGHTING FAKE YOUS DESIRE TO STOP YOU DEVELOPING AT THE START.  

THIS ‘NOBODY’ BECOMES YOUR SUPERNATURAL PRESENCE – IT IS YOUR LIFE FORCE ITSELF, AND IT VIBRATES. 

SEE – YOU ARE NOT TRYING TO PERFECT THE ANIMAL IN YOU, YOU ARE TRYING TO TRANSCEND THE LAYER OF THE DOMESTICATED ANIMAL IN YOU, FIRST BY NOT BEING FAKE YOU ALL THE TIME, THEN BY BEING YOUR ‘NOBODY’ AS MUCH AS YOU CAN BY BEING ‘PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE’, SO YOU CAN SEE FAKE YOU ACT OUT, AGAINST YOU.

ONCE THIS HABIT BECOMES ESTABLISHED YOU CAN START TO ‘STOP’ FAKE YOU ON OCCASION, AS THAT GROWS YOUR DEPUTY STEWARD, YOUR ARISTOS AS A NEW GROUP OF CHARACTER PATTERNS AS YOU LEARN HOW TO CONTROL YOUR FAKE SELF. THIS IS A TRIAL AND ERROR PROCESS, BUT ONCE YOU GET STARTED IT IS VERY ADDICTIVE, SO GETS EASIER. 

WHEN STRONG ENOUGH, THIS ARISTOS IS THE GATEWAY TO YOUR ORIGINAL CHARACTER – REAL YOU, ‘THE MASTER’, BUT THEY MUST START AS A DEPUTY, AS THEY MUST FIGHT WITH FAKE YOU FOR YOUR ATTENTION AND TRUST – THEY MUST WIN MORE THAN THEY LOSE TO GROW, SO PICK YOUR FIGHTS WITH CARE AT THE START, EG CRUSH YOUR NERVOUS TICKS, YOUR CLUMSINESS, YOUR IMPRECISON, YOUR FORGETFULNESS, YOUR FRIDGE BLINDNESS FIRST.

IT IS THIS MOVE FROM NOBODY TO THE CREATION OF YOUR DEPUTY STEWARD AS A SEPARATE ENTITY INSIDE YOU, YOUR ARISTOCRAT THAT IS THE BEGINNING OF ALL REAL DIRECTED CHANGE, BUT YOU MUST FIND AND BE YOUR ‘NOBODY’ FIRST, IF YOU WANT THIS TO GO FAST…

SEE IT IS ONLY YOUR ‘NOBODY’ THAT CAN ‘SEE’, YOUR DEPUTY STEWARD IS SIMPLY A SET OF GOOD PATTERNS YOU MUST CREATE THAT ACTS AS A ‘RAT CATCHER’, AND EVERY TIME YOUR ‘NOBODY’ SEES A RAT TRYING TO STEAL YOUR POWER, A NERVOUS TICK, A FANTASY, A POINTLESS JUSITIFCATION, CONVERSATION, ARGUMENT YOUR DEPUTY CAN STEP IN AND STOP IT HAPPENING. 

OVERTIME YOUR DEPUTY GETS TO THE FIRST MEANINGFUL LEVEL, ‘SELF RESPECT’ AND AT THAT POINT ALL THIS GETS A LOT EASIER FOR THE HIGHLY GIFTED, AS YOUR REAL YOU HAS STEPPED IN AND STARTED TO SIDE WITH YOUR DEPUTY, USE THEM AS A VEHICLE FOR YOUR CONSCIENCE, AS SELF RESPECT IS A CONSCIENCE LEVEL EMOTION, WHICH IS WAY MORE POWERFUL THAN FAKE YOU…  

But be clear, IF YOU ARE ‘NOT GIFTED’ THIS WON’T WORK, (ANIMALS DON’T HAVE A CONSCEINCE), BECAUSE YOU WON’T CARE, THERE IS NOTHING INSIDE YOU ‘TO CARE’. This approach does not work on CANNON FODDER, on ANIMALS, BECAUSE THEY DON’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THEMSELVES, SO THEY WILL NEVER BE MOTIVATED TO DO THIS…

HOPEFULLY SOME OF YOU CAN ALREADY SEE THAT IN THIS CASE THE MOTIVATION ITSELF IS ACTIVE – IT DOES SOMETHING ENERGETICALLY AT THE START, PRIOR TO USING THE METHOD OF ‘BEING PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE’ I WILL OUTLINE IN PART 4 OF THIS SERIES. See it prepares you by giving you the chance to be NOBODY for a moment or 2, DRAMATICALLY INCREASING YOUR AVAILABLE ENERGY.

This preparation should also change your stance toward the formation of your DEPUTY STEWARD, YOUR GOOD PATTERNS OF EXCELLENCE, it should encourage you to support them in small things by not getting discouraged when you fail at the start, AS THAT FAILURE IS A NESSACCARY EVIL – IT PROVIDES more of THE ENERGY YOU NEED TO GET BETTER AT ACTING OUT THESE GOOD ‘QUALITY’ PATTERNS, perfect them. In truth this motivation, once understood is the SEED OF YOUR DEPUTY STEWARD, THE CENTRE OF GRAVITY THAT MANY OTHER SUPERNATURAL ASPECTS OF YOURSELF WITH RECOGNIZE AND START TO GRAVITATE TOWARDS, providing HUGE MOMENTUM TO THE GROWTH OF THIS NEW YOU.

Now, in many ways the MOTIVATION AND THE PROCESS ARE SO CONNECTED THEY ARE ACTUALLY THE SAME THING, the trick is to bounce back and forth between them constantly, SO YOU FOCUS ON THIS CHANGE ENOUGH FOR IT TO WORK – I NEED TO MAKE YOU STRONGER. To DO this you must UNDERSTAND THIS MOTIVATION IN SPECIFICS, WHAT THE PROCESS YOU WILL USE ACTUALLY ‘ALLOWS’ YOU TO DO, THAT YOU CAN’T DO YET, TO CHANGE. So this MOTIVATION MUST BE STRONG, as you need to go AGAINST YOURSELF, SO YOU NEED TO ‘SEE YOUR fake SELF’ AS ‘WRONG’…

And don’t worry if you don’t get first, 2nd or even 3rd time, READ IT AGAIN, so you do, fucking get it – OTHERWISE YOU MAY BE ONE OF THOSE LESSER TYPES OF GIFTED WHO SPECIFIC HOOK I MISS, and that’s not my style, to leave ‘money on the table’, particularly as the HIGHLY GIFTED ARE ALWAYS THE HARDEST TO REACH, as their Fake You is much stronger, MUCH CLEVERER THAN YOU ARE, while the Low to Medium types are always so DISTRACTED BY THE B/S OF LIFE, THEIR TRIVIA is just so IMPORTANT, so they struggle to see passed it…

Yes, I see this so much as a Teacher of this path – your Fake You gets you to FREEZE UP AND DWELL ON CRUCIAL STUFF YOU SHOULD JUST FUCKING GET ON WITH WITHOUT ANY THOUGHT AT ALL, YET YOU AUTOMATICALLY DO SILLY CRAP, THAT TOXIC SHIT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW IS FUCKING KILLING YOU, because Fake You simply makes IT ‘exciting in the moment’, makes THE NASTY seem ‘Glamorous’ (look up the real meaning of that Witch word), by simply feeding you ‘scoobie snacks’ cause you’re a GOOD DOG today.

See YOUR LIFE IS UPSIDE DOWN, YOU (THE MASTER) HAS BECOME THE SLAVE OF FAKE YOU (YOUR EGO), your mechanical servant has become the Boss, and is burning your house down AGAIN ‘just the fun of it’ (Sorry Labrinth), CAUSE IT DOES NOT GIVE A TOSS ABOUT YOU. See in your more stable ‘moments of clarity’, the reason ‘the whole thing feels like a lie’, is because it is LIE – Mount Everest is REAL, and can easily SHIT ON YOU, while your OPINION OF YOUR SELF IS A TOTAL FANTASY…

Yes, I KNOW – if you are prepared to spend years practicing the Methods of Passive Development you will change anyway, SLOWLY, organically, but many of you will give up way before this happens, as you won’t notice any CHANGE in the SHORT TERM – YOUR DESIRE TO BE BETTER WILL BE SNUFFED OUT, LIKE A CANDLE. Your FAKE YOU will get bored, and slowly but surely your LITTLE WILL to DEVELOP yourself will change into its opposite as all your other desires have over the years, it will become some CRAP you tell yourself in your darker moments when you cannot bear yourself anymore, you can’t even be alone with yourself without falling apart – the HIGHLY GIFTED will become increasingly dominated by the need to CONTROL or BE CONTROLLED, just to feel alive at all…

Yes, this stuff is a bit DARKER IN SPIRITUAL REALITY THAN THE TRITE, WOO WOO, NEW AGE BOLLOCKS YOU MAY ALREADY ASSOCIATE IT WITH, indeed for some of the most highly GIFTED, with the split personalities so common after Double Crystallization has occurred (after long abuse of their Gift), finding their ‘PRESENCE’ can be A CHALLENGE, AS IT THE FIRST TIME YOU WILL EXPERIENCE THE SUPERNATURAL consciously, so you remember. Trust me, however BIG a shock it is to discover that YOU are not YOU when it happens, it is much better to KNOW and plan accordingly, and FRANKLY, it can also come as a BIG relief to many, who can finally accept themselves AS A SUM OF PARTS, rather than one BAD thing, and many are simply a gang of ‘feral cats’, neither good nor bad in any meaningful sense…

So I must prepare your mind for that via this post, give you every chance so to speak, CONVINCE YOU NOT TO ‘BOTTLE IT’, like so many do out of some form of ‘FEAR OF THEMSELVES’, particularly if you are already aware you have a tendency to BLACKOUT while everyone around you thinks you are still conscious, during the ‘fun’ things that actually aren’t fun – a VERY big sign this post is for YOU, SO BE BRAVE AS YOU ALREADY HAVE DOUBLE CRYSTALLIZATION, WHICH YOU HAVE TO DO DEAL WITH. See, long ago and far away that is how I got to this bit, SO I KNOW IT VERY WELL – NO MATTER HOW YOU REACT TO WHAT FOLLOWS KNOW THAT ‘I KNOW YOU BETTER THAN YOU DO’…

But it is important to be balanced too, indeed the MORE common way into this POST, THE MOST RELATABLE IS SIMPLY ‘I KNOW I’M BETTER THAN THIS, YET WHY IS MY LIFE SO FUCKING SHIT, WHATEVER I DO IT CAN’T CHANGE IT?’ See for the low to medium-level types the TRAP of your CHARACTER is so BLOODY subtle, so hidden behind what you think are good things, that you NEVER SEE YOU ARE DOING IT TO YOURSELF, AND THE ONLY WAY TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE IS TO CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER – YOU A FILLED TO THE BRIM WITH LIMITING BELIEFS. So don’t despair, even to relate to this POST AS THE REASON BEHIND YOUR CHRONIC ‘UNDERPERFORMANCE’ IN THIS LIFE is a perfectly acceptable way forward, long as you realize we are not Tony Robbins here on the 4th way, WE FUCKING HATE SELF HELP GURUS OF ALL KINDS.

Yes, the 4th way is not really for NICE People, my version of this STAGE specifically is based on Rinzai Zen, Warrior Zen, Haikun and his Vicious, Vital, and VIGOROUS Zen, a distinct form of PERSONAL Zen, rather than the watered-down Soto ‘Community’ Zen of the Western world, post WW2, so TRY and keep that in mind as you read the rest of this. See WHAT YOU ARE DOING HERE TODAY IS A MODERN FORM OF ‘KENSHO’, ‘to (start) to see into your own personal nature’, to open the floodgates, AFTER WHICH YOU DON’T REALLY NEED ANY FURTHER TEACHING, your Development will be FORCED ON YOU.

See, in our Western reality, so dripping in HEROIC tropes, what Rinzai Zen REALLY asks you to DO, over and over again, is simply MAN THE FUCK UP to the FIGHT YOU HAVE BEEN PUTTING OFF all your (thus far) somewhat pointless, banal existence, AS YOU HAVE CHOSEN THE SAFE, FAMILIAR COMFORTS OF A SLAVE, OVER THE POWER OF AN ARISTOS, over your very own Birthright, CAUSE YOU WERE BRED TO BE A TOTAL PUSSY, YOU ARE ‘DOMESTICATED’, another one of those passive little evils SO BELOVED OF OUR SLAVE SOCIETY that STOPS YOU BEING YOU…

So lets explain DOMESTICATION TO YOU, lets try and get through to you why we call you a SLAVE:

See, the PROCESS OF DOMESTICATION IS INSIDIOUS – what Society does to you from birth is TRAIN YOU, to be a PRODUCTIVE member of Society, which is corrupt to its VERY CORE, AS IT IS BASED ON SOCIAL CONTROL THROUGH MONEY, NOT MERIT, no matter how much money you have, much as you would be LOST WITHOUT IT. But its not really the Society that is the PROBLEM, its your ACCEPTANCE OF ‘EXTERNAL CONDITIONING AS TRUTH’, as a ‘good thing’, that has FUCKED YOU, made you into a WILLING SLAVE. Know ALL NATURAL, SPIRITUAL SOCIETY IS BASED ON REVEALED ‘TRUTH’, INHERITED ‘MERIT’ AND EARNED ‘HONOR’, because that is REAL, which means it is based on CONFLICT, CHALLENGE and CHANGE.

Now ANY TYPE OF SOCIETY, HOWEVER BAD is not harmful in itself IF YOU RETAIN YOUR OWN judgement, YOUR OWN ABILITY TO ACT OUTSIDE OF THAT CONDITIONING, BUT YOU LARGELY DON’T, BECAUSE THAT CONDITIONING IN ITSELF MAKES YOU WEAK AND STUPID – YOU BECOME ‘LAZY MINDED’, as the overall TENDENCY TOWARD conditioning BECOMES YOUR CHARACTER, WHICH IS THE CHARACTER OF ‘NO CHARACTER’, OBVIOUSLY. YOU SIMPLY ACT OUT OTHER PEOPLES CHARACTER IN YOUR HERD, YOU ARE A CLONE – THAT IS NOT CHARACTER, THAT IS A PACK ANIMAL, A BUMBLE BEE, or the most relevant OF ALL FOR NORMAL PEOPLE, AN ‘ANT’.

Try and see this – THE CHARACTER OF THE ‘CONDITIONED MIND’ IS A ‘FAKE CHARACTER’, IT IS THE CHARACTER OF WHAT TAUGHT YOU, or more to the point a big mess of conflicting Characters you adopt from different sources of widely varying quality, relevance and EMOTIONAL WEIGHT that continually compete with each other, UNCONSCIOUSLY. SEE YOU’RE SOOOOO FUCKING SHIT THAT YOU ARE NOT EVEN GOOD AT BEING SHIT, YOU ARE EVEN SHIT AT BEING SHIT, you are ‘INCONSISTENT’. The HORROR –  see it is way better to DO something, anything as then OTHER FORCES CAN INTERVENE, rather than just sit there PARALYSED BY THOUGHTS OF YOUR HEARTS DESIRE, as your thoughts appear and run in never-ending, CONFLICTING circles, ALL DAZED AND SCATTERED, as that TURNS YOU INTO A COWARD BY WEAKENING YOU, SO THE CONCEPT OF CHANGE JUST CONFLICTS YOU EVEN MORE.

See YOU DON’T BELIEVE THAT CRAP YOU TALK, YOU DON’T BELIEVE ANYTHING AT ALL, YOU SIMPLY ACT OUT YOUR CONDITIONING – IT IS the dominance of that CONDITIONING THAT REALLY MATTERS. It is hard to see at your LEVEL, so just accept for now that THE PROCESS OF DOMESTICATION IS ONE OF THOSE NASTY MASTER PATTERNS THAT BECOMES THE CORE OF YOUR CHARACTER, THAT PERVADES ANYTHING YOU ARE, YOU DO IT TO YOURSELF NOW, WHICH MAKES YOU INTO A NOTHING, MAKES YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO CONFORM AS A KNEE JERK ‘REACTION’.

Your TENDENCY TOWARD ACCEPTING DOMESTICATION MEANS YOUR ‘SPIRIT’ HAS BEEN BROKEN, SO YOU EXPECT TO BE TOLD WHAT TO DO, MANY OF YOU EVEN NEED TO BE TOLD WHAT TO DO, AS YOU ARE LITTLE MORE THAN LEMMINGS, who carry on regardless…

SEE DOMESTICATION IS NOT INTENDED TO IMPROVE YOUR CHARACTER, IT IS DESIGNED TO CONTROL YOUR LACK OF CHARACTER, AUTOMATICALLY, SO YOU ARE A GOOD DOG NOW, AND YOU DON’T DO BAD THINGS LIKE SOME WILD ANIMAL.

DOMESTICATION, THE ‘CONDITIONING OF THE ANIMAL MIND’ IS ACTUALLY A CHEAP REPLACEMENT FOR CHARACTER.

IT LITERALLY INSTILS NEW, UNNATURAL INSTINCTS IN YOU, WHICH YOU THEN BELIEVE COME FROM YOU, SO YOU TRUST THEM JUST LIKE THE AUTHENTIC, NATURAL ONES, AND ACT THEM OUT WITHOUT ANY FURTHER RATIONAL PROCESSING – YOU BECOME LAZY.  

DOMESTICATION AS YOU KNOW IT IS ANCIENT, PERFECTED BY THE GREEKS, ROMANS AND MUSLIMS TO CONDITION SLAVES TO BE GOOD DOGS, AND INCLUDES EVERYTHING FROM THE FORCED 2ND NATURE TRAINING THAT IS ‘MEMORISATION’ BY ROTE, PUBLIC HUMILIATION SO AS TO MAKE AN EXAMPLE OF ANY FAILURE TO CONFORM, TO THE USE OF EXTREME ‘DETERRENTS’ AS A PASSIVE THREAT, NONE OF WHICH ARE NATURAL.

HOWEVER, A LONG SIDE THIS CRAP, AT THE TOP OF THESE SOCIETIES THE CHILDREN OF ELITES WERE NOT TAUGHT LIKE THIS, THEY WERE TAUGHT ‘EXCELLENCE’ IN ALL THINGS, IN CHARACTER, LOGIC, MOVEMENT, MANNERS, ART, MUSIC, CULTURE, AND POWER – THEY WERE TAUGHT TO FIGHT AGAINST THEIR PASSIVE CONDITIONING BECAUSE THEY WERE EXPECTED TO BE BETTER THAN ‘THEM’, WHILE YOU’RE BRED TO CONFORM TO ‘THEM’.

YOU ARE TAUGHT LIKE A SLAVE, TO BE A SLAVE.

BUT TAKE HEART – DOMESTICATION ONLY WORKS AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, BECAUSE YOU SIMPLY CAN’T TELL THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF INBOUND, INSTINCTIVE THOUGHTS.

SEE ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS RAISE YOUR LEVEL SO YOU CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE, THEN ALL CHANGE BECOMES CHILDS PLAY, BECAUSE RIGHT AND WRONG FOR YOU BECOME OBVIOUS, GIVEN YOU NOW KNOW HOW IT WORKS.  

SEE, YOU TRUST these PRE-CONDITIONED TOUCH POINTS, OF ‘YOUR SOCIETY’, TO TELL YOU WHAT TO DO, BECAUSE YOU HAVE LOST THE ABILITY TO CHOOSE FOR YOURSELF, TO DO WHAT YOU ACTUALLY WANT, because you literally don’t know how to fight – YOU JUST DO WHAT YOU EXPECT TO DO out of this habit, INSTEAD. See YOUR PRIMARY METHOD OF VALUATION IS DRIVEN BY THIS MASTER PATTERN, WHICH IS ‘THE SLAVE MINDSET’ OF ‘FEAR OF NEGATIVE CONSEQUENCES IF YOU DON’T CONFORM’, SO YOU GIVE INTO TO EVERYTHING, INCLUDING YOURSELF AUTOMATICALLY. This is the exact opposite of the GIFTED MINDSET, TO FIGHT, ‘TO KILL OR BE KILLED’, TO ‘WELCOME CONFLICT’ AS REAL LIFE, ACTUALLY BE EXCITED BY CONFLICT because that is the POINT OF CONFLICT.

Yes, you don’t SEE this in the moment, because right now your mind is FULL OF WHAT WE CALL BUFFERS, BLOCKS THAT STOP YOU from STRAYING OUTSIDE OF YOUR CONDITIONING AS A PATTERN REACTION, you literally don’t see anything that you have NOT BEEN CONDITIONED TO SEE, TO ACCEPT. So you no longer CHOOSE RATIONALLY, SO YOU NEVER REALLY ‘DO’ ANYTHING as a choice, you just act out your habitual conditioning, YOU ONLY REALLY EVER HAVE ONE OPTION, SOME MOMENTARY VARIANT OF YOUR PREVIOUS DOMESTICATION – SO YOU ARE SHIT, YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS A CIRCULAR RAILROAD TRACK, continually returning you to the beginning…

Yes, it is NOT YOUR FAULT YOU ARE SHIT, IT HAS BEEN DONE TO YOU LIKE AN ANIMAL, you know no better – FROM A GIFTED PERSPECTIVE you are a feral dog, ABANDONED AT BIRTH, by turns fighting or fitting in to survive, WHILST HOPELESSLY WAITING TO BE SAVED BY OTHER ‘DOGS’! So today you must decide if YOU WANT TO SAVE YOURSELF, to start to look at yourself as a DISTURBED CAT who ‘NEEDS’ an intervention THEY ‘DON’T WANT’ – YOU MUST RAISE YOURSELF UP AND OUT OF THAT TINY CORNER OF LIFE YOU LIVE IN, SEE THAT MASTER PATTERN, AND START TO TRAIN YOURSELF ‘TO BE GIFTED’, FAST. And you must want to DO THIS ENOUGH TO BE PREPARED TO FIGHT FOR IT.

See ‘YOU’ want this to GO FAST, YOU ARE SO WEAK ALREADY YOU NEED IT TO GO FAST, don’t you, so you are prepared to PAY for that SPEED – YOU ARE PREPARED TO ‘TRY’.

Given, OF COURSE, someone assures you the RISKS are ‘acceptable’, YOU HAVE SOME ENERGY, and that SOMEONE TELLS YOU THE ‘EASY WAY’ TO DO IT – TO RISE ABOVE YOUR FAKE, DOMESTICATED ANIMAL CHARACTER, and find your REAL CHARACTER.

But DON’T BE PUT OFF BY THIS, BY THE REALIZATION THAT YOU HAVE THE ‘NO CHARACTER’ OF A SLAVE, THAT YOU ARE TOTALY FAKE, LIKE some of the MORE EXTREME, highly GIFTED TYPES CAUSE THEY ALREADY KNOW THIS. Yes, THE CONTROLLING types, all criticism, drama and commands, or the UNCONTROLLED TYPES, WHO CHANGE THERE VALUES IN LINE WITH THEIR NEXT CHEAP THRILL, the vacuous Porn Stars of the world, ALL JUST SIMPLY WIMP OUT AT THIS STAGE.

See, they CAN’T FACE THE ‘SHAME OF IT’, worse they think this training is going to be TORTURE, AS WE SHAME YOU OVER AND OVER, WE SHOW YOU UP AGAIN AND AGAIN FOR BEING ‘BASIC’ – we don’t, WE WERE ALL THE SAME AS YOU ARE NOW, ONCE, UPON A TIME, we see ourselves in YOU, so forget that shit, USE IT INSTEAD. YES, that PERSONAL shame is bloody priceless, the greatest of all motivations, so EMBRACE IT AS THE BEGINNING OF MEANINGFUL CHANGE.

We are GIFTED, your own KIND, we don’t judge you as animals do, we don’t care you are ‘NOT LIKEABLE’, WE TREAT YOU WITH THE RESPECT DUE TO YOUR QUALITY, it does not matter that you are not interesting, not cool, not loyal, not honest, NO LONGER PRETTY, YOUNG, DESIRABLE, CLEVER, A CATCH ANYMORE, WE know you know you ARE NOTHING ALREADY, BECAUSE YOU ARE STUCK LIVING AS ANIMAL. AND WE ARE GLAD OF IT, no need to pretend with us, please us, because you are STARTING WAY FURTHER DOWN THIS TRACK THAT SOME SILLY BITCH WHO THINKS THERE AMAZING.

We VALUE YOUR QUALITY, or potential for same, we don’t give a rats that you are ‘THE NOTHING OF A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL’ at the min, WE SEE PASSED THAT ‘AWKWARDNESS’, WE SEE THE QUALITY, THE POWER YOU WERE BORN WITH. Remember this WITH CONFIDENCE, as the key to SEEKING help is NOT JUST the belief THAT YOU CAN BE HELPED, BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY THAT STRANGE LITTLE OLD YOU, WITH ALL YOUR ‘HISTORY’, ACTUALLY WILL BE HELPED, as FRANKLY, your history is just MORE TEDIOUS NOTHING…

See to be LIKEABLE you have to be INTERESTING, you have to have the same opinions, the same conversation, the same aspirations, BUT MANY GIFTED HAVE NONE OF THAT, AND THEY STRUGGLE TO PRETEND IN CHILDHOOD. SO they appear SELF-OBSESSED, FAITHLESS, VANILLA, BUT they learn via the UNPLEASANT REJECTION  of others in childhood that the only way forward is to PAY FOR their LIKES, SO their entire False personality becomes built on SOME FORM OF PLEASING OR CONTROLLING PEOPLE as what we call your KEY FEATURE OF FAKE YOU. So its a shame that actually makes the ANIMALS hate you more, makes them feel CHEATED IN SOMEWAY, so they are more than happy to traffic YOU and your secrets as a form of revenge – ALL ANIMAL SOCIETY IS SIMPLY ABOUT POWER OVER OTHERS, the pack mentality.

But if you check yourself carefully, you will find you share a VERY REAL interest IN COMMON WITH ALL GIFTED, the interest in STYLE, CLASS, ART, which is what you understand the generic Gifted interest in QUALITY IS, AT YOUR LEVEL. See all GIFTED ARE SECRET ARISTOCRATS, but they don’t realize it, much as they are ALWAYS DRAWN TO SOME VERSION OF IT, IT IS USUALLY LONG FORGOTTEN OR SCARFICED AS ANOTHER PART OF YOUR ODDNESS that others ‘dislike’ in you. Your NATURAL TASTE, that ability to select the good from the bad FOR YOU IS THEREFORE NEVER DEVELOPED, indeed, you develop the False Taste of the domesticated animal, as you copy them to FIT IN, so you ACT AGAINST YOURSELF.

So today, whatever your level of being Conciously FALSE vs your Unconcious FALSE ‘Conditioning’, what your level of DOMESTICATION AS A SLAVE actually is, WE NEED TO START DOWN THE ROAD OF REMOVING IT, BECAUSE IT IS TOTALLY FAKE, AND SO FUCKS UP YOUR REAL LIFE, YOUR DEVELOPMENT, makes it’s painfully slow, ‘hit and miss’, 1 step forward and 2 steps back. THEN YOU CAN ACCEPT THAT IN THE PRIVATE RITUAL OF SELF-CARE, YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO LOSE BY TOTALLY REJECTING YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER. In these moments you are completely SAFE, and can START to Do/think/feel whatever you WISH, rather than what your trivial little EGO says to you.

Now we must touch on the other BIG effect of being a SLAVE – YOUR FANTASY LIFE…

See, BECAUSE YOU THINK LIKE A SLAVE YOUR CONSCIOUS MIND LIVES IN ‘MEMORIES OF THE PAST’ AND ‘FEAR OF THE FUTURE’, IT DOES NOT LIVE IN THE PRESENT AND THAT IS ‘THE’ PROBLEM. SEE YOU LET YOUR EGO HANDLE THE PRESENT FOR YOU, WHICH IT DOES UNCONSCIOUSLY, SO YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHY YOU DO STUFF BECAUSE ‘YOU ARE NOT THERE’, ‘IT’ IS.

So YOU ARE DOOMED BY THE TAME, MEDIOCRITY OF YOUR EGO, AS THE ONLY TIME YOU CAN AFFECT LIFE, MAKE BETTER CHOICES AND CHANGE, IS IN THE PRESENT MOMENT. But you don’t SEE that, because you live in your own little dream world, where your FANTASIES are all that matters, they are your ‘unreal’ reality. It can be useful to try and understand that IN ONE VERY REAL SENSE YOU ARE ALREADY ACTUALLY INSANE, BECAUSE YOU ACTUALLY NEED THAT FANTASY NOW, DON’T YOU, it’s all you have, you would be forced to face the HORROR of what you ‘are’ otherwise, which is what you actually ‘DO’ rather than why you think you do it, and that would BREAK YOU LIKE A DRY TWIG.

Get this? WHENEVER YOU FIND YOURSELF THINKING OF THE PAST OR THE FUTURE, IN ANY WAY AT ALL, YOU ARE NOT DRIVING ANYMORE, YOUR EGO IS, AND OUTSIDE OF SEX, VIOLENCE, AND DANGER MOST FOLKS LIVE IN THE PAST OR THE FUTURE ALL THE FUCKING TIME, EVEN WHEN YOU ARE DOING STUFF, YOU ARE STILL NOT PRESENT. Often you are simply rushing to DO something YOU HAVE TO DO FOR ‘THE FUTURE’, which is still living in the future!  

So you MUST UNDERSTAND THAT THE LEFT-HAND PATH ‘REQUIRES’ YOU TO CHANGE – YOU MUST EVOLVE, THAT IS WHAT SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT ‘IS’. To TRY and do any type of WORK on yourself whilst resolutely staying the SAME is FAILURE, indeed, you often get worse, as that failure speeds your decline. See, the left-hand path means continual change, BECAUSE ‘CHANGE AS A PROCESS’ IS A KEY MECHANISM IN ITSELF, AS IT BOTH RELEASES OLD, WASTED ENERGY AND CREATES THE NEW ENERGY YOU NEED TO DO THIS STUFF. Yes, CHANGE means more Energy to Continue to Change…

Now to get us rolling today THROUGH THIS INTRODUCTION TO CHARACTER CHANGE it is actually important to UNDERSTAND THE DEVICES I’m going to use on you today so YOU EMBRACE THEM WITHOUT (MUCH) COMPLAINT. I’m going to be very transparent IN ORDER TO MOTIVATE YOU – YOU MUST GET THIS VERY CONCIOUSLY.

However useful it is to have an EGO AS ‘AN INTERMEDIARY’ between you and the world, to automatically handle the day-to-day work of surviving, IT IS NOT YOU, IT IS NOT PERMANENT, AND IT CAN BE CHANGED, MODIFIED, EVEN DITCHED ALL TOGETHER, WHEN YOU DON’T BLOODY NEED IT.

THE WAY TO DO THIS IS BY BEING ‘PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE’, IN REAL YOU.

See I NEED TO HOOK YOU FAST FOR THIS ONE, get some momentum THROUGH THIS LENGTHY MONOLOGUE by kicking it to death, SO I CAN raise your level of UNDERSTANDING TODAY – IT IS IMPORTANT TO BE CLEAR ABOUT THIS, SO I’M GOING TO REPEAT THIS AGAIN: 

Please take this very seriously – know that there is an AUTOMATIC, UNCONCIOUS ‘SHIT YOU’ that hates your dumb ass and cares only about itself in the moment, and a REAL, CONSCIOUS YOU, that loves you, needs you, helps you, and cares about your long term SUCCESS IN THIS WORLD. So You cannot go on IDENTIFYING WITH THIS FAKE, SHIT YOU, YOU CAN NOT GO ON JUSTIFYING, DEFENDING ‘YOURSELF’ for being SHIT, it’s a form of mental CANCER, it destroys you slowly over time.

Please understand, RIGHT NOW YOU ARE SIDING WITH YOUR ADVERSARY BY IGNORING THIS FAKE, EVER PRESENT ‘CHARACTER’, your habitual, UNCONCIOUS patterns, THAT YOU LET CONTROL YOU, because you don’t know they are there, you don’t see what they are actually DOING in the moment.

SEE YOU ARE STUPID, AS YOU ‘KNOW NOT WHAT YOU DO’, OR ‘WHY YOU REALLY DO IT’,

That is what living in a Delusion ‘IS’ – YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS FAKE FANTASY, A DREAM YOU REFUSE TO WAKE UP FROM.

AGAIN – WHAT YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING AND WHAT YOU ARE ACTUALLY DOING ARE DIFFERENT, YOUR CHARACTER IS ACTING INDEPENDENTLY OF YOUR OWN DESIRES AND GOALS, IT IS ACTING INDEPENDENTLY OF ‘YOU’.

See your actual CHARACTER, even in the most basic sense of what others around you see, is VERY good at hiding itself from you, hiding behind PATTERN reactions and justifications, BEHIND WALLS that we call BUFFERS, so YOU NEVER SEE IT. You literally blank out large parts of your day-to-day existence, IN ORDER TO DELUDE YOURSELF THAT EVERYTHING IS ‘OK’, because you have too, as you would go insane through the crushing anxiety of WHAT YOU ARE, the NOTHING you have become, otherwise.

Now then, WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS TO TODAY – SO LIKE ALL GOOD MEMBERS OF ‘AA’, YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT YOU HAVE A PROBLEM, AND THAT PROBLEM REQUIRES A  SUPERNATURAL FIX, if you want to FIX IT. See I know, very FRANKLY, that your failure to change is actually YOUR FAILURE TO EVEN ‘TRY AND CHANGE’, BECAUSE YOU DON’T THINK YOU ‘HAVE TO’, to you such change of yourself is a tall, smooth brick wall with no handholds, it is the like trying to free climb the North face of the Eiger (a particularly scary mountain in the Austrian Alps that has killed a lot of people). YOU ARE SO DELUDED BY YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER THAT YOU LITERALLY DON’T HAVE A WAY TO EVEN START, as no one has ever ‘deconstructed character change’ as a series of steps, and fed it to you in bite-size chunks, small enough for you to be able to ‘GRASP IT’, AND HENCE ‘DO IT’.

So today you must STAY WITH ME ON THIS JOURNEY OF UNDERSTANDING, cause that is what I am going to do – today I must ‘carrot and stick’ you. I must give you an ATTRACTIVE GOAL TO CHANGE TO, AND A VERY COMPELLING MOTIVATION TO CHANGE AWAY FROM YOURSELF, you need both. But don’t dismiss this POST as an ‘EXERCISE IN STYLE’, as just me artfully ‘proving my point’ about you in some over-the-top fashion, while you sink back into yourself and sulk like some fragile little Gen Z – I HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR MIND ABOUT ‘CHANGE’ TODAY, otherwise I have failed you, so give it a chance and keep reading, OK?

Ok? so today I MUST GET YOU TO CREATE SOME SPACE IN YOUR FAKE CHARACTER, some space to see yourself, the FECKLESS LITTLE BITCH you have become. Yes, YOU ARE GONNA HAVE TO FIGHT IF YOU WANT YOUR REAL LIFE BACK, AND I MEAN FIGHT WHAT YOU CURRENTLY THINK IS ‘YOURSELF’, primarily by creating the concept of YOU and NOT YOU in your mind to such an extent that YOU start to BOTH SEE and REJECT YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER BY CHOICE, and therefore want to change because you now believe you CAN CHANGE – YOU CAN’T CHANGE WHAT YOU CAN’T SEE.

We must create conflict between YOU and NOT YOU, FAKE ANIMAL YOU, as a formal ‘competition’ – you win or it does, EVERY MOMENT YOU CHOOSE TO DEVELOP YOURSELF in private, via the RITUALS OF SELF CARE.  

See you CANNOT BE ‘BETTER’ IF YOU DON’T SEE THAT YOU ARE ‘WORSE’, AS YOUR ‘BETTER’, your ‘MORE’, your ‘SKILLS’ are STILL sitting inside you, UNUSED, waiting for you to COP ON to the ‘ADVENTURE’ of DEVELOPING YOURSELF – TO CHANGE CONSCIOUSLY, SECRETLY, QUIETLY VIA THE MECHANISM OF SELF CARE. Yep, you have to keep this one to yourself, IF YOU WANT IT TO WORK – you hear me beeyatch? THIS IS SECRET STUFF YOU DON’T DISCUSS OVER ‘COFFEE’…

Sadly, you actually have NO IDEA WHAT CHARACTER CHANGE IS, and why it’s so unbelievably important, as up to now it has never even ‘crossed your mind’, as YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND THE NEED TO RECREATE YOURSELF AS SOMETHING ELSE, SOMETHING BETTER. You don’t understand the need to empty out the pointless, self-destructive shit of FAKE YOU, your current character, to make ‘space’ for something better, at best you think you need a few tweaks, here and there, AND YOU CAN’T EVEN DO THOSE IN REALITY.

See, no matter HOW BLOODY GIFTED YOU ARE, if you CHOOSE TO live at an ANIMAL LEVEL THEN YOU ‘ARE’ AN ANIMAL. Every last little thing you DO is ‘tainted’ by this, ‘corrupted’ by it BECAUSE SHIT STICKS, EVEN ALL YOUR MOST ‘HOLIER THAN THOU’ MOMENTS, that you take such petty comfort in, are just devious, self-serving garbage, no different from THE DESPERATE CLEVERNESS OF THINKING ‘YOU’ ARE BETTER THAN ‘THEM’, that they ‘failed’, and you, in some dark corner of your mind, HAVE ‘won’ – ONLY ANIMALS NEED TO WIN TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES in the moment, you are already BETTER than that.

Yet YOU DON’T EVEN HAVE THE GUTS TO SAY IT OUT LOUD, in case someone SERIOUS came along and ‘corrected you’, the hard way – YOU ARE A TOTAL PUSSY, who sniggers TO THEMSELVES in the corner like a mad old drunk, LOST IN THE DOWNSLOPE OF LIFE, CLINGING ON TO SOME LAST LITTLE WARMTH IN YOUR CHARACTER, AS YOU BURN, getting older, weirder, smellier day in, day out, and you don’t even fucking notice, BECAUSE YOU LIVE IN A DELUSION, YOUR OWN PRIVATE LITTLE WORLD.

So finding this GATEWAY INTO REALITY IS IMPORTANT, so you will need to be able to find this GATE ‘in yourself’, and that takes INTERNAL SKILL, ‘GONG’ as the Daoists GENERALIZE IT, so that is WHAT I HAVE TO TEACH YOU TODAY – you NEED TO GET MUCH MORE ‘SUBTLE’, MUCH MORE ‘SENSITIVE’ TO YOURSELF. But that is easy, just some simple instructions to get GIFTED you to the door and some effort to TRY AGAIN, and again, SO ‘REAL YOU’ can do the rest…

What is not easy, however, is the setup, AS YOU NEED TO BE MOTIVATED IN A VERY SPECIFIC WAY TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS, so you must go through a written version of the fabled MYSTERY SCHOOL TRIALS – I must cut some new mental patterns on your soul, and I must cut them deep. However much you resent this trial, remember it is being done for the effect it CAUSES, and it is one hell of a lot easier than what Socrates had to go through to ‘pass’ the Greater Elusian Mysteries, much as THE GREATEST OF ALL ROMANS, Marcus Aurelius had it much easier – he paid to rebuild the place after the Sarmatians torched it for daring to rival their own Cult of Mithras…

So know now it is a MINDSET issue, your state of mind must be changed so you VALUE PRESENCE CORRECTLY AT A MUCH HIGHER LEVEL THAN YOU DO NOW, for the correct reasons and in the correct way. So I must move the ‘marble’ of your mind state along a complicated ‘mouse trap’ with lots of twists and turns before speeding it up at the end, just enough to ‘make the jump’ you have to make, and ‘survive the drop’ you have to take. So when this post starts to feel like a bit of a LABYRINTH, remind yourself that is because its supposed to – that is the point of labyrinths the world over, TO CHANGE YOU, BECAUSE YOU NEED TO CHANGE TO GET ANY FURTHER.

SO TODAY THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I NEED TO DO IS MOTIVATE YOU WITH THE TRUTH. 

Right – when I use the word MOTIVATE in this context I include in its meaning the TRIGGER TO ‘ACT IN REALITY’, NOT FANTASY. A DREAM of your Hearts DESIRE IS NOT A USEFUL MOTIVATION, it is a FANTASY, one of the thousands of mental excursions you fill your life with to compensate yourself for BEING NOTHING, as you ‘explore your desire in your mind’, TEST IT OUT, to see what it would be like but which sadly then becomes a form of SAFE masturbation, A TINY COMPENSATION FOR YOUR COWARDLY FAILURE TO ACT. Everything that ONLY happens in your imagination, including all your games, movies, porn, stories, novels, podcasts, et al WEAKENS YOU, TURNS YOU INTO A VOYEUR, A GUTLESS FREAK.

Try and get this – FANTASIES ARE YOUR ALTERNATIVES TO ACTION, YOU ARE NOT ACTUALLY PRACTISING UNLESS YOU USE REAL MEMORIES OF THE EXACT SAME THING, AFTER YOU HAVE DONE IN FOR REAL, BUT FANTASY IS JUST FULFILLING THAT DESIRE IN YOUR MIND, INSTEAD. See everyone has multiple superhero, Walter Mitty type dreams OF A BETTER YOU, BUT THEY ARE SO UNREAL that they are meaningless, there is no TRIGGER TO ACT. Indeed, one of the saddest of all unschooled Gifted tendencies to is ACT OUT EVEN YOUR SMALLEST DESIRES AS MENTAL FANTASIES, WHICH ACTUALLY USES THE ENERGY ASSOCIATED WITH THAT DESIRE UP – the fantasy replaces the REAL GOAL – it actually becomes the goal, SO YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING WELL, IF AT ALL, IT CRIPPLES YOU.

THIS IS THE REAL ISSUE WITH FANTASY – THE CORE PROBLEM IS THE FANTASY BECOMES A ‘PATTERN’ IN YOUR MIND FOR HOW YOU HANDLE ANY DESIRE, ANY GOAL, particularly when combined with drugs, SO YOU ALWAYS FANTASIZE, EVEN IF YOU CAN DO IT EASILY, WHICH DAMNS YOUR ABILITY TO DO ANYTHING ‘NOW’ AND ‘IN PERSON’. So IT MAKES YOU PROGRESIVELY SHITTER, IT IS A ‘PLEASANT’ DOWNWARD SPIRAL. Get this – you can’t even do what you did yesterday to the same standard anymore, BECAUSE YOU ARE WEAKER, DUMBER, SLOWER, HAZY, CONFUSED, CLUMSY, ACCIDENT PRONE. Pathetic really, don’t you think?

See, this is why I love the BRAVE, Gifted hedonists AMONGST you all, because they NEED to ‘DO’ as a pattern reaction ALREADY, rather than just WATCH, JUST BECAUSE OF THEIR GIFT – the GIFTED experience of ‘VISCERAL THRILL’ IS VASTLY GREATER THAN THAT OF NORMAL, DOMESTICATED ANIMALS, so they LIVE FOT IT. They can push past the Fear and Desire and get to the heart of it, THE PURE FEELING OF THEIR ‘PRESENCE’, THAT UNDERPINS ALL REAL EMOTIONS. Yes, they cripple themselves in other ways, OFTEN GO SLIGHTLY INSANE, and even end up watching videos of themselves in later life to relive what they can no longer do, BUT AT LEAST THEY HAVE SOMEWHERE TO START, SOMETHING POWERFUL THEY CAN RELATE TO, most don’t…

Do you understand now? Ever noticed you never get what you want if you fantasize about it too much first, even if it is offered to you for ‘free’ later, for some reason you just can’t follow through anymore, unless YOU RETRIGGER THE DESIRE AGAIN FROM SCRATCH? The more you live in these FANTASIES THE MORE NOTHING YOU ARE, and beyond a certain point you are GONE FOREVER, you live full-time in your own little dream world – NOTHING IS REAL. The difference between reality and fantasy ‘blurs’, as fantasy has become your ‘constant companion’, you can’t face life without it BECAUSE YOUR CHARACTER IS AUTOMATICALLY DISTORTING EVERYTHING, WHICH YOU USE AS A DRUG. You are a WANKER, a FANTASIST, who runs from their Hearts Desire because they would rather IMAGINE IT, INSTEAD, so much safer, so much sadder, eh?

NEVER FORGET THIS –

FANTASY IS EASY, SO FANTASY MAKES YOU ‘LAZY MINDED’ AS YOUR NORMAL, SO YOU LIVE ‘BELOW YOURSELF’, AND YOU FORGET HOW TO TRY FOR REAL, BECAUSE FANTASY SATISFIES YOU IN THE MOMENT WITHOUT HAVING TO TRY.

ARE YOU STARTING TO UNDERSTAND WHY WE THINK NORMAL, animal PEOPLE ARE SHIT YET? THEY CAN’T COMMIT TO ANYTHING…

YOU, NORMAL FOLKS LIKE YOU, become HOOKED on Fake You, on Fantasy BECAUSE IT ALL YOU NEED, YOUR FANTASIES BECOME YOUR FAKE REALITY – it is a CHARACTER ISSUE, what you automatically DO as one of your many learned responses to outside stimulus, A PATTERN REACTION. Your Character is made up of thousands of these patterns in layers, some linked together as consistent Roles you play, many more working independently in the moment, some even fighting each other for dominance, AND ALL DOING THEIR LEVEL BEST TO SURVIVE AND GROW BIGGER AND MORE EFFECTIVE, by getting you to do them more and more – THEY DON’T LIKE CHANGE, INDEED THEY HATE IT, CAUSE ITS DEATH TO THEM. 

Kind of obvious when you think about eh, BUT IS IT NOT YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER, WITH ALL ITS EXCUSES AND JUSTIFICATIONS THAT IS KEEPING STUCK IN THE HOLE OF YOUR ‘NOTHINGNESS’, keeping you acting ‘NORMAL’? Do you not yet want more than this normal, than yesterday, and the day before, DO YOU NOT ALREADY SEE YOU ARE SO MUCH LESS THAN YOU WHERE once upon a time, and that trend leads to the banal ‘NOTHINGNESS’ that is Your ‘NORMALITY’, so dripping in Social Media ‘Tropes’..?

THIS IS WHY YOUR FAKE CHARACTER IS SHIT, why Fake You is a motherfucking JOKE, so best get used to SEEING YOURSELF THIS WAY, as its the ONLY WAY TO FIX IT on this path, THE PATH OF THE ARISTOS, THE PATH OF QUALITY, THE ‘WAY OF POWER OVER YOURSELF’. And I know, from long experience, the only way you can START TO CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER TO THAT OF AN ARISTOS IS ‘TO LET ME TRIGGER YOU INTO IT’ –

You must accept the need to be NOBODY, for a set period of time, FREE OF ALL YOUR VALUES, OPINIONS, JUSTIFICATIONS, DESIRES, HISTORY, FUTURE AND JUST DO WHAT I TELL YOU.

YOU MUST BECOME EMPTY of all your Life Experience, so you can START AGAIN AT LEARNING THE REAL LIFE OF ‘REAL YOU’, WHAT 4TH WAYS CALL ‘REMEMBERING YOUR (REAL) SELF’, BUT WHAT WE ZENMEN CALL ‘FORGETTING YOUR (FAKE) SELF’…

See you CANNOT LEARN TO BE ARISTOS FROM WHERE YOU ARE, WITH YOUR CURRENT CHARACTER, AS YOU ARE JUST PRETENDING, you must do it for REAL, much as all the practice I have given you so far is REALLY USEFUL TO KNOW UP FRONT.

So TODAY I have to find a way to TRIGGER YOU TO ACT, otherwise just giving you the METHOD IS POINTLESS – Fake You will quickly stop you DEAD. See FAKE YOU IS A TOTAL BITCH, who hates your dumb ASS, and IS TERRIFIED OF CHANGE, so will gaslight you day and night to keep you stuck at ZERO, BECAUSE IT WANTS TO LIVE. So TODAY you must come to terms with the eventual need to ‘KILL IT’, whilst accepting you have to continue to use it to live in the meantime, BUT WATCHING IT LIKE A HAWK, SO YOU CAN STOP IT KILLING YOU.

See, YOU do actually have a REAL Character, someone that you need to BE if you want to escape the pointless, repetitive TRAP of your current existence – FAKE YOU IS JUST A COG IN THE MACHINE OF YOUR OWN LITTLE SOCIETY, YOU ACTUALLY DO NOTHING BUT SPIN ROUND AND ROUND ON THE SPOT. 

Now, for GIFTED folks, your Character is a complex concept that is different from normal, animal people, (who actually don’t have a Character, they are a collection of memories that they feel as instincts, with no control) BECAUSE YOU HAVE A REAL SELF, but for our purpose today, the important elements can be summed up as follows, so we can set the tone for this beast of a post on CHANGE:

• Nothing will change in YOUR life UNTIL YOU CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER, your life is A DIRECT REFLECTION OF THIS CHARACTER, which is unconscious AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL, it HIDES from you on purpose, you don’t see it, as it ACTS INDEPENDENTLY OF YOUR CONSCIOUS WISHES.
• You have a REAL, HIGHER LEVEL CHARACTER, often from long ago and far away, that CANNOT BE CHANGED BUT YOU HAVE REPRESSED SINCE CHILDHOOD, so your CURRENT ‘ACQUIRED’, ANIMAL LEVEL CHARACTER IS FAKE, you are living a lie, you are actually someone else.
• Therefore you are SERIOUSLY CONFLICTED, your FAKE and REAL characters are always at ODDS WITH EACH OTHER, because your FAKE character HATES YOU and your REAL character LOVES YOU, indeed, your REAL SELF is your GIFT itself, your life force itself, your FAKE character is a PARASITE SUCKING on YOUR LIFE FORCE, and a VERY effective one.
• You EXPERIENCE THIS CONFLICT AS ALL THINGS TENSION AND NEGATIVITY, in every aspect of yourself, physical, mental, and emotional, BECAUSE AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL EVERYTHING IS EXPERIENCED BY YOU ‘AFTER THE FACT’, you experience its EFFECT on you as INBOUND INSTINCT, YOU DO NOT DECIDE OR CHOOSE, ‘IT’ DOES.

You are DOMESTICATED, and that domestication has taken precedence over your REAL SELF, CREATED a dominant TREND IN YOU TO DO THINGS AUTOMATICALLY, UNCONCIOUSLY, NOT RATIONALLY OR EVEN CONCIOUSLY. Yes, much of that domestication is useful, in terms of walking, talking, going to the restroom, eating with cutlery etc, but you would be surprised at just how much of even that is SHIT, imprecise, in-efficient, slow, clumsy, wasteful, unnecessary and frankly just plain UGLY. See, FAKE YOU IS A BIT OF A FREAK SHOW, BIT OF MESS, it LACKS QUALITY, CLASS, STYLE, POISE, because it is all unconscious now – YOU ARE A BADLY PROGRAMED MACHINE, so lazy you never check yourself in even the simplest things.

Now there are many other aspects of Gifted Character than this set, which we can’t get into today, particularly the interaction of your Fake and Real personalities in certain types of Gifted folks and the fabled Double Crystallisation, both of which hugely distort your experience of yourself. It can all get very dark, very fast, but that does not matter today, what matters is to escape the Control of your Fake Self AT THE BEGINNING, by changing it, WHICH WILL BE AS HARD AS YOUR TYPE OF FAKE SELF MAKES IT.

Your TYPE is all very personal, with one type having almost the opposite experience than the other, indeed several types of Gifted become very aware that their ‘public’ personality is Fake, a pretense, from Childhood, which is EXTREMELY USEFUL later on, but challenging at the start as they are extremely ‘skittish’ and nervous because of the way their Gift, and other Gifted folks make them feel – the Lost Souls. The other extreme develops an incredibly rigid Fake personality as a form of Ego Defense, as they can’t cope with the chaos caused by the ‘lost soul’ approach to life of the previous type, and delude themselves ‘on purpose’, consciously, becoming incredibly controlling and full of layer upon layer of dog shit – the Super Bitch.

Obviously most Gifted have a little bit of column A ‘Chaos’ and column B ‘Control’, but most evolve from one extreme to the other and back again over time, hopefully avoiding the worst types of self-destruction in the process. These days I would have the experience to moderate my teaching to suit either type, but IT IS ALWAYS EASIER TO TALK TO FOLKS WHO CAN REASON IN A SELF REFLECTIVE FASHION, AND SEE THEMSELVES IN WHAT THEY DO, RATHER THAN WHAT THEY THINK. The great tragedy of many LOW TO MID unschooled Gifted is that their greatest Fear is the ‘Cave that holds the treasure they seek’ (Sorry, Joseph), but they can never get beyond it after the age of 35 y/o or so, because their lower powers have declined too much.

Today, however, IT IS MORE IMPORTANT TO GET WHAT I MEAN BY ‘FAKE’, in the sense that YOUR FAKE PERSONALITY DOES NOT ACTUALLY EXIST, whilst avoiding lapsing into long winded off-putting ‘Zenisms’, like the Self of ‘No-Self’, the I of ‘Not-I’, at least until the end. See it is NOT just that you have an actual Character, GIFTED to you by your Ancestors that is made up of EVERYTHING THAT IS GOOD FOR SPIRITUAL YOU, AND AVOIDS EVERYTHING THAT IS BAD FOR YOUR DEVELOPMENT, that is BASED ON SPIRITUAL TRUTH FOR YOUR TYPE, you have REAL preferences, and therefore that Character is REAL, IS PART of the reality that underpins and creates the world we see.

See YOU ALSO have THE AQUIRED FAKE Character of a DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, you have been taught things, learned things by yourself and experienced things that are FAKE, UNREAL, BUT HAVE ACCEPTED THEM AS BELIEFS, as part of the particular version of society you belong too at this moment in the history of humanity of the planet – NONE OF THIS IS REAL, IT JUST A COMBINATION OF OUR RECENT HISTORY AND WHAT SUITS YOUR SOCIETY TO CONTROL YOU WITH THIS WAY FOR NOW, WHICH ALL CHANGES EVERY 10 YEARS OR SO.

Your morality, your good and bad, your cool and uncool are forever shifting at the time, and you have NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT IS ACTUALLY GOOD OR BAD FOR REAL SPIRITUAL YOU, the reason you exist. Therefore your Spirit and your Soul are at odds with each other – YOUR SPIRIT HAS A PERSONALITY BUT YOUR FRESH NEW SOUL OF THIS LIFE DEVELOPS A FAKE, ‘TEMPORARY’ ONE AS A RESULT OF CIRCUMSTANCE, OFTEN DIRECTLY AGAINST YOUR REAL ONE, which is why Fake You is Self-Destructive – IT IS ALL BASED ON ‘REACTION, TENSION AGAINST REAL LIFE’, your SPIRITUAL LIFE.

So here is the CRUCIAL BIT, the aha moment if you wish – ANIMALS DONT HAVE A CHARACTER, THEY ARE INSTINCTIVE CREATURES, that carry out a SET sequence OF ACTIONS BASED ON one ‘instinct’ after another, they DON’T THINK REFLECTIVELY, much as they can learn to PERFECT OR ADAPT THEIR INSTINCTS TO THEIR ENVIRONMENT. Animals live at a LOW LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, so they don’t have the capacity to SELF-REFLECT BASED ON MEMORY, THEY DO WHAT THEY ARE supposed to DO, without thought. Animals have no sense of themselves in the 3rd person, they are just A COLLECTION OF URGES, MANY OF WHICH ARE VERY COMPELLING, OVER POWERING IN THE MOMENT OF THEIR SENSATION.

However, some pack animals like Dogs (and Humans) can be taught via Pain and Pleasure to behave in set ways that suit their MASTERS, so they become DOMESTICATED. But because they live at A LOW ANIMAL LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS THESE TEACHINGS ARE STORED AS INSTINCTS LIKE ALL THE OTHERS, so the reason for them DISAPPEARS IN THE CONSCIOUS MEMORY of the animal, THEY BECOME ANOTHER PART OF ‘WHAT THEY ARE’, INSTINCTIVELY, EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE NOT INSTINCTS AT ALL, they are a form of control WHICH IS TOTALLY UN-NATURAL.

So, when deep and complex enough THESE DOMESTICATED ANIMALS NOW APPEAR TO HAVE A CHARACTER, A PURPOSE, A SET OF RATIONAL RULES AND VALUES THEY FOLLOW, because they act consistently in line with these new instincts, however GOOD or BAD they have been taught to be – THEY HAVE THE APPEARANCE OF CHARACTER, BUT THEIR THOUGHTS, FEELINGS AND ACTIONS DO NOT ORIGINATE IN A SET OF ACTUAL VALUES. Fake You does not have ANY VALUES, AT ALL, BEYOND THE ORIGINAL INSTINCTIVE ANIMAL ONES.

Do you GET THIS NOW? Your treasured I, your precious SELF DOES NOT ACTUALLY EXIST AT ALL, at an animal level, WHERE YOU SIMPLY ACT OUT YOUR PROGRAMMING INSTINCTIVELY, YOUR CHARACTER IS A SET OF UNCONCIOUS MEMORIES OF HOW TO AVOID PAIN AND GET PLEASURE WHILST DEFENDING YOURSELF. That is why we call you a DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, in some 4th way circles they would not even call you Human, and frankly, take away the law and the threat of punishment and most folks regress to FERAL PACK animals VERY QUICKLY, THEIR CIVILIZED, PERSONAL VALUES ARE SHOWN UP AS THE LOAD OF BOLLOCKS THEY ALWAYS WHERE.

BE CLEAR – YOUR FAKE CHARACTER DOES NOT ACTUALLY EXIST, IF YOU STOP THINKING, OR EVEN STOP REMEMBERING THROUGH DRUGS YOUR ‘CHARACTER’ SIMPLY CHANGES TO SUIT YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES OR DISAPPEARS ALL TOGETHER, like an ANIMAL.

IT IS A CHEAP, FAKE COPY OF A CHARACTER, A PRETEND CHARACTER, IT IS VAPOUR WARE, ALL SURFACE – IT IS ‘NOT YOU’ BECAUSE THERE IS ‘NO FAKE YOU’, YOU DELUDE YOURSELF, IT IS ANOTHER OF YOUR MANY COMFORTS.

Try and UNDERSTAND, YOUR MECHANICAL THOUGHTS CREATE FAKE YOU – YOU ARE YOUR THOUGHTS, THEY THINK YOU, YOU DON’T THINK THEM. In TIME YOU WILL COME TO SEE THAT YOUR CURRENT LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS IS DEFINED BY ‘YOUR FAKE THOUGHTS’ CREATING ‘FAKE YOU’.

BUT YOUR REAL CHARACTER DOES EXIST, HAS TRUE VALUES AND WHEN DEVELOPED EASILY OVERPOWERS THIS FAKE ANIMAL SHIT BECAUSE IT OPERATES AT A HIGHER LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, YOUR BIRTHRIGHT, WHO YOU WERE BORN TO BE.

THEN IN TIME YOU WILL SEE THAT ANIMAL YOU DOES NOT ACTUALLY HAVE REAL THOUGHTS, JUST A SERIES OF URGES THAT PASS THROUGH YOU – REAL YOU WILL HAVE TO CREATE YOUR THOUGHTS, THEY WILL BECOME OUTBOUND ‘REASONING’, INSTEAD OF INBOUND ‘INSTINCTS’.   

Now, in many HIGHLY GIFTED what I have said above is ENOUGH for them to grasp that YES, I have a Fake Unconcious part of me that controls me, that is mechanical in nature, that I learned to be ACCIDENTALLY AS A CHILD, AND THAT NEEDS TO FUCKING GO – IT IS THE ENEMY THAT IS NOW FUCKING UP MY LIFE AND DEVELOPMENT. The reason for this is that they have ALREADY BECOME PAINFULLY AWARE THAT THE SAME STUPID SHIT, THEY DO NOT WANT, IS ALREADY HAPPENING TO THEM OVER AND OVER AGAIN. They were already looking for an answer, a cause, and now they have one they can cheerfully disown themselves, what they have become over time, and willingly learn TO CHANGE.

But there is another, MORE COMMON class, both Chaotic and Controlled, WHO RESISTS THIS EVEN NOW, even though they accept the logic, they say ‘but its still me is it not, that mechanical collection of crap makes sense to me, IT IS A GOOD THING AND HELPS ME’. Or they think ‘Yes, sure, its NOT ME, but it is NOT my enemy, it is my FRIEND, its PROTECTS ME FROM REALITY, FROM THE BAD PEOPLE’. These people all share one very common, overwhelming trait – THEY ARE FUCKING TERRIFIED OF LIFE, and are always RUNNIN AWAY, asking for HELP, INDEED THEY CANNOT FUNCTION WITHOUT IT. They simply cannot give up the IDENTIFICATION WITH THEIR FAKE SELF AS ‘I’ BECAUSE THEY ARE COWARDS, even though they know it is NOT PERFECT, it is all they have to defend themselves.

In extreme cases, much more common in the modern world, GIFTED BECOME ADDICTED TO THEIR FAKE SELVES, as their fake self WORKS AS A DRUG PUSHER, forever offering up the next good time, the next cheap thrill of ‘control or being controlled, and much of the illusion of Fake You drops away – many gifted folks become more aware that they are actually possessed by something else AT TIMES, something that is not them, and some go insane without Gifted schooling. So reading this section is much more difficult for you, you may need to do so many times, maybe even feed your Fake Self in the way it wants so it’s more asleep BEFORE IT LETS YOU GET IT, as this is DOUBLE CRYSTALLIZATION TERRITORY, so everything will be harder.

Also it’s important not to get TOO ‘WOE IS ME’, WHEN YOU SEE YOUR TYPE, YOUR CLASS – you are where you are, you have done what you have done, DEAL WITH IT AND CHANGE. In truth it will be as hard or as easy for you as the strength/addiction of/to your Fake Self vs your Willpower to do the method in the body of this post makes it. Remember you are incredibly lucky to be GIFTED AT ALL, as that means you BELONG TO THE MOST EXCLUSIVE CLUB IN THE WORLD, shame to waste on this side track or that one, eh, shame to just give up because it looks hard FROM WHERE YOU ARE STANDING, your current level of understanding. Just know the initial fight for all those in the 2nd class above is ACTUALLY THE HARDEST PART, which is why STARTING HARD IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR YOU, that weakness of having NO actual Character has to go FAST, for you to have a chance.

See, the 1st class who accept this are BRAVE, because they were brought up in some way to be NATURAL ARISTOCRATS, THEY BECAME MORE SELF RELIANT OUT OF NECESSITY, SO THE SLAVE MINDSET OF ‘CONTROL BY FEAR’ IS MUCH LESS EFFECTIVE IN THEM, they understand that life is a JUNGLE, and that you have to FIGHT. The 2nd class was (often) bought up in that LIBERAL MIDDLE-CLASS WAY that the West prides itself on, so they never had to FIGHT, never learned self-reliance, and GET VERY SCARED, VERY QUICKLY, they are total pussies, often overacting their parts whilst secretly praying to be saved, again – THEY ARE ONE BIG COLLECTION OF POINTLESS, STEREOTYPICAL OPINIONS, they have to defend IN ORDER TO EXIST.

To this 2nd class of the truly DELUSIONAL, I say read the rest of this post with CARE, because just for you I have woven multiple explanations and insights INTO THE BODY OF THIS POST in order to change your mind about CHANGE, and you need to get at least one of them to tear down the curtain of your own opinions, the cage of smelly crap you live in, OTHERWISE YOUR DEVELOPMENT ENDS HERE, TODAY, FOREVER. And there is no way back, nobody is coming to save you, your luck has run out, and all your friends already secretly hate FALSE, FAKE, ENTITLED LITTLE YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER ALLOW YOURSELF TO KNOW, DUMB ASS – YOU ARE A SLAVE, AND YOU WILL DIE AN UNHAPPY, LONELY AND BROKEN SLAVE, WHILST RAVING AT THE TV BECAUSE OF HOW IMPORTANT YOU THINK YOUR OPINION IS ABOUT SOME SHIT YOU KNOW FUCK ALL ABOUT.

And you don’t want that, YOU WANT TO BE REAL, TO KNOW, TO SEE, TO UNDERSTAND WHAT MAKES THIS WORLD TURN. You want to understand what W.H.Auden meant when he wrote ‘Time will say nothing but I told you so, Time only knows the price we have to pay; If I could tell you I would let you know’, you want to see through the veil over YOUR reality that your Fake Self does such a good job of maintaining, BUT YOU WON’T UNTIL YOU REJECT THE BITCH. See, I KNOW YOU HAVE A MASSIVE INFERIORITY COMPLEX, and I know you know that too, how much you recognize how much everyone is SO MUCH BETTER THAN FAKE YOU, and you are right, SO WHY NOT DO SOMETHING ABOUT EH..?

SO PLEASE, READ ON, BUT IN THE MEANTIME try AND remember THIS, if your Fake Self ‘allows’ you too – You, your treasured Sense of Self, the ‘SOURCE’ of Your Values, Your Opinions, Your Insights, Your Cleverness is a FALSE IMPRESSION, IT IS FAKE – it does not exist.

YOU HAVE NO VALUES, NO TRUTHS, NO INSIGHTS – YOU ARE AN ANIMAL, YOU ARE SCATTERED, DAZED, STUNNED, DISLOCATED…

ALL YOUR FORMULAIC CRAP IS GENERATED BY THE UNCONSCIOUS MECHANISM OF FAKE YOU SIMPLY TO FEED THESE MECHANISMS, YOU DON’T BELIEVE THIS SHIT, YOU HAVE MADE IT ALL UP.

YES, this False Impression is GENERATED by THE SURFACE MECHANSIMS OF FAKE YOU AND THE MEMORY OF WHAT YOU SAID/THOUGHT THE LAST TIME, HOWEVER RANDOM THAT STARTED AS, NOW IT HAS BECOME FAKE YOU.

All your Opinions, your Justifications, your Beliefs, your Need to be Right create the NEED for this False Impression, OTHERWISE YOU ARE INSANE – A MACHINE PARROTING GARBAGE. Personally, I don’t use the ‘Insanity defense’ TO TEACH, I think it is better you understand you are a FOOL, who thinks they are COOL, cause you don’t realize you are a complete and utter TOOL. 

You have no DEPTH, THERE IS NOTHING THERE GENERATING THESE OPINIONS, JUST A SMACKED UP MONKEY POUNDING ON A WAC-A-MOLE BOARD AS THEY LIGHT UP, IN TURN. YOU JUST REACT mechanically TO EVERYTHING, AND FOR MOST, WITHOUT ANYTHING TO REACT TO, YOU SIMPLY CEASE TO EXIST AS EVEN A FAKE CHARACTER.

This is what EGO is, an empty EASTER eggshell, all painted and pretty on the outside, but NOTHING ON THE INSIDE. 

See you LISTEN to Your Fake Self spouting this shit so you BELIEVE IT IS ALIVE, THINKING, REASONING, RIGHTEOUS, HONEST, TRUSTWORTHY, when in fact it is a VACUM, it is EMPTY SPACE, no more than a basic little RULES BASED AI, CONTINUALLY REGURITATING THE RANDOM CRAP FED INTO IT.  Simply put your CHARACTER is nothing more than the FALSE IMPRESSION CREATED by all your PATTERN MATCHED, MECHANICAL CRAP – IT IS A VOID, THE I OF ‘NO-I’, YOU DON’T EXIST, YOU ARE A COMPLICATED, RUSTY OLD MACHINE THAT JUST APPEARS TO BE INTELLIGENT, SLOWLY GRINDING TO HALT, AS YOU REPEAT YOURSELF, OVER AND OVER.

So ‘you might as well face it’ (Sorry Robert), YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE IF YOU CHANGE (THERE IS NOTHING THERE TO LOSE in the 1st place), AND EVERYTHING TO GAIN – A REAL YOU, THAT HAS ALL OF YOUR VALUES, PREFENCES, TRUTHS, POWERS AND MUCH MORE BESIDES, BECAUSE IT ‘IS YOU’. Yes, you won’t recognize it as YOU when it hits, but you will still know it is TRUE, all the same.

Don’t lose this understanding, don’t allow your Fake Self to take it from you, whatever happens, YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT – in Animals the reason for these mechanisms is ALWAYS SIMPLE EGO DEFENSE, BUT IN THE GIFTED THESE B/S BELIEFS USUALLY BECOME CORRUPTED BY OTHER FORCES, GENERALISED IN ZEN AS YOUR ‘ADVERSARY’, THE ‘ANTI-REAL YOU’, and that can be very dangerous indeed. All for another time, but its important to understand for many of you CHARACTER CHANGE IS VERY URGENT, way more so than you could ever know, as your current FAKE CHARACTER IS being used to KILL YOU!

So now you can CHANGE EH? And Character always starts with DOUBTING YOURSELF BEFORE YOU ACT, checking whether what you are about to say or do is A remotely Good idea, or if its just based on thoughts in a repetitive pattern, accepted as who you are so the pointless irony of that WAS SIMPLY ignored by you before, check if there is actually any overarching point to it, SO YOU CAN START TO SEE HOW MUCH OF YOURSELF YOU WASTE ON SHIT YOU DON’T EVEN WANT TO DO, DON’T AGREE WITH, NEVER EVEN CARED ABOUT FOR REAL, NOT ONCE, let alone what you do to FUCK YOURSELF.

See THIS now, finally…

YOU CAN NOW START YOUR JOURNEY INTO SEPARATING YOU AND ‘IT’, AND THAT IS THE REAL POINT HERE – SO BE BRAVE.

Indeed, if you can just ‘check’ the INSTINCTIVE URGE of your DOMESTICATED ANIMAL CHARACTER, right at the start, before the EMOTIONAL momentum of this or that urgent, compelling, and self-righteous UNCONCIOUS pattern ‘carries you away’ into your FANTASY WORLD, THEN YOU WILL DRAMATICALLY WEAKEN YOUR ‘FAKE YOU’.

AND THEN YOU CAN SEE IT – you will KNOW, in the moment, THAT INSTINCTIVE URGE WAS ‘NOT YOU’.

AGAIN – YOU, YOUR CHARACTER IS MADE OF OF A VAST STORE HOUSE OF ‘FALSE INSTINCTS’, SHIT YOU HAVE LEARNED OR TRIED TO FIGURE OUT YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU ARE ‘DOMESTICATED’, STUCK BETWEEN AN ANIMAL AND A HUMAN BEING, NEITHER ONE OR THE OTHER.

IT IS USEFUL TO UNDERSTAND THAT THE HATRED OF SOCIETY ALL TRUE 4TH WAYERS HAVE IS THAT IT FORCES THIS STATE OF DOMESTICATION ON YOU, IT CHANGES YOU FROM YOUR NATURAL STATE OF A WARRIOR TO THE UNNATURAL STATE OF A SLAVE, WHERE YOU DO ALL THE SHIT YOU ARE TOLD OR YOU ARE PUNISHED, INSTEAD OF DOING WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOUR, FOLLOWING YOUR REAL PERSONALITY.

THIS STATE OF DOMESTICATION HOLDS YOU DOWN, HOLDS YOU AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL OF CONCIOUSNESS BY BEATING ANY ASPIRATION TO FOLLOW YOUR OWN PATH LESS TRAVELLED OUT YOU AT A VERY YOUNG AGE – IT NORMALIZES YOU AT A VERY LOW LEVEL OF ANIMAL, SO YOU CAN FIT INTO THIS PRYAMID SCHEME OF THE ‘SOCIETY OF THE GOOD’, WHICH IT (REALLY) IS NOT – IT IS NOT EVEN A DEMOCRACY, IT IS HIVE MIND.

SO YOU MUST LEARN TO QUESTION THESE CORRUPT, FALSE INSTINCTS JUST BEFORE YOU DO THEM, AND ACT RATIONALLY INSTEAD BY THE PROCESS OF QUESTIONING THOSE FALSE INSTINCTS, THEN YOU WILL SEE HOW CORRUPTED, HOW SELF DESTRUCTIVE FAKE YOU ACTUALLY ‘IS’.

When you START  to do this, after you have found this mental switch, YOU CAN ‘DISOWN YOURSELF’, AND START TO CHANGE IT, FIX IT, AS THE VEHICLE YOU NEED ‘TODAY’ TO GET WHAT YOU WANT AND STOP FUCKING UP, BECAUSE THAT IS ALL IT IS – A ROBOT YOU CONTROL, IT DOES NOT CONTROL YOU, anymore, much as it takes some serious practice before you can DO something ‘else’ more rational.

See when you have these ‘moments of clarity’, you will start to realize they are priceless, as they are THE ONLY TIME WHEN YOU CAN ACTUALLY CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER, at will and stop ‘tensing against’ life, and just accept it as the FAILURE of your EGO instead. YOUR EGO DOES NOT MATTER, AS FAKE YOU DOES NOT EXIST, IT IS A MECHANICAL DEVICE THAT YOU CAN CHANGE AS YOU WISH, SO YOU CAN THINK WHAT YOU LIKE, INSTEAD.    

Yes, you MUST FORCE CHANGE, not least TO RELEASE ALL THE TRAPPED ENERGY IN YOUR EGOIC PATTERNS, THAT IN ITSELF WILL HELP YOU CHANGE MORE, which is WHY even small changes, like stopping a nervous Tick can have HUGELY positive effects. Without CHANGE this energy both goes to waste and ACTUALLY WORKS AGAINST YOU, AS IT BECOMES FAKE, UNCONCIOUS YOU, the automatic YOU that only seeks to DEFEND ITSELF from CHANGE, whilst slowly killing you.

Lastly, before the method itself today, know this…

We must CHANGE YOUR MENTAL STANCE TO CHANGE, you must see what you NEED TO CHANGE TO, TO ‘BE’, I MUST GIVE YOU ‘CHANGE AS A WEAPON’, AGAINST LIFE, against your failure, SO YOU SEE THE POSITIVE VALUE, much as this is not enough in itself…

Yes YOU MUST NOW CHANGE YOUR ‘MENTAL STANCE’ TOWARD CHANGE, so you MUST come to terms with what BEING SHIT MEANS IN TERMS OF ITS OPPOSITE, and resolve to CHANGE THAT IN YOURSELF AND STOP BEING SHIT, which I will help you with today. You must do this even though BEING SHIT IS NORMAL IN THIS WORLD, everyone else you know is SHIT, and no one cares, no one judges you, BECAUSE NO ONE KNOWS ANY DIFFERENT – they are too weak and stupid, they are ANIMALS…

YOU MUST GET WHAT AN ARISTOCRAT ACTUALLY ‘IS’, how they manage themselves, different to AN ANIMAL AND YOU MUST SEE THE VALUE IN THAT… See NOW YOU KNOW YOU ARE SHIT YOU MUST SEE HOW YOU ARE ACTUALLY CAPABLE OF ‘BETTER’, should you CHOOSE TO TRY. Yes, up till now its not your fault you are shit, because you run with the herd, with the animals, BUT NOW IT IS, SEE NOW YOU KNOW – SO NOW ITS A QUESTION OF ‘CHARACTER’, A QUESTION OF ACTUALLY DEVELOPING SOME CHARACTER, no less.

Now as a point to NOTE – many folks (ANIMALS AND LOW LEVEL GIFTED) read this next bit and see it as simply saying what I have already said in a different way, BUT IT IS NOT. It is to Motivate you TO DO, the 1st bit is to Motivate you to NOT DO – however similar they feel to you know that this 2nd bit of Motivation to Change 101 is actually what you will FORCE YOURSELF TO DO, and in time the 1st bit will actually drop away, as it WILL BECOME AN AUTOMATIC PATTERN, a GOOD one. So EMBRACE THIS BIT, but remind yourself constantly that without EMBRACING the 1st bit you will NEVER DO IT,  as you only ‘DO THE NEW’ stuff BECAUSE OF THE ‘FEAR OF THE OLD’ stuff…

So you must add this step, FIRST:

YOU MUST LEARN TO SEE YOUR PATTERNS IN THE MOMENT AND BREAK THE LINK TO THE NEXT ONE, CREATING A GAP IN YOUR CURRENT SELF OF NO-SELF, YOUR FAKE ‘CHARACTER’.

SO YOU MUST STOP AND CHECK YOUR ‘ACTUAL EXPECTATION’ IN THIS ‘MOMENT’ AND THEN ‘LAUGH AT IT’, AT THE POVERTY OF IT, AT JUST HOW FUCKING SHIT, HOW OUT OF DATE, HOW WEAK AND CHILDISH YOUR AVERAGE ‘PATTERNS’, YOUR CHARACTER IS RIGHT NOW.

YES, YOU MUST LEARN TO LAUGH AT JUST HOW MOTHERFUCKING STUPID ‘ANIMAL’ YOU ‘IS’, RIGHT NOW, BE EMBARRASSED BY IT.

THEN ALL OF THIS GETS REALLY EASY, AS YOUR MENTAL ‘STANCE’ TO CHANGE WILL HAVE CHANGED ENOUGH SO YOU CAN ACTUALLY CHANGE.

YOU MUST LEARN TO TRIGGER YOURSELF TO CHANGE WITH A NEGATIVE JUDGEMENT OF YOUR EXPECTATION, RATHER THAN OTHERS.

SEE ‘YOUR SHIT’ – THE REASON YOUR LIFE IS SHIT IS BECAUSE YOU ‘EXPECT’ IT TO BE SHIT.

YOU CAN’T CHANGE THAT EXPECTATION AT THE START, ITS LARGELY UNCONSCIOUS, BUT YOU CAN STOP IT, BY BEING NOBODY… 

Got that? Great, as its really important you understand why you are SHIT AS that is a KEY PART OF CHANGING TO A BETTER YOU, CHANGING YOUR EXISTING PATTERNS THAT MAKE-UP WHAT WE LAUGHINGLY REFER TO AS YOUR ‘CHARACTER’, THAT ARE MAKING YOU AND KEEPING YOU SHIT – THAT IS THE FUNCTION OF THOSE FAKE PATTERNS, TO PROTECT THEMSELVES AND GROW STRONGER.

Now, look at this conceptually –

IN ORDER TO CHANGE YOUR PATTERNS, YOUR CHARACTER WE MUST CREATE ‘GAPS’ IN THOSE PATTERNS WHERE YOU ARE TEMPORARILY FREE OF THEM.

See YOU can only CONTROL YOURSELF when ‘they’ are not controlling you, IN THE ‘MOMENT OF CHANGE’.

So you must understand what those patterns are, SO YOU CAN RECOGNISE WHEN YOU ARE BRIEFLY FREE OF THEM, at least when you have turned down the volume enough on the Self-Righteous horseshit that are your thoughts and fantasies TO ENABLE YOU TO SEE THEM AND STOP THEM – TO CONSCIOUSLY ‘CHANGE YOUR MIND’ AND HAVE ‘NO EXPECTATION’, at all.

PLEASE GET THIS, AS THIS ENTIRE BIT OF THE LESSON HINGES ON THIS UNDERSTANDING: 

YOU CAN ONLY CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER WHEN YOU HAVE THE OPTION TO CHANGE, IN THE GAPS BETWEEN YOUR PATTERNS.

THAT OPTION TO CHANGE MUST BE CREATED AND RECOGNISED ‘BY YOU’, BE FORCED BY YOU IN THE MOMENT.

WITHOUT THIS ‘GAP’ YOU CAN NOT CHANGE, EVER, AS YOU ARE JUST USING YOUR EXISTING PATTERNS AND THEY CAN’T CHANGE, THEY MUST BE DITCHED.

If you don’t do this YOU WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE IN THE DELUSION THOSE PATTERNS CREATE – YOU EXPERIENCE LIFE AS A DAYDREAM.       

See YOU ARE ‘ATTACHED TO YOURSELF’, YOUR EGO, YOUR CHARACTER, YOUR SHITTY LITTLE PATTERNS OF BEHAVIOUR, to your mediocre cycle OF ‘self-destruction’… But YOU DON’T SEE THAT, you think this is ‘WHO you ARE’, because you LIVE AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL, so you have FORGOTTEN YOURSELF- YOU NO LONGER SEE YOUR EXPECTATION AND SUBSEQUENT INTENTION. You just see your thoughts, which is ‘conscious’ you adapting those patterns to the moment, not the patterns themselves, which are only visible if you take a moment to check your Expectations. GET THIS.

See, right now you don’t do this, do you, you just go with your thoughts in retrospect, SO YOU ARE NOT CONSCIOUS OF WHY YOU DO WHAT YOU DO – YOU HAVE FORGOTTEN IT, BECAUSE IT WANTS YOU TO FORGET IT. See if you remember your patterns consciously, even briefly, you can stop them, because the conscious evaluation of your PATTERNS BRINGS THEM ‘INTO THE LIGHT’, and they start to burn up, like a vampire in the daytime…

BE CLEAR – you FORGET YOURSELF ALL THE BLOODY TIME, multiple times a day, BECAUSE YOU HAVE TOO in order to cope with your little anxieties – they would crush you otherwise. SO YOU MOVE ON FROM FEELING BAD TO FEELING LESS BAD IN ORDER TO FEEL a bit BETTER, to get some relief from yourself – you have to take your mind off things because you can’t face yourself, as the 2 faced, delusional pussy you are, SO YOU SPEND YOUR LIFE PRETENDING. You distract yourself, circling your meaningless little mood cycle of fear to thrill to boredom, over and OVER again – so your life is BORING, just like YOU. Because of this cycle,

YOUR LIFE IS A GAME OF CHANCE, THE LIFE OF AN ANIMAL IS RANDOM, and you don’t even know the rules…

So you must change this MOOD cycle, CHANGE YOUR MODERN HUMAN CONDITION, THE CONDITION OF A SLAVE MINDSET. You MUST learn that feeling BAD can be managed differently – YOU MUST PUT A HABITUAL HOOK IN YOUR MIND to recognize BOREDOM and immediately DO SOMETHING ELSE. 

See, BOREDOM is A GIFT TO THE GIFTED, the VERY BEST SPUR to get you to BEGIN this process OF CHANGE.

So you must train yourself to react to BOREDOM differently, BY STOPPING THAT PATTERN AND CHANGING TO ‘BEING PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE’, AS THAT WHERE YOUR POWER TO DO ‘IS’.

See, YOUR POWER TO ‘MAKE THINGS HAPPEN’ RATHER THAN ‘LET THINGS HAPPEN’ IS IN YOUR ‘STATE of PRESENCE’. 

YES, you can be GIFTED yet STILL LIVE, THINK, FEEL LIKE AN ANIMAL BECAUSE YOU DON’T KNOW ANY BETTER, so still ‘ARE’ an animal, BECAUSE YOU ARE WHAT YOU DO. Indeed the unschooled and highly Gifted are often the most self-destructive of ALL ANIMALS, the Hedonistic ‘Lost Souls’ of the world, the ‘flakey’ class ‘A’ fuck ups, the ‘Addicted to Love’ and anything else that ‘tickles your fancy’ freakshow, forever circling the drain, hoping to ‘get away with it’ for another day…

Yes, ALL CHANGE HAS TO BE KEPT TOTALLY SECRET AT THE START, OTHERWISE ‘THE WORLD’ WILL STOP YOU CHANGING – the world needs you to be SHIT and stay SHIT. So even before we start the intro to this POST, you must ‘grasp’ and ‘accept’ that CHANGE means you can NO LONGER GO ON BEING SHIT – ‘SHIT’ (THE STANCE A SLAVE) AND ‘QUALITY’ (THE STANCE OF AN ARISTOS) ARE MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE ‘STATES OF MIND’.

 

Soooooo now, YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT RADICAL CHARACTER CHANGE IS???? WANNA HAVE A GO…?

 

GREAT – SO its time to teach you the PROCESS OF ‘THE ACTIVE MOTIVATION TO CHANGE’, the part 1 OF THE SKILL OF CHANGE, which is in itself a PRACTISE – YES, EVEN THE PREPARATION FOR THIS HAS TO BE DONE AS A MENTAL PROCESS. ‘You’ must be ‘attracted’ to this, YOU MUST SEE IT AS ‘THE ANSWER’ TO WHAT YOU WANT TO ‘BE’, TO ALL YOUR ISSUES. 

Part 2 in the next post is the PROCESS OF THE ‘TECHNIQUE OF CHANGE’, TO BOTH FIND YOUR PRESENCE AND BE PRESENT IN IT. But… if you CAN’T DO THE FIRST PART, THE SECOND PART IS A WASTE OF TIME, AS YOU WILL STILL BE TRYIN TO DO IT AS ‘FAKE YOU’, with all your opinions, desires and fears FUCKING IT UP. Yep, THE FIRST PART IS ACTUALLY MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE SECOND, AS FOR THE HIGHLY GIFTED YOUR REAL SELF WILL USE IT TO CHANGE YOU ANYWAY, all you need to DO is ‘get out of your own way’ – YOU NEED TO de-identify from ‘fake you’, see your current personality and all your many roles as ‘not you’…

For everyone else, be very aware of your OVERALL GOAL here:

THE SKILL OF CHANGE REVOLVES AROUND ATTAINING ‘PRESENCE’ AS YOUR ‘LIVED LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS’.

THIS IS THE KEY LEVEL ‘THE ARISTOCRAT’ STARTS AT – ‘SELF RESPECT’.

THERE ARE MANY, MANY LEVELS ABOVE THAT, BUT ALL LEVELS BELOW ARE ANIMAL, ZOMBIE LIKE, A LIVING DEATH – THEY ARE ALL A MOOD YOU ARE STUCK IN THAT CARRIES YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS AWAY, AND ‘YOU’ ARE LOST, ‘FAKE YOU’ IS DRIVING.

THE ENTRY CONDITION, THE GATEWAY TO THE STATE OF PRESENCE, IS BEING ‘NOBODY’.

SO YOU MUST FIND YOUR ‘NOBODY’ TO OPEN THAT GATE, WHILST DEFEATING THE GATEKEEPER OF ‘FAKE YOU’..

SO BE VERY, VERY CLEAR…

FAKE YOU IS NOT YOUR FRIEND, YOUR LOVER, YOUR PARTNER – FAKE YOU IS A MERCENARY WHO HAS TUNED ON YOU, A GUARD DOG THAT BITES THE HAND THAT FEEDS THEM TO ENJOY THE TASTE OF BLOOD, EVERY CHANCE THEY GET.  

Ok so FAR? Awesome…

So here is the ACTIVE MOTIVATION FOR RADICAL CHANGE, IN 3 PARTS:

1. You must LEARN THE ‘KEY VALUES’ OF THE GIFTED LIFE, SO YOU HAVE A ‘SENSE OF PROPORTION’, AND SEE EVERYTHING IN THAT CONTEXT, as a one off lesson. 
2. You must LEARN THE PROCESS OF CREATING A GAP IN YOUR ‘FAKE YOU’, AND ACTUALLY FEEL THE IMMENSE RELIEF OF BEING ‘NOBODY’ IN PRIVATE.
3. You must LEARN TO GENERATE HIGH LEVELS OF EMOTIONAL AROUSAL BY FEELING BIGGER, VULNERABLE, AND TRANSPARENT, WITHOUT LABELLING THIS EMOTION.  

So let’s get on with it now, shall we, LET’S COMMIT TO THIS, YOU HAVE READ THIS FAR, must mean ‘something’…

Part 1: The 1st and most difficult yet most easy part, because it is simple to say but hard to remember against your Fake You wishes, to UNDERSTANDING the key VALUE OF THE GIFTED LIFE IS CRUCIAL TO THE CONTEXT OF THIS LESSON, INDEED THE CONTEXT OF YOUR WHOLE LIFE, BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO COMMIT TO THIS AT A PERSONAL LEVEL – I MUST CHANGE YOUR ‘VALUES’, should you currently have any…

Some GOOD NEWS – there is no need to remember any of this – these are patterns, you must see them, let them invoke an emotional reaction, and forget them, WHAT YOU NEED TO REMEMBER IS THE PROCESS IN THE 2ND AND 3RD PARTS.

THE POINT OF YOUR LIFE IS TO DEVELOP YOUR REAL SELF, AS IT CONTAINS THE ANSWERS TO EVERYTHING ELSE ABOUT YOU.

FOR THE GIFTED YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE ALREADY DOMINATES YOUR EXISTENCE – YOU HAVE NO CHOICE, YOU EITHER RUN TOWARD IT AS REAL YOU, OR AWAY FROM IT AS FAKE YOU, SO REMEMBER THAT ONE DAY SOON FAKE YOU WILL DIE, AND YOUR CHANCE IS GONE.

EVERYTHING ELSE THAT IS NOT DEVELOPMENT IS A WASTE, A LAYBY, OR SELF-DESTRUCTION – EVERY SECOND YOU EITHER DEVELOP OR YOU DECLINE, WHETHER YOU KNOW IT OR NOT MAKES NO FUCKING DIFFERENCE.

SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT IS NOT SUNDAY SCHOOL, NOT PART TIME FORM OF STUDY, EVERYTHING COUNTS, BOTH THE GOALS YOU SCORE AND THE ONES YOU LET IN, TIME COUNTS, QUALITY COUNTS, FAILURE COUNTS, AND IGNORANCE IS NO EXCUSE – YOUR IGNORANCE IS A CURSE ON YOU.  

SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT IS NOT A HOBBY, IT IS EVERYTHING, AND MUCH MORE BESIDES, AS YOU KNOW NOTHING OF THIS WORLD…

SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT IS NOT A CURE FOR MENTAL ILLNESS, IT IS A WHOLE NEW YOU, REAL YOU – FAKE YOU IS, AND WILL ALWAYS BE, INSANE..

FAKE YOU MUST KEEP YOU AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL TO SURVIVE, SO ALL YOU HAVE TO DO TO CHANGE IS CONSCIOUSLY ‘LEVEL-UP’.

The issue, OF COURSE, is that you DON’T WANT TO BELEIVE THIS, SO NOW I HAVE TO GIVE YOU A LONG AND REPETITIVE SPEECH IN ORDER FOR YOU TO REMEMBER IT, TO SEE IT AS THE CONTEXT OF YOUR EXISTENCE, SO YOU UNDERSTAND YOUR CURRENT VALUES ARE A TOTAL LOAD OF BOLLOCKS.

YOU ARE SELF-IMPORTANT, YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE FREE, YOU BELIEVE YOU HAVE THE HUMAN RIGHT TO EXIST, YOU BELIEVE YOU HAVE FREE WILL TO LIVE A HAPPY, FUN-FILLED EXISTENCE AND RAISE A FAMILY AS YOUR RIGHT – YOU ARE WRONG.

YOU ARE AN ANT, HAVE THE GOALS OF AN ANT, THE DESIRES OF AN ANT, THE OPINIONS OF AN ANT, ROLLING YOUR DUNG BALL UP AND DOWN THE ANT HILLS OF YOUR LIFE – NO ONE CARES WANT AN ANT THINKS, NO ONE EVEN NOTICES YOU EXIST AT ALL.

SEE YOU DO NOT EXIST IN THE REAL WORLD, BECAUSE YOU DO NOT KNOW IT EXISTS, YOU LIVE IN A SLAVE WORLD, CHAINED TO AN ANIMAL THAT HATES YOU, AND SIMPLY USES YOU TO EXIST, BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO DUMB TO SEE IT, TO SEE THE JUNGLE OF THE REAL…

YOU ARE SELF-IMPORTANT BECAUSE YOU ARE SCARED, YOU BELIEVE IN SHIT BECAUSE YOU ARE SCARED, YOU BELIEVE IN FREE WILL BECAUSE YOU ARE SCARED, YOU BELIEVE WHAT YOU ARE TOLD BECAUSE YOU ARE SCARED, CAUSE YOU KNOW YOU KNOW NOTHING, YOU ARE TOTALLY DEPENDENT.

YOU ARE DELUDED, AND YOU ARE KEPT DELUDED ON PURPOSE – YOU KNOW NOTHING, YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT LIGHT IS, WHAT WATER IS, WHAT TIME IS, WHAT GRAVITY, ELECTRICITY, SPACE ARE – YOU EXIST AS AN INSECT ON THE ARSE OF THE WORLD, KEPT IN THE DARK AND FED ON SHIT.

YES – YOU ARE AN ANT, ONE OF BILLIONS JUST LIKE YOU LIVING IN MILLIONS OF ANT HILLS AS A SLAVE, A ‘SAFARI PARK’ FOR SLAVES, LIKE A COW IN A FARMER’S FIELD, GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS OF LIFE BEFORE YOU ARE KILLED AND EATEN, SOMEONE ELSES LIFE, SOMEONE ELSES VERSION OF COOL, CLEVER, FUNNY, HOT, INTERESTING, NONE OF WHICH IS TRUE. 

THE POINT OF YOUR POINTLESS LIFE IS ACTUALLY YOUR DEATH, THAT IS THE REASON YOU EXIST, WHAT YOU DO IN THE MEANTIME IS MEANINGLESS – YOU MUST DIE, AND SOONER RATHER THAN LATER, AS YOU ARE ALREADY BURNING, LEAKING LIKE A FUCKING SIEVE.

THE ONLY WAY YOU WILL EVER WAKE UP FROM THIS AND BE YOURSELF, AN INDIVIDUAL, AN ARISTOS, AN ARTIST IS TO DEVELOP YOURSELF – THAT IS YOUR NATURAL RIGHT IF YOU ARE GIFTED, IT IS THE POINT OF YOU, AND YOU ARE CONTINUALLY PUSHED TO DO IT, EVERY DAY, EVERY SECOND.

SEE TO DEVELOP YOURSELF WILL ALLOW YOU TO SEE, TO KNOW AND PARTICIPATE IN WHAT THE FUCK IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING, ALL AROUND YOU AND TO YOU, RIGHT BLOODY NOW, OTHERWISE YOUR ENTIRE LIFE IS JUST AIMLESSLY PASSING THE TIME BEFORE YOU DIE, AT ANY MOMENT.

YET YOUR CONSCIENCE, HOWEVER IGNORED, REPRESSED AND ABUSED AWAITS YOU, SITTING QUIETLY BEHIND THE SCENES, PRAYING THAT SOONER RATHER THAN LATER YOU WILL ‘COP DA FUCK ON’ AND DO ‘SOMETHING’ TO HELP YOURSELF, CARE FOR YOUR REAL SELF, BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE…  

So now the LONG WRITTEN speech, I must repeat myself to PROVE THIS TOO YOU, SO YOU CAN ‘CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE TOWARD CHANGE’ – YOU MUST CHANGE OR YOU BURN. When you read this you may think that it is the same old speech, that you must stop wasting your gift, learn to conserve your gift, and then use that gift to develop yourself, but its not just that, IT IS ABOUT HOW YOU TRY AND BE GIFTED, which is ABOUT HAVING GIFTED VALUES: 

YOU MUST HAVE ADOPT A SET OF GIFTED VALUES THAT TRUMP EVERYTHING ELSE YOU DO TO MAINTAIN YOURSELF IN THIS WORLD.

YOU MUST LEARN THESE VALUES AS PATTERNS, REAL VALUES IN ANCIENT PATTERNS THAT HAVE BEEN USED BY GIFTED FOLKS FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS.

THIS SPEECH CONTAINS THOSE PATTERNS, LET THEM WORK ON YOU NOW – IT IS A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH.

SO KNOW NOW, EVEN BEFORE YOU HAVE THE LEVEL TO DO IT, WHAT SELF-RESPECT IS – IT IS THESE VALUES.  

So we start –

Know now – you MUST UNDERSTAND YOU AS YOUR ‘I’ CAN BE BETTER THAN YOU ARE NOW IF YOU ARE PREPARED TO SACRIFICE WHAT YOU CURRENTLY WASTE – YOU CAN OUT GROW YOURSELF, YOUR ‘CHRISTIAN NAME’. So I must remind you what you are right now, what you have ‘BECOME’, WHILST SEEING ‘GIFTED YOU’ HAS THE POTENTIAL FOR ‘GREATNESS’ BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE LATENT SKILLS REQUIRED TO BE BETTER.

THE SKILL OF CHANGE NEEDS these NEW PATTERNS – WITHOUT THEM you are DAMNED, nothing else will work AND YOU REMAIN TRAPPED, FOREVER IN YOUR OLD PATTERNS, THE INVISIBLE CAGE OF FAKE YOU THAT DEFINES THE TRITE MEDIOCRITY OF YOUR POINTLESS LITTLE ‘DESTINY’.

See, you ARE A ‘FUCK UP’, A WIHINING, ENTITLED, DRUNKEN LITTLE PUDDLE OF DAY OLD PISS, your failure is INEVITABLE as ‘CHARACTER IS DESTINY’ – your automatic, unconscious patterns are your DESTINY, they are deciding your life for YOU, that’s why all this ILL SHIT keeps happening to you, AS YOU ARE CAUSING IT. But you don’t see it do you, (Errr… IT’S UNCONCIOUS numb nuts) so it is important to ‘grasp’ that this EGOIC Cage is keeping your life SHIT even though you don’t want it to be shit, as the vast majority of those habitual patterns are TOTALLY UNCONCIOUS BECAUSE THEY ARE SELF-DESTRUCTIVE.

But there is HOPE for your dumb ass, if you are PREPARED TO TRY AND CHANGE… So if you can TRY, I CAN TEACH YOU THE MAGIC SKILLS YOU NEED TO CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER AND HENCE YOUR DESTINY, SO IT WORKS FAST, AND YOU CAN ‘BELIEVE’ IN IT.

Now, CHANGE HAPPENS IN SEQUENCE, and as with all things, THE START IS THE MOST IMPORTANT STEP: 

YOU MUST CONSCIOUSLY CHANGE YOUR STANCE TOWARD CHANGE BY ADOPTING ARISTOCRATIC VALUES – YOU MUST SEE HOW DUMB IT IS TO REMAIN A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, WITH THE GOALS OF AN ANTI-HERO, WHEN YOU HAVE THE CHOICE TO BE BETTER.

YOU DO THIS BY UNDERSTANDING WHAT CHANGE ‘IS’, AND KNOWING THE QUICK AND EASY CHARACTER CHECK YOU CAN USE TO SEE YOURSELF, YOUR CHARACTER ‘IN THE MOMENT’

This SIMPLE TRICK is called LEARNING TO MANAGE YOUR EXPECTATIONS, BY CHECKING WHAT YOU EXPECT TO HAPPEN BEFORE YOU DO ANYTHING – YOU LOOK FOR YOUR INSTINCTIVE REACTION TO THE MOMENT, AS THAT IS CAUSED BY YOUR UNCONCIOUS PATTERN.

YOUR EXPECTATIONS ARE THE FRONT END OF YOUR PATTERNS, THEY CREATE YOUR REALITY, SO YOU NEED TO BE AWARE OF THEM, SO YOU CAN STOP THEM, AND LATER LEARN HOW TO CHANGE THEM, HOW TO ‘DO’, TO CHOOSE YOUR REACTIONS, TO CHOOSE WHAT HAPPENS. 

And that NEW STANCE, that BETTER Character is ALL about MEMORY and EXPECTATION, at the start.  

See the reason you have to ‘TRY’ is that YOU WILL FORGET, BECAUSE FAKE YOU WILL MAKE YOU FORGET – THIS IS THE CENTRAL REASON THAT FOLKS LIKE ME GO ON AND ONE ABOUT TRYING AS A CONCEPT, AS A PROCESS – YOU MUST REMEMBER TO TRY.

See ‘Trying’ is to REMEMBER TO TRY AND DEVELOP THE SKILLS YOU NEED TO CHANGE, OTHERWISE FAKE YOU WILL STOP YOU DEAD BY MAKING YOU FORGET, OVER AND OVER AGAIN – YOU MUST FIGHT THIS FORGETFULNESS, IT IS AN ATTACK ON YOU, YOU MUST WATCH FOR IT.

This process is the beginning of CHANGE, the MENTAL STANCE OF ‘CHANGE AS A WAY OF LIFE’, which in all truth leads to the ‘WAY OF THE ARISTOS’, TO BE SELF-POSSESSED, TO SEE BOTH SUBJECT (ANIMAL YOU) AND OBJECT (SENSIBLE REALITY) AT THAT THE SAME TIME, AS ‘NOT YOU’.

YES, ANIMAL YOU IS JUST ANOTHER PART OF THE ‘SCENERY’, JUST ANOTHER PART OF REALITY, THAT IS SEPARATE TO REAL YOU, WHO JUST HAPPENS TO RIDE ON ANIMAL YOU, PREDALLING IT LIKE A PUSH BIKE, MUCH AS YOU MUST LEARN TO DRIVE IT LIKE A CAR.

YES, ‘THE’ KEY SKILL ON THE 4TH WAY IS TO BE ABLE TO SEE YOURSELF AS ‘NOT YOU’, ALL THE TIME AND USE THAT SKILL TO CHANGE AND DEVELOP YOURSELF LIKE A CHARACTER IN A VIDEO GAME.

YOU MUST ‘DISOWN’ YOURSELF, AND SEE ANIMAL YOU AS A BIT OF A ‘FIXER-UPPER’ – YOU AS YOU SIT THERE, READING THIS EXIST IN THE ‘3RD PERSON’, CALLED (YOUR CHRISTIAN NAME), ARE SEPARATE TO ‘YOU THE OBSERVER’, WHO IS ‘I AM’.    

Overall YOU do this by starting to experience yourself in the 3rd PERSON, TO SEE physical, animal YOU as a character in a computer game YOU can see the back of, as you control them, watch them do stuff. You must learn to experience reality through this character, in the full knowledge that your perceptions are imprecise, corrupted, lazy and that your MIND is controlled by your EGO, by FAKE YOU, which is not you, ITS AN AUTOPILOT YOU TRUST WAY TO FUCKING MUCH TO THINK FOR ‘YOU’. You must start to doubt yourself, your NORMAL, so you can START TO IMPROVE IT, and BE BETTER THAN YESTERDAY, INSTEAD OF WORSE…

Yes, you are miles away from this right now, but take heart – ALL GIFTED FOLKS HAVE THIS ABILITY BAKED IN AT BIRTH, you have simply never been taught how to do it. YOU are GIFTED, a secret ARISTOCRAT, you are better than other folks, are you not, YOU JUST DON’T HAVE A ‘SCOOBY-BLOODY-DO’ HOW TO ‘BE’ BETTER, DO YOU – YOU SIMPLY DON’T HAVE THE MINDSET REQUIRED ‘TO CHANGE’ AND BE ‘BETTER’ THAN YOU WERE YESTERDAY. SEE SHIT IS ‘NORMAL’ IN THIS WORLD, IT IS ALL AROUND YOU, SO WHY BOTHER TRYING TO BE BETTER THAN THAT, THAN ‘THEM’, you think, you just want to be like them, so you can be liked, and harvest more ‘LIKES’…

Honestly, right now the CONCEPT OF CHANGE is literally a BLANK in your tiny little mind, is it not – you have no idea HOW TO STOP, THINK, and CHOOSE ‘BETTER’, it’s like I’m asking you to jump off a bridge, and you are just not that DESPERATE, yet… See your SOCIETY WANTS YOU TO BE SHIT, it does not want you to change, to be better – your society needs SLAVES, so it GIVES THESE SLAVES THE ‘HUMAN RIGHT’ TO BE SHIT, TO BE NOTHING, as long as you DO WHAT YOU ARE TOLD, as long as you conform, then it is happy to keep you dazed and confused, satisfied with all your tiny little cleverness and your tiny little pleasures…

Indeed, right now you pride yourself on BEING MORE COMFORTABLE THAN YOU WERE YESTERDAY, that is your GOAL IN THIS LIFE, so every fucking day that passes you are actually ‘less’ than you were – dumber, slower, weaker, just one more messy, trivial bitch, really. You actually RESENT the need to CHANGE TO BE BETTER, you think everything should be easy, given to you for just showing up, as your SENSE OF ADVENTURE IS GONE, for you life is JUST more OBLIVION, more soporific PLEASURE, more pointless, forgettable AMUSEMENT, WHICH ARE ALL ‘NOTHING’, so YOU are NOTHING…

But YOU ALREADY HAVE THE SKILLS YOU NEED TO BE SOMEONE, YOU WERE BORN WITH THEM, they are just lost under all your trivial crap, under your EGO, WHICH TAKES ALL THE ENERGY YOU NEED TO USE THOSE SKILLS… If only you knew how, eh, if you only CARED enough to TRY and find out, THEN YOU COULD ESCAPE THE LIFE OF A ‘DOMESTICATED’ ANIMAL, A CHURLISH SLAVE, A ‘BROKEN IN’ HORSE. Then you could STOP your UNWANTED, ‘INBOUND’ THOUGHTS from ‘THINKING YOU’, CREATING FAKE YOU, and BE REAL YOU, INSTEAD.

Then you would not be so EXHAUSTED ALL THE TIME, WEAK ALL THE TIME, COLD ALL THE TIME, BORED ALL THE TIME, FORGETFUL ALL THE TIME, CLUMSY ALL THE TIME, STOOOPID ALL THE TIME, MENTALLY SCATTERED AND EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE ALL THE MOTHERFUCKING TIME…

You would NOT be ‘burnt out’ by all the many ‘roles’ you play every day, waiting your turn in the Doctor’s office in the rather pathetic hope they give you the good pills this time, whilst lost in some dreamy little fantasy world. You would not see those worthless little ROLES as your excuse for NOT CHANGING, because you THINK YOU CHANGE WHEN YOU JUST PLAY A ROLE FOR A TIME, which in reality is NOT CHANGING AT ALL – it’s just the temporary ‘adaptation’ to your external circumstances, it is FORCED ON YOU…

YOU MUST CHOOSE TO CHANGE YOURSELF FOR IT TO BE REAL YOU… See all YOUR ROLES are just a small subset of your existing FAKE EGOIC mental patterns, constructed above your EGO IN LAYERS, forming multiple layers of EXHAUSTING ‘PRETEND YOU’ AT ANY ONE TIME. But, as soon as those external circumstances change you go right back to BEING FUCK ALL, whilst playing these multiple, LAYERED little ‘fake lives’ takes even more ENERGY OUT OF YOU. See you are BOTH ‘FULL OF ALL YOUR OWN SHIT’ and EXHAUSTED BY ‘ACTING IT OUT’, so you can NEVER CHANGE THIS WAY – kinda scary when you think about it, eh?

See the MORE roles you play the more everyone around you just thinks you are an even more FAKE, UNRELIABLE and DISAFFECTED TWAT than the 2 faced little freak that they already thought you were before – the world is full of New Age wannabes pretending to be Spiritual for the duration of their Yoga class. You are little more than a ‘stat’ in a ‘demographic’, conforming to your type, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT YOU THINK LIFE IS, TO BE A ‘STEREOTYPE’, A FAKE, A ‘NOTHING’, yet you still crave the FEELING OF BEING SOMETHING, don’t you – THAT IS WHY YOU ARE A HEDONIST…

Shame it’s not going to work, eh, SHAME NOBODY IS COMING TO SAVE YOU – why would they? you’re a creepy little TWAT keeping up the appearance of a good, LOYAL, honorable, decent, honest, kind, woke, interesting ‘survivor’ with a really good story to tell, that is in no way formulaic garbage copied off social media. Yep, all that wiping down the mirror in your knickers on TikTok for likes was just a bit of fun really, please DON’T JUDGE ME, you whine – see you are not a BADASS at all are you, you are just one more person who doesn’t want to get into ‘trouble’, as THAT IS BAD. You are scared of your own ‘shadow’ BECAUSE YOU SHOULD BE, but you are so ‘GUTLESS’ that your SHADOWN ALWAYS WINS, AS YOU DON’T EVEN TRY AND FIGHT…

See that threat of ‘trouble’ is the reason GIFTED folks get out of bed every day, WE LOVE THAT SHIT, as it reminds us we are still ALIVE, whilst you just run off like a scolded little pussy, as the threat of ‘CONFLICT’ MAKES YOU FEEL ILL, as you have forgotten ‘CONFLICT IS LIFE’, so best ‘bring it, bitch’…  Ahhh, don’t worry, your little GANG still tolerates you, don’t they, you are ‘still the man’, in your own little lunchtime, you can still go and pretend with them… No? they also think you are a freak too and just use you as a distraction and would care less if you died tomorrow, as long as someone deleted all their ILL SHIT off your phone? Ouch, so there is NO HONOUR AMONG THIEVES, I GUESS, hell its fun to ‘sell you out’, they say, lets see what crap they do next, eh…

But hang on there a second – many years ago you used to BE SOMETHING, did you not, some folks even went ‘wow’ after simply seeing you move – think there is any chance you could get that back, GET BACK THE FEELING OF ACTUALLY ‘BEING ALIVE’, outside of your craven, self-destructive little hedonistic pursuits, that is. See the GOOD news is that you CAN CHANGE, because the GIFTED CAN GO BACK TO WHAT THEY WERE BORN AS, before all this other shit happened to you…

Indeed you can go back to ‘feeling’, ‘seeing’, ‘hearing’, and ‘knowing’ more than you CURRENTLY THINK is possible, BUT YOU JUST DON’T KNOW HOW TO CONVALESE, HOW TO CHANGE, do you, you don’t even fucking want to, because YOU ARE A ‘FOOL’, WHO THINKS THEY ARE ‘COOL’, CAUSE YOU DON’T SEE YOU’RE A ‘TOOL’. Yep, you are what you accuse everyone else of, THOSE ACCUSATIONS ARE WHAT YOU ACTUALLY THINK OF YOURSELF, so what are you then..? Ouch, really…? That what you want to be… FOREVER? No – then you have no choice but to change now, before you FORGET – AGAIN. And you must do this for no other ‘visible’ reason other than you want your GIFTED ‘energy’ back, so you can use it to DEVELOP YOUR SKILLS.  

Console yourself that GIFTED YOU is bloody amazing, that gifted you scorches the earth by simply walking on it if you wish, BUT FACE THE TRUTH ABOUT YOUR SELF NOW – YOU ARE A 2 FACED, CREEPY LITTLE COWARD WHO RUNS AWAY FROM YOUR HEARTS DESIRE. I urge you to see your pathetic self in the PAST TENSE, see what you actually did, your so-called secrets, and ‘suffer’ from them BECAUSE THEN THERE IS HOPE, THIS CAN WORK. If you don’t, it won’t, so if you can’t then reading this is pointless.

So TODAY I need to READ YOU ‘THE RIOT ACT’,  a lovely British expression that basically means that once I’ve told you this warning then whatever else happens IS ‘ON YOU’ – if you decide to read the REST of this, to go on, then best prepare yourself FOR THE ‘CHANGE’. See today I need to know if you are WORTH TALKING TO, if you can give up your fantasy life WHERE YOU PRETEND TO BE A HERO, your life of petty COMFORTS and COMPENSATIONS, of PROJECTING YOUR OWN TEDIOUS SHIT ONTO EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING AND FACE THE REAL WORLD, INDEED FACE YOURSELF, as you are right now, A NASTY, POINTLESS LITTLE MESS, A ‘VILLAN’, in the original french meaning of that word, a petty ‘chancer’…

See TODAY I need to know if you ACTUALLY WANT TO BE A HERO, YOUR OWN HERO NO LESS, AND CHANGE. But you can’t CHANGE by yourself, you live at an animal level of consciousness so you are ‘walled in’ by your EGO – you can only see what your ego shows you, only think what your ego thinks, and do the next action your ego wants you to do, from the linear set of learned patterns you have adopted over the years. You don’t even know what CHANGE is, because it involves CHANGING THE FUNCTIONALITY OF YOUR EXISTING EGO.

Yeah, I know ITS ALL ‘A BLANK’ IN YOU MIND IS IT NOT, your ego snuffs out any mention of change like a candle – YOU SIMPLY DON’T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU HAVE JUST READ (think about that for a second now…). So today I HAVE TO USE THIS POST TO CHANGE YOU – I LITERALLY HAVE TO DO IT TO YOU, BYPASSING YOUR OWN EGO – TO START THE PROCESS OF CHANGE, FOR YOU, and that is quite a big deal really, a specialty of mine no less.

SO DON’T BE OFFENDED BY ‘THE HARSHNESS’ OF THIS YELLOW BRICK ROAD I’M WALKING YOU DOWN TODAY, embrace it, feel the honor and power of it, AS FOR MOST OF YOU IT IS THE ONLY FUCKING CHANCE YOU WILL EVER GET TO START TO CHANGE. Don’t be some fragile bitch who folds up and gives in to themselves at the first sign of trouble, TOUGH IT OUT, READ IT AGAIN WHEN YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND, give it a chance to WORK ON YOU…

It is a form of ‘mind magic’, so think of it like I’m trying to get you through a series of realizations in a sequence that will lead you to a MUCH BIGGER ONE AT THE END – YOU ARE AN ANIMAL THAT NEEDS TO FUCKING CHANGE, AND YOU NOW UNDERSTAND HOW TO DO THAT, as that is the ONLY WAY YOU WILL EVER KNOW WHAT THIS LIFE IS ABOUT FOR YOU…

Yep, it is time to GET THE bloody POINT, so you know why you are INTERESTED IN THIS OTHER WORLD, so you know why you are soooooooo TORTURED BY YOUR GIFT, after all these years…

See that ‘INTEREST’, THAT ‘SOMETHING’ HAS GOT YOU ‘HERE’, READING THIS, AND WANTS YOU TO READ ON TODAY, ‘REAL YOU’ WANTS YOU TO HAVE A ‘CHANCE’…

SEE REAL YOU WANTS YOU TO READ ON SO YOU CAN ‘KNOW’ JUST ENOUGH TO ACTUALLY FUCKING ‘TRY’ TO CHANGE.

And put simply, YOU START BY READING THE BELOW AND ACTING ON IT, SETTING UP A TRIPWIRE IN YOUR MIND SO YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO STOP, as you have NO CHANCE OF FINDING YOUR PRESENCE UNLESS YOU DO:

THE ENERGY YOU WASTE BY BEING FAKE YOU IS THE SAME ENERGY YOU NEED TO USE ON SPEEDING UP YOUR PERCEPTION SO YOU CAN USE THAT IMPROVED PERCEPTION TO FIND YOUR PRESENCE, YOUR BIRTHRIGHT.

YOU CANNOT USE THAT ENERGY TO DREAM OR FANTASIZE ANYMORE, TO LIVE IN THE PAST AND THE FUTURE EVERY SECOND  – IT IS ONE OR THE OTHER, YOU MUST DISCIPLINE YOURSELF TO CONSERVE IT BY NOT WASTING YOUR ENERGY ON FANTASY.

THIS IS THE KEY REASON YOU CANNOT STAY THE SAME AND DEVELOP YOURSELF – DEVELOPING YOURSELF MEANS GIVING UP THE POINTLESS, UNREAL WORLD OF FAKE YOU BECAUSE IT IS NOT ‘FREE’, THAT FANTASY COSTS YOU THE HUGE RESOURCES YOU NEED TO CHANGE. 

AND THERE IS NOTHING TO LOSE –  YOU CURRENTLY LIVE IN MEMORIES OF THE PAST OR DREAMS OF THE FUTURE IN ORDER TO COMPENSATE YOURSELF FOR BEING SHIT IN THE RIGHT FUCKING NOW. 

YOU HAVE GIVEN UP ON YOURSELF, SO EVERY DAY YOU MENTALLY WANK OFF TO CONSOLE YOURSELF FOR BEING A WANKER. THE HORROR, THE STUPIDITY OF IT IS MINDBLOWING WHEN YOU FINALLY GET THIS – FAKE YOU IS LITERALLY ‘GASLIGHTING’ YOU BY MAKING IT SEEM FUN. 

RIGHT NOW YOU CANNOT CHANGE BECAUSE YOU ARE ACTIVELY STOPPING YOURSELF FROM CHANGING BY DREAMING – YOUR ‘COMFORTS’ ARE ‘POISONS’, YOUR ENTIRE DAILY MINDSET IS ONE OF BLIND SELF-HATRED, OF SELF-DESTRUCTION –

RIGHT NOW YOU HAVE SIDED WITH YOUR ‘ADVERSARY’, YOUR ENEMY, SO THAT MUST STOP AND YOU MUST CHANGE.

NOW EVERY TIME YOU REALIZE YOU ARE ENGAGED IN SOME MENTAL FANTASY OR RELATED UNREAL BEHAVIOURS, OPINIONS, JUSTIFICATIONS, YOU MUST STOP AND LOOK FOR YOUR ‘NOBODY’ INSTEAD.

SEE IN THAT MOMENT YOU HAVE THE ENERGY AVAILABLE TO USE, IT WANTS TO BE USED, BUT YOU MUST USE IT DIFFERENTLY NOW, YOU MUST STOP AND FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS IN THIS POST.

WITHOUT THIS CHANGE IN YOURSELF, WITHOUT THIS STOPPING, YOU WILL NEED TO MENTALLY SURVIVE A HUGE CATHARTIC SHOCK IN ORDER TO CHANGE, WHICH YOU PROBABLY WON’T, AS YOU ARE A FRAGILE LITTLE WALLFLOWER, WITH NO EXPERIENCE OF DEATH.

OR FIND A TEACHER WHO SEES SO MUCH POTENTIAL IN YOU THAT THEY WILL GIFT YOU THE ENERGY IN VERY CLOSE PROXIMITY, WHICH THEY PROBABLY WON’T, AS YOU ARE A MESSY, INCONSISTENT BITCH WHO CAN’T BE ARSED TO TRY.

NOBODY IS GOING TO CARE UNLESS YOU CAN DO THIS, DEVELOP THE COURAGE TO FIGHT (COURAGE IS NOTICING YOURSELF FANTAZING ‘AS BAD’), AND THE HABIT OF ACTUALLY FIGHTING THAT COMES FROM THIS (STOPPING THAT DAYDREAM AS ‘A WIN’ IS FIGHTING).

NOBODY WILL BOTHER WITH YOU UNLESS YOU DEVELOP THIS BRAVERY, I WOULD LITERALLY STEP OVER IN THE STREET – YOU ARE LYING TO YOURSELF AND ME, SO YOU REMAIN ‘UNFORGIVEN’. You are just one more GIFTED PARASITE, A CLEVER FOOL, A DILLITENTE, WASTING EVERYONES TIME. 

SEE THERE ARE VERY FEW ‘SEATS AT THE TABLE’ AVAILABLE AT ANY ONE TIME, AND, FOR THE VERY WEAK AND STUPID, THE ONE WITH ‘YOUR NAME ON’ IS PERHAPS BETTER GIVEN TO SOMEONE ELSE, SOMEONE WHO IS MAYBE ‘LESS’ THAN YOU, BUT SOMEONE WHO CAN FUCKING ‘TRY’.

S0 what do you THINK, EH… are you ‘bored’ enough with your FANTASY life yet, with the continual need to COMPENSATE FOR BEING ‘NOTHING’ – bored with all constant imaginings, your pointless opinions, your desperation to be ‘right’, your games, your porn, your drugs, your ‘netflix and chill’, your podcasts about other much BETTER people, so much BETTER than ‘you’, that you secretly wish you were…?

See, that is what the life of a SLAVE is, ONE LONG, DREAMY LITTLE episode of COMPENSATING YOURSELF FOR BEING SHIT, where nothing happens at all, BUT YOU IMAGINE IT DOES, SO YOU PLOUGH ALL YOUR ENERGY AND TIME INTO IT, like your creepy secret life is COOL, eh, LIKE YOUR ‘HIGH SCORE’ MATTERS. So, BE BRAVE NOW, as I know that you know it TOO, YOU KNOW YOU PRETEND ALL THE TIME, YOU KNOW YOU HAVE TAKEN THE EASY WAY OUT DON’T YOU, it’s just you don’t have the fucking balls you were born now, eh, YOU CAN’T EVEN TELL THE TRUTH anymore, you just shout at the TV and pretend they can hear you, that they notice you, that they react in some way.

Spoiler alert – they don’t HEAR YOUR BIRD CALLS IN THE JUNGLE, because you don’t really exist as you IMAGINE YOU DO, you are something else now, AND YOU ARE STUCK WITH IT UNLESS YOU PUT THE EFFORT IN TO CHANGE YOUR BEHAVIOURS AND THEREFORE DEVELOP THE ENERGY YOU NEED TO ‘EVOLVE’. FAKE YOU IS UNCONSCIOUS, YOU NEED TO FIRST MAKE IT CONSCIOUS TO FIGHT IT, that is the trick to this FIGHT.

Yes, WHAT YOU THINK OF YOURSELF IS A FICTION THAT ONLY YOU SEE, everyone else sees FAKE YOU, and as you get older it gets worse and WORSE, UNTIL YOU WHOLE LIFE BECOMES A BADLY WRITTEN SITCOM, but you DON’T SEE IT, you THINK you are COOL, CLEVER, CUTE. Frankly, its a BAD joke, yet escaping this could be so EASY, if you can face that ‘black comedy of errors’, AND CHANGE – YOU WOULD FIGHT IT, THE POINTLESS HORROR OF IT. 

See, YOU NEED TO START TO ENGAGE WITH YOUR GIFT NOW – SEE THE MAGIC OF YOU, then maybe you would BE EXCITED TO FIGHT FOR YOURSELF, FOR YOUR REAL SELF, AS THAT IS WHAT THIS POST IS (REALLY) ABOUT. Indeed, that is WHAT PRESENCE IS ABOUT – THAT FIGHT IS WHAT PRESENCE IS ACTUALLY FOR – TO BE ‘NOBODY’ IS A WEAPON, A SHIELD, AND MUCH MORE BESIDES, if you only knew how to USE IT.

Yes… NOBODY CANNOT BE SEPARATED FROM THE PURPOSE OF PRESENCE, otherwise, you are just learning how to wave a sword around with no idea how to kill people with it or learning how to maintain a car with no idea what an actual fault ‘is’, SO YOU CANNOT LEARN THE REAL SKILL BY FIXING IT. Without the purpose of Presence, you are just one more fluffy New Ager playing at this stuff like it’s a hobby, IT ALL REMAINS THEORETICAL, YOU NEVER ACTUALLY LEARN.

See YOU CAN ONLY EFFECTIVELY LEARN BEING NOBODY BY USING IT, otherwise, you will never know what it is BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER KNOW THE DIFFERENCE IN ‘HOW IT FEELS’.

You must learn HOW TO FIGHT YOUR FAKE SELF WITH PRESENCE IN ORDER TO ‘FIND’ YOUR PRESENCE, there is no other way for you to do this.

But you have NO IDEA HOW TO FIGHT YOUR FAKE, UNCONSCIOUS, ANIMAL SELF, ‘THE SELF’ THAT IS ‘NOT YOU’, THE ONE THAT IS STOPPING YOU BEING YOUR REAL SELF, as you have no idea it’s there, no idea how much damage it does, and no idea how easy it is, when you understand what it is, TO FIGHT IT. See, I need you to STOP RUNNING AWAY FROM YOUR PROBLEMS AND HIDING, I NEED YOU TO FACE THEM, AT LEAST IN PRIVATE, AND START TO FIGHT, as that willingness to FIGHT is the KEY TO EVERYTHING ELSE IN THIS POST…

But right now EVEN THE THOUGHT OF IT sounds ridiculous to you – ‘why would I want to fight myself AND CHANGE’ you wail, ‘this is ME, what else is there…’ so you THINK YOU must PROTECT YOURSELF, JUSTIFY WHAT YOU DO, AT ALL COSTS. YOU OWN ALL OF YOURSELF BY ACCEPTING YOURSELF AS ONE THING, and you are a FOOL, you are blind, a product of your society, some tedious little subset of which you must conform to, BECAUSE YOU ARE WEAK AND STUPID – SO YOU NEVER CHANGE, ITS ALL THE SAME, WHEREVER YOU GO…

See YOU THINK LIKE AN ANIMAL, AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, SO YOU ARE LARGELY UNCONCIOUS OF WHAT IS HAPPENING. So, until you can ‘see’ WHAT YOU NEED to FIGHT as separate to YOU, its almost impossible to do it – you have no sense of RIGHT AND WRONG ‘FOR YOU’, AS IT IS HIDDEN FROM YOU. You don’t ‘believe it’, you are not even prepared to ‘suspend your judgment’ in order to change this belief, to consciously reprogram your animal mind with a better belief.

SO I AM GOING TO HAVE TO DO THAT FOR YOU TODAY, to get you over that hump, so we can push past all your old, accidental programming. But I can’t use the Streets of London speech (you are a SLAVE), I can’t use the acceptance of DEATH (most of you have never even seen death, lets alone caused it), or any of the numerous ancient ways to drag you to WANT TO CHANGE RIGHT FUCKING NOW – that was then, and this is NOW, we need a modern version.

See, in this modern world, with all the shit that is filling your head,  I have just the ONE OPTION – FOLKS LIKE ME CALL IT THE HARD WAY, BECAUSE ITS THE ONLY WAY. But once you ACCEPT IT, its really bloody easy, and I MEAN REALLY, REALLY EASY, because of course, YOU WILL WANT TO CHANGE. See what I did there – THE HARD BIT IS ACCEPTING THIS, DOING IT IS CHILDS PLAY…

To do this, to get you into this in A PRACTICAL SENSE, I HAVE TO USE ‘ELITISM’, IN A ‘NONE POLITICALLY CORRECT’ TYPE WAY – TO GET YOU TO UNDERSTAND that YOU ARE ‘BETTER’ THAN THIS, so you are prepared to go and look for that ‘better’, and start to ditch the animal. If you don’t do this CONSCIOUSLY, WITH CHOSEN, ‘OUT GOING’ THOUGHTS THAT SUPPORT THIS, then your unchosen, incoming thoughts will crush it VERY QUICKLY, and you will STOP TRYING – YOUR UNCONCIOUS BELIEFS AND PROGRAMMING ARE MUCH STRONGER THAN YOU ARE AT AN ANIMAL LEVEL…

See – Your UNCONCIOUS CONTROLS YOUR LIFE THROUGH YOUR EGO, conscious YOU is just tagging along, because you have a SLAVE MINDSET – YOU LIVE LIKE A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, that what it is to be DOMESTICATED, YOU ARE A SLAVE – YOU ARE OPPRESSED, CONTROLLED. Yes, of course, IF you ACTUALLY are an animal that is LIFE, as that is all you can do, BUT THAT IS NOT YOU IS IT – IF YOU ARE GIFTED.

I HAVE TO SHOW YOU THE MAGIC OF RAISING YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS – TO GIVE YOU A TASTE OF IT.

You have to realize you live ‘below’ yourself, so you are small, BASIC, you can only think of one thing at a time and you experience everything through the filter of your EGO, so NOTHING IS REAL.

Your INTERPRETATION OF REALITY IS A DISTORTED FANTASY, YOU ARE ‘WRONG ABOUT EVERYTHING’.

Ahhh, but many of you, long ago, you ACTUALLY WERE REAL, BUT You have lost touch with ‘who you are’ over the years, so WHO YOU WERE AS A CHILD, THAT AMAZING POWER AND SENSITIVITY YOU HAD TO LIFE HAS BEEN LOCKED AWAY, FORGOTTEN, in order to protect yourself from the emotional pain of your ‘overwhelming’ feelings. You have become a coward, unable to DO WHAT YOU WANT because you are SCARED ALL THE TIME, you live in ‘FEAR of the FUTURE’, like a SLAVE. We say FUCK THE FUTURE because WE DECIDE OUR FUTURE…

This HIGHER LEVEL is your BIRTHRIGHT if you are GIFTED, this is the way you are MEANT TO BE, not the fake animal mess that your society has taught you to be, WHICH IS TOTALLY UN NATURAL AND COSTS YOU A VAST AMOUNT OF ENERGY. I must lift you out of this mess by MAKING YOU BIGGER, so you can at least see all the bits of you competing for your attention at the same damn time, rather than just the loudest one, the most persistent one, the TOTALLY FAKE ONES, SO YOU CAN STOP BEING OPPRESSED BY THEM, like a timid, pathetic Slave.

You have literally chosen to live in a DELUSION, A DREAM, A FANTASY, every single day, WHILE YOUR EGO RUNS YOUR LIFE – IT ACTS OUT YOUR PROGRAMMING AS IF YOU HAVE A CHOICE, AND YOU DON’T, YOU JUST HAVE THE NEXT THOUGHT, AND THE NEXT, IN A NEVER ENDING SEQUENCE OF POINTLESS, CHILDISH, PATTERN MATCHED CRAP. Yes, even what you think is a ‘CHOICE’ is just more patterned matched reaction taking you over, SO IT’S NOT REALLY A CHOICE AT ALL.

That’s not LIVING, that is JUST SURVIVING, like an animal. And that’s NOT FOR YOU, IS IT, YOU KNOW YOU ARE NOT NORMAL, YOU ‘KNOW’ YOU ARE GIFTED, and you are tortured by it, by the fact that you KNOW you are MORE THAN THIS AWKWARD MESS. See that is what the DESIRE TO CHANGE IS – TO KNOW, DEEP IN YOUR BONES, THAT YOU ARE MUCH, MUCH MORE THAN THIS BECAUSE YOUR ANCESTORS WERE. Indeed you are letting down your entire BLOODLINE by NOT CHANGING. Embarrassing eh, YOU ARE AN EMBARRASSMENT TO YOUR OWN FAMILY, FROM GENERATIONS PAST, so feel that BURN, and use it…

YES, that is why we have to hit this one HARD, because you DON’T WANT TO FAIL THIS ONE, SO UNDERSTAND WHAT CHANGE ACTUALLY NEEDS RIGHT UP FRONT = ‘PRESENCE’. And Presence is NOT LESS LIFE, PRESENCE IS NOT SOME BORING, NEW AGE SHITE, it’s MORE LIFE THAN YOU EVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE, indeed it actually the BEGINNING OF REAL LIFE, EVERYTHING BEFORE WAS THE LIFE OF A DELUSIONAL, DEPENDANT ‘CREATURE’. But, (and it’s a BIG ASS FUCK OF A ‘BUT’), YOU NEED TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS…

SEE, THIS IS ‘THE’ ELITIST POST OF ALL THE ONES YOU WILL EVER READ on THE 4TH WAY, this is when you realize just how ELITIST THIS SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT THING IS, cause you must start this process today with something SPECIAL – A REAL YOU. Otherwise, you can’t DO THIS, YOU CAN’T EVOLVE, as you have NOTHING to work with, so there is literally NOTHING there to Evolve, you are just an animal without it, and a domesticated one, a MAD, TWISTED ANIMAL’. See, however educated and calculating you think you are, YOU ARE STILL A SLAVE – A DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, you are still very, VERY SMALL, PETTY, and SELF-OBSSESSED WITH YOUR ANIMAL LEVEL, WHICH DOES NOT MATTER TO ANYONE, EVEN YOU.

Yes, once you START TO LIVE IN YOUR PRESENCE then the reason for the fabled (if ill-advised) natural ‘Snobbery’ of the Aristocrat toward the peasants will become clear to you – you will feel much bigger by comparison, and hence you will REALLY start to struggle with the OBVIOUSNESS of normal people, how small and pointless they are, YOU START TO UNDERSTAND YOURSELF, SO YOU UNDERSTAND EVERYONE ELSE AS WELL. Frankly, like many Right Hand path types (Priests particularly) you may even lapse into a natural PITY for them, which you act out as a fake type of compassion, equally ill-advised (Pity is an insult on the Left Hand path), WHILE WHAT YOU SHOULD DO IT SIMPLY KEEP THAT ARISTOCRAT DISTANCE BETWEEN YOU AND ‘THEM’, as they are SLAVES, and hence VERY DIFFERENT FROM YOU NOW.

Please take a moment now to understand what this means – TO BE A SLAVE IS TO HAVE YOUR SPIRIT ‘BROKEN’, YOUR NATURAL TENDENCIES, LIKES AND DISLIKES, STRENGTHES AND WEAKNESSES ARE OVERWHELMED BY THOSE YOU ARE ‘TAUGHT’. These new domesticated patterns become a FAKE you, that is both un-natural and dangerous – YOU DO WHAT YOU ARE TOLD, YOU FOLLOW THE HERD, you are ‘SEASONED’, CHANGED TO FIT IN WITH SOCIETY, OTHER PEOPLE, YOUR many ROLES, as the Romans used to say, trained like a dog via pain and pleasure. But that is NOT YOU is it, you are NOT one of Pavlov’s mutts, salivating every time someone rings the feeding bell, you would still bite the hand that feeds you, should the right mood take you, BECAUSE YOU ARE A HEDONIST, so (sometimes) you are strong enough to FIGHT THAT OPPRESSION…

See, this is why I can forgive GIFTED Hedonists their many faults and difficulties at the start, as they tend to STILL HAVE SOME SPIRIT, SOMETHING OF THE WILD LEFT IN THEM, that I can work with – SO THEY CAN STILL BELEIVE THAT THERE IS MORE THAN THIS TEDIOUS EXISTENCE OUT THERE, EVEN OCCASIONALLY GO AGAINST THEIR PROGRAMMING, CAUSE THAT IS IMPORTANT, however much of a total bollocks they currently make of it. See, just the knowledge of those hedonistic EXPERIENCES, the ‘other worldly’ feeling of them is often all that stands between your Success and the total, abject failure, the total lack of understanding that is the LOT of NORMAL PEOPLE, but only once you get it of course, once you can RELATE.

So THIS IS A LONG SECTION, AS WE HAVE TO SET YOU UP FOR THIS CORRECTLY, you need see this in the correct context, as you currently have AN INCORRECT VIEW OF PRESENCE. See at best, YOU think PRESENCE is a vague, fluffy, woo-woo thing to do with some Corporate Mindfulness B/S, don’t you – YOU think PRESENCE is about mental health for the self-obsessed ‘SNOWFLAKE’ generation, SO it’s BORING…

To FIX THAT CRAP, we need to SHAKE YOU UP A BIT, get you into a ‘mental position’ where you can actually ACCEPT THE NEED TO ‘DO’ Presence AND JUST HOW SPECIAL PRESENCE ACTUALLY IS, HOW RARE. SO you need TO understand ONE BIG THING – YOU NEED TO MAKE A LEAP OF FAITH, TO HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF, WHAT YOU ACTUALLY ARE UNDERNEATH ALL THIS FORMULAIC GARBAGE, SO YOU CAN BELEIVE YOU HAVE THE ENERGY, THE STRENGTH, THE POWER TO DO SOMETHING THAT 9 OUT OF 10 CAN’T DO, ever, at all, under any circumstances.

See GIFTED YOU CAN DO PRESENCE, BECAUSE GIFTED YOU ACTUALLY HAS PRESENCE, as you and the people around you may have already NOTICED. But that is NOT ENOUGH, see ONCE YOU UNDERSTAND YOUR PRESENCE, YOU WILL REALIZE THAT POWER IS HIDDEN UNDERNEATH YOUR EXISTING EGOIC NATURE, CONCEALED AND SMOTHERED BY THIS FALSE NATURE – IT IS YOUR ‘TRUE’ NATURE, AS ZEN FOLKS SAY, YOUR REAL SELF = YOUR REAL NATURE, WHO YOU ARE.

But you are STILL GOING TO NEED TO FIND IT, if you want to ‘live’ there, as trust me, you do – SO YOU NEED ‘TO BE ABLE TO FIND IT’.  

Yes, I need you to understand that your Fake Self, your EGO segmented into all the many different Roles, the TEDIOUS SUIT OF CLOTHES you use to get by and protect yourself, MUST BE ‘TAKEN OFF’ SO YOU CAN TAKE THE SAME ENERGY it takes to maintain that EGOIC stance and use it TO DO PRESENCE INSTEAD, BY BEING ‘PRESENT IN YOUR LEVEL OF PRESENCE’. See, you must grasp the need to STOP being ‘old you’ every time you TRY and DO Presence, as it is much easier to DO when you have that POWER back, and when FAKE YOU stops fighting it BECAUSE YOU HAVE DEGRADED THE ‘ANIMAL IN YOU’, ITS ABILITY TO FIGHT. SO I need you to believe YOU have the POWER BECAUSE YOU WERE BORN WITH IT, if you are gifted… 

Now if you were a Zenman, like I used to be, you would discover that they don’t really bother with ‘Presence as a Process’ of change, they go ROUTE 1 – THEY GET YOU TO STOP THINKING. See, STOPPING ALL THOUGHT has the same effect as turning off FAKE YOU, and then simply wait (and wait) until REAL YOU, your TRUE NATURE MAKES AN APPEARANCE, TALKS TO YOU EVEN. The reason we don’t do this is that IT IS VERY SLOW, BECAUSE IT IS (USUALLY) VERY SAFE, indeed the world of Zen is full wannabes with NO TALENT for it, they just like the idea of Zen, the retreat from life aspects of Zen. But that is NOT YOU, you can do this, you are capable of HEARING THE SOUND OF ‘ONE HAND CLAPPING’.

But you won’t TRY that yet, will you, see YOU NEED RESULTS, YOU NEED IT TO BE FAMILIAR IN SOME WAY, SO YOU NEED THE WESTERN VERSION OF THIS, hell you don’t mind a bit of danger, do you, YOU ACTUALLY NEED THIS TO BE GLAMOROUS, EXCITING, SEXY EVEN… And that is fine, BUT KNOW HOWEVER INTERESTING THIS IS GOING TO GET TODAY, ITS THE SAME BASIC PROBLEM WE HAVE TO SOLVE – YOU REMAIN FULL OF THE BULLSHIT THAT IS ‘FAKE YOU’.

Yes, the MAIN reason you can’t DO any of this ARISTOS stuff yet is that it is still old YOU trying to DO IT, and not trying that bloody hard either, are YOU, because Fake YOU does not want to change, at all, AND SABOTAGES YOU ALL THE FUCKING TIME. Yes, in many ways it really is that easy – IF you remove your BLOCK to change, then CHANGE IS EASY FOR THE GIFTED, indeed you will discover just how much Fake You has been GasLighting you all these years, you may even see just how much that BITCH has actually ‘trafficked you’ for its own ‘benefit in kind’ – as the old Daoist saying goes, ‘when the EGO goes, your Energy flows’, BECAUSE FAKE YOU CAN’T STEAL IT ANYMORE, SO FAKE YOU WILL ‘SUFFER’, WHILE YOU PROSPER.

THIS ACCEPTANCE OF ‘THE SUFFERING OF FAKE YOU’, TO CHASE IT EVEN, AS NOT ONLY NECESSARY BUT ENJOYABLE IS A KEY PART OF THE ARISTOCRATIC MINDSET OF CHANGE, BECAUSE IT MAKES YOU STRONG. This is how you win those FIGHTS WITH FAKE YOU, this is how it all GETS REALLY EASY…

SEE ONCE YOU UNDERSTAND THAT THE EGOIC SUFFERING OF FAKE YOU THAT YOU THINK FEEL IS ACTUALLY ‘REAL YOU WINNING’, THEN YOU WON’T EVEN FEEL IT AS SUFFERING ANYMORE, YOU WILL FEEL IT AS A THRILL, LIKE ONE OF THOSE ANCIENT AESTHETICS, AS THE BUDDHA DID…

But you cannot ‘Fake It’, you must become like Neitzche, like some aging Hedonist who finally understands, from long experience, THAT THE ACT OF NOT CHAIN SMOKING IS ACTUALLY MORE ENJOYABLE THAN CHAIN SMOKING, IN THE MOMENT OF ‘NOT DOING’ IT.

Yes, you can train yourself to use your addictions to make you STRONGER BY NOT DOING THEM AS A CHOICE, SO YOU GET THAT POWER BACK.

Yes, AS in the classic description of ‘Amor Fati’, that acceptance of EGOIC suffering CANNOT BE MENDACIOUS, cannot just be a form of ‘delayed gratification’, YOU CANNOT JUST LEARN TO BARE THAT SUFFERING FOR A GREATER, FUTURE GOOD, BECAUSE THAT IS STILL WEAKNESS – the power created by the friction of conflict you feel as suffering is wasted via your identification of it as suffering – YOU WASTE IT BY TENSING AGAINST IT.

You MUST BE ABLE TO LOOK PAST THE IDENTIFICATION OF THAT PRICELESS POWER AS ‘SUFFERING’, AND FEEL IT AS A THRILL IN ORDER TO USE IT YOURSELF, FOR YOUR OWN ENDS – IT IS A KEY MILESTONE AS IT IS PART OF THE ABILITY TO RAISE YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS.

Indeed you would be amazed at just how many unschooled Gifted continue to use their addictions to get that precious feeling of control, OF POWER, long after they have broken them, by playing with them to keep them ‘alive’, so they can benefit from THE FEELING OF ‘NOT SUFFERING’ by ‘NOT DOING THEM’ – it is FREE MONEY.

You should know now – IT IS YOU BIG ADDICTIONS THAT CONTAIN MOST OF THE POWER YOU NEED TO DEVELOP YOURSELF, BUT CURRENTLY WASTE, BECAUSE THEY HAVE A HIGH EMOTIONAL CONTENT. These addictions underpin your whole tendency toward INCONTINENCE in even small things, physical ticks, Walter-Mitty-style fantasies, your tendency to always choose to ‘bleed out’, to ‘piss yourself’ away as a pattern reaction, SO START TO NOTICE HOW THESE ACTIVITIES ARE LINKED NOW, TODAY.

See when you DO notice these links, that one weakness leads to another and another, you will start to SEE HOW FAKE YOU ARE, HOW CONTROLLED YOU ARE – HOW FAKE YOU CONTROLS YOU AND STOPS YOU BEING REAL YOU VIA THESE SIMPLE MIND FUCKS. Then it is simple to stop pretending, to stop justifying, as you will start to SEE YOURSELF for REAL – you will start to see THAT FAKE YOU IS LYING TO YOU WITH ITS INSTINCTIVE INCOMING THOUGHTS, THAT ARE NOT YOU.      

Get this, You cannot go on pretending, this stuff must be REAL for YOU, it cannot be a show you put on for more likes, whilst you secretly hate it, IF YOU WANT IT TO WORK – IT IS A KEY DEVICE TO IMPROVE YOURSELF IN THE SENSE OF YOUR POWER. It is not moral in a religious sense, IT IS PART OF ARISTOCRATIC ELITISM, OF BEING BETTER THAN AN DOMESTICATED ANIMAL, A SLAVE, BETTER THAN THEM. Try and get this very simply, so you can remember it – ASK YOURSELF, ARE YOU AN ANIMAL OR AN ARISTOCRAT?

Yes, ANY stupid little domesticated animal can sit down for a few seconds and delude itself that they are PRESENT, that they can REMEMBER THEMSELVES, but that is worse than useless, AS THAT IS NOT ‘PRESENCE’, that is just ‘thinking about yourself at an animal level’. Presence and being Present are VERY different things that have to WORK TOGETHER, and YOU NEED TO BE ABLE TO DO THEM TOGETHER ‘AT WILL’ FOR DAYS ON END VIA A SIMPLE MENTAL PROCESS TO GET ANYWHERE.

YES, today you need to understand what PRESENCE is, HOW TO DO IT, and JUST HOW FUCKING LUCKY YOU ARE TO HAVE ‘IT’ – your Presence is a ‘thing in itself’. Yes, here is one of the most CRUCIAL BITS OF THIS WHOLE POST COMES IN – TO HAVE SOME FAITH IN YOURSELF, IN YOUR GIFT, and stop accepting your animal level of consciousness as ‘ALL THERE IS’. See that is 100% fail, every time, as you are actually TELLING YOURSELF YOU CAN’T DO IT, EVEN AS YOU TRY YOUR ‘FAKE YOU’ IS TOO STRONG FOR YOU, and is just fooling you, again AND AGAIN, BY FUCKING UP THE PROCESS.

See, when this lesson fails to convince GIFTED FOLKS to DO this, fails even with some of the most HIGHLY gifted folks, (not just the 1 in 10, or the 1 in 100, I mean the 1 in 10,000, the PRIEST KINGS and WITCH QUEENS), its always for one or both of the same x2 BLOODY THINGS –

a: you don’t believe a higher level of consciousness exists AT ALL,

b. you don’t believe ‘you’ are capable of it, whatever I do.

When this lesson works it is usually because you have had some experience, however briefly of a higher level of consciousness, often through SEX, DRUGS and Rock ‘N Roll, you are a hedonist who has lived a bit, SO YOU CAN RELATE TO ‘SOMETHING’, AND THAT SOMETHING WAS GOOD. So you will TRY, after reading this, BECAUSE YOU WANT THAT EXPERIENCE, AGAIN AND AGAIN… 

To the first group I say Goodbye, Good Luck and Now go sit at the back and SHUT THE FUCK UP. To the 2nd group, I say WELCOME TO THE REST OF YOUR LIFE THERE BITCHES, goin be a wild RIDE, hope you are able for it and you have not made too bigger mess of your dumb ass already, SO I CAN MAKE THIS GO FAST. 

Ready? You understand now that PRESENCE is MAGIC, that it is CHANGE, AND YOUR ‘NOBODY’ IS THE GATEWAY? You understand that this is WHERE YOUR ‘REAL’ SELF LIVES?

Great, so KNOW this NOW, so we can (FINALLY) START OF THE FINISH…

PRESENCE IS THE LYNCHPIN, the CENTRAL AXIS THAT THE WHEEL OF ‘BEING GIFTED’ TURNS AROUND, LIKE A NEW ‘CENTRE OF MENTAL GRAVITY’.

This feeling of Presence WILL MAKE YOU STRONGER AND STRONGER, SO YOU RETURN TO THE FEELING OF THAT STATE NATURALLY OVER AND OVER AGAIN – YOU MUST ‘LIVE THERE’.

SEE YOUR PRESENCE IS A REAL, SOLID THING, THE FIRST EXPERIENCE YOU WILL GET OF ‘REAL YOU’, YOUR SPIRIT – IT IS THE ‘SUPERNATURAL YOU’.

YES, ‘TO BE PRESENT’ IS A SKILL YOU MUST LEARN, BUT ‘PRESENCE’ IS A THING IN YOURSELF THAT YOU MUST ‘FIND’, IF YOU HAVE IT…

SEE EVERYTHING ABOUT BEING AN ARISTOCRAT ‘ORBITS’ PRESENCE AS ITS ‘ENABLER’, AS PRESENCE IS THE STATE OF MIND THAT MANY, MANY GIFTED ABILITIES HANG OFF. SO EVERYTHING I’VE ALREADY TOLD YOU NOW NEEDS TO BE UNDERSTOOD IN THE CONTEXT OF PRESENCE, FOR YOU TO GET THIS CONCEPT, AND I MEAN EVERYTHING, EVEN THE BIG BAD ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM – CATHARSIS.

THE ADOPTION OF PRESENCE AS A WAY OF MENTAL LIFE IS HOW YOU START TO LIVE ‘BEING GIFTED’ EVERYDAY, TO BE ‘PRESENT’ IN YOUR GIFT – PRESENCE ENABLES THE ARISTOCRATIC ‘CHANGE FOR THE BETTER’ ALL THE TIME, INSTEAD OF BEING AN ANIMAL, WHO HATES CHANGE BY DEFINITION. FOR YOU TO TRULY ‘GET’ THIS, TODAY I MUST LINK ALL I’VE HAVE ALREADY SAID, AND MORE BESIDES,  TO PRESENCE, SO YOU GET WHAT BEING GIFTED ‘IS’ IN AN EVERYDAY SENSE.

Got that? Do you understand what that means? That PRESENCE, THE FEELING OF YOUR GIFT IN ITSELF is directly related to what that gift is and therefore will be VERY PERSONAL, so I have to FISH FOR IT with multiple analogies and examples, MANY OF WHICH YOU WON’T RELATE TO AT ALL, UNTIL YOU FIND A COUPLE THAT DO, and the whole concept will click into place and become ‘REAL’ for you? See I have to use a drag fishing line, that goes very long and very deep, covered in multiple baited HOOKS, of different types and at different levels, so I can find you with something that ‘works for YOU’, where ever you are on the SCALE OF GIFTED, and however you currently abuse the feeling of PRESENCE, however you accidentally DO it…

So this long post, an information-dense heavy hitter, IS DESIGNED TO GET YOU UP TO SPEED BY PULLING ALL OF THIS 4th way TOGETHER AROUND PRESENCE, SO YOU CAN SEE IT IN YOURSELF.  Yes, forgive me, but I have to quickly revisit some stuff that has already been said in the previous posts, you need to HAVE THIS FRONT OF MIND BEFORE WE CAN START ON PRESENCE in the next post – this post is a STEP FUNCTION BECAUSE YOU NEED TO MAKE A MENTAL JUMP AND CHANGE, YOU NEED TO STEP UP.

YES, YOU MUST MAKE A JUMP – YOU MUST RAISE YOURSELF UP, SO YOU MUST ‘TRY’ and THEN YOU MUST TRY AGAIN, BECAUSE YOU WILL FAIL AT THE START, AS YOU MUST FAIL AT THE START OF ALL GIFTED ACTIVITIES IN ORDER TO DEVELOP THE POWER FROM YOUR GIFT YOU NEED TO DO THIS, DEVELOP, ACCEPT AND ENJOY ‘THE FRICTION’ OF FAILING – TRYING IS THE ACTUAL CREATION OF THE POWER TO ‘DO’. And what you NEED to DO is raise ‘your’ level of ‘lived’ consciousness up to your ‘LEVEL OF PRESENCE’ by looking for YOUR PRESENCE, WHICH IS A REFLECTION OF YOUR LEVEL OF GIFT, OR WHAT IS LEFT OF IT – YOUR POTENTIAL.

SEE WE DON’T JUST USE ‘PRESENCE’ TO DEFINE ANY LEVEL OF HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS, WE USE IT TO DEFINE THE KEY LEVEL, THE ENTRY LEVEL WHERE IT CAN BE USED TO CHANGE. See after this SET level of PRESENCE, all higher levels have such POWER in them that this simple word DOES COVER the size and scale of them, it’s NOT EVEN CLOSE. Presence is JUST the beginning…

IF YOU REMEMBER NOTHING ELSE FROM THIS SPEECH, REMEMBER THIS –

ATTAINING PRESENCE IS CRUCIAL BECAUSE IT IS THE ‘LIVED LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS’ WHERE YOUR SELF-RESPECT BECOMES STRONGER THAN YOUR INSTINCTIVE THOUGHTS, FEELINGS AND REACTIONS. 

SO IT IS THE MAGICAL LEVEL AT WHICH YOU CAN CHANGE BECAUSE YOU ARE ABLE TO OVER-POWER YOUR FAKE, ANIMAL SELF IN THE MOMENT OF DECISION – REAL YOU BECOMES BIGGER THAN FAKE YOU.

THIS ‘POWER TO OVERPOWER’ IS WHAT ‘POWER OVER YOUR SELF’ IS, WHAT ‘SELF POSSESSION’ IS, WHAT LEADS TO ‘VICTORY OVER YOURSELF’, IT IS ‘SOL INVICTUS’ – THE UNCONQUERED SUN IN YOUR CHEST, BECAUSE ‘YOU’ NEVER LOSE, ANYMORE.  

SEE AT YOUR CURRENT ANIMAL LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS YOUR MIND WORKS IN A LINEAR FASHION BASED ON THE INSTINCTIVE MECHANISM OF PRESENTING ONE THOUGHT TO YOU AFTER ANOTHER, WITHOUT ANY CONTEXT OR REASONING, SO EVERYTHING BECOMES INSTINCTIVE, EVEN WHEN IT IS NOT – YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT EVERYTHING LIKE AN ANIMAL BECAUSE THAT IS ALL YOU CAN DO.

AT THE LEVEL OF PRESENCE YOUR MIND WILL WORK DIFFERENTLY, AS YOU WILL HAVE OVERSIGHT OF YOUR THOUGHT PROCESS, YOU WILL START TO SEE WHAT YOU ARE DOING IN THE 3RD PERSON, IF YOU ARE ABLE TO MANAGE YOUR PERSONAL POWER AND USE IT TO BE ARISTOCRATIC. 

BELOW THIS LEVEL ALL YOU ARE EVER REALLY DOING IS INDULGING YOURSELF LIKE A BASIC BITCH, YOU CAN ONLY CHANGE VIA EXTERNAL CIRCUMSTANCES, AND EVEN THEN IN A TEMPORARY WAY THAT ENDS UP AS ANOTHER ‘FAKE ROLE’ YOU PLAY FOR A TIME, LIKE A SLAVE WHO HAS TO PLAY ROLES TO SURVIVE, AND CAN NEVER BE OR ‘KNOW THY SELF’.     

YES, this is COMPLEX, so I don’t teach this at the start, I, like most TEACHERS START by teaching what you ‘DO’ with your PRESENCE,  but UNLIKE MOST TEACHERS I ACTUALLY KNOW WHAT PRESENCE ‘IS’ AND TEACH IT DIRECTLY WHEN THE STUDENT IS READY. Crucially, unlike most I don’t just use ONE, favored analogy from my particular ‘school’, as that leads to GETTING STUCK ON ONE THING THAT DOES NOT SUIT your REAL YOU, YOUR PARTICULAR LEVEL AND TYPE OF GIFT, which I don’t know unless I know you personally. 

See if you were a Zenman, you would learn Presence through Non-Reaction, a Buddhist through Non-Attachment, a Daosit through Non-Resistance, a mystic Christian through Love thy Neighbour, a follower of Nietzche through ‘Amor Fati’, a follower of PD Ouspenky from ‘Remembering Yourself’. Presence is ALL of those things and NONE of them, because Presence, as WE use the term, is a SET level of ‘higher consciousness’, above your pathetic Animal level – PRESENCE IS A GATEWAY STATE OF MIND THAT ONLY THE GIFTED HAVE ACCESS TO, should they decide to TRY, that they can then USE TO CHANGE THEMSELVES. See, the GIFTED are special, they are GIFTED THE ABILITY TO DO THIS AT BIRTH…

Do yourself a BIG favor right now – whatever you currently think makes you special, BETTER (all unschooled gifted think they are special in some vague way), don’t matter if you think you are really CLEVER/PRETTY/SEXY/TALENTED/STRONG/LUCKY/RICH/CHARMING/FAST/INTUITIVE, ditch THAT CRAP NOW and KNOW THAT THE ONE LIFE CHANGING, EARTH SHATTERING THING THAT MAKES YOU SPECIAL, THE ONLY BLOODY THING THAT ACTUALLY MATTERS RIGHT NOW is your natural LEVEL OF PRESENCE. Everything else is because of that, SO UNDERSTAND just how RARE that AMAZING ABILITY IS…

See only 1 in 10 FOLKS have any chance at all, and only 1 in 100 have any REALISTIC chance, BUT ONLY 1 IN 1,000 to 10,000 CAN DO THIS EASILY WHEN THEY BELIEVE IT – for those precious few all they need to do it GET OUT OF THEIR OWN WAY AND JUST LET IT HAPPEN, particularly if they chase SEX as their chosen PROCESS OF PRESENCE, however ‘unschooled’ you maybe. See those folks are ALREADY DOING THIS STUFF, just their own fucked up, dead-end, self-destructive version of it…

So why not see if you can believe it, just as a bit of fun now? Ahhh, I digress, way more to cover before most of you can pass that TEST, surely…

So, the next mental step you must make before we can start IS ABOUT HOW TO HANDLE COMPLEXITY… See, BECAUSE OF THIS COMPLEXITY, BECAUSE OF THE NEED FOR MANY DIFFERENT ANALOGIES TO COVER THE MANY DIFFERENT WAYS THAT SEVERAL DIFFERENT THINGS LINK TO ‘PRESENCE’, the BEST  way to start this TOPIC is with the VERY EASIEST ONE – SELF CARE, what doing Presence ‘IS’. It is important to give you something to stand on, to build your mental model up from VERY early in this post, otherwise, you are going to GET VERY CONFUSED, very quickly.

SO, You must get now WHAT I AM TEACHING YOU TO DO TODAY IS ENTIRELY SELFISH AND FOR YOUR OWN BENEFIT IN THE HERE AND NOW – PRESENCE IS A REAL THING, that exists as A KEY PART OF WHO YOU ARE if you are GIFTED. But you don’t feel it now in normal life, so YOU MUST GET STRAIGHT IN YOUR HEAD NOW YOU MUST DO THE WORK IN ORDER to GET BACK THAT FEELING YOU HAD AS A CHILD.

You must understand the spiritual concept of Self-Care… let’s be SUPER CLEAR –

Self-Care is the time you spend focused on yourself, IN PRIVATE OR WITH YOUR OWN KIND, in order to RAISE YOUR LEVEL OF ‘PRESENT’ CONSCIOUSNESS (what you actually experience) to the level of your inbred ‘PRESENCE’, your potential level of experience that is ALREADY THERE. 

It is NOT leisure time, NOT decadence, NOT rest, NOT games, NOT fun, NOT a hobby, NOT a past time, NOT recreation, IT IS your LIFE, your FUTURE, so IT IS DEADLY SERIOUS, SO YOU MUST TAKE IT DEADLY SERIOUS – SELF CARE LEADS TO BEING ‘PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE’.    

Self Care IS NOT WASHING, BEING NEAT AND TIDY, CLEAN CLOTHES, BEING FIT, HEALTHY, PRETTY, SEXY, or RESTED, much as THEY ARE ALL OFF SHOOTS OF SELF CARE, and can be done WITH spiritual Self Care. Self Care is about MAKING YOURSELF BETTER THROUGH DEVELOPING YOUR SPIRITUAL POWER VIA SPECIFIC ACTIVITIES DEDICATED TO THAT PURPOSE, activities that you PUT BOTH TIME AND EFFORT INTO ON A ROUTINE BASIS.

Get this in your MIND – all that you currently call ‘meditation’, ‘YOGA’ or any RELIGIOUS STYLE focus on yourself IS NOT MORAL, FOR MENTAL OR PHYSICAL HEALTH, INSURANCE FOR THE AFTERLIFE, it is to  YOU MAKE YOU MORE POWERFUL, as PART OF YOUR SPIRITUAL EVOLUTION. It is about BEING BETTER THAN YOU WERE BEFORE YOU DID THAT SELF-CARE. Morality as you understand it WRONG – THE FOLKS WHO WROTE THAT STUFF DOWN MEANT THE AFTERLIFE IN THE SENSE OF AFTER YOU ARE BORN AGAIN IN THIS ONE, not after death, as that will be way too late for you… You MUST GET BETTER NOW.

Just for me, TRY really hard now to ACCEPT that we are not trying to make you a GOOD PERSON, we are TRYING to make you BETTER in the same way YOUR ANCESTORS were, EVEN IF YOU DON’T CONSIDER THAT TO BE GOOD IN ARE LIBERAL SOCIETY OF 2023 (WHICH WILL BE GONE BY 2030…) – we are TRYING to get you to continue your EVOLUTION as a Human Being with WHAT IS LEFT OF THE ‘GIFT’ THEY HAVE GIVEN YOU. That is what being GIFTED IS, and that is what Self-Care is FOR, ok?

And that’s IT, nice and easy, eh… Sadly the rest of this has to be WAY more involved, as you need to make some breakthroughs today, SO I’M GOING TO OVERLOAD THIS POST WITH ENOUGH STUFF THAT YOU HAVE A CHANCE OF GETTING AT LEAST 50% OF IT, if not more, as that IS a minimum standard to get you started in EARNEST – FOR YOU TO TAKE THIS WAY MORE FUCKING SERIOUSLY THAN YOU HAVE UP TILL NOW.

And I have to do this COLD, see those previous x2 posts have been leading on the Yellow Brick you to this one, which is ‘THE’ CURE FOR YOUR FAILURE, that is why they are ALL linked THIS WAY in this series – IT MATTERS. See, you need to switch out your ATTITUDE TO CHANGE BEFORE YOU EVEN START THIS POST – you can not continue to view change as something that would be NICE TO HAVE or DO TOMORROW, IN THE FUTURE BECAUSE THE ‘STATE OF YOU’ IS NOT YOUR FAULT, you NEED TO SEE THE STUFF TO CHANGE IN THE NOW, THIS INSTANT – ALL NEED TO CHANGE IS URGENT ELSE IT POINTLESS EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT.

YES – WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT CHANGE YOU MUST ACT ON IT STRAIGHT AWAY, THAT IS THE TRICK TO IT, OTHERWISE YOU CURSE YOURSELF. The best way to start is with simple, multiple quick wins THAT YOU DO IN THE MOMENT OF THINKING ABOUT THEM, AS THAT IS WHY YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT THEM, GET IT?

So no matter how true or not the stuff that follows is for you, on whatever sliding scale you currently use to judge yourself (if at all), I NEED YOU TO ACTUALLY ‘SEE’ YOUR OWN MEDICORITY IN THE MOMENT IN WHATEVER SMALL EXAMPLE CATCHES YOUR ATTENTION IN THAT MOMENT, IN THE NOW, AND BE PREPARED TO CHALLENGE IT, AT LEAST MENTALLY.

YOU NEED TO GET USED TO CONSTANT CHANGE VIA THIS PROCESS – FIXING SMALL ISSUES ALL THE TIME, CASUALLY BUT EFFECTIVELY, AS IT IS THE ONLY WAY WESTERN PEOPLE CAN EVER CHANGE, GIVEN THEY UNDERSTAND THE URGENCY OF THE NEED TO CHANGE… 

BE CLEAR – GIFTED You, THE HOUSE OF ‘YOU’ IS ON FIRE, BURNING DOWN RIGHT NOW.

THAT IS A BAD THING THAT REQUIRES ACTION FROM YOU, RIGHT NOW… So it does not MATTER IF YOU DON’T THINK ALL THESE ILLUSTRATIONS THAT FOLLOW THIS ARE QUITE TRUE FOR YOU, THE ABOVE STATEMENT IS TRUE FOR YOU.

SEE WHAT MATTERS IS YOU SEE YOUR OWN MEDIOCRITY AS BOTH REAL AND YOUR FAULT, OTHERWISE YOU WILL DO NOTHING – you will continue to manage it using your normal EGO DEFENCE PATTERNS, AND BOTH ‘YOU’ AND I WILL HAVE FAILED YOU, BECAUSE YOU WILL FAIL THE TEST AT THE END OF THE POST. 

SO I MUST TEACH YOU TO FIGHT WITH YOUR NOBODY SO YOU CAN LEARN TO BE ‘PRESENT’ IN YOUR ‘PRESENCE’, IN THE NEXT POST. 

Be clear – YOU DO NOT KNOW YOURSELF AT ALL, THE VAST MAJORITY OF WHAT AND WHO YOU ARE IS HIDDEN FROM YOU.

BUT THAT HIDDEN PART IS CONTROLLING YOU, WHATEVER JUSTIFICATION YOU USE IN RETROSPECT FOR YOUR ACTIONS, YOU HAVE NO SELF-AWARENESS TO SEE THAT CONTROL WHEN IT HAPPENS – ‘YOU KNOW NOT WHAT YOU DO’, BECAUSE YOU DON’T KNOW ‘WHY’ YOU DO IT.

SEE YOU DON’T EVER EXPERIENCE YOURSELF BEING A SELF-DESTRUCTIVE TWAT, YOU THINK THAT TWATTY THOUGHT/REACTION IS JUSTIFIED IN THAT MOMENT, SO IT IS NOT TWATTY, INDEED SOME OF YOU ARE SO FUCKING DUMB YOU EVEN THINK IT IS COOL, EXCITING.

SO WE HAVE TO FIX THAT, BY GIVING YOU THE ‘SELF-POSSESSION’ THAT COMES FROM PRESENCE.  

See you are NOT 1 THING, you are not consistent, so before we start today it’s really important to GET THIS, as SEEING THIS AND FIGHTING THIS is a cornerstone of what PRESENCE IS – without this knowledge, Presence is just more New Age gob shite, SO YOU MUST UNDERSTAND WHY YOU ARE A ‘SLAVE’. 

Now, I go on and on about the slave mindset a lot, and many of you ask WHY, because you attribute the meaning of this to the ‘Wage Slave’ of modern life, and that is wrong. So, given the Slave Mindset is the EMENY of Presence (and YOU) it is VERY IMPORTANT YOU GET THIS UPFRONT – A SLAVE MINDSET MEANS YOU HAVE NO WILL OF YOUR OWN, ALL YOU CAN DO IS REACT IN A SET WAY THAT IS UNCONCIOUS BECAUSE IT IS BASED ON MENTAL PATTERNS CHOOSING THOSE REACTIONS FOR YOU.

YOU ARE NOT AWARE OF THIS CHOICE IN THE MOMENT – YOUR UNCONSCIOUS KNOWS WHAT IT IS DOING AND WHY, BUT YOU DON’T, YOU DON’T CONTROL YOUR THOUGHTS, SO YOUR THOUGHTS CONTROL YOU, which you just accept as normal. It is NOT NORMAL FOR YOU, it is only normal for ANIMALS… You don’t know why you think what you think, it is automated, YOU JUST LIVE WITH IT, TO THE POINT YOU CAN NO LONGER TELL WHAT IS RATIONAL AND WHAT IS IRRATIONAL – TO THE POINT THAT ALL YOUR CHOICES ARE BASED ON REACTING AND THEN GETTING A REACTION. You can only think at all as a Linear Seq of Reactions, WITHOUT ANYTHING TO REACT TO YOU BECOME BORED AND UNHAPPY, SO YOU SEEK ATTENTION AS A WAY OF LIFE – THAT IS THE DOMESTICATED ANIMAL STATE.

You never actually DO anything, EVERYTHING IS ‘PRESENTED TO YOU’ AS THE NEXT THING IN A CHANGE OF REACTIONS – all that ‘happens’ is your reaction to what ELSE happens, or does not happen, IN A LONG LINEAR CHANGE OF EVENTS THAT ARE PREDETERMINED, you are living out your childhood patterns every single second. SO YOU CAN’T CHANGE WITHOUT SOME FORM OF EXTERNAL INTERVENTION.

See, YOUR PATHETIC… You are JUST TAME now, AS YOUR SPIRIT HAS BEEN BROKEN, you do what you are told as a first REACTION, you never DOUBT those PATTERNS, you don’t EVEN try and PROVE your precious opinions, YOU only justify THEM, SO you CAN THEM CONTINUE TO BELEIVE THEM – they serve some nasty, hidden little purpose, so their overall rightness is of only minor concern and does not even matter to you.

ASK YOURSELF THIS – WOULD YOU NOT LIKE TO KNOW WHAT THE ACTUAL TRUTH IS? Would you not put a huge amount of effort into chasing that ability if you were told you COULD DO THAT IF YOU TRIED? See until you have that everything is a FANTASY, AND YOU REMAIN A SLAVE TO THIS FANTASY, what you GUESS at IS your TRUTH, so you remain ‘COWED’, spending your life ‘Trying To Make Slavery’ more ‘Bearable’, with your ‘SECRET LIFE’ and its petty self-indulgences, LIKE EVERY SLAVE HAS SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME.

It is not even interesting – YOU ARE NOT EVEN INTERESTING, AS YOU ONLY BECOME INTERESTING WHEN YOU DECIDE TO ‘TRY’ – THEN YOU CAN DEVELOP ‘POWER OVER YOURSELF’ WHICH LEADS TO ‘VICTORY OVER YOURSELF’, leads to CHANGE. Never lose sight of that GOAL, AS IT IS THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS.

SEE THAT GOAL WILL MAKE YOU AN INDIVIDUAL, and it’s REALLY IMPORTANT YOU UNDERSTAND THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BEING A SLAVE AND BEING FREE – a Slave has no FREE WILL, but an Individual DOES. See to be a SLAVE is to get stuck between your SUFFERING and the PLEASURES you use to make that suffering ‘bearable’ – BEING A SLAVE IS A TRAP, BECAUSE BEING A SLAVE IS VERY ‘STABLE’, AS YOU HAVE MADE THE SHIT LIFE OF BEING A SLAVE VERY COMFORTABLE, SO BEING A SLAVE CREATES ‘INERTIA’, IT IS A VERY STICKY STATE, LIKE DEEP, WET MUD…     

We must start to DRY YOU OUT so you can at least see this mud, and stop it clinging to every aspect of your life, every thought you have. Today you MUST start your Journey to BECOMING ARISTOS by BECOMING SELF-POSSESSED, VIA THE MAGIC OF PRESENCE – YES, YOU MUST REJECT BEING A SLAVE TO YOURSELF, YOU MUST LOATHE THE POINTLESS BANALITY OF IT.

WHEREVER YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE IN your little HIERARCHY OF SLAVES RIGHT NOW, YOU ARE STILL STUCK AS ONE, SO YOU CAN’T CHANGE – YOU ARE TAMED, BROKEN, COMPLIANT AS YOUR FIRST REACTION.

BUT REJECTING THE CONCEPT OF SLAVERY IS JUST THE START – YOU MUST RECOGNIZE IT FIRST AND THEN CHANGE.

THEN WE MAKE YOU ‘DANGEROUS’, NOT LEAST SO YOU CAN COPE WITH THE DANGER THAT LIES AHEAD, SO YOU CAN CHANGE AND DEVELOP YOURSELF IN RESPONSE TO THIS DANGER, TO THIS CHALLENGE, WHICH IS VERY REAL.

SO NOW YOU MUST ACCEPT IT IS TIME TO PAY ATTENTION AND BECOME ‘UN’ STABLE IN A POSITIVE, USEFUL WAY, AND START TO QUESTION YOUR ROUTINES.

Right now all you can do is LIVE OUT YOUR PROGRAMMING, so you are TOTALLY FUCKING HARMLESS, as you can’t CHANGE – YOU ARE A SLAVE TO YOURSELF, YOU’RE NAIVE, PREDICABLE, ASLEEP AT THE WHEEL.

You are a victim of your precious SOCIETY, TOTALLY DEPENDANT ON IT, LITTLE MORE THAN CANNON FODDER. SO YOU MUST EVOLVE, FORCE YOURSELF TO CHANGE TO ESCAPE THAT FATE and you must ADAPT TO EVOLVE, you must follow the LAW OF SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST THAT DOMINATES EVERY SPHERE OF THIS WORLD, AS THAT IS WHAT ALL EVOLUTION IS – ELITISM, TO BE DRIVEN BY ‘BEING BETTER TO SURVIVE’.

See, THE 2ND LAW OF THERMODYNAMICS WAITS IN THE SHADOWS TO KILL YOU – LEFT TO ITS OWN DEVICES EVERYTHING SPREADS OUT, DECLINES, AND BECOMES LESS, GETTING THINNER AND THINNER BEFORE IT DISAPPEARS AND GETS FORGOTTEN THE NEXT DAY.  Yes, your Fake, SELF-Destructive Self fucks you over every day BY STOPPING YOU DOING THIS, and you don’t even notice, but now it is time to ‘GET IN THE RING’ (Sorry GNR) and FIGHT – NOW ITS TIME TO NOTICE. Of the 3 choices everyone has in this world ON A MOMENT TO MOMENT BASIS, the choices of Decadence, Stability or Evolution the ONLY one that works for the GIFTED is to EVOLVE AS A WAY OF LIFE…

But, your Fake Self lives for the ‘happiness’ that is meaningless, empty pleasure, and CONTROLS you because of this, your Fake Self is a ‘Drug Pusher’ – it OFFERS TEMPORARY RELIEF FROM YOUR SLAVERY with tiny thrills, IT does not test you BECAUSE IT OWNS YOU, KEEPS YOU STUCK IN YOUR STABILITY. Your Real Self lives for the happiness that is POWER above all that unhappiness, that is the FULFILLMENT OF YOUR DESTINY, that is the pleasure of ‘Achievement’, THAT IS HOW IT MAKES YOU INTO SOMEONE – YOUR REAL SELF IS FREE, that is WHY IT TESTS YOU, AS THAT IS HOW YOU GET POWER, AND POWER IS EVERYTHING.

Empty pleasure AS A THRILL is NOTHING, so the more you chase it the more NOTHING YOU BECOME, because empty pleasure is relative to your animal state, (‘Its a Bentley to you but to me its a Blue car’, Sorry PDiddy), so IT IS JUST A REFLECTION OF HOW MUCH NOTHING YOU ALREADY ARE. So now you must LIVE FOR THE FIGHT, you must go looking for it, you must want it, you must feel the honor of it, BECAUSE WITHOUT THIS FIGHT YOU WILL REMAIN NOTHING, A BASIC BITCH, INDEED YOUR PLEASURES WILL DECLINE WITH YOU, become emptier and more meaningless, more deranged, as they stop working, SO CHOOSING THE FIGHT IS THE ONLY WAY – trust me, it will FEEL BETTER THAN WHAT YOU ARE NOW, however far you get…

Don’t worry, I know you are scared cause you have been BRED TO BE A PUSSY, so we can go easy at the start, just some ‘trash talk’, trade a few insults, UNTIL YOU GET COMFORTABLE WITH LEARNING HOW TO DEFEND YOURSELF. See even that level of understanding will dramatically alter your view of your fake self, indeed you will start to see more and more of the Bitch, simply because you WILL WANT TO SEE IT, now you know that you CAN FIGHT, you will want those WINS – it actually becomes addictive, FIGHTING, just as long as you CAN GET EXCITED BY IT, BECOME BRAVER AND BRAVER BY DOING IT, BY SEEING ALL CHANGE AS ‘WINNING’, cause it is.

Yes, NO MATTER HOW ROCK’NROLL YOU THINK YOU ARE, HOW BIGGER HEDONIST YOU PRIDE YOURSELF IN BEING, YOU MUST STILL TOUGHEN UP SOME NOW, AS IT IS PART OF THE CHANGE YOU NEED TO MAKE – TO UNDERSTAND THIS IS A ‘CAGE FIGHT’ BETWEEN ‘YOU’ AND ‘you’. You must actively go LOOKING FOR THE SHIT, FOR THE FIGHT, INSTEAD OF SHYING AWAY FROM IT, so YOU MUST BECOME LIKE YOUR PET CAT, always TESTING YOURSELF TO SEE WHAT YOU CAN DO, WHAT YOU CAN GET. Always looking for the WIN, because you now know that is ALL LIFE IS – if you are FREE SO you don’t need thrills to cope, THOSE THRILLS NEED ‘YOU’.

So today we must TEACH YOU YOUR NOBODY, so you can GET YOUR ‘SKILLS UP’, TO GET YOUR ‘KILLS UP’, BEFORE YOU START TO FIGHT IN EARNEST, SO YOU HAVE THE ESSENTIAL CONFIDENCE IN THE PROCESS TO DO IT MORE AND MORE – SO YOU CAN TRUST THAT THIS IT IS REAL. To TRY it every time you see an opportunity, without even needing even to think about it, AND ALWAYS GO FOR ‘THE WIN’, and take back what is rightfully yours, your Birthright no less.

THE KEY, as you will perhaps come to see for yourself at the end of this post, IS EASY – YOU MUST LEARN HOW TO BE ‘RUTHLESS FOR THE SAKE OF IT’ IN ORDER TO DO ANY OF THIS, IN ORDER TO ‘WIN’ AT THIS DEVELOPMENT GAME. You must always seek the WIN over yourself, because you will know HOW TO DO THAT, after reading the rest of this, AND YOU WILL ‘LATCH ON’ TO THIS PROCESS WHEN YOU REALIZE YOU CAN ACTUALLY DO IT, OVER AND OVER AGAIN, like you have found a new drug, that makes EVERYTHING BETTER, including you…

See, as all good devotees of the classic computer ‘Elite’ know, until we get your RANK up above ‘Mostly Harmless’, to at least ‘Competent’, if not ‘Dangerous’, then playing this GAME is just boring as FUCK, as you just get killed all the time. So we need you to GET SMARTER, to focus on EARNING SOME MONEY, TO BUY A BETTER SHIP, BETTER WEAPONS and learn HOW TO USE THEM, THEN YOU CAN GO KICK SOME ASS, much as the Thargoids would still crucify you. Otherwise, you are NEVER going to be able to DO STUFF, you will only ever get to READ ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE CAN DO. And that’s just shit, really, like watching streams of other people playing games that you are crap at – LIKE A DORK.

SO GET THESE 3 THINGS CLEAR, ALL OF WHICH I HAVE TOLD YOU BEFORE:

1ST YOU NEED TO GET THE ‘ENERGY EQUATION’ – you must Manage how you USE your ENERGY ‘TO DO’, DIFFERENTLY THAN YOU USUALLY DO, AS IT TAKES MUCH MORE ENERGY TO DO DIFFERENT THAN TO DO YOUR ROUTINES, WHICH IS WHY YOU ARE TRAPPED IN YOUR ROUTINES. 

SEE THE REASON YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT LIFE IS IS THAT YOU DON’T EVER HAVE ENOUGH ENERGY TO CHANGE, SO YOU CAN’T CHANGE – 99% of YOUR LIFE IS EMPTY ROUTINE which you spend all your Energy on.

WORSE, THE KEY REASON YOU HAVE NO ENERGY TO CHANGE IS THAT YOU WASTE BIG CHUNKS OF IT ON MAKING THE BEST OF YOUR CURRENT SHIT LIFE OF ROUTINE, OF SLAVERY TO ROUTINE, YOU MAKE IT MORE BEARABLE.

SO THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN CHANGE AT THE START IS TO GENERATE MORE ENERGY THAN YOU USE ON YOUR ROUTINES AND THEN PROACTIVELY USE IT TO CHANGE, INSTEAD.

This is what you are going to come to KNOW as SELF-CARE – TO DEVELOP THE ENERGY TO STOP, THINK, AND CHANGE, to be totally SELFISH, AND IMPROVE YOU.

YEP – YOU ARE STUCK IN A TRAP OF ‘COPING’, OF TRYING TO MAKE SLAVERY SLIGHTLY MORE BEARABLE all the fucking time – in reality it is your career, the STANCE of a slave. So you need to CHANGE THAT stance, THAT ATTITUDE and stop ‘coping’ and start ‘changing’, while you still can, otherwise, this is it, you have already passed the high point of your life, the rest of it will be worse. Yes, right now you STILL have a choice, BUT YOU NEED TO MAKE THAT CHOICE TO CHANGE. And I mean RIGHT NOW.

Sure, I know… YOU DON’T SEE THE CHOICE, AS you are EXHAUSTED, SCATTERED, FLAKEY, oppressed by the society that pretends to protect you. YOU HAVE NO SPARE ENERGY TO EVEN CONSIDER CHANGE let alone actually TRY, ALL YOU CAN SEE IS THE NEXT RUN OF THE LADDER YOU HAVE TO CLIMB BEFORE YOU CAN CATCH A BREAK, A REST, A CHEAP THRILL, TO KEEP YOU GOING, before repeating the same stupid crap over and over, SO YOU BECOME EVEN MORE EXHAUSTED, using countless stimulants to keep going, some of you become HIGH ON THE THE EXTREMES OF IT, BAITING YOUR OWN EARLY DEATH AS IT ITS A GAME OF CARDS, as you unconsciously know its all totally bloody pointless…

All because you have NO IDEA THERE IS A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL OF EXISTENCE that no one has ever explained to you, above the LIFE OF A SLAVE, WHERE YOU ARE ‘FREE’ TO NOT GIVE THE SMALLEST FUCK ABOUT ANY OF THAT, free not to have an opinion, free of the need to be RIGHT, free of everything but WHO YOU REALLY ARE – THE LIFE OF THE ARISTOS. See that is THE LIFE OF THE ARTIST, WHERE ONLY QUALITY MATTERS TO YOU ANYMORE, given of course, you are prepared to FIGHT FOR IT, FIGHT FOR YOURSELF BY FIGHTING YOUR WAY OUT OF YOUR SLAVERY TO EVERY TEDIOUS LITTLE THING IN YOUR LIFE.  But you don’t have a fucking Scooby-Doo, do you…

GOOD JOB WE DO KNOW THEN EH, AS I DOUBT YOU COULD FIGHT YOUR WAY OUT OF A PAPER BAG RIGHT NOW. But you might still be worth helping, I guess – THERE MAYBE SOMETHING SERIOUS LEFT IN YOU WE CAN WORK WITH. You may actually have a ‘solid surface’ deep within yourself you can stand on and use to BE DIFFERENT, better than the formulaic little fuck up you have become.

But, YOU STILL HAVE TO ACTUALLY DO IT – YOU HAVE TO FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS, TO FORCE our external discipline on yourself AND CHANGE, only way it is going to happen. Do you think you can, or do ya just wanna give up now, a few lines into this post and give me your favorite excuse, your usual go-to cover story for being SHIT. Tough choice eh… want me to help you with that, WANT ME TO CONVINCE YOU OF THE VALUE OF THIS OVER YOUR EXISTING, PITIFUL LITTLE LIFE? I know ‘you’ are JUST SOOOOO GOOD AT MAKING DECISIONS, you don’t keep coming up with random justifications in order to do the SAME STUPID SHIT controlled by the same STUPID PATTERNS, OVER AND OVER AGAIN, DO ‘YOU’?

NEXT – IT IS CRUCIAL TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU NEED TO DO THIS – IF YOU ARE GIFTED.

2ND THING YOU NEED TO GET IS YOU HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE TOWARD YOURSELF – YOU HAVE TO GET MEAN.

SEE TO DO ANY OF THIS SUCCESSFULLY YOU HAVE TO ASSUME THE ATTITUDE OF AN ARISTOS NOW, BEFORE YOU HAVE IT – YOU HAVE TO GET SCARY, INTENSE, SELF POSSESSED.

THIS REPLACES THE ATTITUDE OF A SLAVE THAT HAS BEEN BRED INTO YOU, AS THAT FANTASY IS WHAT IS ACTUALLY KEEPING YOU A SLAVE – YOU ALWAYS CHOSE THE EASIEST WAY OUT, THE PATH OF LEAST RESISTANCE WITHIN YOURSELF. SO YOU ARE DOOMED TO FAILURE. 

TODAY YOU HAVE TO DECIDE TO CHALLENGE YOURSELF AS A MATTER OF POLICY – YOU ALWAYS CHOOSE ‘ADVENTURE’, CHANGE, QUALITY, AND CREATIVITY, YOU ARE AN ARTIST NOT AN FUCKING HARMLESS DOMESTICATED ANIMAL.

SEE TODAY YOU MUST START THE PATH BACK TO WHO YOU REALLY ARE, ‘SELF ACTUALIZATION’ IF YOU WISH, AND THAT TAKES GUTS. SO YOU MUST BECOME A SNOB WITH YOURSELF, WHILST STILL KEEPING IT AS SECRET AS POSSIBLE, WHILE PLAYING NICE WITH ALL THE FREAKS. 

You HAVE A NATURAL PERSONALITY THAT IS LINKED TO YOUR GIFT THAT YOU NEED TO ‘BE’, YOUR HEROES JOURNEY, from which there is no ESCAPE – IT IS FORCED ON YOU, OVER AND OVER AGAIN, HOWEVER MUCH YOU REJECTED IT, OVER AND OVER AGAIN. See right now the vast majority of your LIKES AND DISLIKES ARE FAKE, THEY ARE COPIED OR DISTORTED BY BOTH YOUR ENVIRONMENT AND YOUR EGO. Your NATURAL LIKES AND DISLIKES ARE ABOUT WHAT IS GOOD FOR YOU (BUT NOT IN A GENERIC MORAL SENSE), they are what DEVELOPS YOU INTO ‘SOMETHING’.

Your unnatural likes and dislikes are OFTEN THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF THIS, and are OFTEN DOING YOU TREMENDOUS HARM EVERY DAY! That is why we have to do this ‘CHANGE YOU’ thing TODAY, it’s not optional… See today you are going to find out why some of my peers refer to me as ‘THE Old Bastard’ – I CAN MAKE ANYONE WANT TO CHANGE AND BE DRIVEN TO CHANGE WHEN ‘IN PERSON’, in under an hour no less, BY RIPPING YOUR LIFE, YOUR OPINIONS, YOUR DREAMS TO SHREDS IN MINS, BY SHOWING YOU THE NOTHING YOU ARE. I can even FORCE IT ON YOU, AND HAVE DONE MANY TIMES IN THE PAST. 

But the question is – CAN I MAKE ‘YOU’ WANT TO CHANGE AS A STEP FUNCTION VIA THIS DISTANCE LEARNING APPROACH – CAN I GET YOU TO WANT TO ‘FIGHT FOR YOURSELF’ AFTER READING A POST.

See it don’t matter HOW I get you there, IT ONLY MATTERS THAT AFTER READING THIS STUFF YOU HAVE THE BURNING DESIRE TO WANT TO CHANGE SO YOU CAN OVERCOME YOUR INERTIA, ALL YOUR LITTLE TRAPS AND CIRCUMSTANCES, BECAUSE YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IT NOW, IN THE HERE AND MOTHERFUCKNG NOW! So let’s find out eh – LET’S FIND OUT IF THERE IS ANYTHING LEFT WORTH SAVING UNDERNEATH ALL THE CREEPY FAKE SHIT THAT IS ‘YOU’…

 NOW, for all the insights and methods I’ve built my reputation on as a Teacher, this one is probably the PUPPY DOG – please understand NOW that…

3RD THING – ‘CHANGE IS PRESENCE’ AND ‘PRESENCE IS CHANGE’, YOU HAVE TO DO BOTH AT THE SAME TIME.

NOBODY IS THE BEGINNING OF PRESENCE, TO BE PRESENT AS NOBODY IS THE NEXT STEP, THEN TO BE PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE IS WHEN YOU ARE ARISTOS, IT IS TRUE SELF-POSSESSION.

Much as you can TRY and do them separately one enables the success of the other, and vice-versa, doing them separately means YOU WILL FAIL, sooner or later. Worse, TRYING to do them separately means this adventure I leading on will ONLY EVER BE A HOBBY you never get any good at, like that dream of climbing Kilimanjaro with your friends that turns into the adventure of ‘walking home from pub’.

To give you a reference point so you can START – my go-to analogy for this connection is the bouncing table tennis ball on the tabletop, where said ball is your ‘Conscious’ desire to change and the table is your ‘Level of Consciousness’, so it is obvious that if YOUR RAISE THE TABLE TOP YOU ARE ALSO GOING TO RAISE YOUR ABILITY TO CHANGE, your ball will bounce higher cause you are starting higher, get it. Yep, you’re an animal, I have to make this easy…

See no matter how motivated you are in the moment the ‘Centre of Gravity’ that is your tabletop (that is YOU) will ALWAYS DRAG YOUR BALL BACK DOWN, as that is where you are bouncing ‘off’ and after a few tries your momentum dulls, your INERTIA KICKS IN and you are right back where you started – your ball comes to rest on the table. Even if you temporarily raise your level of tabletop but have both no desire to Change and no understanding of how to Change then your ball simply ain’t going to bounce much at all, indeed it will go BACK downwards.

Worse, you have no idea how to latch onto that Change, EVEN IF IT OCCURS BY ACCIDENT, because you don’t know what SUCCESSFUL CHANGE IS, YOU DON’T KNOW HOW TO CONTINUALLY ‘REPEAT SUCCESS’ UNTIL IT BECOMES YOUR NEW NORMAL, SO YOU ‘LATCH ON’ – you must DWELL in a changed state, to ACTUALLY CHANGE PERMANENTLY, AS YOU RAISE YOUR TABLE TOP THAT WAY.

SO, you need a NEW, HIGHER ‘Centre of Gravity’ mentally if you are going to change QUICKLY AND THEN LATCH ONTO THAT CHANGE, cause the mess that you are now is actually SET IN THE THICK MUD that is your ANIMAL LEVEL WHICH IS VERY LOW, it is the ‘bed you sleep in’, night and day, so we have to WAKE YOU UP TO THAT, WE HAVE TO DRY YOU OUT – everything will be different once you RAISE YOUR LEVEL, AND CHANGE. If you want this to GO QUICK, (you DO) then you have to ACTIVELY SEEK THIS HIGHER LEVEL, as the Cause Celeb of your life VIA PRESENCE, not just try and be Aristos.

‘Yeah…but why both at the same time’, I hear you mutter in that ‘I don’t really understand but don’t want to make a fool of myself out loud’ type of way… Easy one – think of the DESIRE FOR A BETTER YOU as the CARROT YOU MUST CHASE, and the INCREASE IN LEVEL as your STICK TO DEFEND YOURSELF WITH if you wish, as that is how it will feel at the start, but it is the same thing – YOU MUST ‘LOVE THE ADVENTURE OF CHANGE’, BUT YOU MUST ALSO ‘FORCE YOUR CHANGE IN LEVEL’ IN ORDER TO CHANGE. Ok so far…? NO…?

See this is WHY I LOVE THE FIGHTING ANALOGY – YES, I know you have no idea what FIGHTING is, so understand when you choose to CHANGE YOURSELF BY DOING SOMETHING DIFFERENT it is a direct, personal ATTACK on OLD, FAKE YOU, that it will HATE and will RESIST. To choose PRESENCE is how you DEFEND yourself AGAINST THE ATTACKS OF FAKE YOU, which are happening all the time anyway. See, if you had ever had to fight to survive, to fight for a living you would know that IT is suicide to just Attack without being able to Defend yourself, without being able to retreat to your CASTLE to SECURE YOURSELF AGAINST DEFEAT BEFORE YOU SEEK VICTORY. That better..?

ARISTOCRATIC ‘Change’ is ATTACK, BEING ‘Present in your Presence’ is DEFENSE – YOU NEED BOTH OR YOU WON’T LAST LONG DOING THIS.

See I know you, I know you are scared, I KNOW YOU HAVE BUILT AN EGO AROUND YOURSELF TO PROTECT YOU FROM ALL THAT CHILDISH HURT, so I have to give you the confidence that you can’t lose, by teaching you how to defend yourself BEFORE YOU WILL EVEN COMMIT TO THE ATTACK WITH THE ENERGY AND FOCUS YOU NEED TO WIN – YOUR EGO IS KEEPING YOU SCARED, YOUR EGO IS AN ABBERATION YOU DON’T NEED…

Easy now I’ve told you eh – we need to get your ball bouncing HIGHER, AND YOU NEED TO LEARN HOW TO FIGHT YOUR SELF IN PERSON? No..? sorry then, but I guess you need the DRAMATIC, DETAILED VERSION, like most people – I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE ANIMAL IN YOU, BECAUSE YOU CAN’T…

Yep, today I HAVE TO DO ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS IN ALL OF THE 4TH WAY – CONVINCE ‘ANIMAL YOU’ TO WANT TO CHANGE YOURSELF NOW, RIGHT AWAY AND THEN SHOW YOU THE PRIMARY MECHANISM THAT ENABLES ALL CHANGE, SHOULD YOU WANT TO DO IT.

I don’t mean add a bit here, remove a bit there, or take up a new hobby that is ‘Spirituality’ ONCE A WEEK, THAT IS JUST MORE FLAKEY FAKE YOU. I mean change HOW YOU WORK as a personality, CHANGE YOUR MENTAL CENTRE OF GRAVITY – SO YOU CAN THEN CHANGE ANYTHING ELSE YOU WANT.

SEE AT THE BEGINNING WE NEED TO KEEP ANIMAL YOU ‘ONSIDE’, CAUSE THAT IS ALL YOU ARE RIGHT NOW, SO I HAVE TO TALK TO THE SILLY BITCH, I HAVE TO HUMOUR FRAGILE LITTLE YOU, TREAT YOU BETTER THAN YOU DESERVE, SO I HAVE TO USE THE INHERENT ‘ELITISM’ OF THE HUMAN CONDITION TO DRAG YOU UP AND OUT OF YOUR CESSPOOL.

SO THIS POST HAS TO BE BUILT UP FROM FACTUAL BRICKS, LIKE LEGO, AS THAT IS ALL ANIMAL YOU CAN HANDLE, CAUSE ANIMAL YOU IS DUMB AS FUCK AND EVEN WHEN FORCED CAN ONLY STEP FROM ONE LINEAR FACT TO THE NEXT…

EVEN THEN YOU WILL STRUGGLE TO FOCUS ON ANYTHING ‘DIFFICULT’ FOR MORE THAN 10SECS AT A TIME SO I HAVE TO ADD ‘TREATS’, LITTLE REWARDS, LIKE TRAINING A RESCUE DOG WITH BITS OF BACON… SO BE IT – LEARN THE 4TH TEACHER MANTRA = THE ENDS JUSTIFY THE MEANS.  

SO LOTS OF LOVELY LITTLE TIPS AND TRICKS TODAY, ALL ABOUT THE NO1 SHORT CUT TO THE GIFTED LIFE – PRESENCE.

Yep, wanna stop your decline and be WAY FUCKING MORE THAN YOU ARE RIGHT NOW, way more than a CREEPY LITTLE coward who HIDES IN THE SHADOWS OF THE INTERNET, little more than a spectator chasing the QUALITY OF OTHERS like a bloody STALKER? So read on, bitches..

Hope you have got this now? You understand the MIND SET you need to READ THE REST OF THIS:

1. EVERYTHING NEW NEEDS ENERGY TO DO, YOU MUST MANAGE YOUR ENERGY – CREATE MORE AND NOT WASTE WHAT YOU HAVE IN ORDER TO BECOME SELF-POSSESSED.
2. YOU MUST BE ARISTOS, CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE TO WHAT YOU ‘VALUE’ – CHOOSE TO USE YOUR ENERGY TO DEVELOP YOURSELF AS NOBODY TO BECOME SELF-POSSESSED AS ‘THE’ GOAL. 
3. ALL CHANGE COMES FROM PRESENCE, AND THE QUALITY OF YOUR PRESENCE COMES FROM CHANGE – YOU MUST BECOME SELF-POSSESSED VIA REPEATED USE OF PRESENCE.

The GOOD news is this – THE PROCESS OF CHANGE IS EASY FOR THE GIFTED, ONCE YOU KNOW HOW AND YOU MUST BECOME RUTHLESS IN PURSUIT OF THIS, AS ITS THE ONLY THING THAT ACTUALLY MATTERS – YOUR WHOLE LIFE HANGS OFF YOUR ‘LIVED LEVEL’, YOUR RANK IN THIS WORLD. Be clear – ‘you are what you are’ because of your LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, BUT YOU ARE GIFTED, SO YOUR ACTUAL SPIRITUAL RANK IS MUCH HIGHER THAN THE CREEPY LITTLE MESS THAT YOU ARE, THAN AN ANIMAL.  

The BAD news – YOU DON’T WANT TO CHANGE, AT ALL, BECAUSE THE ANIMAL IN YOU WILL FIGHT YOU EVERY STEP OF THE WAY, AS ITS A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH so it will continually ‘drag you down’, like a Blackhole – YOUR EXISTING SHIT LEVEL ACTS AS A VERY STRONG CENTRE OF GRAVITY ON YOU, YOUR THOUGHTS, MOODS, SENSATIONS. It is the same for everyone unless your life has ALREADY made you desperate – YOU MAY EVEN THINK YOU WANT TO CHANGE (EVERY NOW AND AGAIN), BUT ‘FAKE YOU’ REALLY DOES NOT. Yes, Animal You has the self-awareness of feral 5 year old, not even that, as even they are more HONEST than you, eh.

The classic way to do this is to SHOW YOU WHAT YOU ARE AND WHY YOU ARE THAT SHIT, THEN GET YOU TO DISOWN IT, so you ‘HAVE’ TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER – ITS ACTUALLY VERY HARD TO KEEP BEING SHIT WHEN YOU KNOW YOU ARE SHIT, KINDA EMBARRISSING ON A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL However BRUTAL, it is the best because it is the FASTEST WAY TO DO IT, so hope you don’t mind what is to come in this post, CAUSE IT IS GOING TO GET A BIT EDGY today – best toughen the fuck up and brace yourself, for your own good an all…

But WANNA KNOW THE TRUTH? What I really have to do TODAY is TEACH YOU HOW TO FIGHT, SO I NEED YOU TO GET ‘MEAN’ WITH YOURSELF SO YOU STOP LETTING YOURSELF OFF THE HOOK FOR ALL YOUR CRAP, BECAUSE I HAVE MADE YOU understand you are NOTHING, and you HATE IT. YES, MANY OF YOU have always thought you were something by JUST lowering yourself to the level of animals, ON PURPOSE. You need to SEE HOW PATHETIC that is, HOW WEAK – frankly we laugh at you, we laugh at the easy way out you have taken, as many of you KNOW IT, don’t you.

Yeah, even happy you is simply playing the BIG fish in a VERY SMALL pond trick, like being ‘everything’ to your dog, while your cat thinks you’re a TWAT – see your CAT IS ALL ABOUT THE FIGHT, all about QUALITY, so your cat looks down on you, thinks that its actually YOU who is the PUSSY (see what I did there…).

So you MUST LEARN TO LAUGH AT THAT MESS, LEARN TO DISLIKE YOURSELF ENOUGH TO FIND YOUR PATHETIC RESISTANCE TO CHANGE FUNNY, EVERY TIME IT HAPPENS, AS A TRIGGER every time REAL YOU PUSHES BACK on FAKE YOU and FOLLOW THIS ‘CAUSE CELEB’ – YOU simply do it more AND MORE BECAUSE YOU FEEL THAT RESISTANCE TO CHANGE INSIDE YOURSELF AND SMILE – YOU ARE ACTUALLY DRIVEN BY RESISTANCE AS A SIGN IT’S WORKING, SO MUCH SO YOU LEARN TO LOVE THE ‘FIGHT OF IT’.

See, its ok if you fail every now and then, when its SECRET, as its only YOU and YOU that actually even know what da fuck is going on… THAT IS HOW ‘WE’ FIGHT, how we learn to LOVE the FIGHT – this is how you start to CATCH ALL YOUR ‘SELF SABOTAGE’, ALL YOUR ‘SELF DESTRUCTION’, AND SEE IT AS THAT IN THE MOMENT, SO YOU CAN STOP BY USING THE TRANSITIONAL MECHANIC OF ‘LAUGHING AT THE MEDICORITY’ OF YOURSELF. 

Be clear – you MUST LEARN TO MOCK YOURSELF MENTALLY when you FUCK UP in ORDER TO ‘START A FIGHT’ – THE STARTING BLOCKS OF ALL CHANGE IS TO REALIZE THE NEED TO CHANGE, AS YOU ARE A FUCK UP, ITS FUNNY IN A PATHETIC WAY, SO HATE IT!

SEE, YOU MUST LEARN TO LAUGH AT STUPID, LITTLE ANIMAL YOU AND ‘THE FAKE YOU’ THAT IS BUILT ON TOP OF THAT ANIMAL – BECAUSE YOU ARE A BASIC BITCH.

THIS SIMPLE MECHANIC ENABLES THE BEGINNER LEVEL OF CHANGE – YOUR EXISTING COLLECTION OF ‘BASIC’ FEARS AND SELF-INTERESTS, THAT DRIVE YOUR DECISIONS, CHANGES TO ‘FEAR OF CONTINUING TO MAKE A TOOL OF YOURSELF’ AND THE SELF INTEREST OF ‘DEVELOPING YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, YOUR ‘RANK’ IN THIS WORLD.

THIS IMPROVEMENT ALWAYS STARTS WITH YOUR ‘SENSE PERCEPTIONS’ AND YOUR ‘CLARITY OF MIND’, WHICH ARE WORTH FAR MORE TO YOU THAN THE NEXT CHEAP THRILL, OR HABITUAL LITTLE THRILL OF THE PATTERN REACTIONS OF YOUR TEDIOUS LITTLE EGO.

SEE, RIGHT NOW YOU ARE NEVER ‘RIGHT’ – THE RIGHTNESS YOU DELUDE YOURSELF WITH IS THE RIGHTNESS OF A COW IN A FIELD AND EVEN THE OTHER COWS THINK YOU ARE A TRANSPARENT CUNT WHO SIMPLY REPEATS THEMSELVES OVER AND OVER, WHILE YOU DON’T EVEN NOTICE THEM PULLING FACES ANYMORE. 

UNDERSTAND – We are not religious on the Left-hand path, we do not SUFFER ‘ourselves’ in silence, you are not a Zen Monk and you don’t have the society of Zen Monks, so your ONLY chance is to LAUGH AT YOURSELF for BEING NOTHING, every time you do something stupid. This PROCESS CREATES YOUR DEPUTY STEWARD, YOUR PERSONAL, GUARDIAN ANGEL, and slowly makes them strong enough to STOP OLD ANIMAL YOU in the moment of decision. See you need to be SOMEBODY else to laugh at what you have just thought, felt, desired, hated, DONE, you need to be separate from FAKE YOU – YOU NEED TO JUDGE YOURSELF IN THE MOMENT AGAINST THE STANDARD OF THE ARISTOS, WHAT YOU ASPIRE TO BE.     

Overall, YOU must understand WHAT YOU ARE now IS BASED ON OF WHERE AND HOW YOU GREW UP IN, AND THAT YOU LEARNED TO BE CONTROLLED BY FEAR, LIKE ALL SLAVES. See YOU PERSONALITY ROLES ARE A PRODUCT OF YOUR ENVIRONMENT AND YOUR EGO IS A PRODUCT OF the SELF-DEFENSE MECHANISMS that PROTECT YOU FROM EMOTIONAL PAIN. It’s all RANDOM BOLLOCKS, and is NOT AUTHENTIC – YOU HAVE COPIED YOUR SURROUNDINGS AND COPIED THE ATTITUDE OF A SLAVE SINCE YOU WERE A CHILD, and now you are stuck with them as YOU. But they are not you, they all CHANCE happenings that have no reality, AND YOU CAN CHANGE THEM ALL, well.., if you are not TOO SCARED, that is…

What a bastard eh, but that is cool, sure you had some normal variant of a nice, western middle-class upbringing, did you not, so NO ONE EVER TAUGHT YOU TO FIGHT FOR THE SAKE OF THE FIGHT, did they – you don’t understand the concept of Renown, of STYLE, of TASTE, of CLASS, of CONSEQUENCE, do you – YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND WHAT IT IS TO BE AN INDIVIDUAL. Little old you is just one more CONSUMER, hoping to hop up the Demographic Tiers of what you ‘can afford’ – the point of your life is to consume, IT IS your DRUG OF CHOICE, so you are DECADENT, you decline, you ‘dissipate’, YOU BECOME A LITTLE BIT LESS every day BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE WRONG GOALS IN THIS LIFE.

SEE YOU ARE ‘BASIC’, SO YOUR LIFE IS A STEREOTYPE, A COPY OF EVERYONE ELSE YOU KNOW, LIKE A ‘TASTELESS’ STEW WITH TOO MUCH SALT. YOU LIVE LIKE AN ANIMAL, YOUR PRIMARY DRIVER IS TO ‘FIT IN’, AND HAVE A ‘GANG’, SO YOU CAN FEEL SAFE, FEEL THEY ‘HAVE YOUR BACK’. SO YOU CAN’T CHANGE AT ALL CAN YOU, UNLESS THEY DO, and it’s not even YOUR FAULT – YOU ARE A MIMIC, A MIME ARTIST, ACTING OUT OTHER PEOPLE SO WELL IT HAS BECOME ‘YOU’…

So you see how this is going to go, think you are ready for the rest of it…? Frankly, I doubt it but ok – here we go…    

SEE the GOALS you were taught at school are TO BE A BETTER, STRONGER, MORE ATTRACTIVE, MORE POWERFUL ANIMAL, BUT ONCE YOU GOT TO THE TOP OF THAT FOOD CHAIN YOU WILL DISCOVER THAT ALL THE BEST ANIMALS ONLY ‘WANT’ THE ‘NEXT LEVEL OF EXISTENCE’ – THE GIFTED LEVEL.

YES – YOU HAVE MADE A MISTAKE, YOUR GOALS ARE NOT ONLY STUPID, NOT ONLY WRONG FOR THE GIFTED, ITS FUCKING DISGUSTING – YOUR GOAL IN LIFE IS TO BE LESS THAN YOU ALREADY ARE, BECAUSE YOU ARE WEAK AND STUPID.

You want to make LIFE EASY on yourself, CAUSE YOU ARE SCARED ALL THE TIME. 

SEE YOU LOWER YOURSELF TO THE LEVEL OF RATS AND COPY THE BEHAVIOUR OF THESE LITTLE CREEPY CRAWLIES BECAUSE YOU LEARNED TO BE SCARED OF EVERYTHING AS A CHILD – LIKE A SLAVE WHO IS SIMPLY WAITING FOR THE NEXT BLOW TO FALL ON THEM.

PLEASE GET THIS, IT WILL HELP YOU UNDERSTAND – YOU HAVE DECIDED TO START YOUR EVOLUTION AT THE BOTTOM OF THE FOOD CHAIN, BELOW YOURSELF, WHILE YOUR GIFTED LEVEL IS ACTUALLY AT THE TOP OF THE ANIMAL KINGDOM, OFTEN WAY ABOVE THE TOP.

THAT IS WHY THE ANIMALS WANT TO DRAG YOU DOWN TO NOTHING – NOTHING MAKES AN ANIMAL FEEL SO GOOD AS TO FEEL SUPERIOR TO SOMEONE WHO NATURALLY MAKES THEM FEEL INFERIOR. FAMILIARITY WITH YOUR LESSERS ALWAYS LEADS TO THEIR CONTEMPT, AND THE NEED TO CONTROL YOU, IT IS AN EVOLUTIONARY THING.

YES, YOU MAY JUST WANT TO BE ‘KING OF THE SWINGERS’, ‘A JUNGLE VIP’ RIGHT NOW, BUT SHOULD YOU EVER ‘REACH THE TOP AND HAVE TO STOP’, YOU WILL DISCOVER THAT ALL YOU REALLY WANT IS ‘MAN’S RED FIRE’, AND THE GIFTED ALREADY HAVE THAT! (Sorry Rudyard).

IT IS All A QUESTION OF ‘LEVEL’, YOUR LEVEL, YOUR TABLETOP, EVERYTHING IN SPIRITUALITY COMES BACK TO THIS, SO YOU MUST ACCEPT THE NEED TO ‘CHANGE’ YOUR LIVED LEVEL, NOW, if you want to change ANYTHING ELSE at all.

See should you ever reach the top of your ‘Mountain’, you will look down and discover it is an Anthill, surrounded by other Anthills, most of which are bigger than yours, with better-looking Ants than yours. You will look through your binoculars and see that they are having more fun than you, have better clothes than you and stare and laugh at you for being less than them. You then notice all these Anthills are built on piles of random shit, and you are living off other people’s garbage, so being a ‘boss Ant’, a ‘clever’ Ant, a ‘pretty’ Ant, a ‘cunning’ Ant is no different from being any other type of FUCKING Ant – YOU AN INSECT, YOU ARE A PARASITE. But way off in the distance, you will see actual Mountains, populated by ‘giants’, and want to BE like them, BECAUSE YOU NOW REALIZE YOU ARE NOTHING, hopefully before one of them steps on your Anthill and kills you all, without even noticing.

THAT IS WHAT THE LIFE OF AN ANIMAL IS, but much as that metaphor works on many different levels none of that is important right now, BUT IT IS IMPORTANT YOU UNDERSTAND YOU ARE AN ANT, AMONGST BILLIONS OF OTHERS compared to what is out there, however much you can’t see that. See back when they wrote down the old books we keep referring to EVERYBODY UNDERSTOOD THAT THEY WERE ANTS, who were only successful as a species because they could work as a team, a family, a tribe, hence that desire to be part of a team is hard-wired into domesticated animals.

Study of the ‘society’ of Ants can be VERY instructive to the seeker, not least to show how nothing has changed and ALL SOCIETIES are based on the sacrifice of the MANY for the GOOD of the few – THAT IS THE POINT OF THE MANY, TO ENSURE THE EVOLUTION OF THE SPECIES, VIA THE DEVELOPMENT OF THE FEW (Sorry Nietzche). We call it CAPITALISM, OUR VERSION OF ANT SOCIETY, which is, in all TRUTH, MODERN DAY SLAVE SOCIETY. The illusion of a democracy for slaves you have about the Western world is a sham, of course, and has long since been ignored by the upper reaches of your society. Obviously, people who know nothing cannot be trusted to make GOOD decisions, and are therefore manipulated via fear and self-interest, one special interest group at a time, so never doubt how little democracy there is – as per the Greek model of democracy, SLAVES DON’T GET TO DECIDE ANYTHING, much AS our current version is a really good conjob, SO WE THINK WE DO.

Now everyone KINDA knows this, and frankly 99% of the population does not want the job of making decisions anyway, they actually want a BIG BROTHER, so it is ONLY the ‘ambitious’ Slaves who ever get to even see the HORROR of this, so hopefully you have some AMBITION, as this will all go a bit easier on you – YOU WILL BE ABLE TO CHANGE ONCE YOU HAVE BEEN CONVINCED TO TRY. See, it is only really THE ambitious that GET TO SEE BEHIND THE CURTAIN IN OUR WORLD, the ones who don’t give a damn and just want to be MORE, because they hold the ‘LIFE OF A SLAVE AS NOT WORTH LIVING’, so they may have some understanding of the concept of the ‘personal’ SACRIFICE of the FAKE self, the beginning of ALL GREATNESS, or even better the realization that you must LOVE YOUR FATE, whatever happens, AMOR FATI. But I digress, and you probably don’t eh…

You may, of course, have no ambition, other than to get High, Look Cool, and Live a Bit Longer, like all ‘good’ Hedonists, but that is fine, we can still work with that, JUST DON’T LOSE SIGHT OF THE FACT, FOR THE REST OF THIS POST, THAT YOU ARE ANT. It will help you make some big jumps, whilst showing you that the self-obsession of an ANT, lost in its ‘own’ thoughts, is perhaps a little embarrassing – EVERY LITTLE opinion YOU SO ‘NEED TO HAVE’ IS JUST ONE MORE PERSONAL HUMILIATION, as it is a BASIC projection of your LACK OF LIVED LEVEL. Sad really, but all we can do is smile politely and walk away, until next time, should there be one…

SO THE LAST REVEAL TODAY IS THIS: FOLKS LIKE ME CALL IT THE ‘ONE JOB’ SPEECH…

YOU ARE NOT DESIGNED TO BE A FUCKING ANT, A MACHINE PLAYING A POINTLESS ROLE IN A SOCIETY OF ANTS…

BUT YOU ACT LIKE AN ANT, THINK LIKE AN ANT, AND TALK LIKE AN ANT BECAUSE YOU HAVE COPIED ALL THE ANTS AROUND YOU – YOU HAVE BEEN CONNED INTO THINKING YOU’RE AN ANT BY YOUR SOCIETY, YOU HAVE BEEN ‘NORMALISED’.  

YOU ARE GIFTED, YOU HAVE ‘ALTERED’ SKILLS AND ABILITIES YOU WERE BORN WITH THAT YOU SIMPLY DON’T KNOW ARE THERE. WORSE, YOU WASTE THE POWER YOU NEED TO USE THOSE SKILLS AND ABILITIES ON POINTLESS SHIT, INSTEAD OF SAVING IT AND BUILDING IT UP. SO MUST STOP NOW AND DECIDE… DO YOU WANT ‘THE GIFTED LIFE’ OR ARE YOU HAPPY TO BE LESS THAN YOU ARE?

THEN YOU MUST LOOK AT EVERYTHING ABOUT YOURSELF AND KNOW THAT TO BECOME WHAT YOU WERE BORN AS IS THE WHOLE POINT OF YOU, THE ONLY REASON YOU EXIST…

SO KNOW NOW, WHO YOU ARE NOW IS NOT BLOODY GOOD ENOUGH

HOW YOU LOOK, HOW YOU MOVE, HOW YOU SPEAK, WHAT YOU SAY, WHAT YOU THINK AND WHAT YOU WANT IS NOT BLOODY GOOD ENOUGH. 

YOU MUST CHANGE THE CONTEXT OF YOUR LIFE TO ONE OF BEING BETTER, AND LOOK AT EVERYTHING FRESH, IN THAT CONTEXT.

BE CLEAR –

YOU HAVE ‘ONE JOB’ IN THIS LIFE, AND WHEN YOU LEARN IT YOU WILL NEVER, EVER WANT TO BE ‘CANNON FODDER’ AGAIN.

THAT ONE JOB WILL ALSO TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING ELSE YOU ARE CURRENTLY SO FUCKING SCARED OFF.

If you can do that, I can help you, indeed, YOU will help you, as you will find there is something inside you that has been screaming GOOD advice at your dumb ass for years…

One small favor I would ask, however… If you ever get to speak to folks like us, ALWAYS FOLLOW THE GOLDEN RULE – BE HONEST OR SHUT THE FUCK UP. You have no idea how unbelievably nauseating it is to LISTEN TO A CLEVER ANIMAL – TRUST ME YOU CAN ONLY CRINGE SO MANY TIMES BEFORE IT BECOMES UNBEARABLE. So always remind yourself, when you TRY so hard to be Clever, to be Bigger, to be Superiror, YOU ARE AN ANT, WITH THE WIT, CHARM, AND SELF POSSESSION OF A WILLFUL 5 Y/O, mouthing your own awful projections of your own selfish crap LIKE A SILLY BITCH. Its a bad joke, and one I have heard enough over the years, so don’t be surprised, if you do it again when I rip your throat out for the greater good of humanity.

But do understand NOW – NO MATTER HOW CLEVER YOU THINK YOU ARE, IT IS THE CLEVERNESS OF A GANG OF ANTS – OBVIOUS, PREDICTABLE, NAIVE. See, THEY ARE ANTS TOO, many of them don’t even like you or want to be you, so whatever status you believe you have is a VERY fragile thing – YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE JUST ANOTHER HARMLESS ‘YACHT GIRL’, BUT many will have already sold you on to others, you have been ‘TRAFFICKED’, YOU ARE JUST TOO DUMB TO SEE IT. What did you EXPECT from Ants, loyalty, honor, discipline? THOSE CONCEPTS DON’T EXIST FOR ANIMALS, STUPID, THEY JUST KNOW FEAR AND SELF-INTEREST – THEY ARE ANTS! Sure, you are cleverer than them, whatever the fuck that means, but always WATCH OUT FOR THE FOLKS WHO GO SO FAR AS TO TELL YOU THEY ARE LOYAL, out of the blue, as they are already plotting your demise… Remind yourself of this often, please.

Don’t get me wrong of course – I love speaking to unschooled gifted and am happy to do it 9 times out of 10, just so long as you have MADE THE CHOICE AT THE END OF THIS POST, YOU HAVE DECIDED TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. See it is REQUIRED OF ME to help someone who has accepted they are an ANT, as the company of other Ants won’t matter to them anymore, they will seek the company of folks better than them, as at least then they can MIMIC something worth having, so they can GROW UP.

In the meantime just remind yourself of the classic hedonistic truth – just because you know all that ‘gear’ has made you paranoid, they could still be out to GET YOU… indeed given everything you have done it’s a racing certainty. Tik fucking Tok, eh – but don’t worry, you are still ‘cool’ eh, and ‘ALL THAT WEED WHICH HAS MADE YOU GO TO SEED’, will soften the inevitable blow. Ahhh, the curse of the GOOD but actually VERY BAD MAN, don’t you just love it, every HEROES JOURNEY WRAPPED UP IN A HOLLYWOOD TROPE, just so YOU, the target of this whole speech, can have a MOMENT of clarity, as my GIFT TO YOU.

Just for today of course, as tomorrow you WILL burn…     

LASTLY, before the METHOD, a quick word on the key side road that is INERTIA – YOUR failure TO CHANGE THROUGH LAZINESS. INERTIA IS WHAT ALL SLAVES HAVE TO FIGHT, THE ‘RESISTANCE’, THE TENSION YOU HAVE BUILT UP OVER THE YEARS DUE TO YOUR INABILITY TO UNDERSTAND ‘WHY’ YOU NEED TO CHANGE AND ‘HOW’ TO DO IT, SUCCESSFULLY. See all that energy you have, all that POWER, is just sitting there, STATIONARY, as you slowly bleed out, WHEN IT ACTUALLY NEEDS TO MOVE IF IT GOING TO DO YOU ANY BLOODY GOOD at all…

Yes, I know, but even if you are INTERESTED YOU LACK ANY SENSE OF URGENCY, AS YOU JUST drift around in a dream DOING EXACTLY THE SAME SHIT – you just play with this stuff, like its one more of your stupid little fads, hobbies, another rehashed ‘self-help’ (no help) podcast. The animal in YOU WILL ALWAYS FIGHT CHANGE, IT IS THE NATURE OF ANIMALS TO PROTECT THEMSELVES, SO IT HAS TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY OTHERWISE YOU ARE JUST READING ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR STORIES, WHICH EVENTUALLY becomes yet one more little, pointless fantasy WHILE YOU DO NOTHING.

Yes, RIGHT NOW You DON’T WANT TO CHANGE BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU CAN’T CHANGE, DON’T YOU – you are loyal to your NOTHINGNESS OUT OF INERTIA, WHICH YOU THEN JUSTIFY WITH SOME BOLLOCKS YOU MAKE UP. Your excuses are LIES, you tell yourself AFTER THE FACT – YOUR LIFE IS A CONJOB PLAYED ON YOU BY YOU… BUT YOU ‘CARE’ WHAT YOU THINK, EVEN THOUGH YOU KNOW IT WOULD TAKE ME LESS THAN A MINUTE TO SHOW YOU THAT ALL YOUR THOUGHTS ARE JUST CHILDISH GARBAGE TO PROTECT YOUR CHILDISH EGO FROM MORE CHILDISH HURT. See you are just a SELF-CENTRED BITCH, and on that basis you deserve what has happened to you, and the worse that is to come…

Yes, You are just a scared child trying to be RIGHT, whilst staring at the nightly news of people dying in foreign wars… The need to be ‘right’, the need even TO have an opinion in the first place about shit you know nothing about is because you are SCARED OF YOURSELF, so you are trying to get out in front of THAT EGOIC PAIN, FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF because you trust that part of yourself to PROTECT YOU. You are so small MINDED that everything you think MUST BE TRUE AS THAT IS ALL YOU ARE, THOSE NASTY LITTLE THOUGHTS, yet YOU know none of it matters at all TO ANYONE ELSE…

Amazing REALLY, that you are actually acting like the worst has already happened AS YOUR CHARACTER, like YOU ACTUALLY WANT IT TO HAPPEN, EH, so you DEFEND YOURSELF BEFORE ANYTHING HAS HAPPENED, so NOTHING EVER CHANGES… But you are SO SCARED…, SO YOU NEED EVERY LITTLE WIN TO HELP GET YOU THROUGH THE DAY, OTHERWISE, THE BOREDOM AND DARKNESS COMES TO GET YA, you become ‘unhappy’, so doing sad shit to avoid being ‘unhappy’ is STILL better than being ‘unhappy’, no matter HOW FUCKING SAD IT ‘IS’.

SPOILER ALERT – THAT IS NOT TRUE FOR THE GIFTED, INERTIA IS A MOTHERFUCKING TRAP FOR DOMESTICATED ANIMALS, INDEED IT IS WHAT YOU USE TO DOMESTICATE ANIMALS IN THE FIRST PLACE, MAKE THEM DEPENDENT. After a while its gets worse, YOU START TO CHASE ‘POWER OVER OTHERS’ TO GIVE YOU AN EVEN BIGGER CREEPY THRILL WHILST DOING EVEN LESS THAN BEFORE, even THOUGH YOU are TOTALLY FUCKING HARMLESS, and you know it – that is why to chase it. AFTER A WHILE INERTIA TURNS YOU INTO CRIPPLE, IN EVERY SENSE OF THAT WORD, you can only live through others… 

Ahhh, SORRY, you are RIGHT – YOU CAN’T CHANGE BECAUSE OF ALL YOUR MANY ‘SITUATIONS’, BECAUSE OF THE CURSE THAT FOLLOWS YOU AROUND AND CAUSES THE SAME SAD SHIT ‘TO HAPPEN TO YOU, over and over again. Its not your fault is it?  OF COURSE IT IS YOUR FUCKING FAULT, look upstream of these many, repetitive shit shows you live through, see how you either consciously or unconsciously CREATE THEM, see how glad you are to HAVE THE EXCUSE TO TELL OTHERS, OR SEE HOW HAPPY YOUR FAKE SELF IS FOR THE FEW MOMENTS YOU ACT OUT THAT SHIT, BEFORE DISAPPEARING TO LEAVE STUPID LITTLE YOU WILL A WHOLE MESS OF CRAP TO DEAL WITH YOU THINK YOU NEVER WANTED, AGAIN…

YET STILL… EVEN KNOWING ALL THIS, EVEN UNDERSTANDING ALL OF THIS, even knowing that the happiness of a DORK is simply the temporary removal of the unhappiness of a SLAVE, even with ALL OF THAT YOU CAN’T CHANGE WITHOUT BEING FORCED TOO, can you – YOU ARE SCARED OF YOURSELF, OF YOUR OWN OPINION, YOU ARE A TOTAL PUSSY. See if you ‘understood’ just 10% of what I have just written above you would stand up now and RIP YOUR WHOLE LIFE APART with little more effort than it takes to SNAP YOUR FINGERS BECAUSE YOU WOULD WANT TO.

THE CURE FOR INERTIA IS SIMPLE, as it is the same cure for all CHARACTER CHANGE: 

YOU’RE SHIT, AND YOU KNOW YOU ARE…

IF YOU DON’T KNOW YOU ARE AFTER THIS THEN, WHATEVER GIFT YOU ONCE ‘HAD’, YOU ARE AN ANIMAL NOW, AND RADICAL CHANGE IS NOT FOR YOU…

BUT IF THAT STATEMENT NOW ‘RINGS YOU LIKE A BELL’, THEN YOU ARE GIFTED ENOUGH TO BE HELPED, HOWEVER FAKE YOU CURRENTLY ARE.

BE CLEAR – IF YOU ARE HAPPY BEING SHIT, IF YOU SMIRK AT THE THOUGHT OF IT, I CAN’T AND WON’T HELP YOU… 

 

To end section 1 of the process of Active Motivation, I will repeat one of the most horrible of all teacher secrets, so you can see this from my perspective:

IN ALL TRUTH, AT THE START OF YOUR JOURNEY YOU ARE ‘FAKE YOU’, AND I CAN’T TEACH ‘FAKE YOU’, ONLY ‘REAL YOU’…

FAKE YOU IS A FLAKEY CHILD, FOREVER CHANGING THEIR MIND INLINE WITH THEIR CRAPPY LITTLE MOODS, I TALK TO SERIOUS PEOPLE…

SO ALL TEACHING COMES DOWN TO BREAKING THIS FAKE YOU, THIS TOXIC, SELF-DESTRUCTIVE INSECT YOU HAVE BECOME, ONE WAY OR ANOTHER…

THAT IS MY JOB, AND WE HONOR YOU WITH OUR ATTENTION BECAUSE SOME OF YOU ARE WORTH IT.

REST ASSURED – WE DON’T HAVE TO ACTUALLY ‘CRUCIFY YOU’, YOU NEED TO CRUCIFY FAKE YOU IN SECRET, ITS REQUIRED FOR THIS… 

BEFORE YOU START THE REST OF THIS METHOD, TO BE YOUR NATURAL NOBODY AND NATURALLY EMOTIONAL, TAKE A MOMENT TO CONSIDER THIS:

YOU MUST COMMIT TO THIS IF YOU ARE GOING TO TRY AT ALL, ELSE YOU WILL STILL CLING TO YOUR OWN OPINION OR THE OPINION OF THE FUCKING TOOLS AROUND YOU, AND YOU WILL FAIL, SO STOPPING YOUR JOURNEY DEAD IN ITS TRACKS.

YOU MUST BE SERIOUS ABOUT IT, IT MUST BE CONSTANT AND HONEST, OTHERWISE YOU DON’T EXIST, YOU ARE A PUPPET, A NOTHING… 

AS FAKE YOU YOUR PRETEND NOBODY WILL BE JUST AS FAKE AS THE REST OF SHIT, DELUDED YOU ALREADY IS – IT BECOMES ANOTHER CLEVER LITTLE GAME THAT DESTROYS YOU, EVEN QUICKER, AND WE WANT NO PART OF THAT…

SEE, TO COMMIT TO THIS YOU MUST FINALLY SEE FAKE YOU CAN NOT BE TRUSTED – FAKE YOU IS A FOOL, WHO THINKS THEY ARE COOL, BECAUSE YOU DON’T SEE HOW BIGGER TOOL ALL YOUR FALSE, CONDITIONED INSTINCTS HAVE MADE YOU, CAN YOU…

YOU CAN ONLY TRUST THE SYSTEM NOW, NOT YOURSELF, IF YOU WANT TO STOP YOUR DECLINE.

BE CLEAR – I DON’T WANT YOUR BLOOD ON MY HANDS, I’VE HAD TO WASH ENOUGH OFF ALREADY.

SO YOU MUST HELP YOURSELF, AND CHANGE. 

Sure, you can LEARN TO BREAK YOURSELF, HELL for the ones that know me feel free to reach out, if you still have any sand left, I’ll help you, no questions asked, like nothing happened, as it is THAT IMPORTANT – RADICAL CHARACTER CHANGE IS THE GOLD STANDARD, IF YOU CAN DO IT. For the rest of you BEST TO FIND SOME like-minded friends – all of this stuff gets a lot easier when you have TRUSTED HELP, AS YOU CAN GET OVER SO MANY SILLY LITTLE DOUBTS BY JUST TALKING TO OTHERS – BY SEEING THE TOOL OF YOURSELF IN OTHERS.

Yes, before we start the process, we finish this section with the definition of the process, now you should be ready for it –

THIS PROCESS OF ACTIVE MOTIVATION WILL GIVE YOU THE POWER TO SEE THE CAGE OF FAKE YOU, BY SEPARATING THE CONSCIOUS YOU FROM THE UNCONSCIOUS FAKE YOU – THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF SELF-RESPECT, AN ACTUAL FORCE – THE GOAL OF THIS POST. 

ONCE YOU SEE HOW SHIT FAKE YOU IS YOU WILL WANT TO CHANGE, AND BE BETTER BY STOPPING ALL THE SHIT YOU DO TO COMPENSATE YOURSELF FOR BEING SHIT, SO YOU CAN SPEND THAT ENERGY ON BEING BETTER, INSTEAD. 

YOU CAN NOT BE BOTH, YOU CANNOT ADD MORE TO FAKE YOU, YOU MUST REPLACE THE LARGE PARTS OF FAKE YOU THAT ARE DESTROYING REAL YOU – YOU MUST SACRIFICE THEM TO BE BETTER, BEFORE YOU CAN BE BETTER. 

WHEN YOU HAVE REALIZED THIS, YOU CAN DO THE METHOD IN THE NEXT POST IN ORDER TO ACTUALLY CHANGE FAKE YOU, LEARN TO ACTUALLY BE DIFFERENT IN THE MOMENT BECAUSE YOU WILL HAVE SOME SELF-RESPECT AT CERTAIN MOMENTS.

THAT NEXT POST IS THE ACTUAL SKILL OF CHANGE – TO BE PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE, AND IT IS EASY TO BE ‘SOMEBODY’ IF YOU HAVE LEARNT TO BE ‘NOBODY’ FIRST, BUT ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE IF YOU HAVE NOT AS YOU WILL HAVE LITTLE VISIBLE ‘PRESENCE’.

DO NOT FORGET THIS – TO ‘CHANGE’ AND BE ‘PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE’ REQUIRES THE ENERGY OF BEING NOBODY TO WORK.

YES, THE 2 ARE SO CLOSELY LINKED THAT FOR THE HIGHLY GIFTED YOUR REAL YOU WILL FORCE THIS 2ND CHANGE ON YOU, WHETHER YOU DO THE NEXT POST OR NOT, BUT LEARN IT ANYWAY – IT IS ACTUAL MAGIK, SO IT WILL HELP YOU BELIEVE.

FOR THE REST OF YOU KNOW – SELF-RESPECT IS A CLASSIC 3 FORCE ISSUE – YOU MUST HAVE THE ANIMAL DESIRE TO WASTE YOURSELF, AND YOU MUST ALSO HAVE THE HIGHER DESIRE TO CONSERVE YOURSELF, SO THEY CAN MEET THE FORCE OF YOUR SELF-RESPECT, AND ADD TO YOUR PRESENCE.

YES, THAT ANIMAL DESIRE IS ‘NECESSARY’, IT IS WHAT IS GOING TO BUILD YOU UP ENOUGH TO DO THIS, WHEN THE ‘ACTIVE FORCE’ CLASHES WITH THE ‘PASSIVE FORCE’, AND THEN BOTH ARE COMBINED BY THE ‘NEUTRALIZING FORCE’ OF YOUR SELF RESPECT, TO FORM YOUR ‘PRESENCE’, YOUR ‘BEING’.

TO GET THIS NOW, DO YOU UNDERSTAND ‘WHY YOU ARE THE WAY YOU ARE’, WHY YOU HAVE SO FAR FAILED TO PASS ANY TEST REAL YOU HAS SET YOU, YET EVERYTHING IS AS IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE – THIS IS YOUR JOURNEY, ITS JUST TIME TO STOP FUCKING IT UP, EH…

SO IT IS TIME TO TEACH YOU some SELF RESPECT AS THE PROCESS OF ACTIVE MOTIVATION – GOOD LUCK & GODS SPEED.  

 

So here is the method on ACTIVE MOTIVATION, WHICH YOU MUST REMEMBER:

The 2ND PART, how to master being NOBODY – its VERY important to know that this is a VERY NATURAL STATE FOR GIFTED FOLKS, it is NORMAL. See THE PROCESS OF SELF-RESPECT DOES NOT FEEL LIKE WHAT YOU CURRENTLY THINK IS SELF-RESPECT – YOU THINK THAT IS ‘PRIDE IN FAKE YOU’, BUT IT is not IT IS THE REJECTION OF THAT STATE, THE STATE THAT ALWAYS ‘COMES BEFORE A FALL’. SELF-RESPECT IS ACTUAL PERSPECTIVE, IT IS CONTEXT, IT IS POWER OVER YOURSELF, IT IS VALUES.

Therefore before we start, be clear –

SELF-RESPECT IS THE REJECTION OF FAKE YOU AS NEW, PRIVATE STATE – THE REJECTION OF YOUR FALSE INSTINCTS.

THERE IS NO SELF-ANALYSIS IN THIS STATE, NO ARGUMENT, IT IS A PROCESS THAT REJECTS ALL OF OLD YOU IN THE MOMENT BY BEING NOBODY.

THEREFORE THE PROCESS OF DEVELOPING SELF-RESPECT DOES NOT FEEL LIKE SELF-RESPECT TO YOU, AT ALL.

IT FEELS LIKE DEEP RELAXATION, MENTAL ACCEPTANCE, EMOTIONAL VULNERABILITY – IT IS THE OPPOSITE OF PRIDE, AT THE START.

THEN SELF RESPECT AS YOU WOULD RECOGNISE IT HAPPENS, AS A RESULT OF GROWING THIS RESULTING EMOTION INTO POWER.

BE CLEAR – SELF-RESPECT IS AN AFTER-EFFECT OF THIS PROCESS, ONE OF SEVERAL SUCH EFFECTS.

SEE ALL YOUR FALSE INSTINCTS CAUSE PHYSICAL, MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL TENSION which CRIPPLES YOU – THEY COMPEL YOU TO ACT OUT THESE FALSE INSTINCTS VIA A PERSISTENT EMOTIONAL WEIGHTING THAT ALSO DEGRADES/REMOVES ALL OTHER OPTIONS IN THE MOMENT.

SO TO RELAX AGAINST THIS TENSION, HUMBLE YOURSELF MENTALLY AND BECOME EMOTIONALLY VULNERABLE IS THE KEY – IT STOPS THE OBLIGATION TO ACT OUT THESE THOUGHTS/FEELINGS/MOOD SWINGS, AND THIS NEW ABILITY TO CHOOSE IS WHERE SELF-RESPECT COMES FROM.

THIS IS HOW YOU BECOME NOBODY IN PRIVATE, SO IN THE NEXT POST YOU CAN BECOME SOMEBODY IN PUBLIC. 

Yes, as with several other processes on the 4th way, you must give up what you currently think is Self Respect, External Self Respect, THE FAKE SELF RESPECT OF BEING TRUE TO FALSE INSTINCTS, IN ORDER TO GET REAL SELF RESPECT AS A STATE OF MIND, A STATE OF BEING – TO BE YOURSELF AGAIN, IN SPIRIT. As an experienced teacher of this path I know you need to KNOW WHY THIS PROCESS IS THE WAY IT IS, SO I’M GOING TO REPEAT THIS…

THE KEY TO USING THIS STATE IS TO THEN BUILD THAT STATE UP, BY INCREASING YOUR LEVEL OF PURE EMOTIONAL AROUSAL WHILST IN THIS STATE, AS THAT WILL EMPOWER YOUR SPIRIT, SO NEGLECTED, IGNORED AND REPRESSED UP TILL NOW, BY YOU. Then your Conscience will speak to you again, AFTER YOU HAVE PULLED YOUR OTHERWISE STUNNED, SCATTERED AND UNHAPPY SPIRIT BACK TOGETHER AGAIN, like a rock, a hard surface inside you, AS THAT IS WHAT SELF RESPECT ACTUAL FEELS LIKE – CERTAINTY.

YES, ALL YOU LOST SOULS OUT THERE HAVE BEEN RIGHT ALL THE BLOODY TIME, YOU HAVE JUST BEEN FAILING TO USE IT CORRECTLY, SO YOU HAVE BEEN USED BY IT INSTEAD, AS A FORM OF ‘COOL’ SELF-DESTRUCTION. See, that is why we love lost souls on the Left-Hand path, why we talk about you all the time – all that living for how life makes you feel, that desperate search for connection IS TRUE, BUT YOU HAVE TO STOP GIVING THE RESULT AWAY TO OTHERS NOW, YOU HAVE TO STOP FUCKING IT UP AND DO IT FOR YOURSELF INSTEAD.

See, your GIFT, often AT the most HIGHLY GIFTED, OVERPOWERING LEVEL, IS THE REASON YOU ARE A LOST SOUL, STUPID. BUT, YOUR ANTI-HERO COOL IS THE COOL OF A DORK baby, the cool of a cokehead, who lives in their own private, over-thought, over-felt, over-acted fantasy world. Yes, a safe relationship, a small job, and some kids and pets to find a connection to will keep you going for a while as you decline, but that WON’T HELP IN THE END, INDEED IN MANY WAYS IT MAKES IT WORSE, PROLONGS THE AGONY, like a chain smoker who goes down to one a day and ends worshipping that one crappy smoke like its the meaning of life itself LIKE A GUTLESS DORK. You don’t want to end up like that, DO YOU?

So the POINT OF THIS LITTLE SPEECH IS THIS…

YOU MUST USE YOUR BAD TO BE BETTER, NOT WORSE, YOU MUST CHANGE YOUR FUN SELF-DESTRUCTION INTO POWERFUL SELF-CARE.

YES, YOU MUST FEED OFF THE PETTY ANIMAL IN YOU, YOU MUST CONVERT IT INTO SOMETHING MUCH MORE, MUCH BETTER, AND MUCH, MUCH BIGGER. 

THE ONLY TIME YOU EVER IMPROVE AND DEVELOP YOURSELF IS WHEN YOU USE YOUR GIFT CORRECTLY, OTHERWISE JUST BEING GOOD, NORMAL IN YOUR DOWNTIME DOES FUCKING NOTHING TO HELP, AND JUST MAKES YOU EVEN MORE AWKWARD, LOST AND UNHAPPY.

RADICAL CHARACTER CHANGE IS THE WAY YOU NEED TO FIX THAT, ITERATIVE CHANGE WILL NEVER WORK FAST ENOUGH.

So, I repeat again THE GOAL OF THIS PRACTICE, AS IT VERY IMPORTANT TO RECOGNIZE IT WHEN IT HAPPENS: 

 THIS PRACTICE BREAKS YOUR CONDITIONING, THE STATE OF BEING OBLIGATED BY YOUR CONDITIONING.

THIS IS THE STATE THAT FAKE YOU USES TO CONTROL YOU, THAT IS WHERE ITS POWER TO GET YOU TO DO STUPID SHIT COMES FROM.

WITHOUT THIS EMOTIONAL OBLIGATION TO ‘LISTEN TO YOUR CONDITIONING’ AND ACT ON IT, ALL CHANGE IS EASY, AS YOU HAVE A CHOICE.

AND ONCE YOU HAVE BROKEN YOUR CONDITIONING AS A STATE, YOUR ‘STATE OF ATTACHMENT’, YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT SLAVERY IS, WHAT SOCIETY IS, INDEED YOU WILL UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING I’VE ALREADY SAID AT A WHOLE NEW LEVEL OF CLARITY. 

LASTLY A WARNING, ‘THE WARNING’ I’VE STATED ALL THROUGH THIS POST: 

IF YOU ARE AN ANIMAL HEDONIST IT IS AN EXTREMELY BAD IDEA TO WEAKEN YOUR CONDITIONING – ALL THAT IS LEFT IS THE UNCHECKED, CHILDISH INSTINCT OF A PACK ANIMAL.

YOU WILL GET A LOT WORSE, A LOT QUICKER, AND YOUR LIFE WILL BECOME THE LIFE OF A PACK ANIMAL, CRAVING POWER OVER OTHERS WITHOUT ANY RESTRAINT – YOU WILL BECOME THE CRAVEN PARASITE YOU ALREADY WANT TO BE.

SEE ANIMALS ARE THE REASON THEY INVENTED CONDITIONING, WITHOUT IT THE WORLD WOULD BE A GANGSTER’S PARADISE, MUCH WORSE THAN THE ONE WE HAVE NOW, BUT THE GIFTED DON’T NEED IT, THE GIFTED HAVE A NATURAL SENSE OF HONOR.

AS AN ANIMAL IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE WITH THIS PRACTICE YOU SHOULD ONLY DO IT IN A FORMAL RELIGIOUS, MONASTIC ENVIRONMENT, WHERE YOU ARE CONTROLLED BY OTHERS TO A HIGH DEGREE.

OF ALL THE TESTS FOR THIS, IF YOU ALREADY NEED DRUGS TO FUNCTION EVERY DAY, RATHER THAN JUST TO GET HIGH AND PARTY YOU ARE AT LEAST MORE ANIMAL THAN GIFTED, AND SHOULD NOT DO THIS. 

SEE DRUGS TEMPORAILY WEAKEN YOUR CONDITIONING ENOUGH TO ACT OUT THE ANIMAL IN YOU, SO YOU FEEL POWERFUL, EVEN WHEN YOU ARE NOT, BUT GIFTED USE DRUGS TO OVERPOWER THEIR CONDITIONING AND ACT OUT THEIR GIFT, AS A SENSE OF POWER OVER THEMSELVES.

SO UNSCHOOLED GIFTED TEND TO WANT TO BE CONTROLLED, WHILST ANIMALS WANT TO CONTROL OTHERS, MUCH AS THAT CHANGES FAST WHEN YOU START TO DEVELOP YOURSELF, WHEN ANIMALS GO BAD, SAD, MAD, AND GIFTED FIND THEIR ‘SELF-RESPECT’ AND BECOME RUTHLESS.

AS A GIFTED PERSON YOU SHOULD NEVER FORGET THIS –

‘THEY’ ARE DIFFERENT FROM ‘YOU’ AT A FUNDAMENTAL LEVEL, YOU MUST FIND YOUR OWN KIND IF YOU WANT A HAPPY, CONNECTED, MAGICAL LIFE, OTHERWISE YOU WILL BE FOREVER USED, ABUSED AND MISUNDERSTOOD, AS YOU TRY AND KEEP THEM ENTERTAINED.

YOUR SPIRIT IS YOUR BIRTHRIGHT, YET YOU GIVE IT AWAY, SHARING WITH ANIMALS LIKE ITS FUCKING POPCORN, SO THEY BECOME ADDICTED TO IT, TO YOU. YOU MAKE THEM TEMPORARILY BETTER, WHILE YOU DECLINE, EVERY DAY – YOU GET SMALLER AND SMALLER, TO THE POINT THAT EVEN THEY DON’T WANT YOU ANYMORE. SO EVEN WITH THE BEST INTENTIONS YOU ARE GOING TO BURN, WHEN EVEN THE DORKS YOU HAVE BEFRIENDED TO MAKE YOUR LIFE EASIER REJECT YOU AS YOU ARE NOW EVEN LESS THAN THEM – YOU EMBARRASS EVEN THEM NOW, AND THEY WON’T BE NICE ABOUT IT…

KNOW THE PEOPLE-PLEASING LIFE STRATEGY OF MANY UNSCHOOLED GIFTED DOES NOT WORK, EVER – IT IS A DEATH SENTENCE.

YES, ANIMALS CANNOT SURVIVE WITHOUT ATTENTION, AND THE FEELING OF POWER THAT GIVES THEM, AND WHEN ISOLATED QUICKLY DISSOLVE INTO SELF-OBSESSED PUDDLES OF PISS – THEIR CHARACTER IS ALL REACTIONARY, THEY NEED STUFF TO REACT TO TO EXIST AT ALL. GIFTED TEND TO PREFER TO BE BY THEMSELVES OR WITH PETS OR KIDS THEY HAVE A PURE CONNECTION TO, TO GET A BREAK FROM THEIR CONDITIONING, AND BE WITH THEMSELVES, THEIR ORIGINAL SPIRIT WHICH IS TOTALLY SEPARATE TO THEIR CONDITIONING, THAT IS PERMANENT AND EXISTED LONG BEFORE THEY WERE BORN – WHAT ZEN FOLKS CALL YOUR ‘ORIGINAL FACE’, WHO YOU ACTUALLY ARE, UNDER YOUR CONDITIONING.

GET THIS – DO YOU SEE YOURSELF YET?

YES, IT TIME TO FIND THE WILL OF ‘YOUR OWN’, WHEN ‘YOUR ALONE’ (Sorry, Abba). YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO DEVELOP YOURSELF OR BURN – YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED…

 

Here we go – The method of BEING NOBODY, which combines the emptying of tension and filling with vulnerability in the same practice – A BREATH CYCLE.  

I’m going to go through this at speed, as you need to build this into a very personal process, based on the basics I give you below, so you can do it at a moment’s notice, when it is triggered, explained in the next post.

Overall

– REMEMBER THIS AS YOU LEARN THE PRACTICE –

I am teaching you TODAY to RAISE YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS UP TO THE BASIC ‘NOBODY’ LEVEL, so you can find your ‘YOU THE OBSERVER’, and FEEL THAT STATE AS THE BEGINNING OF REAL YOU, SEPRATE TO FAKE YOU, WHICH YOU CAN THEN SEE CLEARLY AS ‘FALSE INSTINCT’.

‘YOU THE OBSERVER’ IS ‘NOBODY’ AT THE START, BECAUSE IT IS NOT ‘FAKE YOU’, IT IS ACTUALLY THE FEELING OF REALITY WITHOUT THE DISTORTION OF FAKE YOU – YOU ARE TAKING OFF YOUR CONDITIONED FILTERS.

YOU MUST TAKE THE FIRST CONSCIOUS STEP ON YOUR OWN PERSONAL ‘JACOBS LADDER’ OF CONSCIOUS STATES OF MIND, TO ENSURE YOU ARE ACTUALLY ON THE CORRECT PATH, AND IT IS NOT JUST ANOTHER CLEVER DELUSION FROM FAKE YOU.

BEING NOBODY WILL DRAMATICALLY LESSEN THE SELF-DESTRUCTION OF FAKE YOU, BY GIVING YOU THE ABILITY TO SEE AND STOP FAKE YOU IN THE MOMENT BY OVERPOWERING IT, AS YOU WILL HAVE AN INCREASING ‘HALO EFFECT’ OF BEING ‘YOU THE OBSERVER’ IN DAILY LIFE, WITHOUT TRYING. 

BE CLEAR – IF YOU ARE GIFTED YOU HAVE A REAL YOU SO CAN FIND YOUR ‘YOU THE OBSERVER’ QUITE EASILY IF YOU TRY, BUT IF YOU ARE AN ANIMAL YOU DON’T, YOU HAVE LITTLE MORE THAN A SIMPLE, WILLFUL, SELF OBESSESSED INNER CHILD, CAPTURED BY EVERY LITTLE MOOD SWING.

ALL ANIMALS REGRESS TO CHILDLIKE STATES AS THEY GET OLDER, PARTICULARLY IF THEY HAVE WASTED THEMSELVES IN EARLY LIFE, SO AS THEIR ANIMAL ENERGIES DECREASE, THEY TEND TO GET INCREDIBLY CHILDISH, FAT, MOODY, ANXIOUS AND CONTROLLING – THEY GET VERY SMALL.

 IF YOU ARE GIFTED YOU WILL STILL FEEL THE INTENSE VULNERABILITY OF THIS PROCESS AS CHILDISH, AS A MEMORY FROM CHILDHOOD BEFORE FAKE YOU FUCKED YOU, BUT YOU WILL BE ABLE TO SEPARATE FROM IT, AND WATCH IT, DEEPEN IT, ENJOY IT.

INDEED MANY GIFTED HEDONISTS STILL USE A VERSION OF THIS INTENSE EMOTIONAL VULNERABILITY IN THEIR HEDONISM, SO IT IS WISE TO STOP THAT NOW, BEFORE YOU PRACTICE THE NOBODY STATE, IN ORDER TO STOP ABUSING IT, AND USE IT TO HELP YOURSELF INSTEAD.

REMEMBER THIS VERY CLEARLY – IT IS THE KEY TO BEING REAL YOU, AND MANY OF YOU ALREADY USE THIS STATE, YOU KNOW IT IS THE ‘MAGIC OF YOU’, SO NOW IT IS TIME TO USE IT TO BE GIFTED, RATHER THAN A FAKE, CLEVER HEDONIST.

Ok, some key points:

First, note this is the PRACTISE OF ‘LEARNING THE PROCESS’ OF BEING NOBODY, when you have learned it is there is no need to do the practice, you just switch into that STATE AND DISAPPEAR, SO NOTHING CAN TOUCH YOU, CAUSE A REACTION. Learn your own shortcuts to reach this state, you may already have some…

Second, note the practice is in 3 parts, the prep, the method itself, and the finish, and the preparation matters as much as the finish for the opposite reasons – the prep must feel slightly tiring, so you feel it without being exhausted, and the finish must feel deeply refreshing, without being over-joyed.

Third, note the method is 1 thing, a breath cycle, you repeat as MUCH as you like, but never more than 1hrs without a break and redo the prep, and never less than 5 breath cycles, X2 FORCED AT START, X1 FREE, X2 RELAXED AT END.

Fourth, the overall breath cycle is VERY SLOW, AND YOU MUST WORK UP TO INCREASINGLY SLOWER AND SLOWER CYCLES WITH PAUSES, WHILE BEING FULLY CONSCIOUS IN THE MOMENT.You can and should pause the in and out breaths at any point to check yourself for tension, many times when learning – that is how you learn, how you relax the tension against the breathing ‘tension’ your chest is doing correctly.

Fifth, note it is the FREE, uncontrolled cycle that matters the most WITHOUT THE INTERFERENCE OF FAKE YOU, BUT ALWAYS DO X2 IN AND OUT OF THE PROCESS AT THE START, OTHERWISE THE FREE CYCLE WILL lose IT MEANING AND HENCE VALUE – YOU MUST CLEARLY FEEL IT AS FREE AND UNFORCED AGAINST THE OTHERS WHICH ARE FORCED. You don’t pause the FREE, uncontrolled one, obviously…

The Prep: 

NOTE – YOU MUST BE TOTALLY ALONE, TOTALLY QUIET, WITH NO RANDOM DISTRACTIONS AT THE START.

You must engage in brief, easy physical activity with a little more effort than normal in order to focus ONLY OF THE PHYSICAL SENSATIONS OF THAT ACTIVITY, SO YOU ENJOY THEM, AND DON’T RESIST THEM. During this prep you remind yourself mentally that ‘I am, and Nothing else IS’. Only your physical sensations are real, everything is an illusion, an opinion, and is unreal, forget it, let is go for a while, it don’t matter NOW. Walking is the easiest obviously, but whatever you do, even if it’s complex movements like housework or stepping up and down, try and do them slightly quicker than normal, with no thoughts as to the point of them – go through the motions at speed, but also do them correctly.

When you finish this to start the practice it is important to be very awake, but to have a head start of enjoying the break of from the activity, so the practice feels like a reward. Have a nice afterglow of effort, but not tiredness, as tiredness is identification by you of an energy state, so is also unreal.

DON’T HAVE A BREAK BETWEEN THE END OF THIS PERIOD AND THE METHOD BELOW, DON’T WATCH SCREENS OR TALK, LOOK AT YOUR PHONE ETC ETC.

The Breath Cycle: 

Position – Sit or lie down with no or loose clothing in a warm space, under the covers is fine but get over that ‘coldness’ as quick as you can – naked is best for this, turn the heating up. Stretch out your back while relaxing every other muscle group but only focus on relaxing your shoulders/arms, your hips/legs, your face and eyes. See yourself as a pole that is stretched with everything else as relaxed as possible hanging off that pole, easier to do if standing up, so practice that way even if you want to do the method lying down.

Breathe In – lift your Chest ONLY to breathe in slowly and deeply INTO YOUR UPPER CHEST ONLY, whilst RELAXING THE PHYSICAL TENSION IN YOUR BODY YOU HAVE TRIED ABOVE. Obviously, you need to use your Chest muscles to breathe but relax everything else, even if you have stop during the in breath and relax because you have not got good enough at controlling your body yet, what Zen folks call bamboo breathing. This way your breath becomes the only tension you hold, while everything else RELAZES AGAINST THAT TENSION – THAT IS HOW YOU JUDGE. get used to tensing your chest to breathe whilst activitly relaxing everything else MORE AND MORE, big muscles first. This feels totally unnatural at first so spend some time on just doing this, UNTIL YOUR BODY FEEL DEEPLY STILL, COMFORTABLE BUT HEAVY.

During In Breath – specifically, RELAX YOUR EYES, AND PULL IN THE FOCAL LENGTH SO IT IS VERY CLOSE TO YOUR FACE, LIKE YOU ARE BREATHING THROUGH THEM. At the start you squint slightly to do this, and your eyes will come to rest on empty space you are not focused on in time – it should look hazy. Don’t feel you have to look down the side of your nose like a Zenman, as that takes a long time to perfect and can hurt at the start, as you have too much identification in your eyes from staring at screens all the time. Find the position for you that works without pain and then leave your eyes there – this will release most of the mental tension, and you may wish to call this ACCEPTANCE, MEEK.

Also During In Breath – WHEN HAPPY WITH THE FIRST 2 STAGES ABOVE specifically push you chest ‘out’ and up, so it feels BIGGER, and hence more EMOTIONAL, VUNERABLE, which happens as a natural reaction to the release of the other physical and mental tension. FEEL THIS ENERGY BUILD AS YOU INHALE, AS THIS IS THE GOAL, BUT IT WILL ONLY HAPPEN WHEN THE REST OF YOU IS RELAXED ENOUGH FOR IT TO HAPPEN, OTHERWISE THAT ENERGY IS GOING SOMEWHERE ELSE YOU DON’T WANT.

PAUSE at the top of your INHALE – THEN SWITCH OUT OF RELAXATION STATE AND HOLD EVERYTHING THE SAME WITH AS LITTLE TENSION AS POSSIBLE PHYSICALLY, bring your eyes back into slight focus so you feel them tense up – HOLD YOURSELF STOCK STILL, LIKE A STONE PILLAR. YOU MUST HOLD THIS RELAXED TENSION FOR THE REST OF THE BREATH CYCLE OUT – YOU SET YOURSELF AND HOLD YOURSELF RIGID, MINIMISING ALL MOVEMENT THAT INTERFERES WITH THAT, INCLUDING YOUR OUT BREATH. Specifically, you must hold onto the feeling in your chest, focus on it in your mind above all else, DO NOT LET IT DECLINE, AS NEXT IN BREATH YOU NEED TO BUILD IT PAST WHERE IT IS NOW – MORE AND MORE VUNERABLE IN A CLEANSING WAY. Cry if you wish, but it is not required to force this, much as its a good sign, a low-level type of Cartharsis, many women find easy.

Breathe Out – SLOWLY LET THE AIR LEAVE YOUR LUNGS AND YOUR CHEST LOWER DOWN WHILST HOLDING THE FULL FEELINGS IN YOU MIND, AND THE REST OF YOU BODY STILL, WITH A LIGHT TENSION. TAKE AS LONG AS YOU LIKE, BUT GET IT COMPLETE in 10secs max so as not to strain, AND NOT TO NEED TO GULP FOR AIR as that ruins the feeling in your CHEST, THE ENERGY WILL PASS OUT AND DOWN, AND YOU HAVE WASTED YOUR TIME.

DO NOT PAUSE AT THE END OF THE EXHALE BUT GO STRAIGHT TO DEEP RELAXATION AGAIN AND IN BREATH – LOOSEN YOUR EYES AND PULL THEM IN TO GO AGAIN. It will feel like waves lapping on the shore or the sun in your chest expanding as you go on breathing in and out, good to get a nice rhythm going, helps with the pattern formation.

REPEAT AT LEAST TWICE IN THIS TOTALLY CONTROLLED WAY WITH CONSTANT SELF-CHECKING BEFORE THE NEXT CYCLE WHERE YOU TRY AND DO IT AS An UNCONSCIOUS PATTERN, WITHOUT CONTROL OR SELF-CHECKING. DON’T DO MORE THAN 10 FORCED CYCLES AT ONE TIME WITHOUT TRYING TO DO AT LEAST 1 FREE ONE, AS THIS IS THE BEST WAY TO BUILD A BREATH PATTERN IN YOUR MIND SO IT CAN WORK BY ITSELF CORRECTLY.

AFTER min X2 CYCLES OF THIS DOING THIS IN A VERY CONTROLLED WAY SIMPLY DO A FREE ONE – PUT YOUR ATTENTION ON YOUR CHEST AND TRY AND BUILD THE FEELING AS YOU BREATHE IN AND HOLD THE FEELING AS YOU BREATHE OUT. When you get good at this you can do it for up to an hour, but when you are very good at this you won’t want to do it for more than 15mins as your chest will become very full, AND YOU CANNOT HOLD THE FEELING WITHOUT THE NEXT PRACTICE ITSELF. That is the state you need for PRESENCE IN THE NEXT POST, BUT THAT IS A WHILE AWAY FOR ALL BUT THE HIGHLY GIFTED, WHO CAN OFTEN GET VERY EMOTIONAL IN 5 BREATHS WITHOUT ANY REAL EFFORT OR PRACTICE TIME, but do it anyway, as you may just be lying to yourself…

Calm Down:

Breath Cycle – do x2 cycles where you stop the practice and go back to breathing normally by pushing the breath down into your belly, whilst holding all else normal, light tension that you don’t change between in and out. You should feel like you are buzzing slightly, shivery even, but pay it no mind, let the emotional state pass down and out of you for now, until I show you what to do with it next time – TO BE PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE, ALL THE TIME.

Use the calm down and relaxation period to be COMFORTABLE, and assimilate what happened, try and connect stuff together. Try and hold onto the incredibly self-conscious feeling, see what things about you are different now, look at your increased level of control, BUT OTHERWISE GET BACK TO YOUR DAY LIKE NOTHING HAS HAPPENED.

THE NUMBER ONE TRICK TO DOING THIS METHOD EASILY: 

The quickest way to RAISE YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS AND USE IT IN THE MOMENT TO ‘LEARN FAST’ IS TO ‘GO VERY SLOWLY WITH A VERY FINE LEVEL OF CONTROL’, VIA INCREASED PHYSICAL SENSITIVITY TO MOVEMENT. This forces you to be as self-conscious as you can be in the NOW, speeding up everything to the max you can speed it up at the moment, SO YOU NOTICE WAY FUCKING MORE THAN YOU DO ‘NORMALLY’, and YOU PERFORM BETTER. THIS IS WHAT TRYING IS IN THIS CASE, AND YOU SHOULD PUT TIME ASIDE TO JUST LEARN THIS ‘METHOD OF LEARNING’, AS IT WORKS FOR ALL SPIRITUAL DEV.

Note that YOUR FAKE YOU HATES THIS slow METHOD, HATES YOU BECOMING MORE SELF CONSCIOUS AND WILL CONTINUALLY TRY AND LOWER YOUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS BY MAKING YOU IRRITATED WITH GOING SLOW, AND MAKE YOU DO THINGS CASUALLY, IMPRECISELY, QUICKLY, HALF ASSESSED. All otherwise empty spiritual ritual is underpinned by this process of going slow at an intense level of focus, and you can make a BENEFICIAL spiritual ritual OUT OF ANYTHING YOU DO VIA THIS STATE OF MIND – you can use it to attack fake yous control over you, PARTICULARLY IF YOU CHANNEL THE FEELING OF VUNERABILITY WITH IT.

Be VERY CAREFUL WITH ANYTHING THAT ONLY EXCITES YOU IF IT IS DONE VERY QUICKLY, IN A BLUR, WHEN YOU ARE OVERWHELMED BY SENSORY INPUT – IT IS FAKE YOU BLEEDING YOU AND IS A CLASSIC UNSCHOOLED GIFTED TRAP. TRY AND DO IT SLOWLY INSTEAD, AS THAT WILL REMOVE THE ANIMAL FROM IT, THEN YOU WILL SEE JUST HOW MUCH YOU ARE BEING CONNED BY FAKE YOU. EVERYTHING YOU ENJOY THAT IS GOOD FOR YOU IS DONE CONSCIOUSLY AND SENSITIVELY, AND YOU REMEMBER EVERYTHING ABOUT IT. EVERYTHING THAT IS BAD FOR YOU IS BRUTAL, SHORT, AND REACTIVE AND YOU BARELY REMEMBER IT A FEW MOMENTS LATER, BECAUSE FAKE YOU DOES NOT WANT TO SEE THAT YOU DID NOT ACTUALLY ENJOY IT AT ALL…

I PUT A PARTICULAR EMPHASIS ON THIS TYPE OF HEDONISM AS IT IS AN END-STATE SCENARIO FOR MANY UNSCHOOLED GIFTED, WHEN FAKE YOU OWNS YOU LIKE A PUPPET, AND YOU ARE ALREADY IN THE DOWNSLOPE OF YOUR LIFE. SOON THINGS WILL GET MUCH WORSE, AS YOU HAVE ACCEPTED THIS ‘ALTER EGO’ APPROACH TO YOUR LIFE AS NORMAL, AND IT WILL GROW INTO PROPER MENTAL ILLNESS, CRUSHING ANXIETY AND YOUR ABILITY TO HELP YOURSELF WILL BE DESTROYED BY THAT. THE ANSWER IS TO USE YOUR VULNERABILITY CONCIOUSLY VIA THIS METHOD, AS IT HAS ENOUGH OF A HOOK TO GET YOU TO TRY, TO DO RADICAL CHARACTER CHANGE. OTHERWISE IT ALL GOING TO GET MUCH WORSE, MUCH MORE EXTREME AND VERY UNCOOL, TO THE POINT THAT EVEN A WANNABE ANTI-HERO LIKE YOU WILL GET VERY, VERY SCARED…    

 

… and that is the beginning of SELF-CARE, THE ZEN WAY – TO BUILD THE UNATTACHED EMOTIONAL FEELING IN YOUR CHEST, WITHOUT LABELLING IT AS ANYTHING MORE THAN ‘VUNERABILITY’. Focus on building that power as soon as you can in this method, so you can not leak it by constantly checking the method, be brave and go free as soon as you can. It is pure power, be happy you can still do it, as without that power your development will be slow and hard…

To repeat – this practice leads to SELF RESPECT, THE CHOICE TO STOP BAD PATTERNS IN THE MOMENT OF THEM BEING TRIGGERED, USE IT WISELY, AND CHOOSE WISELY. The next post will show you how to develop the power to DO, which is only useful after you have learned the power to stop your Patterns, in this practice.  

It is not necessary to know how this works UNTIL YOU DO THE PRESENCE BIT, but you may find it instructive to know:

The ancient name of this method is HEART WASHING AND ITS TECHNICAL FOCUS IS TO MAKE YOU BRAVER.

THE METHOD ABOVE IS THE CORE OF IT WITH 2 BITS REMOVED FOR YOUR SAFETY AT THE START – I WILL ADD THEM BACK IN THE NEXT POST. 

IT IS USED TO WASH ‘FAKE YOU’ OFF YOU, SO YOU CAN BE ‘REAL YOU’ AGAIN, and this always starts with cleansing you of COWARDICE, AS THAT IS THE CONTROLLING PATTERN OF FAKE YOU – YOU ARE A GUTLESS PUSSY, CHASING PETTY PLEASURE TO COPE WITH PETTY FEAR.

YOU FEEL THIS HIGHER STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS AS EMOTIONAL VULNERABILITY THAT YOU CURRENTLY REJECT AS BAD, WHICH YOU NOW CHOOSE TO  ‘SIT WITH’ AND ‘OBSERVE’ – YOU MUST BE BRAVE AND NOT RUN AWAY FROM THIS FEELING, SO YOU CAN TURN IT UPSIDE DOWN.

SEE YOU DON’T ‘THINK’ REAL YOU, YOU ‘FEEL’ REAL YOU, AND YOUR COWARDICE HAS PROGRESSIVELY STOPPED THAT FEELING, FAKE YOU HAS CHOKED IT OFF, OR ABSUED THAT FEELING FOR ITS OWN ENDS IF YOUR REAL YOU IS VERY STRONG.

WITHOUT THE DOMINANCE OF THE FALSE SELF YOU WILL START TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IT IS TO FEEL REAL AGAIN, AND IN TIME YOU WILL COME TO RELY ON YOUR CONSCIENCE-LEVEL EMOTIONS, SEE THEM AS YOUR PERSONAL DAEMON – ALL GIFTED HAVE ONE.

SO IN THE SHORT TERM BE BRAVE AND GET USED TO LISTENING TO HER, WATCH FOR WHEN AND HOW THESE NEW EMOTIONS APPEAR IN YOUR LIFE – THEY ARE A FORM OF COMMUNICATION, AND THE QUIETER YOU GET, THE MORE THEY WILL TELL YOU.

SO BETTER GET USED TO BEING EMOTIONAL ALL THE TIME AND NOT ACTING ON IT – LISTEN TO IT, RELATE TO IT, OBSERVE IT, ENJOY IT.

FOR MANY OF YOU HEDONISTS THIS IS WHAT FOLKS LIKE ME CALL ‘THE BEGINNING’, WHERE YOU RELATE THIS TO YOURSELF AND BECOME HOOKED – THIS IS WHERE YOUR SPIRITUALITY COMES ALIVE, AND YOU VALUE IT, SO DON’T WORRY – YOU ARE NOT MAD, YOU JUST WHERE MAD…

GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR GIFT, HOPE IT IS WHAT YOU WANT IT TO BE, BUT DON’T BE SURPRISED IF ITS NOT…

WARNINGS:

• IF YOU FIND DOING THIS PRACTICE MAKES YOU MORE SELF-DESTRUCTIVE IN A CLEVER, HEDONISTIC WAY YOU SHOULD STOP UNTIL YOU CAN TELL THE DIFFERENCE. IT MEANS YOU HAVE DOUBLE CRYSTALLIZATION AND YOU EFFECTIVELY HAVE X2 REAL YOUS, ONE OPPOSED TO THE OTHER, AND WILL NEED A TEACHER TO SHOW YOU HOW TO ‘FEED YOUR DEMON’ (THE REAL YOU THAT HAS GROWN FROM YOUR ABUSE OF YOUR GIFT) WHILST STRENGTHENING YOUR ANCESTRAL REAL YOU. If you want to still try, you should focus on VULNERABILITY AS A CATHARTIC SWITCH, TO CLEAN YOU, MAKE YOU CRY AND SUFFER A LITTLE, AS THAT IS SAFTEST. Don’t feel cursed or anything, there is a plague of double crystalization in the world as you know it right now, BUT YOU SHOULD GET SOME HELP FIRST THAT IS PERSONAL TO YOU, AS IT CAN BE DIFFICULT EMOTIONALLY AND YOU CAN MISS EASY WINS THAT DON’T MATTER TO OTHER TYPES, SO ARE NOT MENTIONED HERE.
• NOTE, this is ISSUE IS particularly true if your primary abuse of your Gift is Sexual OR DANGEROUS (PERHAPS EVEN BOTH) in nature via the abuse of an intense type of vulnerability. If you are already aware that you have large issues in this area, such as SELF DESTRUTIVE RISKS WITH VIRTUALLY NO BENEFIT TO YOU, waking BLACKOUTS, UNCONTROLLED RAGES, MASSIVE PANIC ATTACKS, and other types of ‘unconscious’ consciousness, that you cannot stop, SEEK HELP. Try and find a teacher who can connect to you emotionally, as then they can help you behind the back of your Demon, so is much easier, quicker, and try to stop taking drugs to feel more ALIVE, more socially confident or powerful BECAUSE YOU ARE A PUSSY, as you are simply handing your ‘reins’ over to your BAD other you, AND TRADING OFF THE YOUR IMMENSE POWER FOR A FEW SCOOBIE SNACKS THAT ACTUALLY TASTE LIKE SHIT AND YOU OFTEN DON’T EVEN FUCKING REMEMBER.
• AGAIN – IF YOU ARE JUST AN ANIMAL THIS WON’T WORK, YOU ARE SIMPLY GOING TO REGRESS TO YOUR CHILDHOOD, AND RELIVE LOTS OF DIFFERENT SELF OBESSESSED EMOTIONAL EXPERIENCES FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD THAT YOU CAN NOT SEE IN THE 3RD PERSON – YOU HAVE NO 3RD PERSON, NO REAL YOU, ITS JUST BASIC ANIMAL INSTINCT, OFTEN PRESENTED TO YOU AS ANALOGIES OF CHILDHOOD TRAUMA IN A VISUAL WAY. IF YOU WANT TO PROGRESS ANYWAY FIND A 1ST WAY TO RELIGION, WITH AN EXTERNAL CREATOR GOD, AND LEARN HOW TO GIVE YOURSELF AWAY TO THEM, TO ENABLE THEM TO ‘BLESS YOU’ IN RETURN, AS YOU CAN NOT BLESS YOURSELF WITHOUT THAT. GIFTED PRAY TO THEMSELVES, THEIR HOLY SPIRIT, ANIMALS HAVE TO PRAY TO SOMEONE ELSES IS, AND MAYBE ONE DAY THAT WILL IMPROVE THEM, IN THIS LIFE OR THE NEXT.      

Wash Up:

• Ok, the obvious one – YOU CAN’T DO MENTAL ‘ACCEPTANCE’, CAN YOU, YOUR MIND JUST SPINS LIKE A FUCKING DEMENTED TOP. Yep, we get it, YOU ARE A CONSUMER, A COLLECTOR OF SHIT, LOW-QUALITY POINTLESS SHIT, ‘EXPERIENCES’ YOU DON’T REALLY WANT BECAUSE YOUR BELOVED SOCIETY HAS FUCKED YOU – IT HAVE CARVED THE AWFUL CONSUMER PATTERN INTO YOU, THAT YOU ARE ‘YOUR STUFF’, THAT HAS BECOME YOUR RELIGION. Too bad, so sad, never fucking MIND – you have to break this to do Heart Washing, so you must find a way. Now the internet is awash with GRATITUDE practices, to make you happy with what you have RIGHT NOW – TRY THEM. Or think back to a time when you had nothing, or were in danger, and see what you have now is MORE THAN ENOUGH, HELL USE THE ‘I’M JUST KEN, AND THATS ENOUGH’ APPROACH, the streets of London approach if you wish. But we are ARISTOS, THIS IS THE LEFT -HAND PATH, SO WE USE ARE EYES TO RELAX OUR MIND FROM ALL PATTERNS, so follow the method, and learn to breathe through your eyes via squinting AND DEFOCUSING them – IT WORKS, SO DO IT OFF LINE IF YOU CAN’T PERFECT IT YET, AS YOU ARE DOING IT WRONG.
• The above practice is the guts of AMOR FATI, TO ACCEPT EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS AS NECESSARY AS IT IS BETTER THAN DEATH – IT IS THE KEY TO YOUR GREATNESS, YOUR POWER, YOUR ENHANCED ABILITIES. Play with it, get used to it, and GET USED TO A HIGHER STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS WITHOUT YOUR PATTERNS CONTROLLING YOU. It is a different state of being, of living, WHERE EVERYTHING IS BETTER THAN BEFORE, IF YOU USE IT CORRECTLY, in terms of the advice I have given you already. If you don’t, IF YOU USE IT TO BE WORSE THAN BEFORE, TO DO MORE SELF DESTRUCTION YOU WILL BURN, AND IT WILL HURT. Once you start to abuse this state, to be a super animal, you will start to affect others negatively, and you may need ‘an intervention’ TO BE STOPPED, AND HELPED AGAINST YOUR LITTLE WILLS. Honor is everything for the gifted because it is the ONLY RULE BOOK THERE IS, WITHOUT IT YOU WILL BECOME WORSE THAN AN ANIMAL, YOU WILL BECOME A PARASITE.
• The best way to play with this, to TRY, is to FOCUS ON BEING MORE SELF-CONSCIOUS IN SMALL THINGS AND WHEN YOU FUCK UP – STOP YOUR UGLY LITTLE HABITS. Being MORE SELF-CONSCIOUS ON PURPOSE IS AN ODD THING, BUT WITH PRACTICE BECOMES PART OF YOUR TRUE NATURE. The key is simple but counterintuitive – speed up by slowing down, by going much slower than you normally would, AS I HAVE ALREADY SAID ABOVE. Get used to being better, get used to learning how to switch into another STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS THAT ALLOWS YOU TO BE BETTER WITHOUT HAVING TO FOCUS ON TRIAL AND ERROR, TO BETTER NATURALLY, IT IS A BIG HELP TO YOUR DEVELOPMENT, AS YOUR DEVELOPMENT BECOMES EVERYTHING TO YOU…
• THE MORE YOU DO THIS, THE BETTER IT GETS, JUST KNOW THAT YOU WILL NEED TO SWITCH INTO A HIGHLY EMOTIONAL STATE WITHIN A COUPLE OF BREATHS TO DO THE NEXT PART OF PRESENCE IN ANY MEANINGFUL WAY – SO TRY AND GET GOOD AT IT. Yes, over time this practice disappears because it becomes your true nature, you use it in response to negative patterns trying to act out as a REACTION – YOU BECOME NOBODY TO STOP YOURSELF. GET USED TO IT BY TRYING TO DO THAT EVEN BEFORE YOU CAN…  

 

And that its for this one, don’t read part 2 of it, in the next post until you have made some progress with this, and I will delay its publication for a while on that basis…

Quote to end as always: what follows is a selection of quotes from Ram Das, as one of the few others who makes some effort to teach being NOBODY. I don’t like him, rate him, or respect him as a teacher, he has got stuck on ‘love’ like many of his type who can’t really teach do sadly – he is a classic Hindu GURU, to be a teacher as a career choice rather than a calling, which is a big difference. BUT IN THIS CASE, HE ACTS AS A BRIDGE IN YOUR JOURNEY, SO HIS SIMPLE, COMMERCIAL STUFF IS NO HARM, AS LONG AS YOU KNOW YOU MUST BE BETTER THAN HIM, EVENTUALLY…

“The game is not about becoming somebody, it’s about becoming nobody.”

“The most exquisite paradox…as soon as you give it all up, you can have it all. As long as you want power, you can’t have it. The minute you don’t want power, you’ll have more than you ever dreamed possible.”

“The thinking mind is what is busy. You have to stay in your heart. You have to be in your heart. Be in your heart. The rest is up here in your head where you are doing, doing, doing.”

“As long as you have certain desires about how it ought to be you can’t see how it is.”

“Your problem is you are too busy holding on to your unworthiness.”

“Everything changes once we identify with being the witness to the story, instead of the actor in it.”

 

LASTLY – REMEMBER, WHAT I HAVE TAUGHT YOU TO DO HERE TODAY IS INCREDIBLY SIMPLE – THE ONLY DIFFICULT THING IS TO MOTIVATE YOU OF THE NEED TO DO IT, AND RADICALLY CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER IN PRIVATE, SO YOU CAN BE GIFTED IN THE NOW, RELIABLY, WITHOUT ALL YOUR PEAK EXPEREINCES AND HEDONISM.

IF YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND THAT AFTER 64k WORDS OF THIS POST, THEN READ IT AGAIN UNTIL YOU DO, LEARNING HOW TO BE PRESENT IN YOUR PRESENCE IN THE NEXT POST IS POINTLESS UNTIL YOU DO. OTHERWISE, WITHOUT THIS MOTIVATION TO CHANGE, YOU HAVE WASTED YOUR TIME AND MINE…

SO ASK YOURSELF THIS QUESTION AGAIN: 

 

ARE YOU GIFTED OR JUST DOMESTICATED, ANIMAL TRASH?

SO ARE YOU NOW EMBARRASSED TO BE SO BLOODY SHIT AND WANT TO CHANGE?

SO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT YOU INSULT YOUR OWN KIND BY BEING SCARED OF YOUR GIFT, YOUR SPIRIT?

AND YOU KNOW NOW HOW EASY IT IS FOR THE GIFTED TO CHANGE, GIVEN YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT CHANGE IS?

 

SO LET ME HELP YOU THEN

 

FRANKLY, WHAT OTHER CHOICE DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE, YOU DON’T ACTUALLY WANT TO BURN DO YOU, IT HURTS, A LOT…

YOU ARE NOT REALLY AN ANTI-HERO ARE YOU – YOU ARE A PUSSY, A FAKE…

YOU ARE SHIT, YOU KNOW NOTHING, YOU DO NOTHING, BECAUSE YOU ARE NOTHING…

SO IN THE NEXT POST I WILL TEACH YOU HOW TO TAKE YOUR ‘NOBODY’ AND BE ‘SOMEBODY’.   

Laters…

TOB